Hey guys, sorry this has taken me a while. This is a massive chapter and just a warning that some people may feel uncomfortable with some of the content of the chapter. I hope you like it though!

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I screamed, shooting up in the bed, tears streaming down my face. An arm was wrapped around my waist causing me to scream again pushing the body away from me and onto the floor with shaky arms before jumping up and backing up into the wall. Shaking and sobbing. I couldn’t think straight. I had to get out of here. There was some grumbling from the other side of the bed causing me to sob even louder and try to blend in with the wall. Thunder cracked outside and I screeched, sinking to the floor as a male figure stood up from the other side of the bed. All I could focus on was praying that he wouldn’t see me, he wouldn’t hurt me but as I was sobbing uncontrollably my prays wouldn’t be answered. There was a rustling noise outside making me realise that there were more people here, to join in on the fun. The other figures eyes locked on mine on the next strike of thunder as I again let out a yelp. He approached me cautiously, causing me to cry harder and scurry into the corner of the room.

“Jazmin, what’s wrong?” The sleepy voice asked worriedly. Worriedly my ass, nobody cares about me. “Are you ok? Why are you screaming and crying?” I was petrified out of my mind now. The figure was getting closer and closer and I had no escape. I screamed and cried out for help and the person lost it, rushing towards me and grabbing me up. I screeched and thrashed around trying to get out of their arms but they only sat on the floor with me, holding me tightly and running their fingers through my hair. I kept trashing about but they just wouldn’t let go, I thought I was going to die, I was certain that this was it. “Jazmin, please calm down. It’s just me, Harry.” Harry? Like as in Harry Styles? Wait, what? I thought it was Leo- wait I, I’m in London now aren’t I? I’m safe. Wait maybe he’s here to get me. I settled for a bit during my thoughts enough to let whoever this person to lessen their grip, giving me an opportunity to get away from them and across the room.

“G-g-get a-aw-away f-from m-me-e,” I managed to stutter out between sobs but the person just didn’t stop. I was hyperventilating, screaming, bawling my eyes out and praying that I become invisible.

“Hey, hey, hey Jazmin, it’s alright, okay? You’re okay, calm down. I’m not going to hurt you, you’re safe with me. You’re alright.” I didn’t completely trust Harry, if it really was him, but exhaustion was taking over so I let him bring me to his chest as I sobbed uncontrollably. The door opened and Perrie rushed in embracing me as I sat in Harry’s lap, the others watching on, confused and worried, from the doorway. Perrie rubbed my back in a soothing manner as I sobbed, even after realising I was safe here. She let go of me and Harry picked me up, placing me on the bed as the others crowded in the room.

“What’s wrong with Jazmin?” El asked and everyone nodded, interested in why I was in this state.

“Do you want me to tell them or will you, they will find out sooner or later just as long as you’re comfortable.” Perrie told me and I tried to regain my composure as Harry held me tightly to him, rubbing my back.

“I-I will,” I breathed out.

“You may want to take a seat and get comfortable.” Perrie told them, her and Zayn joining us on the bed, Liam, an uninterested looking Sophia, El and Lou took the couch and Niall and Barbara just opted for snuggling on the floor in front of Harry and I.

I took another deep breath and prepared myself to tell them the main reason I was allowed to move to London with Perrie. “Back at home in Australia I had three extremely close friends but one always seemed a bit off. I socialised with her separately from the other two and we were close, our boyfriends being best friends as well. The thing with her was that she could get her hands on drugs and alcohol because she was raised around it. Her boyfriend and her would always party and do stupid, unsafe things. He always had a bad temper but he never took it out on her. My boyfriend however occasionally hit me if I didn’t agree to something he said or pushed his patience too far. I’ve been brought up to not stoop to another person’s level so I just sucked up whatever punishment I would get from him and gave my point of view. He constantly wanted sex from me but I never gave in, not wanting to lose my virginity to him.” I had tears streaming uncontrollably down my face, everyone in the room was looking on expectantly, except Perrie who already knew, and had her face buried in Zayn’s chest. Harry’s grip had stiffened around my waist, as he sensed this story wasn’t a happy one.

“I was with my boyfriend for two years or so and as time went on I became more and more distant from Leo, Havannah and Oliver, just because of how they were changing. I was spending more time with my other two friends, Chloe and Tamara, which of course the others didn’t like too much. When Oliver and Leo would drink they would become more physical and they liked trying to pick a fight, Oliver having much more of a temper than Leo because he always held it in. Leo would let Oliver hurt me as he watched on, drinking and having a little fun whenever he pleased. I never showed anyone my bruises and just continued on with life, dancing at the club and studying like any normal teenage girl.

