Forever Alone

You did have several more nightmares after your most recent one but your friends were always there to calm you down. Today you needed extra sleep because Niall invited you out for lunch. You didn’t want to have bags underneath your eyes when you went out. You certainly didn’t want to look horrid. You wanted to look cute hoping that he would ask you to be his girlfriend. But you still remembered that night in the club. He was with another girl and you have seen pictures of them on magazines which made you wonder if he was going out with her. Was this a date you guys were going on? Or was it just two friends enjoying each other’s company. You got to wait and see I guess.

Niall was going to come around one or so. You went into your room and rummaged through your closet hoping to find something to wear. You had so many clothes yet you didn’t want to appear to be trying too hard. You spent hours in your closet trying on different outfits. Bridgette came running in every once in a while to see how you were doing. She and Rachel then came in one last final time and they helped you find the perfect outfit. They had decided on your favorite pair of dark wash jeans that made your butt look nice and a dressy looking top. You pair this outfit with a pair of earrings that you’re your grandmothers and a necklace you had gotten from Mark once you were released from the hospital. He knew what you liked. He was after all your brother. You also put on your favorite pair of Nikes. You also had your hair down but scrunched a little bit to give it some volume.

At around one there was a knock on the door. Bridgette told you to answer it. You walked up to the door and opened it. There he was. He was wearing a pair of jeans and a nice t-shirt. He looked so good. He embraced you in a hug and you guys were on your way. You grabbed your keys, phone, and wallet and you were out the door. Bridgette and Rachel were making noises hopefully he doesn’t hear them because they were pretty sexual.

He had told you that the restaurant wasn’t too far so you guys decided to walk. He was standing next to you and you guys were conversing about the uprising of music artists that you both had an interest in. He was then telling you about these movies that he wanted to see. Was he hinting that he wanted to go on another date with you or was he just trying to make conversation so the walk wasn’t as awkward? Then again you guys seem to click and everything was good between you two. You could be yourself around him and that’s what you like about him. You didn’t have to try to impress him because it seemed like he was already impressed with you.

About ten minutes later you guys arrived at the restaurant. He opened the door for you and you stepped inside. The restaurant wasn’t too fancy and you didn’t care. You weren’t really dressed for a fancy lunch so it really didn’t matter. You guys sat down and a waitress came over. She had short brown hair and she was really skinny. Niall was looking at her and she was looking at him. He smiled at her and she blushed. Then she looked at you and she gave you the “your boyfriend wants me” smile. He isn’t even my boyfriend. If he wants this skank of a girl then go ahead. I hope he is happy with her STDs and such. Judith, please be nice. I’ll try.

You guys ordered your lunch and the waitress was gone. Thank fucking god! She wasn’t really that nice. Judith, you don’t know her. Did you see that look she gave me? She was basically saying that she was better than me. I have dealt with bitches like that before. Okay so I know that fake smile anywhere. Judith, please calm down we don’t need you to get in any fights today okay? Fine.

Niall looked at you and he just smiled. You sipped your soda and just stared back at him. Was there something on your face? Why was he smiling? He then looked down and back up at you. What was his problem?

“Got a problem?” you asked

“Nope,” he smiled bigger.

“Yeah ya do. You don’t smile like that for nothing,” you answered.

“Well, it’s just that waitress seemed to be pissing you off,” he commented.

“I didn’t think you noticed that. You were too busy staring at her boobs,” you chuckled.

He laughed, “No I wasn’t!”

“You were making goo-goo eyes at her boobs. You creep,” you answered.

“Your jealous,” he answered.

“That her boobs are bigger than mine. Nope I’m pretty happy with mine,” you replied.

“No, because I was paying attention to another girl besides you,” he took a sip of his drink.

“Why am I jealous of her? You aren’t my boyfriend,” you commented.

“I can if you want me to be,” he whispered.

“What?” you asked

“Nothing,” he answered.

“Good cause I was going to say no,” you smiled as you took a sip of your drink.

“And why would you say no?” he asked

“Because you aren’t my type. I told you I don’t date pretty boys,” you answered.

“For the thousandth time, I am not a pretty boy,” he replied.

“Well, I beg to differ,” you told him.

“How so?” he asked

Should you really tell him? Should you ask him about the mystery girl from the bar the other night? Do you really want to know about her? Does he still have feelings for you? Was he trying to make you jealous by talking to her? Did he want to get back at you for your comment you made earlier that night? Judith, you are going to have to ask him some time or another. Remember what Louis said. He said when you two are sober you need to talk this out. I see this as the perfect time. Go Judith go!

The waitress brought your guys’ food to the table. Niall smiled at her again waiting to see your reaction. You just glared at him. Then the waitress glared at you one last time before going to her other table. You guys started to munch on your food. You were trying to avoid his question but you wanted answers. You wanted to know about this mystery girl he was seen with.

“Can I ask you something,” you looked him straight in the eyes.

He looked into yours, “Sure.”

“Who was that girl with you at the club?” you asked

“Oh her,” he answered.