
Over Again
They Don't Know
Harry made his way down the stairs, he was beyond mad. He wasn’t too mad with Kat, no with her; he was more hurt than anything. She had betrayed his trust and lied to him. She also had Zayn lie to him as well, which in return affected their friendship. This whole situation was tricky and unfair and shouldn’t have even happened, but Harry knew why it happened. With Louis though, Harry knew Louis knew exactly what he was doing. He played with Eleanor and he played with Kat and either way no matter which one Harry was rooting for, it wasn’t right. Louis was raised right, sure he was full of sass but he never let the fame get to his head. Louis had three sisters so he should know the rights and the wrongs.
Harry then stopped to truly think about what he was thinking. Louis SHOULD know all these things; he SHOULD know not to mess with people’s feelings. However, Louis was just a 21 one year old boy whose testosterone was high, and even though he claimed he was in love, Harry knew people fell in love all the time. It was one of the reasons why him, himself was still single. He sighed knowing that it still wasn’t an excuse. Harry could see the hurt on his sister’s face. He could see the walls come down around her and in those few moments he saw his sister, granted she was older but he still saw his sister need protection and help. He could see the pain and all of her emotions come to the surface and it didn’t sit well with Harry that Louis was a part of the reason. Harry couldn’t completely blame him considering Kat could have stopped it but she didn’t. She too was in the wrong.
Harry scanned the living room as he looked over the crowd of bodies talking and dancing. He then found his target; Louis sat on the couch talking to one of Logan’s friends. Every now and then he glanced at his phone. Harry started making his way, pushing past the bodies and over to where Louis sat.
“Hey.” Louis looked up and smiled at Harry. Harry barely returned it.
“Harry, what’s up?”
“Can I talk to you for a minute?” Louis looked at Harry unsure about the whole thing. But Harry was one of his best friends, so he nodded. Louis turned back to the person he was talking to and told them he would be back in a bit. Louis then nodded at Harry, who was soon making his way back through the crowd and up the stairs, with a Louis following behind him. Harry still hadn’t said anything and led him to the room he was previously in. He let Louis go first and opened the door. Louis gave him a confused look and walked in anyway.
Louis walked in and looked around. He looked at the bed and saw Liam, Niall and Zayn sitting on the bed. Then he saw Kat sitting with her back leaning against the headboard with a shocked face. Now he knew this wasn’t good. Louis turned back to Harry.
“Harry, mate. What’s going on-“ Harry, ignoring the four bodies on the bed kicked Louis as hard as he could in the shin. Louis jumped back.
“Fuck,”
“That’s for cheating on your girlfriend.” Harry leaned up and kicked him in the other one.
“That’s for sleeping with my sister.” Louis tried to stand up as he gripped the edge of the bed post.
“Harry, I can-“ Harry then pulled his arm back and punched Louis in the nose. Not hard enough to break it but hard enough for it to bruise.
“And that’s for leaving her after you told her you cared.”
x-x
I watched as harry punched Louis in the face. The boys let out a chorus of ‘ohh’s” making me cringe. My brother boxed as a hobby so I knew he knew how to punch. Louis let out a yell and grabbed his nose with his hand.
“You broke my nose!” Harry snorted.
“You’re lucky if that’s all I broke. Fix this mess Tomlinson. Tell Eleanor and leave my sister alone. We can’t let this get out, fix the havoc you two have created.” He looked back at me and then walked out of the room. I immediately got off of the bed and went over to Louis’s side.
“I’m so sorry. I didn’t know-“
“You weren’t supposed to tell him!” I shook my head.
“I know, I’m sorry but he found out!”
“We made a promise!” I shook my head again; I was not going to have him yell at me. He leaned up and glared at me.
“Louis let’s talk about this after we take care of your nose. Liam can you go run and make sure Harry is okay?” I knew Liam was good at calming people down. H nodded and made his way out of the room.
“Niall, go get some ice and ask Carlos or Alexa for a towel. Zayn prop up the pillows on the head board.” The two boys scrambled to do what they were told.
“Louis, tilt your head back if your nose is bleeding.” He did as he was told. I led him to the bed and had him lean back. Niall soon came back with ice and a towel. He handed it to me and sat next to Louis on the bed. I wrapped the ice in the towel and pulled Louis’s hand away from his face. I gently placed the bag of ice on his nose making him jerk back and curse.
“It hurts!”
“Then stop moving for I can make it not hurt!” He glared at me and I glared back. He finally sighed and nodded but kept his gaze on me. I leaned his head back and told him to keep the ice pack there.
“What the hell am I supposed to tell Eleanor?” I shrugged not really giving a damn.
“The truth?” Niall asked.
“So you guys all know?” Niall nodded.
“Louis, it’s not a big deal. We just can’t-“
“Easy for you to say Kat, you don’t have a boyfriend to hide this from!” I flinched at his tone.
“You know what Louis? I don’t feel bad for you, you knew what was going to happen if anyone found out yet you kept pursuing me. So, you know what, tell Eleanor the truth! Be honest for once!” I got off of the bed and headed out the door. I was going back to the tour bus; I wasn’t doing this anymore tonight.
Louis sat there with a shocked look on his face. He couldn’t believe they knew, the awkwardness settled in and Zayn and Niall had no idea what to say.
