New Girl, New Start

Barbra and Sophia returned and the boys thought they should be informed of what happened, even though Sophia didn’t care, Barbra still rushed over to me and checked if I was alright with what had happened. Of course, I had dismissed it but it still played in the back of my mind. We had all been sitting around talking while we were waiting for Zayn, Perrie, Liam and Sophia to get back with our healthy dinner of McDonalds.

“How was the shoot?” I asked a now extremely made up Barbra.

“It wasn’t any different from normal, I don’t have any exciting stories like you even though your story wasn’t all that good. Are you sure you’re ok, I know I wouldn’t be.” I made eye contact with Harry as I nodded, a ‘yep’ slipping from my lips to coincide with it. Harry’s eyebrow raised but I ignored him, turning back to Barbra. “Someone isn’t too convinced.” She whispered, eyeing Harry for a split second.

“Yeah, he’s pretty annoyed about the whole thing I think.” She nodded in agreement.

“We’re home!” Perrie struggled in an attempt to burst through the front door, her hands full with our food. Sophia rolled her eyes at her as the other two laughed at her with the rest of us. We got set up with our food, other snacks, alcohol and anything else we thought we could use and Niall slipped the movie in, switching of the lights before settling down next to Barbra. I was situated between Perrie, which kind of concerned me, and Harry, who had his arm draped loosely around me. Louis, Eleanor, Sophia and Liam were all on different lounges, snuggling into their significant other. I felt a pang of jealously run through me that they all had someone but then I remembered my previous relationship, causing me to tense up and realise why I didn’t want another relationship. This action caused Harry to look at me with worry in his eyes, I just shrugged and was reminded that even though the others had a partner, at least I had Harry as a friend beside me.

The first movie wasn’t too bad, but I had a feeling it was just a preview of what I had in store for tonight. That thought concerned me greatly as I hated scary movies, they did nothing for my health and it basically killed me on the inside, causing me sleep troubles and whatnot. I hated having to be put through this and having to suck it up but at least Perrie was staying beside me in the movies, and I had Harry as well.

After being put through hell and back, aka The Exorcist, Psycho, The Silence of the Lambs, Wolf Creek and A Nightmare on Elm Street, I was permanently scarred. I had clung onto either Harry or Perrie the whole time, avoided watching the movie at all costs, cried, screamed, hid and I even had to leave the room a few times. Some of the group found my reaction hilarious but Perrie, Harry and Barbra were pretty concerned and I think Zayn was as well. I had consumed a fair bit of alcohol but I can hold my own so it was only numbing the memories of what I had just watched slightly.

We were all sitting around in a circle in the middle of their theatre room. Alcohol was surrounding us and we were all having a laugh, well I was trying to, about certain parts in the movie. El and Lou suggested we play a game before we put on the last movie and of course, the suggestion was to play truth or dare, the typical, fall-back party game. Around the circle was Niall, Barbra, me, Harry, Louis, Eleanor, Perrie, Zayn, Liam and Sophia. Typical questions about embarrassing things, life, rumours and all were asked for truth and typical dares that make everyone uncomfortable yet still piss their pants were performed and it wasn’t all that bad.

“So Jazmin, truth or dare?” Zayn asked me and I pondered for a moment.

“I did dare last time so truth.” He nodded and a few seconds later an evil grin spread across his face.

“So Perrie wouldn’t tell me when I asked, but I’m curious, are you a virgin?” Any question but this please. My eyes widened and I looked at Perrie for help and she shrugged giving me sorry eyes. I looked up at the ceiling to stop myself embarrassing myself right now.

“If I could be, I would be, but I’m not anymore no matter how much I pray that I would be.” I answered and finally met curious gazes by everyone but Perrie.

“He was that bad?” Niall asked causing Barbra to hit him on the arm.

“Yeah,” I sighed. “Ok moving on, Sophia truth or dare?”

“Dare,” she said quite confidently and Perrie and I looked at each other, our signature dare coming in handy here.

“I dare you to order us a pizza and when the delivery person gets here, no matter what gender, you have to ask them on a date. If they say yes you have t9o make out with them and then break up with them straight after, if they say no you have to break down sobbing and crying about how no one loves you to them while clinging onto their legs.” Sophia’s eyes widened and the rest of the room cracked up, Zayn running off to grab a phone for her. Liam just shook his head and chuckled with the rest of us, even though Sophia wasn’t pleased by his reaction.

After a very uncomfortable deliveryman had a sobbing Sophia clinging to his legs after he said no, we returned to the circle, the game continuing around like normal. I completed another dare, which may I add was horrible – never combined multiple spicy sauces and eat them if you have a brain. It was Harry’s turn now and he picked a truth.

“Why did you take Jazmin to Ed’s party?” El asked with a slight smirk on her face and Louis nudged her in an approving manner.

“I thought it would be good for her to get out and meet some new people and some people who are very close to me seeing as though she hasn’t been here for long.” He nodded uncertainly.

“Harry this is truth or dare remember.” Lou reminded with a chuckle.