“Chloe, Tamara and I had talked about going away for a holiday for a while and we had all been
saving up. I let them choose the destination as I had already travelled a lot and of course, they chose Europe. Not surprising really, I had my money on here or the USA. Chloe attracts the attention of many guys and we ended up being invited to many gatherings and parties, some of them even being big name parties. That’s how Perrie and I met up again after so long, I met Zayn there briefly as well. Perrie and I caught up a few days later and have been in contact ever since. Leo didn’t like me being away and he was pissed of greatly at the other two girls. The whole trip made me think I missed him and him constantly calling me made me believe he loved me and I decided once I got back that I would fully give myself to him. I was convinced he was the one for me and that I couldn’t do any better.

“My time away though had given him and the other two some thinking and planning time on a way to get me back, in every way they each wanted me. I came back and caught up with them, suggesting we throw a party at Leo’s place and invite heaps of people, probably one of the stupidest decisions of my life. I dressed up a bit erm sluttier than usual you could say, hoping to impress Leo. The thing was, he took it the wrong way. I was basically throwing myself at him and he somehow got the idea into his head that I had slept with someone in the UK and enjoyed it and was now willing to sleep with him. Him and the other two already had a plan for that though. With Havannah’s ability to get drugs and my trust in her and holding my drink, she slipped something in. Leo was fuming about my apparent ‘unfaithfulness’ to him and so just as the drugs were starting to take effect, Oliver led me into Leo’s room, the other close behind, and gave me one of the worse beatings ever.” I was sobbing at this stage and Harry’s gripped just kept tightening. I kept my gaze straight ahead so I wouldn’t be able to see any of the others reactions. I took another deep breath to steady myself enough to finish my story strong and clear.

“Being dazed from the alcohol and drugs, I couldn’t protect myself. Chloe and Tamara couldn’t come to the party and I didn’t really have anyone else there that would help me, everyone was too intoxicated and high. As Oliver hit me, Leo stalked around telling me I was going to pay for not giving my innocence and myself to him when I didn’t want to. By this point all I wanted to do was escape, I didn’t want Leo taking my virginity, I didn’t want to be put through any more pain, and I wanted to be as far away from these monsters I had once considered friends as I could be. They, obviously, were having none of it, and Oliver, he-he beat me- he beat me into sub-submission. I was then r-raped by both of them a-as Ha-Havannah watched on l-laughin-ing.” I sobbed into Harry’s chest. The room was filled only with crying, cursing and heavy breaths now.

“They kept me locked up there until my bruises faded and I looked normal, even though I was permanently scarred, broken and used. I left Leo the moment I could, told my parents and close family what happened and we took it to the police. The only problem was that the police couldn’t get enough evidence to put them behind bars, except Havannah who already had a long list of offenses. Chloe and Tamara moved to Melbourne to go to uni there but I couldn’t stay in the country even. I didn’t feel safe with them still on the streets, trying to get me back, even though we have a restraining order against them. Perrie was informed of what happened and it was organised for me to move here, only two months after the incident. It’s three months today but it still feels like it was yesterday. The worst part about the whole ordeal is that they were people I trusted and they did this to me, my own boyfriend, I just can’t wrap my head around it, I can’t believe how stupid I was. It’s all my fault and I’m sorry for dumping this all on you, I haven’t even known you guys for that long and I just dumped a shit load of my problems on you, so I’m so-”

“Don’t you dare apologise again, it wasn’t your fault that everything happened to you, I am so sorry you were put through that.” Liam said, standing up and wiping his eyes before making his way over to me followed by some of the others. I was being hugged left right and centre, ‘I’m sorry’s’ were being shared between everyone but Harry who had moved away from me, clenching his fists and staring at the wall. Perrie had broken down in Zayn’s arms and he was comforting her until I was a bit less crowded and Perrie pushed away from him gently and made her way over to me.

“I’m so proud of you for telling them,” she whispered to me.

“It’s good to get it off my chest, I just feel bad for dumping it all on them and getting their sympathy from it,” I sighed as we kept a tight grip on each other.

“Well, now that they know, they can be there for you and you don’t have to be as worried about it.”

“And I woke everyone up, how embarrassing.” Perrie chuckled.

“Don’t worry about it, JizzFizz, it’s not a big deal especially if it meant you shared that with the rest of us, stop stressing out so much.” I giggled and nodded my head.