“How did Harry find out?” He could hear Zayn sigh and titled his head to look over at him.
“Kat was talking to me about you and something you said and she didn’t hear the rest of them come in. Harry was standing there.” Louis nodded.
“How bad do you think this is going to affect all of us?” Niall shrugged.
“I think we’re all just more hurt with Kat and you for hiding it. I mean we can’t really be mad at Zayn, it wasn’t his business. And you Lou, I mean you know better.” Louis groaned throwing his head back; he should have known this speech was coming.
He knew what he had to do but he just didn’t know if he could do it. He had to end things once and for all with Kat and he had to tell Eleanor. Eleanor. He had barely talked to her and she was coming in the next couple of days, he did love her. That was never going to be a doubt, but how much did he love her when he had to find pleasure in another woman?
“Louis, tell us one thing.” Louis shifted his head up a little bit waiting for Niall to finish.
“Do you truly not care about her?” He sighed and closed his eyes.
“It’s complicated…it’s-“
“No it’s not Louis and you know it! You either care for her enough to keep or you care enough for her to let her go and live her life! You know she cared for you, Louis! Yet you played with her, like a yoyo. You had her coming back; you pulled her in then pushed her away!” Zayn was now standing up. Niall and Louis stared at Zayn.
“Figure your shit out, Tomlinson!” Zayn walked out of the room and slammed the door. Niall looked back at Louis.
“We don’t know much Louis, but we can tell that you’ve been doing this for a while considering Zayn is that upset. The lad hardly gets riled up.” Louis nodded agreeing with him, he had to get all of this straight but right now he could feel his nose swell up and he let out a groan.
x-x
I rolled over in my bunk trying to get some sleep. It was around 2 in the afternoon. We had an eight hour drive to San Francisco and we had been on the road for six hours. We had left LA but it had been a couple of days and we had stopped at various spots and now we were heading to San Francisco, we were driving straight through and I was tired; the heat in California was a lot different from where I lived so I was not used to this. I tossed and turned but nothing was helping. I opened my eyes and sat up. I realized we weren’t going to be able to practice tonight so I would have to practice with Louis before we got there. Louis and I had practiced four times after LA and each time had been awkward and quiet.
Ever since LA we’ve all been a little different with each other. Harry wasn’t as open with me, he still talked to me and we still laughed at stupid things but we both knew it was going to take a while for it to get back to the way it was. Louis wasn’t talking to me, and Niall and Liam were fine with everyone but we hide to hide the secret and I felt horrible for having them be a part of this now. Zayn and Louis were fine but there was still something off and Zayn and Harry were okay, they talked this morning and no one really blamed Zayn, no matter how much he knew.
To make matters worse, when we got to San Francisco we were checking into the hotel and then Louis was going to the airport to pick up Eleanor. Eleanor was coming tonight and I was not ready to talk to her. She may not have known everything but the fact that I did was making me feel guilty. Louis needed to tell her and until he did I was going to sit on the sidelines. I shook my head and jumped out of my bed, landing on my feet. I stretched my limbs and moaned. I walked over to the front of the bus to see if Louis was there. I found him on the couch next to Niall on his phone.
“Louis?” He looked up at me and then looked back down.
“Louis, can we please practice?” I knew he wouldn’t say no because this was for Liam but I also knew he wasn’t going to be happy about it. I heard him sigh but nod before shoving his phone into his pocket. He looked over at Niall. Harry had required someone to always be with us when we practiced now. I felt like I was being baby sat but I figured Harry had his reasons now. Louis on the other hand was not happy; he clearly stated how we wouldn’t be sleeping together anymore. I cleaned up the language a bit but that was his message.
I watched as the two got up and I started walking toward the back of the bus to the room. I opened the door and walked in, seconds later Niall came in and sat in the chair in the corner. Louis soon entered after and closed the door. It was quiet until Niall spoke.
“So do I just sit here and make sure you guys don’t take each other’s pants off?” We both sent him a glare.
“You can go on your phone Niall, hell you could fall asleep but we’re going to be practicing.” He nodded and took out his phone. I turned toward Louis who was standing in front of me. He was staring right at me but he wasn’t saying anything so I just shrugged.
“What are we doing?” He cleared his throat.
“Sing the lyrics back, hit the notes.” I nodded and got into a comfortable stance, he took notice to when I stopped to sing the first lyric.
“Do you know this house is falling apart, can I say this house is falling apart? We got no money but we got heart, heart, heart, we’re going to rattle this ghost town, this house is falling apart…” And that’s how it went for the next hour. None of us talked, the only noise was the rustling from the guys outside and Louis and I singing to each other. So far, I hadn’t messed up and I was glad because that meant I was controlling my voice more.
“Your eyes, they shine so bright. I want to save the light I can’t escape this now, unless you show me how! When you feel my heat, look into my eyes it’s where my demons hide, it’s where my demons hide, don’t get too close, it’s dark inside, it’s where my demons hide, it’s where my demons, hide.” I opened my eyes and saw Louis staring at me with a small smile, one I hadn’t seen in a couple of days.
“You hit that note. I’m proud of you. We’re going to do one more exercise. We’re going to sing a song together but you’re going to sing the part right after mine.” I leaned forward on my knees and looked up at him.
“Will I know the song?” He nodded.
