Over Again
Before You
I emerged from my bunk after a short nap to feel the bus at a stop. I changed, slipping off my shorts and slipping my leggings on. I threw off my tank top and threw on my cheetah print shirt. I adjusted the shirt and slipped on some black flats. The door of the tour bus opened making me stick walk towards the front of the bunk area. I looked around the bus to see Zayn walking toward me.
“Hey,” he smiled. I returned his smile back.
“Where is everyone?” He motioned toward the window.
“They are inside the Diner; they wanted me to come get you. Niall said you were going to eat with us?” I nodded.
“Yeah, I just needed a quick nap.” He continued to stare at me as I went to leave the small hallway. He grabbed my arm before I could get past him.
“Are you sure? Niall said you were out of it earlier. You know you can talk to us right?” I bit down on my lip; I immediately felt guilty for keeping myself so shut off from them. I did that a lot with them and it wasn’t fair, however Louis was also their friend and I wasn’t going to put them in the middle of the whole mess, so I did the only thing I knew I could do well.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Thanks though.” I lied. I went to move again but the grip on my arm didn’t want to budge. I looked back up at him and noticed the uneasy look on his face; it was like a mix of pain and confusion.
“Zayn…”My voice trailed off.
“You say you’re okay, but your eyes say different. What’s happened Kat?” I looked away knowing if I didn’t I would probably tell him about my dirty little secret and exactly what Louis and I have been doing every time we’re ‘talking.’ I shook my head and pulled away. The bus door open which made Zayn look away from me. I looked up at saw the devil himself, standing there; a confused look graced his face. I could tell he was studying how close Zayn and I were, however he was trying not to give himself away.
I looked away from his gaze and focused on fixing my dress over my leggings. The atmosphere had gotten thick and quiet and I didn’t like it one bit.
“Hey mate, what are you doing?” Zayn asked stepping back from me. I continued not to say anything, not really knowing what to say.
“I came to check on you two since you guys were taking so long. We’re waiting on you two to order.” I looked up at Zayn.
“I’m fine, honestly. Let’s go.” I walked away from him and past Louis, ignoring his stare in the process. I slammed the bus door shut and continued my way inside the dinner. It was midafternoon so the diner wasn’t crowded. I opened the door and was met with two blue eyes. I then took a look at the rest of her; she was tall, blonde and skinny. Her blue eyes were rimmed with eyeliner and her hair was tossed up in a ponytail. She had on the dinner uniform which consisted of a white top and red skirt. She was chewing gum with one hand on her hip. She couldn’t be older than 23. I looked back up to her face to see an agitated look on her face.
“How many?” She snapped. I looked at her and gave her an ‘excuse me’ look, which probably didn’t help. I didn’t care though; I was not in the mood after what just went down.
“My parties already here,” I walked past her, ignoring the dirty look she was giving me and made my way to the back of the diner where the three boys sat. Niall was deep into the menu while Harry and Liam were talking. I took the seat next to Harry and thanked him as he handed me a menu.
“Where are the other two?” I looked back towards the door, they weren’t there. I shrugged.
“Probably still talking on the bus.” I continued to look back at my menu ignoring the sinking feeling in my stomach. I had a bad feeling that Louis and Zayn were not having the best conversation that was until they walked through the door laughing and made their way to where we were sitting. I sighed and relaxed my posture. I guess Harry had felt it because he gave me a strange look but I just gave him one back. He took it as everything was alright and stuck his tongue out at me. He always knew how to make me smile
Louis and Zayn had finally reached the table. Zayn sitting next to me and Louis sitting in front of me, I groaned. I didn’t want to stare at his face the whole time. I focused my attention on the menu and finally decided what I wanted which Niall was still deciding on. The conversation continued about the show tonight and about when Danielle was coming on tour with us. I took Niall’s drink while he was still looking at the menu and took a sip; the waitress had yet to come take our orders.
