Forever Alone

John has been gone for five months. You miss him dearly. You rarely hang out with your friends and it bothers them. You are lonely because you don’t have your boyfriend here. The boys were getting ready to leave for their upcoming tour and you have been dreading this moment. Your friends wanted to throw the boys one last hurrah before they set off on their tour. You really didn’t want to go but Louis insisted that you would come. He wanted to see you again and he knew that you were really lonely since John left. The party wasn’t until tomorrow night. Louis had invited you out for lunch today because he wanted to catch up.

You got dressed in a pair of your jeans and a nice colored tee. You didn’t want to over dress because it was just lunch with your best friend Louis. Louis has grown on you. He was always there for you. You cried on his shoulder when John left. He kept telling you that everything was going to be okay and that John would be back before you knew it. You could count on Louis for anything and everything. He has literally became your best friend.

Louis picked you up at your apartment and you guys walked down the main street in London. The paparazzi was everywhere but you have gotten use to them by now since you have become really close with the boys. The media use to say that you were with Louis and that Louis was cheating on his girlfriend but Louis cleared everything up and now the headlines read “Louis Tomlinson Out With His BFF Judith Again”. It was quite funny to read and plus you and Louis always have a great time together. He has grown on you.

You guys arrived at the restaurant and were ready to order your meal. The waiter came over and took your orders and returned to the kitchen to put it in. You loved spending time with Louis. He was like an older brother to you and he always knew the right words to say. You could count on him for advice. You loved him but in a brotherly way. He has grown on you. And now you know why his girlfriend chose him. He was the best guy in the whole entire world but you never had feelings for him like the way you feel about John or Niall.

For the thousandth time I do not like Niall. We are just friends and he and Donna seem pretty happy. They seem perfectly fine. He seems pretty satisfied with himself. Why should I come between them? Why should I waste my time on him? Why should I even care about him anymore? He has excluded me from his circle of friends. I don’t like him anymore. He is nothing more than an acquaintance of mine.

Louis looked at you as the waiter placed your meals in front of you. You gazed at him and just started laughing. He could make you laugh just by looking at you. He always knows how to cheer you up and this is why you and Louis get along so well. He is an amazing friend and you wouldn’t imagine opening up to him than anyone else. Well, you still open up to Bridgette and Rachel well that’s when they are around. He was always there for you when Rachel or Bridgette weren’t around. You didn’t blame them for not being around because they were busy living their lives and you didn’t want to bother them with your problems. Plus you could deal with your problems yourself.

“So how are you doing?” Louis finally broke the silence between the two of you.

“I’m okay,” you answered.

“Really?” he asked

“Yeah, I mean I get lonely every now and again but I always tell myself that he is coming home soon,” you told him.

“What are you going to do when you see him?” he asked intriguingly

“Probably tell him how much I miss him,” you answered.

“You’re not going to…” he stopped

“No!” you screamed

He laughed, “Just checking. You’re too young.”

“Lou, I am only two years younger than you,” you told him.

“Two years too young,” he laughed.

“And are you my mother?” you asked

“Oh yes I am Judith,” he smiled.

“Well, mother what if I am going to you know?” you told him

“I would say be safe and use protection. I don’t miniature you’s running around,” he commented.

You laughed, “Trust me I had sex education back in the day.”

“You may be a little rusty in that department,” he laughed.

“And are you going to clarify it for me if I am?” you asked

“Well, I can if you want me too,” he told you.

“No, I think I am good,” you answered.

“Good because I was going to keep it a secret,” he whispered.

“Okay. I don’t want to know anyway,” you whispered back.

He laughed, “So are you coming to this party Rachel and Bridgette are throwing?”

“I guess I have too,” you answered.

“You better be coming,” he yelped.

“And what if I don’t?” you asked

“Then I will come and fine and drag you to the party,” he told you.

You laughed, “I will make sure I will make an appearance at this party.”

You enjoyed your afternoon with Louis. Later that night Louis invited you over to his place for a movie night. Everyone was going. Niall was going to be there but whether Donna was going to be or not concerned you. You didn’t want to be the only lonely person there. All their girlfriends were going to be there and they are probably going to be cuddling all night. You were going to feel left out.

You arrived at Louis’ place with Rachel and Bridgette and you saw all the boys and their girlfriends there. You embraced each of them in a hug and they said how much they missed you. Niall wasn’t there. I guess him and Donna were out on a date. You couldn’t blame him. You rather be on a date with John then here. You sat by yourself trying to concentrate on the movie while everyone was cuddled on the couch and floor. You just wanted to throw up from their happiness because you were so lonely. But you reminded yourself that John would be home before you know it. You couldn’t wait.