“You ready?” I stood up straight and waited for him to start. When he started signing I could not believe what song he decided to choose.
“People say we shouldn’t be together, too young to know about forever but I say they don’t know what they’re talk talk talking about.” I stared at him completely unhappy. He motioned for me to go and I stood there with my arms crossed. He sighed and continued.
“Cause this love is only getting stronger and I don’t want to wait any longer, I just want to tell the world that your mine girl…”
“Oh they don’t know about the things we do, they don’t know about the I love you’s but I bet you if they only knew, they would just be jealous of us.” I continued. He smiled and walked around me continuing to sing.
“They don’t know about the up all nights, they don’t know I’ve waited all my life just to find a love that feels this right. They don't know about us…” I smirked at him and followed his gaze also moving my body so I could face him.
“Just one touch and I was a believer, every day it gets a little sweeter. It’s getting keeps getting better all the time girl….”
“Oh they don’t know about the things we do they don’t know about the I love you’s but I bet you if they only knew they would just be jealous of us.” He was now right in front of me and I was singing straight at him.
“They don’t know about the up all nights, they don’t know I’ve waited all my life, just to find a love that feels this right. Baby They don’t know about us.”
He stepped forward making me step back.
“They don’t know how special you are, they don’t know what you’ve done to my heart, they can say anything they want because they don’t know us…” I looked at the floor because the way he was singing to me now and the motions he was using with his body, it made me feel like this wasn’t just the song anymore.
“They don’t know what we do best, it’s between me and you our little secret…”He cut my part off by lifting my chin up with two of his fingers making me look at him. He nodded at me to continue singing.
“But I want to tell them I want to tell the world that your mine….” I sang the last line and closed my eyes, the tone was much higher and I had to have the note trail out which I did. I put a hand over my torso cause I could my voice become stronger. I breathed out and opened my eyes but Louis was urging me to continue. He wanted to see how much more I could sing considering that line took a lot of my breath but I pushed through it.
“They don’t know about the things we do, they don’t know about the I love you’s. But I bet you if they only knew, they would just be jealous of us. They don’ t know about the up all nights they don’t know I’ve waited all my life just to find a love to feel this right, baby they don’ t know about us…” I could hear Louis harmonizing after every other lyric and then we switched, he sang the chorus again and I harmonized. When he finished he looked at me waiting for me to finish the last line.
“Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us….they don’t know about us…..” I breathed out and smiled. I could feel my throat which was dry and I had a layer of sweat on me but as I looked at Louis so did he. We were both breathing hard and for that second nothing else mattered, I had hit the notes I needed to hit. I was able to control my voice; I could do this for Liam’s birthday. I jumped up and into his arms; he caught me and spun me around.
“I’m proud of you!”
“Thank you!” Niall cleared his voice from the corner and I completely forgot he was there. I pulled away from Louis and looked at Niall shyly.
“Sorry…” He shook his head; he had a small smile on his face.
“You guys sound good together. I take it this is huge progress?” I nodded happily.
“I could barely keep up before, I had to keep singing the same lyrics over and over but today I got the tones and pitches right, plus I was able to sing a whole song with Louis. Niall, I can do this! I just need to keep practicing!” I practically bounced out of the room.
“Where are you going?” They both stared at me.
“I really need to pee!” I ran out of the room, leaving the two laughing at me.
Niall and Louis stood in the room together and Louis was still staring at the open door. Niall once again cleared his throat. Louis looked back at him confused.
“What?”
“You like her!” Louis rolled his eyes and pulled out his phone.
“You’re crazy, Niall.”
“Yes, Yes I am Louis but that doesn’t change the fact that you like her.” Louis didn’t answer making Niall sigh.
“Fine, don’t admit it but it’s true. Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to go talk to Liam about something.” Louis stared at Niall as he left the room with a giggle. He had some strange friends; he didn’t have time to think about what Niall said because Kat came back in.
“Alright so now what?” Louis threw his phone on the bed.
“We practice some more...”
x-x
“Harry! Hurry up and open the door, my bag is not the lightest!” He shuffled with the card key and slowly put it in.
“That’s what you get for being nice to Paul! He could have done this for us but nooooo you wanted him to take a break!”
“Paul is your security guard not your mommy now open the door!” He grunted and pushed the door open. I literally waited till he was out of the way and then threw my suitcase into the room. We were here for five days so I just took my whole suitcase from the bus. I sighed and closed the door behind me. Harry was already on his bed by the window; I was bunking with him. Niall and Liam were bunking together and Zayn had his room with Josh. Louis had left the minute we got to the hotel to go pick up Eleanor from the airport; they were also sharing a room. I sighed and threw myself on the bed and closed my eyes.
“So, Louis said practice was good today.” I let out a mhmmm.
“Is that all that was good?” I leaned up to look at him.
“Harry, we told you we were going to stop and we did. Plus Niall was in there, give me some credit.”
“Right, sorry.” I lay back down and closed my eyes, but instantly opened them again when Harry asked another question.
“How do you feel about her coming tonight?” I groaned.
“I don’t really want to deal with her Harry. Until Louis tells her she’s not my responsibility.”
“Okay, but that’s not what I meant. Do you feel jealous? Sad?” I leaned up again.