“Are you excited to be in Texas?” The question was directed towards me. I looked at Liam and shrugged, he was asking because my ex had moved here which was one of the reasons why we had to break up. I was with him for about a year before he had to move to Texas for a job, we had stayed friends and talked constantly. Every time he’d come home to visit his family I was usually one of the places he stopped first.
“Yeah, I mean I get to see Matt tonight. It’s just so damn hot here, I want to take my leggings off and we’re inside with fans. It’s ridiculous.”
“You’re going to see Matt tonight?” I looked at Louis, his face held a small smile but I knew what he was doing. He was mad that I hadn’t told him about me going with Matt tonight.
“Yup. We aren’t leaving till tomorrow night anyways, so I was going to meet up with him after the concert and probably stay the night at his place. Is that okay with you?” The last part was snappy and I didn’t care if the rest caught it or not.
“So that’s code for she’s going to get some tonight.” Niall stated from behind the menu. I pouted and frowned down at the table.
“Ew, I don’t want to hear about my sister doing it.” I leaned my head against his shoulder.
“Love you Harry.” He grunted.
“Can we not discuss your sex life at breakfast if you love me so much?”
“I didn’t bring it up, Niall did! Do you even know what you want Leprechaun?” He shook his head. We all groaned knowing this could take a while. I pulled out my phone and saw a text message from Eric. I quickly responded telling him to pick me up at venue when the show ended. He agreed and told me he’d see me later.
“What would you like to order?” I looked up at the waitress and noticed it was the same one from earlier. I groaned knowing she was going to spit in my food. We all ordered, Louis was the last.
“Could I just get the burger, love?” She nodded and flashed him a smile. I rolled my eyes, you think I would be used to girls flirting with the boys but nope. It still irritated me to no end.
“So Liam, when is Danielle coming on tour?” I needed another girl with me. I liked Danielle so it all worked out.
“In a month.”
“Are you kidding me? I’m stuck with you guys for that long!”
“Don’t act like you don’t love us!” Zayn said poking my sides which made me squeak. I poked him back making him laugh.
“You guys are a lot to handle but I guess that’s the price I pay for getting to tour the world.” A loud annoying beep came from under the table. I cringed hearing the ringtone already knowing whose phone it was. Louis dug through his pants and pulled out his phone, frowning when he looked at the screen.
“I’ll be back.” He got up from the table and made his way outside. It was Eleanor.
“They are fighting again?” Zayn asked. I didn’t reply, instead it was Harry.
“They are always fighting.” I continued to stay quiet knowing better than to comment on someone else’s relationship when I was sneaking around in it. The rest of us began to talk amongst ourselves for the time remaining in which Louis had yet to return.
“Our foods going to be here soon, someone go get the poor lad from outside.”
“Nose goes!” Niall shouted. They all put their finger to their nose, of course it would leave me to go get him.
“I hate all of you.” I got up from my seat and made my way outside, hearing the guys’ chuckle from behind me. I walked outside and looked around, I spotted him leaning against the wall. I walked over slowly and could faintly here his conversation.
“Yeah. I know. I love you too, I didn’t mean it. Yeah, we’re good. I’ll see you soon.” Hold the hell up. She was coming on tour as well. He had never mentioned it. I watched as he hung up the phone and started making his way towards me.
“You never told me she was coming on tour.”
“Didn’t think I had to.” I was getting fed up with his attitude.
“It just means we need to have as much fun as we can before she gets here.” I growled and pushed past him.
“You’re a dick Louis. You know El cares about you and yet you continue to play her.” He looked at me dead in the eye. I could see the anger in his eyes, he hated it when people questioned if he loved Eleanor and I had done just that.
“I’m not playing with her, I’m playing you. Get that through your head, I don’t get why you can’t understand that you’ll always come after her.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. I had two choices, to go back inside and eat or go to the bus and cry. I couldn’t let him win so I continued to stare at his face.
“Fuck you Louis. I was told to come out here to tell you that our foods ready but go fuck yourself and starve for all I care.” I pushed past him and made my way back into the diner.