“And I may have wanted to spend some alone time with her and see her all dressed up again.” He said very quickly.

“Apart from the alone time they have together on their little sleepovers.” Niall hollered and the rest of the group were having a good time rolling around in laughter. I had my face buried in my knees, trying to hide my blush from everyone as Harry groaned, only encouraging them.

“Ok that’s enough, Jazmin truth or dare.” Harry tried to change the subject.

“That’s’ right, run to lover girl Jazzy. I swear if she says dare and you ask her to blow you or-” Liam began.

“-TRUTH!” I called out interrupting them again.

“Thank you, what are you afraid of?” he asked pretty seriously.

“How much time do you have?” I asked him and the others.

“As much time as you need, I want to hear it all.” Dammit.

“Are you sure, my list could go on for days.” He gave me a look and I knew I had to tell them.
“Alright fine, no laughing ok.” Perrie and I made eye contact for a split second across the circle before I focussed on the blank wall behind her. “I’m scared of spiders, wild snakes, death, darkness, night time, parties, drugs, alcohol, drinking anything all together, horror movies, sleeping, sleeping with someone in my bed, sleeping alone, trusting people, storms, men, hospitals, sex, life, people all together and relationships…” I trailed off looking at my feet and trying not to cry at all the thoughts flooding through my mind, I knew I was shaking though. Someone, I think it was Harry, reached their arm out and I flinched noticeably when it made contact with mine, almost screaming. I shook my head to clear the thoughts and looked up at everyone around the room. Harry was a little less confident wrapping an arm around me this time but I easily gave into him, resting my head on his shoulder as his other arm wrapped around my waist, keeping me safe.

“Sorry, I didn’t know the subject was so touchy.” He told me and I just shrugged.

“You didn’t know and I just have to suck it up.” Both him and Perrie gave me a disapproving look when that sentence left my lips but Sophia just scoffed.

“You think? Can we get over your little scared cat issues and move on with the game.” My eyes widened and I felt Harry stiffen.

“Sophia,” Liam stated angrily, basically glaring at her.

“What?” she asked innocently. “I just wanted to continue the game, she obviously just wanted some attention.”

“Ok that’s enough of this game for tonight, how about El and I pack everything up and the rest of you head up to bed.” Lou jumped up quickly and the grouped nodded quickly.

Harry and I headed up to his room and he let me shower first as a storm was coming and he wanted me to be safe, which was thoughtful of him but the storm was going to be bad wherever I was. Harry was in the shower now and I was just flicking through old memories on my phone, things that I should have promised to never look at. There was a knock on the door so I opened it to see Barbra a split second before she engulfed me in a hug.

“Are you ok? You seemed really effected by everything before and I can tell you suffer from bad anxiety.”

“Yeah, I’m as okay as I can be right now I guess,” I shrugged as I pulled away, noticing Perrie has just exited Zayn’s room and was making her way towards us.

“Bloody Sophia,” she sighed running a hand through her hair before finally reaching us and engulfing me as well. “Can we come in? It’s probably better to be in there than out in the hallway.”

“Yeah, sure. Harry is in the shower anyways.” I let them in and crashed on Harry’s bed, them taking a seat on it as well.

“Are you ok with everything? I’m sorry Zayn asked that, I thought he would know better.”

“Yeah, I’m fine, it’s not a big deal. He doesn’t know so I can’t blame him or anyone else wanting to know.” I shrugged again grabbing my phone and unlocking it to continue to scroll through the photos of my ex-boyfriend and I. Perrie looked over my shoulder to see what I was looking at before grabbing my phone from my hands, locking it and throwing it across the room. I flinched at the sound of it hitting the wall, causing Harry to call out to ask if everything was ok.

“Yeah! What the hell was that for?” I asked Perrie a bit harshly.

“Didn’t I tell you to delete those photos?” She said sternly and Barbra looked to be feeling a bit out of place.” I shrugged again. “You’re not doing yourself any favours you know.” I nodded. “Do you want to talk about it?”

“Not now, I’ll talk to both of you later though. I just want to forget right now.” Perrie nodded her head and Barbra did the same thing although she was a bit uncertain, though she didn’t know anything.

“Can you grab me some boxers please? Totally forgot!” Harry called over the water and I hopped of the bed to grab him a pair from his draw. The water ceased and I waited a few seconds before turning the handle to see a dripping wet Harry with a towel wrapped around his lower body. I tried to stop my eyes from trailing all over his body but it was hard. He chuckled as I handed him the boxers and pulled the door back shut quickly to hide my blush. The two girls had raised eyebrows but didn’t make a comment, thank god. They both stood, excusing themselves to go back to their own rooms after I hugged them and thanked them for being there for me. I had just shut the door, releasing a sigh as Harry exited the bathroom, shaking his damp curls. “Ready for bed?” he asked and I nodded, quickly scurrying over to the bed and getting comfortable under the covers as he turned the lights out, hoping that I would fall asleep before the storm and that I would have a peaceful sleep.

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