Over Again
"Just Back Off..."
“Oh my God. Louis…” I groaned out, biting down on my lip to keep me from screaming out loud. The thrusts he was delivering to me felt amazing and I regretted not initiating this little meeting sooner. I ignored the music we had put on to make sure the guys couldn’t hear us and focused on getting my release. His hands were planted on my hips and help maneuvered me back and forth on top of him.
I threw my head back and let my hair tickle his thighs which made him shift a little.
Every time he thrust up, the skin between his hips bones would rub my clit in the most delicious way making me shudder and tighten around him. My thighs quivered and tightened around his own hips making me moan loudly.
“Quiet Kat…” I heard him moan out. I closed my eyes and heard him groan as I kept the steady movements of our hips. I felt him move underneath me but I planted my hands on his abs to make him stay down. I was afraid that if I let him get up he wouldn’t give me the release I was so desperately aching for.
“Katerina let me up.” I shook my head and rocked my hips harder against his.
“Oh God.” His eyes fluttered closed as I peeked down at him through the curtain of my hair. I smirked to myself and tightened my walls around him.
“Mmm, don’t do that.” He moaned out. His hand came down to where our bodies were connected and started to rub fast and delicious circles on the sensitive nerve making me jolt forward.
“Oh, fuck. Bastard.” I breathed out. I heard him let out a chuckle as he continued to rub me and thrust up into me. I could fill my walls tighten up and the red ball inside me ache for release. My moans were coming out as high pitched whines and I could feel my release so close.
“Louis, I’m going to-Oh fuck me.” The tight red ball exploded making me let out a scream but I quickly gritted my teeth hoping to block out the noise. My orgasm attackd me sending me into a fit of tremors as my thighs shook and I fell forward onto Louis’s body unable to keep myself up. I opened my eyes to look at Louis. His head was thrown back, mouth agape and his chest was rising and falling. I was now aware of the layer of sweat we both wore and how my hair stuck to my face. I signed and closed my eyes once more before deciding to get up.
We never cuddled. It was his rule.
I pushed myself up from his chest and felt him slip out of me. He grunted and put his arm over his head and watched me get dress.
“Good to know you remembered, sweetheart.” He was talking about the no cuddling rule. I snorted.
“I made that mistake once, believe me. I won’t do it again.” He practically lashed out at me the one time I thought we could cuddle. I slipped on my thong and yoga shorts again and looked around for my bra and tank top which were on the floor next to the bed. I walked over and slipped the bra on and then threw the tank top over my head. I glanced over at Louis while I put my hair up to see him still lying on the bed in all his glory.
“Get up and get dressed. They are going to expect us out soon.” He just sent me a smile and stopped the music that was playing next to the bed. I grimaced when I walked forward feeling a dull ache in my legs.
“Good to know I still have that effect on you.”
“Don’t flatter yourself, Tomlinson.” I made my way to the door to open it.
“Tell El, I said hey.” I sent him a smirk before reaching for the door knob.
“Keep it up Kat.”
“Or what? You aren’t going to fuck me anymore? Let me tell you something Louis, you aren’t the only guy in my life.” I went to open the door again but was pushed against it making me groan.
“Who’s going to give you what you crave then, hm?” His voice was dangerously low and I could feel his breath on my neck. His hands were now under my tank top and rubbing the skin right above my shorts line. I closed my eyes trying to ignore the jolts of electricity I felt from his touch.
“
Zayn? I love the lad but we both know he wouldn’t be able to handle you. Don’t think I don’t know about the little crush you had on him.” It was true, I did used to have a crush on Zayn and then I got involved with Louis and things got out of hand.
“Or what about that boy toy, Matt?” I shook my head. Matt was my ex-boyfriend and before Louis we would still meet up but Louis was right. They couldn’t give me what I craved and that angered me to no end.
“And what about you? You have a girlfriend and yet you have me warming your bed.” I shot back, getting fed up.
“The difference between you and me, El can give me what you give me. But she won’t, not when we’re fighting. The difference between you and her is I don’t love you, I love her.” I immediately pushed his hands off me and pushed him away from me. I knew he didn’t love me but hearing it made the pain in my chest ache.
“Don’t text me and don’t talk to me. Leave me alone.” He smiled and stepped closer to my face making me push him back again. It didn’t stop him though, he just resumed his position.