“Have fun with Matt tonight, not like you need sex that damn bad.” I didn’t bother turning around, I just lifted my arm in the air and raised my middle finger.
“Hey,” he smiled. I returned his smile back.
“Where is everyone?” He motioned toward the window.
“They are inside the Diner; they wanted me to come get you. Niall said you were going to eat with us?” I nodded.
“Yeah, I just needed a quick nap.” He continued to stare at me as I went to leave the small hallway. He grabbed my arm before I could get past him.
“Are you sure? Niall said you were out of it earlier. You know you can talk to us right?” I bit down on my lip; I immediately felt guilty for keeping myself so shut off from them. I did that a lot with them and it wasn’t fair, however Louis was also their friend and I wasn’t going to put them in the middle of the whole mess, so I did the only thing I knew I could do well.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Thanks though.” I lied. I went to move again but the grip on my arm didn’t want to budge. I looked back up at him and noticed the uneasy look on his face; it was like a mix of pain and confusion.
“Zayn…”My voice trailed off.
“You say you’re okay, but your eyes say different. What’s happened Kat?” I looked away knowing if I didn’t I would probably tell him about my dirty little secret and exactly what Louis and I have been doing every time we’re ‘talking.’ I shook my head and pulled away. The bus door open which made Zayn look away from me. I looked up at saw the devil himself, standing there; a confused look graced his face. I could tell he was studying how close Zayn and I were, however he was trying not to give himself away.
I looked away from his gaze and focused on fixing my dress over my leggings. The atmosphere had gotten thick and quiet and I didn’t like it one bit.
“Hey mate, what are you doing?” Zayn asked stepping back from me. I continued not to say anything, not really knowing what to say.
“I came to check on you two since you guys were taking so long. We’re waiting on you two to order.” I looked up at Zayn.
“I’m fine, honestly. Let’s go.” I walked away from him and past Louis, ignoring his stare in the process. I slammed the bus door shut and continued my way inside the dinner. It was midafternoon so the diner wasn’t crowded. I opened the door and was met with two blue eyes. I then took a look at the rest of her; she was tall, blonde and skinny. Her blue eyes were rimmed with eyeliner and her hair was tossed up in a ponytail. She had on the dinner uniform which consisted of a white top and red skirt. She was chewing gum with one hand on her hip. She couldn’t be older than 23. I looked back up to her face to see an agitated look on her face.
“How many?” She snapped. I looked at her and gave her an ‘excuse me’ look, which probably didn’t help. I didn’t care though; I was not in the mood after what just went down.
“My parties already here,” I walked past her, ignoring the dirty look she was giving me and made my way to the back of the diner where the three boys sat. Niall was deep into the menu while Harry and Liam were talking. I took the seat next to Harry and thanked him as he handed me a menu.
“Where are the other two?” I looked back towards the door, they weren’t there. I shrugged.
“Probably still talking on the bus.” I continued to look back at my menu ignoring the sinking feeling in my stomach. I had a bad feeling that Louis and Zayn were not having the best conversation that was until they walked through the door laughing and made their way to where we were sitting. I sighed and relaxed my posture. I guess Harry had felt it because he gave me a strange look but I just gave him one back. He took it as everything was alright and stuck his tongue out at me. He always knew how to make me smile
Louis and Zayn had finally reached the table. Zayn sitting next to me and Louis sitting in front of me, I groaned. I didn’t want to stare at his face the whole time. I focused my attention on the menu and finally decided what I wanted which Niall was still deciding on. The conversation continued about the show tonight and about when Danielle was coming on tour with us. I took Niall’s drink while he was still looking at the menu and took a sip; the waitress had yet to come take our orders.
“Are you excited to be in Texas?” The question was directed towards me. I looked at Liam and shrugged, he was asking because my ex had moved here which was one of the reasons why we had to break up. I was with him for about a year before he had to move to Texas for a job, we had stayed friends and talked constantly. Every time he’d come home to visit his family I was usually one of the places he stopped first.
