Love me
The new me
flashback
I pushed my glasses up my nose walking up to the school gates hoping this year will be better than the last 2.
Flashback in a flashback
Ugly
Fat
4 eyes
Metal mouth
Kill yourself
Just die already
no one likes you
end of flashback.
Every insult you could think of was spat at me. I was never human to them, I was just a four eyed – metal mouthed – fat – worthless monster. Sometimes I want to do what they tell me . to just end it now , then I wouldn’t have to go through this anymore . And as I was sitting in my bathroom sitting on the toilet with the bottle of pills in my hand I tell myself that I WILL NOT kill myself. I wont give them what they want. So I decided just make them see, how nice I clean up.
Just to clear the things up I didn’t do this for all the bullies and people who just stood back and watched . I didn’t do this for my mom who called me all those things and worse when I got home from Hell.
So over the summer I took all the anger built inside of myself and took it out on the punching bag. I took boxing classes, karate, and I even learned the pressure points of a body. So you know I’m feeling like the shit.
My beautiful dark blue eyes were clearer than ever once I got contacts. My natural blonde hair was shiny and long down my back. Though I’m very anxious , I’ve waited 3 years for this day to come and prepared for 2 and a half months I can wait one more day . Right?
I pushed my glasses up my nose walking up to the school gates hoping this year will be better than the last 2.
Flashback in a flashback
Ugly
Fat
4 eyes
Metal mouth
Kill yourself
Just die already
no one likes you
end of flashback.
Every insult you could think of was spat at me. I was never human to them, I was just a four eyed – metal mouthed – fat – worthless monster. Sometimes I want to do what they tell me . to just end it now , then I wouldn’t have to go through this anymore . And as I was sitting in my bathroom sitting on the toilet with the bottle of pills in my hand I tell myself that I WILL NOT kill myself. I wont give them what they want. So I decided just make them see, how nice I clean up.
Just to clear the things up I didn’t do this for all the bullies and people who just stood back and watched . I didn’t do this for my mom who called me all those things and worse when I got home from Hell.
So over the summer I took all the anger built inside of myself and took it out on the punching bag. I took boxing classes, karate, and I even learned the pressure points of a body. So you know I’m feeling like the shit.
My beautiful dark blue eyes were clearer than ever once I got contacts. My natural blonde hair was shiny and long down my back. Though I’m very anxious , I’ve waited 3 years for this day to come and prepared for 2 and a half months I can wait one more day . Right?