“Are you serious Harry? Of course I’m jealous, of course I’m hurt. They’re sharing a room the whole time they are in San Francisco and they are together so we know what’s going to happen and I have been trying my hardest not to think about out. So can we not talk about it?” Before he could answer there was a knock on the door. Harry got up and answered it but was thrown to the floor when Josh, Liam, Niall, Zayn, Lou, Tom, and Lux came in. The boys had tackled Harry and Lou merely walked around the pile with Lux in her hands to come sit next to me. I laughed and took my god daughter from Lou.
“Hey Lux!” She clapped her hands and grabbed my fingers.
“So what are we doing tonight?!” Niall shouted.
“I thought we were just staying in?” Tom got off of the floor and sat behind Lou, bringing her back with him so she was laying between his legs. He bent down to kiss her making her giggle. I held Lux admiring the two and how in love they were. I sighed and turned my attention back to the little girl who was swooped out of my hands by Harry. I glared at him but he just sent me a cheesy smile. I was then tackled by Josh. I was on the floor on my back with Josh hovering over me.
“Hi Kat!” I raised my eyebrow at him.
“Is there a reason why you’re on top of me?”
“Don’t act like you don’t enjoy it!” Zayn laughed.
“Quiet Malik! And help get Josh off of me!” Niall then jumped on top of Josh which made Josh land flat on me. I coughed out.
“Never!”
“Niall get off!” I then felt more weight get added to the mix.
“Who else is on me now?!” Zayn laughed.
“Sorry, Kat. It was too tempting.” I then groaned out and yelled when I felt a little bit more weight on my ribs.
“Holy balls, who is that?” Lou and Tom were still on the bed laughing.
“It’s Harry and Lux.”
“Guys! I can’t breathe! Let me up!” They were all laughing and every time I laughed I coughed.
“Guys you’re squishing my ovaries and I won’t be able to have babies!” I heard Zayn let out a gasp.
“No! My god Children! I need to save them!” I started laughing as I felt Zayn pushing them off of me.
“Wait, is Lux okay?!”
“I got her!” I heard Tom yell.
“Zayn keep going!” He then yanked Josh off of me and reached down to pick me up.
“Are you okay!!!?” I was crying now because of how hard I was laughing.
“Is your uterus okay?!” I smacked his hand away.
“Ut…er…s” We all turned around to face Lux who was laughing at us.
“Ut..er..us” We started laughing, hard. Lou looked horrified and Tom was laughing with us.
“MALIK!” Zayn immediately ran behind me.
“Save me!”
“I can not believe you just taught my daughter how to say uterus!” There was a knock on the door and I ran from in front of Zayn to go answer it. I’d let Lou deal with him; I started laughing when Harry tackled Zayn to the floor and the two started to wrestle making Lux laugh. I shook my head and opened the door, the smile and the color drained from my face.
“Hello Katherina, long time no see.” There stood Eleanor Calder with Louis behind her. I took in her appearance, her perfect hair done in curls, her makeup was natural and her clothes were wrinkle free. I let out a huge sigh.
“Hello Eleanor.” I then heard a shout and turned to see Harry face down in the carpet with Zayn on his back.
“I am victorious! Kat, who is it?!” I moved out of the way for the rest to see and Zayn immediately stopped cheering.
“Oh fuck…” I heard Niall whisper out. I ran a hand through my hair and ushered the two in. Eleanor went over to say hi to the rest of the boys and Lou and Lux. I closed the door and watched as Louis sat down on the bed. Eleanor brushed past me and sat next to Louis making me immediately go to where Lux was at.
“So…what were you guys doing?”
“We were trying to figure out what to do tonight?” Eleanor giggled.
“Oh well, we’re going out to dinner later so we won’t be able to hang with you guys.” I shook my head as I played with Lux. Louis had yet to say a damn thing.
“That’s okay; I think we were going to just stay in tonight. How was your flight Eleanor?” Lou asked. That was when everyone broke off into their own conversations. I continued to play with Lux until I felt a body sit down next to me. I looked over and saw Zayn. He sent me a smile which I kind of returned. I kept my gaze on Lux who wanted to play with my hair.
It was when I pulled away from Lux’s tiny grasp did I catch a glimpse of the lovely couple. Eleanor was pushing his hair back and laughing at something he said. He had a smile on his face, and then he leaned in to kiss her. I looked away in time but I could feel the tears. I shook my head and poked Lux who poked me back.
“It’ll be okay Kat.” I nodded at Zayn’s words.
“If it’s going to be okay why do I feel so bad about myself?”
“Because you like him Kat, and he’s not yours.” I nodded not saying anything.
“In time, Kat. That’s when it’ll be okay.”
“Just because it’s going to be okay Zayn, doesn’t stop this from being the longest week of my life.” I stood up and picked Lux up.
“Is it okay if I take her for a walk with me around the hotel? I think she’s getting too fussy with this many people in one small room.” She was getting fussy, it wasn’t a lie but I also needed to clear my head. The rest of the boys minus Tom and Josh knew why.
“Yeah, go ahead. Text me where you’re at later for I can go get her or just drop her off at our room.”
“Thanks Lou.” I looked back at Lux.
“You want go for a walk with Kat?” She nodded fast and reached up to grab my shoulder. I smiled and made my way across he bodies that were seated on the floor.
“I’ll be back later. Eleanor, it’s good to see you.” I didn’t wait for her reply. I opened the door and closed it. I walked to the elevator while Lux made noises.