“Yeah, I mean I get to see Matt tonight. It’s just so damn hot here, I want to take my leggings off and we’re inside with fans. It’s ridiculous.”
“You’re going to see Matt tonight?” I looked at Louis, his face held a small smile but I knew what he was doing. He was mad that I hadn’t told him about me going with Matt tonight.
“Yup. We aren’t leaving till tomorrow night anyways, so I was going to meet up with him after the concert and probably stay the night at his place. Is that okay with you?” The last part was snappy and I didn’t care if the rest caught it or not.
“So that’s code for she’s going to get some tonight.” Niall stated from behind the menu. I pouted and frowned down at the table.
“Ew, I don’t want to hear about my sister doing it.” I leaned my head against his shoulder.
“Love you Harry.” He grunted.
“Can we not discuss your sex life at breakfast if you love me so much?”
“I didn’t bring it up, Niall did! Do you even know what you want Leprechaun?” He shook his head. We all groaned knowing this could take a while. I pulled out my phone and saw a text message from Eric. I quickly responded telling him to pick me up at venue when the show ended. He agreed and told me he’d see me later.
“What would you like to order?” I looked up at the waitress and noticed it was the same one from earlier. I groaned knowing she was going to spit in my food. We all ordered, Louis was the last.
“Could I just get the burger, love?” She nodded and flashed him a smile. I rolled my eyes, you think I would be used to girls flirting with the boys but nope. It still irritated me to no end.
“So Liam, when is Danielle coming on tour?” I needed another girl with me. I liked Danielle so it all worked out.
“In a month.”
“Are you kidding me? I’m stuck with you guys for that long!”
“Don’t act like you don’t love us!” Zayn said poking my sides which made me squeak. I poked him back making him laugh.
“You guys are a lot to handle but I guess that’s the price I pay for getting to tour the world.” A loud annoying beep came from under the table. I cringed hearing the ringtone already knowing whose phone it was. Louis dug through his pants and pulled out his phone, frowning when he looked at the screen.
“I’ll be back.” He got up from the table and made his way outside. It was Eleanor.
“They are fighting again?” Zayn asked. I didn’t reply, instead it was Harry.
“They are always fighting.” I continued to stay quiet knowing better than to comment on someone else’s relationship when I was sneaking around in it. The rest of us began to talk amongst ourselves for the time remaining in which Louis had yet to return.
“Our foods going to be here soon, someone go get the poor lad from outside.”
“Nose goes!” Niall shouted. They all put their finger to their nose, of course it would leave me to go get him.
“I hate all of you.” I got up from my seat and made my way outside, hearing the guys’ chuckle from behind me. I walked outside and looked around, I spotted him leaning against the wall. I walked over slowly and could faintly here his conversation.
“Yeah. I know. I love you too, I didn’t mean it. Yeah, we’re good. I’ll see you soon.” Hold the hell up. She was coming on tour as well. He had never mentioned it. I watched as he hung up the phone and started making his way towards me.
“You never told me she was coming on tour.”
“Didn’t think I had to.” I was getting fed up with his attitude.
“It just means we need to have as much fun as we can before she gets here.” I growled and pushed past him.
“You’re a dick Louis. You know El cares about you and yet you continue to play her.” He looked at me dead in the eye. I could see the anger in his eyes, he hated it when people questioned if he loved Eleanor and I had done just that.
“I’m not playing with her, I’m playing you. Get that through your head, I don’t get why you can’t understand that you’ll always come after her.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. I had two choices, to go back inside and eat or go to the bus and cry. I couldn’t let him win so I continued to stare at his face.
“Fuck you Louis. I was told to come out here to tell you that our foods ready but go fuck yourself and starve for all I care.” I pushed past him and made my way back into the diner.
“Have fun with Matt tonight, not like you need sex that damn bad.” I didn’t bother turning around, I just lifted my arm in the air and raised my middle finger.
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