“Why isn’t Harry doing anything?” I asked in a quiet, worried tone and Perrie pulled away to observe him, his fists clenching, jaw locked and blank face staring off into the blank wall.

“He’s infuriated.” She observed causing me to tense up. “It’s nothing for you to worry about okay? He’s beyond pissed at what they did to you and he doesn’t know how to show it so he’s zoned out, he would never hurt you. Trust me. I wouldn’t have let you sleep in this arrangement if I had any doubts. When people start clearing out he will break down more, probably cry like the majority of the other people in the room did when you told them.” I nodded as Liam and Sophia approached me.

“Hey, we’re going to head back to bed now, we can talk more in the morning but I think right now we are all better of getting some sleep in. I’m really sorry this has happened to you Jazmin, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.” Liam hugged me followed by Sophia, which was strange but at least she had a heart, even though I do think the hug was just for show. Louis and Eleanor followed suit with other kind words and sincere hugs. There was no improvement from Harry when Barbara approached me, followed by Niall.

“I knew there was something eating away at you from the inside, I’m glad you told us even though I never imagined that that would be the problem. You are so strong and I’m so proud of you. If I ever see any of those people I will have their murders on my hands okay, because what they did was so wrong and they need to be punished.” Barbara told me whilst hugging me and I lightly chuckled.

“Thanks Barbara, you’re such a great friend,” I told her sincerely as she pulled away and gave me a smile before Niall had his arms wrapped around me. I said my goodnights to them and then it was only Zayn, Harry, Perrie and I left in Harry’s room.

“I’m sorry for asking what I did before,” Zayn said, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly.

“No, no it’s fine Zayn. Don’t stress it.” He sighed.

“I can’t believe that happened, especially to you. You’re like a sister to me and to even think that happened to you enrages me so much and it hurts me too, I’m so sorry that happened to you, if I could take it away I would. Harry will come around in a second, don’t worry about him. If you ever need anything, you can come to me, it will never be a problem,” tears were streaming down my face as the sincerity shone through in his tone. I wrapped my arms around him and he followed my gesture. “I just can’t even wrap my head around the fact that someone even did that, it’s so sick. I’m so sorry Jazz… so sorry.”

“Just don’t worry too much, I’m as okay as I can be right now but thank you for your care and concern, it really does mean a lot to me. I’m just sorry I’ve dumped all my problems on everyone”

“Jazmin,” it was the first time Harry had spoken since I told them my story. His voice sounded weak, urgent, passionate and hurt. Pain, and it was my entire fault. This had hurt him, and he barely knew me. Just the sound of his voice, just one word, made the tears stream down my face even more rapidly. I spun around only to be welcomed into his arms. “I’m sorry,” he choked out, basically using me as support to keep him on his feet. “Don’t ever blame yourself, ever. And thank you for telling us, don’t be sorry about that either. You don’t need to be sorry about anything.”

“Harry’s right Jazz, we’re going to go to bed and leave you guys too it.”

“Alright, see you guys in the morning.” I told them and they left, not before telling us to take care of each other. I turned around, taking in how harry was perched on the end of his bed head in his hands, sulking. “Harry, it’s alright, you don’t need to be upset for me. I’m fine.”

“That’s reassuring,” he said sarcastically, getting up and scaring me slightly although Perrie’s words rang in my mind and the fact he was facing the wall calmed me back down. “They hurt you Jazmin, they hurt you so much. They broke you, everything, I just,” he grunted before punching the wall making me flinch.

“Harry!”

“I’m sorry Jazmin, I’m so sorry. How the hell did that even happen. I don’t understand how you could do that, even think of doing that, especially to someone like you. I swear to god I will kill them. I will kill them Jazmin, they won’t be able to hurt you again.”

“You’re not going to kill them, Harry. Please calm down, I’m alright Harry. I’m fine really. You shouldn’t worry so much about it Harry, about me.”

“But you’re not fine, I need to worry about you. I care about you so much Jazmin, can’t you see that. You’re not fine, so I’m not fine. Come here.” I was back in his arms again, and I couldn’t have felt more safe. Well, at least until another crack of thunder shook the room, my whole body tensing as I screwed my eyes shut, whimpering. “It’s okay, you’re okay. It’s just thunder, nature. It can’t hurt you. You’re okay, I’m here. Shhhh. Let’s get some sleep hey, we can talk more in the morning.” And talk more in the morning we would. He scooped me up, placing us both under the covers before wrapping himself over me in a protective manner, whispering sweet nothings to me before I drifted into an undisturbed sleep.

Notes

Woah, so like that was really intense.
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