"What are you doing Kat?" I turned around to see Liam.
"I can't deal with this Liam. I needed to get out of there."
"Don't run Kat. You'll get over him and you won't have to deal with this anymore."
"I'm not running Liam. I'll be back. I just, it's going to take me a bit to get used to her being there with him okay? I'll be back soon." I pressed the down button.
I stepped in when the doors opened and pressed the 18 floor. I just needed to get out of there, I watched as the doors closed on Liam. I know I was supposed to be moving on and living my life for me. I know that’s what the boys were rooting for but it was hard, especially when the person you’re moving on from is right there, every day.
“Crying!” I looked down at Lux to see her reaching up to touch the wetness on my cheeks. I sighed, not realizing I was crying.
“Yeah, babe. I’m crying. I’ll be okay though.” She wiped my tears away with her small hands making me smile softly.
“Eventually, I’ll be okay. Just never have feelings for someone, Lux. It’s could either be the best thing that could happen to you or the worst.”
Harry then stopped to truly think about what he was thinking. Louis SHOULD know all these things; he SHOULD know not to mess with people’s feelings. However, Louis was just a 21 one year old boy whose testosterone was high, and even though he claimed he was in love, Harry knew people fell in love all the time. It was one of the reasons why him, himself was still single. He sighed knowing that it still wasn’t an excuse. Harry could see the hurt on his sister’s face. He could see the walls come down around her and in those few moments he saw his sister, granted she was older but he still saw his sister need protection and help. He could see the pain and all of her emotions come to the surface and it didn’t sit well with Harry that Louis was a part of the reason. Harry couldn’t completely blame him considering Kat could have stopped it but she didn’t. She too was in the wrong.
Harry scanned the living room as he looked over the crowd of bodies talking and dancing. He then found his target; Louis sat on the couch talking to one of Logan’s friends. Every now and then he glanced at his phone. Harry started making his way, pushing past the bodies and over to where Louis sat.
“Hey.” Louis looked up and smiled at Harry. Harry barely returned it.
“Harry, what’s up?”
“Can I talk to you for a minute?” Louis looked at Harry unsure about the whole thing. But Harry was one of his best friends, so he nodded. Louis turned back to the person he was talking to and told them he would be back in a bit. Louis then nodded at Harry, who was soon making his way back through the crowd and up the stairs, with a Louis following behind him. Harry still hadn’t said anything and led him to the room he was previously in. He let Louis go first and opened the door. Louis gave him a confused look and walked in anyway.
Louis walked in and looked around. He looked at the bed and saw Liam, Niall and Zayn sitting on the bed. Then he saw Kat sitting with her back leaning against the headboard with a shocked face. Now he knew this wasn’t good. Louis turned back to Harry.
“Harry, mate. What’s going on-“ Harry, ignoring the four bodies on the bed kicked Louis as hard as he could in the shin. Louis jumped back.
“Fuck,”
“That’s for cheating on your girlfriend.” Harry leaned up and kicked him in the other one.
“That’s for sleeping with my sister.” Louis tried to stand up as he gripped the edge of the bed post.
“Harry, I can-“ Harry then pulled his arm back and punched Louis in the nose. Not hard enough to break it but hard enough for it to bruise.
“And that’s for leaving her after you told her you cared.”
x-x
I watched as harry punched Louis in the face. The boys let out a chorus of ‘ohh’s” making me cringe. My brother boxed as a hobby so I knew he knew how to punch. Louis let out a yell and grabbed his nose with his hand.
“You broke my nose!” Harry snorted.
“You’re lucky if that’s all I broke. Fix this mess Tomlinson. Tell Eleanor and leave my sister alone. We can’t let this get out, fix the havoc you two have created.” He looked back at me and then walked out of the room. I immediately got off of the bed and went over to Louis’s side.
“I’m so sorry. I didn’t know-“
“You weren’t supposed to tell him!” I shook my head.
“I know, I’m sorry but he found out!”
“We made a promise!” I shook my head again; I was not going to have him yell at me. He leaned up and glared at me.
“Louis let’s talk about this after we take care of your nose. Liam can you go run and make sure Harry is okay?” I knew Liam was good at calming people down. H nodded and made his way out of the room.
“Niall, go get some ice and ask Carlos or Alexa for a towel. Zayn prop up the pillows on the head board.” The two boys scrambled to do what they were told.
“Louis, tilt your head back if your nose is bleeding.” He did as he was told. I led him to the bed and had him lean back. Niall soon came back with ice and a towel. He handed it to me and sat next to Louis on the bed. I wrapped the ice in the towel and pulled Louis’s hand away from his face. I gently placed the bag of ice on his nose making him jerk back and curse.
“It hurts!”
“Then stop moving for I can make it not hurt!” He glared at me and I glared back. He finally sighed and nodded but kept his gaze on me. I leaned his head back and told him to keep the ice pack there.
“What the hell am I supposed to tell Eleanor?” I shrugged not really giving a damn.
“The truth?” Niall asked.
“So you guys all know?” Niall nodded.
“Louis, it’s not a big deal. We just can’t-“
“Easy for you to say Kat, you don’t have a boyfriend to hide this from!” I flinched at his tone.