“But then your dearest brother will wonder why we aren’t talking and that’ll cause stress to him. You don’t want to stress dear Harry out will you?” I looked away from his face knowing he was right. Harry was the one person I always felt guilty about which is why I usually never thought about him or brought him up when we did our escapades. Harry was my major weakness and Louis knew that.
“Just back off Louis.” I stated softly. He looked at me, his face serious this time.
“I don’t know why you get like this. We both agreed it was going to be physical.” I shook my head, he
wouldn’t understand. Hell, I didn’t understand. I just shrugged and exited the room not wanting to be in the same room anymore. I closed the door lightly behind me and walked over to my bunk which was above Harry’s. I noticed that Liam’s bunk was now empty but Zayn’s body laid lifeless under the blanket. I let out a giggle and crawled into my bunk.
The worst part about sleeping with Louis was the thoughts of anger and feelings of being utterly pathetic that came after the feeling of being sedated. I closed my eyes and realized my migraine was back. I didn’t know why I was being like this. I knew he loved Eleanor and I knew him and I were never going to be a thing. I think it was just the fact that he was using me made me feel lower than low. But I was using him as well, wasn’t I? Apart of me knew the answer, no. I kept this up because I knew it was the only way I was going to be able to keep Louis, it was the only way I had him. Without our arrangement, I wouldn’t get any part of him.
My eyes snapped open when the curtain of my bunk opened.
“KITTY KAT!” I blinked at the excited Niall in front of me.
“We are going to be stopping in about 15 minutes. The show is at 6, Harry wants to know if you ‘re going to be attending the festivities?” I laughed at how happy he looked.
“I’ll go eat with you guys when you stop and I’ll probably be on the side of the stage taking pictures tonight for the article.” He nodded.
“Are you okay?” I looked at him confused.
“Yeah why?”
“You just seem off.” I looked at him and debated if I should tell him anything but I saw Louis come out of the room behind him and shoot me a look. I immediately shook my head and shot Niall a smile.
“No, I’m okay. Thanks though.” He nodded and jumped down from my bunk, letting the curtain close shut. I laid back down and closed my eyes, a minute later the curtain opened again.
“You left your phone in there.” Louis put my phone next to my head and then exited the bunk without another word. I stayed still not wanting to move. I hated this feeling, I hated the feeling of Louis Tomlinson being my drug. I knew he was and he gave me the exact dosage I needed but only on his terms and that was becoming a problem.
I threw my head back and let my hair tickle his thighs which made him shift a little.
Every time he thrust up, the skin between his hips bones would rub my clit in the most delicious way making me shudder and tighten around him. My thighs quivered and tightened around his own hips making me moan loudly.
“Quiet Kat…” I heard him moan out. I closed my eyes and heard him groan as I kept the steady movements of our hips. I felt him move underneath me but I planted my hands on his abs to make him stay down. I was afraid that if I let him get up he wouldn’t give me the release I was so desperately aching for.
“Katerina let me up.” I shook my head and rocked my hips harder against his.
“Oh God.” His eyes fluttered closed as I peeked down at him through the curtain of my hair. I smirked to myself and tightened my walls around him.
“Mmm, don’t do that.” He moaned out. His hand came down to where our bodies were connected and started to rub fast and delicious circles on the sensitive nerve making me jolt forward.
“Oh, fuck. Bastard.” I breathed out. I heard him let out a chuckle as he continued to rub me and thrust up into me. I could fill my walls tighten up and the red ball inside me ache for release. My moans were coming out as high pitched whines and I could feel my release so close.
“Louis, I’m going to-Oh fuck me.” The tight red ball exploded making me let out a scream but I quickly gritted my teeth hoping to block out the noise. My orgasm attackd me sending me into a fit of tremors as my thighs shook and I fell forward onto Louis’s body unable to keep myself up. I opened my eyes to look at Louis. His head was thrown back, mouth agape and his chest was rising and falling. I was now aware of the layer of sweat we both wore and how my hair stuck to my face. I signed and closed my eyes once more before deciding to get up.
We never cuddled. It was his rule.
I pushed myself up from his chest and felt him slip out of me. He grunted and put his arm over his head and watched me get dress.
“Good to know you remembered, sweetheart.” He was talking about the no cuddling rule. I snorted.