“You know what Louis? I don’t feel bad for you, you knew what was going to happen if anyone found out yet you kept pursuing me. So, you know what, tell Eleanor the truth! Be honest for once!” I got off of the bed and headed out the door. I was going back to the tour bus; I wasn’t doing this anymore tonight.
Louis sat there with a shocked look on his face. He couldn’t believe they knew, the awkwardness settled in and Zayn and Niall had no idea what to say.
“How did Harry find out?” He could hear Zayn sigh and titled his head to look over at him.
“Kat was talking to me about you and something you said and she didn’t hear the rest of them come in. Harry was standing there.” Louis nodded.
“How bad do you think this is going to affect all of us?” Niall shrugged.
“I think we’re all just more hurt with Kat and you for hiding it. I mean we can’t really be mad at Zayn, it wasn’t his business. And you Lou, I mean you know better.” Louis groaned throwing his head back; he should have known this speech was coming.
He knew what he had to do but he just didn’t know if he could do it. He had to end things once and for all with Kat and he had to tell Eleanor. Eleanor. He had barely talked to her and she was coming in the next couple of days, he did love her. That was never going to be a doubt, but how much did he love her when he had to find pleasure in another woman?
“Louis, tell us one thing.” Louis shifted his head up a little bit waiting for Niall to finish.
“Do you truly not care about her?” He sighed and closed his eyes.
“It’s complicated…it’s-“
“No it’s not Louis and you know it! You either care for her enough to keep or you care enough for her to let her go and live her life! You know she cared for you, Louis! Yet you played with her, like a yoyo. You had her coming back; you pulled her in then pushed her away!” Zayn was now standing up. Niall and Louis stared at Zayn.
“Figure your shit out, Tomlinson!” Zayn walked out of the room and slammed the door. Niall looked back at Louis.
“We don’t know much Louis, but we can tell that you’ve been doing this for a while considering Zayn is that upset. The lad hardly gets riled up.” Louis nodded agreeing with him, he had to get all of this straight but right now he could feel his nose swell up and he let out a groan.
x-x
I rolled over in my bunk trying to get some sleep. It was around 2 in the afternoon. We had an eight hour drive to San Francisco and we had been on the road for six hours. We had left LA but it had been a couple of days and we had stopped at various spots and now we were heading to San Francisco, we were driving straight through and I was tired; the heat in California was a lot different from where I lived so I was not used to this. I tossed and turned but nothing was helping. I opened my eyes and sat up. I realized we weren’t going to be able to practice tonight so I would have to practice with Louis before we got there. Louis and I had practiced four times after LA and each time had been awkward and quiet.
Ever since LA we’ve all been a little different with each other. Harry wasn’t as open with me, he still talked to me and we still laughed at stupid things but we both knew it was going to take a while for it to get back to the way it was. Louis wasn’t talking to me, and Niall and Liam were fine with everyone but we hide to hide the secret and I felt horrible for having them be a part of this now. Zayn and Louis were fine but there was still something off and Zayn and Harry were okay, they talked this morning and no one really blamed Zayn, no matter how much he knew.
To make matters worse, when we got to San Francisco we were checking into the hotel and then Louis was going to the airport to pick up Eleanor. Eleanor was coming tonight and I was not ready to talk to her. She may not have known everything but the fact that I did was making me feel guilty. Louis needed to tell her and until he did I was going to sit on the sidelines. I shook my head and jumped out of my bed, landing on my feet. I stretched my limbs and moaned. I walked over to the front of the bus to see if Louis was there. I found him on the couch next to Niall on his phone.
“Louis?” He looked up at me and then looked back down.
“Louis, can we please practice?” I knew he wouldn’t say no because this was for Liam but I also knew he wasn’t going to be happy about it. I heard him sigh but nod before shoving his phone into his pocket. He looked over at Niall. Harry had required someone to always be with us when we practiced now. I felt like I was being baby sat but I figured Harry had his reasons now. Louis on the other hand was not happy; he clearly stated how we wouldn’t be sleeping together anymore. I cleaned up the language a bit but that was his message.
I watched as the two got up and I started walking toward the back of the bus to the room. I opened the door and walked in, seconds later Niall came in and sat in the chair in the corner. Louis soon entered after and closed the door. It was quiet until Niall spoke.
“So do I just sit here and make sure you guys don’t take each other’s pants off?” We both sent him a glare.
“You can go on your phone Niall, hell you could fall asleep but we’re going to be practicing.” He nodded and took out his phone. I turned toward Louis who was standing in front of me. He was staring right at me but he wasn’t saying anything so I just shrugged.
“What are we doing?” He cleared his throat.
“Sing the lyrics back, hit the notes.” I nodded and got into a comfortable stance, he took notice to when I stopped to sing the first lyric.
“Do you know this house is falling apart, can I say this house is falling apart? We got no money but we got heart, heart, heart, we’re going to rattle this ghost town, this house is falling apart…” And that’s how it went for the next hour. None of us talked, the only noise was the rustling from the guys outside and Louis and I singing to each other. So far, I hadn’t messed up and I was glad because that meant I was controlling my voice more.
“Your eyes, they shine so bright. I want to save the light I can’t escape this now, unless you show me how! When you feel my heat, look into my eyes it’s where my demons hide, it’s where my demons hide, don’t get too close, it’s dark inside, it’s where my demons hide, it’s where my demons, hide.” I opened my eyes and saw Louis staring at me with a small smile, one I hadn’t seen in a couple of days.
“You hit that note. I’m proud of you. We’re going to do one more exercise. We’re going to sing a song together but you’re going to sing the part right after mine.” I leaned forward on my knees and looked up at him.
“Will I know the song?” He nodded.
“You ready?” I stood up straight and waited for him to start. When he started signing I could not believe what song he decided to choose.
“People say we shouldn’t be together, too young to know about forever but I say they don’t know what they’re talk talk talking about.” I stared at him completely unhappy. He motioned for me to go and I stood there with my arms crossed. He sighed and continued.
“Cause this love is only getting stronger and I don’t want to wait any longer, I just want to tell the world that your mine girl…”
“Oh they don’t know about the things we do, they don’t know about the I love you’s but I bet you if they only knew, they would just be jealous of us.” I continued. He smiled and walked around me continuing to sing.
“They don’t know about the up all nights, they don’t know I’ve waited all my life just to find a love that feels this right. They don't know about us…” I smirked at him and followed his gaze also moving my body so I could face him.
“Just one touch and I was a believer, every day it gets a little sweeter. It’s getting keeps getting better all the time girl….”
“Oh they don’t know about the things we do they don’t know about the I love you’s but I bet you if they only knew they would just be jealous of us.” He was now right in front of me and I was singing straight at him.
“They don’t know about the up all nights, they don’t know I’ve waited all my life, just to find a love that feels this right. Baby They don’t know about us.”
He stepped forward making me step back.
“They don’t know how special you are, they don’t know what you’ve done to my heart, they can say anything they want because they don’t know us…” I looked at the floor because the way he was singing to me now and the motions he was using with his body, it made me feel like this wasn’t just the song anymore.
“They don’t know what we do best, it’s between me and you our little secret…”He cut my part off by lifting my chin up with two of his fingers making me look at him. He nodded at me to continue singing.
“But I want to tell them I want to tell the world that your mine….” I sang the last line and closed my eyes, the tone was much higher and I had to have the note trail out which I did. I put a hand over my torso cause I could my voice become stronger. I breathed out and opened my eyes but Louis was urging me to continue. He wanted to see how much more I could sing considering that line took a lot of my breath but I pushed through it.
“They don’t know about the things we do, they don’t know about the I love you’s. But I bet you if they only knew, they would just be jealous of us. They don’ t know about the up all nights they don’t know I’ve waited all my life just to find a love to feel this right, baby they don’ t know about us…” I could hear Louis harmonizing after every other lyric and then we switched, he sang the chorus again and I harmonized. When he finished he looked at me waiting for me to finish the last line.
“Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us….they don’t know about us…..” I breathed out and smiled. I could feel my throat which was dry and I had a layer of sweat on me but as I looked at Louis so did he. We were both breathing hard and for that second nothing else mattered, I had hit the notes I needed to hit. I was able to control my voice; I could do this for Liam’s birthday. I jumped up and into his arms; he caught me and spun me around.
“I’m proud of you!”
“Thank you!” Niall cleared his voice from the corner and I completely forgot he was there. I pulled away from Louis and looked at Niall shyly.
“Sorry…” He shook his head; he had a small smile on his face.
“You guys sound good together. I take it this is huge progress?” I nodded happily.
“I could barely keep up before, I had to keep singing the same lyrics over and over but today I got the tones and pitches right, plus I was able to sing a whole song with Louis. Niall, I can do this! I just need to keep practicing!” I practically bounced out of the room.
“Where are you going?” They both stared at me.
“I really need to pee!” I ran out of the room, leaving the two laughing at me.
Niall and Louis stood in the room together and Louis was still staring at the open door. Niall once again cleared his throat. Louis looked back at him confused.
“What?”
“You like her!” Louis rolled his eyes and pulled out his phone.
“You’re crazy, Niall.”
“Yes, Yes I am Louis but that doesn’t change the fact that you like her.” Louis didn’t answer making Niall sigh.
“Fine, don’t admit it but it’s true. Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to go talk to Liam about something.” Louis stared at Niall as he left the room with a giggle. He had some strange friends; he didn’t have time to think about what Niall said because Kat came back in.
“Alright so now what?” Louis threw his phone on the bed.
“We practice some more...”
x-x
“Harry! Hurry up and open the door, my bag is not the lightest!” He shuffled with the card key and slowly put it in.
“That’s what you get for being nice to Paul! He could have done this for us but nooooo you wanted him to take a break!”
“Paul is your security guard not your mommy now open the door!” He grunted and pushed the door open. I literally waited till he was out of the way and then threw my suitcase into the room. We were here for five days so I just took my whole suitcase from the bus. I sighed and closed the door behind me. Harry was already on his bed by the window; I was bunking with him. Niall and Liam were bunking together and Zayn had his room with Josh. Louis had left the minute we got to the hotel to go pick up Eleanor from the airport; they were also sharing a room. I sighed and threw myself on the bed and closed my eyes.
“So, Louis said practice was good today.” I let out a mhmmm.
“Is that all that was good?” I leaned up to look at him.
“Harry, we told you we were going to stop and we did. Plus Niall was in there, give me some credit.”