“I made that mistake once, believe me. I won’t do it again.” He practically lashed out at me the one time I thought we could cuddle. I slipped on my thong and yoga shorts again and looked around for my bra and tank top which were on the floor next to the bed. I walked over and slipped the bra on and then threw the tank top over my head. I glanced over at Louis while I put my hair up to see him still lying on the bed in all his glory.
“Get up and get dressed. They are going to expect us out soon.” He just sent me a smile and stopped the music that was playing next to the bed. I grimaced when I walked forward feeling a dull ache in my legs.
“Good to know I still have that effect on you.”
“Don’t flatter yourself, Tomlinson.” I made my way to the door to open it.
“Tell El, I said hey.” I sent him a smirk before reaching for the door knob.
“Keep it up Kat.”
“Or what? You aren’t going to fuck me anymore? Let me tell you something Louis, you aren’t the only guy in my life.” I went to open the door again but was pushed against it making me groan.
“Who’s going to give you what you crave then, hm?” His voice was dangerously low and I could feel his breath on my neck. His hands were now under my tank top and rubbing the skin right above my shorts line. I closed my eyes trying to ignore the jolts of electricity I felt from his touch.
“
Zayn? I love the lad but we both know he wouldn’t be able to handle you. Don’t think I don’t know about the little crush you had on him.” It was true, I did used to have a crush on Zayn and then I got involved with Louis and things got out of hand.
“Or what about that boy toy, Matt?” I shook my head. Matt was my ex-boyfriend and before Louis we would still meet up but Louis was right. They couldn’t give me what I craved and that angered me to no end.
“And what about you? You have a girlfriend and yet you have me warming your bed.” I shot back, getting fed up.
“The difference between you and me, El can give me what you give me. But she won’t, not when we’re fighting. The difference between you and her is I don’t love you, I love her.” I immediately pushed his hands off me and pushed him away from me. I knew he didn’t love me but hearing it made the pain in my chest ache.
“Don’t text me and don’t talk to me. Leave me alone.” He smiled and stepped closer to my face making me push him back again. It didn’t stop him though, he just resumed his position.
“But then your dearest brother will wonder why we aren’t talking and that’ll cause stress to him. You don’t want to stress dear Harry out will you?” I looked away from his face knowing he was right. Harry was the one person I always felt guilty about which is why I usually never thought about him or brought him up when we did our escapades. Harry was my major weakness and Louis knew that.
“Just back off Louis.” I stated softly. He looked at me, his face serious this time.
“I don’t know why you get like this. We both agreed it was going to be physical.” I shook my head, he
wouldn’t understand. Hell, I didn’t understand. I just shrugged and exited the room not wanting to be in the same room anymore. I closed the door lightly behind me and walked over to my bunk which was above Harry’s. I noticed that Liam’s bunk was now empty but Zayn’s body laid lifeless under the blanket. I let out a giggle and crawled into my bunk.
The worst part about sleeping with Louis was the thoughts of anger and feelings of being utterly pathetic that came after the feeling of being sedated. I closed my eyes and realized my migraine was back. I didn’t know why I was being like this. I knew he loved Eleanor and I knew him and I were never going to be a thing. I think it was just the fact that he was using me made me feel lower than low. But I was using him as well, wasn’t I? Apart of me knew the answer, no. I kept this up because I knew it was the only way I was going to be able to keep Louis, it was the only way I had him. Without our arrangement, I wouldn’t get any part of him.
My eyes snapped open when the curtain of my bunk opened.
“KITTY KAT!” I blinked at the excited Niall in front of me.
“We are going to be stopping in about 15 minutes. The show is at 6, Harry wants to know if you ‘re going to be attending the festivities?” I laughed at how happy he looked.
“I’ll go eat with you guys when you stop and I’ll probably be on the side of the stage taking pictures tonight for the article.” He nodded.
“Are you okay?” I looked at him confused.
“Yeah why?”
“You just seem off.” I looked at him and debated if I should tell him anything but I saw Louis come out of the room behind him and shoot me a look. I immediately shook my head and shot Niall a smile.
“No, I’m okay. Thanks though.” He nodded and jumped down from my bunk, letting the curtain close shut. I laid back down and closed my eyes, a minute later the curtain opened again.
“You left your phone in there.” Louis put my phone next to my head and then exited the bunk without another word. I stayed still not wanting to move. I hated this feeling, I hated the feeling of Louis Tomlinson being my drug. I knew he was and he gave me the exact dosage I needed but only on his terms and that was becoming a problem.
Please update
3/26/14