“Right, sorry.” I lay back down and closed my eyes, but instantly opened them again when Harry asked another question.
“How do you feel about her coming tonight?” I groaned.
“I don’t really want to deal with her Harry. Until Louis tells her she’s not my responsibility.”
“Okay, but that’s not what I meant. Do you feel jealous? Sad?” I leaned up again.
“Are you serious Harry? Of course I’m jealous, of course I’m hurt. They’re sharing a room the whole time they are in San Francisco and they are together so we know what’s going to happen and I have been trying my hardest not to think about out. So can we not talk about it?” Before he could answer there was a knock on the door. Harry got up and answered it but was thrown to the floor when Josh, Liam, Niall, Zayn, Lou, Tom, and Lux came in. The boys had tackled Harry and Lou merely walked around the pile with Lux in her hands to come sit next to me. I laughed and took my god daughter from Lou.
“Hey Lux!” She clapped her hands and grabbed my fingers.
“So what are we doing tonight?!” Niall shouted.
“I thought we were just staying in?” Tom got off of the floor and sat behind Lou, bringing her back with him so she was laying between his legs. He bent down to kiss her making her giggle. I held Lux admiring the two and how in love they were. I sighed and turned my attention back to the little girl who was swooped out of my hands by Harry. I glared at him but he just sent me a cheesy smile. I was then tackled by Josh. I was on the floor on my back with Josh hovering over me.
“Hi Kat!” I raised my eyebrow at him.
“Is there a reason why you’re on top of me?”
“Don’t act like you don’t enjoy it!” Zayn laughed.
“Quiet Malik! And help get Josh off of me!” Niall then jumped on top of Josh which made Josh land flat on me. I coughed out.
“Never!”
“Niall get off!” I then felt more weight get added to the mix.
“Who else is on me now?!” Zayn laughed.
“Sorry, Kat. It was too tempting.” I then groaned out and yelled when I felt a little bit more weight on my ribs.
“Holy balls, who is that?” Lou and Tom were still on the bed laughing.
“It’s Harry and Lux.”
“Guys! I can’t breathe! Let me up!” They were all laughing and every time I laughed I coughed.
“Guys you’re squishing my ovaries and I won’t be able to have babies!” I heard Zayn let out a gasp.
“No! My god Children! I need to save them!” I started laughing as I felt Zayn pushing them off of me.
“Wait, is Lux okay?!”
“I got her!” I heard Tom yell.
“Zayn keep going!” He then yanked Josh off of me and reached down to pick me up.
“Are you okay!!!?” I was crying now because of how hard I was laughing.
“Is your uterus okay?!” I smacked his hand away.
“Ut…er…s” We all turned around to face Lux who was laughing at us.
“Ut..er..us” We started laughing, hard. Lou looked horrified and Tom was laughing with us.
“MALIK!” Zayn immediately ran behind me.
“Save me!”
“I can not believe you just taught my daughter how to say uterus!” There was a knock on the door and I ran from in front of Zayn to go answer it. I’d let Lou deal with him; I started laughing when Harry tackled Zayn to the floor and the two started to wrestle making Lux laugh. I shook my head and opened the door, the smile and the color drained from my face.
“Hello Katherina, long time no see.” There stood Eleanor Calder with Louis behind her. I took in her appearance, her perfect hair done in curls, her makeup was natural and her clothes were wrinkle free. I let out a huge sigh.
“Hello Eleanor.” I then heard a shout and turned to see Harry face down in the carpet with Zayn on his back.
“I am victorious! Kat, who is it?!” I moved out of the way for the rest to see and Zayn immediately stopped cheering.
“Oh fuck…” I heard Niall whisper out. I ran a hand through my hair and ushered the two in. Eleanor went over to say hi to the rest of the boys and Lou and Lux. I closed the door and watched as Louis sat down on the bed. Eleanor brushed past me and sat next to Louis making me immediately go to where Lux was at.
“So…what were you guys doing?”
“We were trying to figure out what to do tonight?” Eleanor giggled.
“Oh well, we’re going out to dinner later so we won’t be able to hang with you guys.” I shook my head as I played with Lux. Louis had yet to say a damn thing.
“That’s okay; I think we were going to just stay in tonight. How was your flight Eleanor?” Lou asked. That was when everyone broke off into their own conversations. I continued to play with Lux until I felt a body sit down next to me. I looked over and saw Zayn. He sent me a smile which I kind of returned. I kept my gaze on Lux who wanted to play with my hair.
It was when I pulled away from Lux’s tiny grasp did I catch a glimpse of the lovely couple. Eleanor was pushing his hair back and laughing at something he said. He had a smile on his face, and then he leaned in to kiss her. I looked away in time but I could feel the tears. I shook my head and poked Lux who poked me back.
“It’ll be okay Kat.” I nodded at Zayn’s words.
“If it’s going to be okay why do I feel so bad about myself?”
“Because you like him Kat, and he’s not yours.” I nodded not saying anything.
“In time, Kat. That’s when it’ll be okay.”
“Just because it’s going to be okay Zayn, doesn’t stop this from being the longest week of my life.” I stood up and picked Lux up.
“Is it okay if I take her for a walk with me around the hotel? I think she’s getting too fussy with this many people in one small room.” She was getting fussy, it wasn’t a lie but I also needed to clear my head. The rest of the boys minus Tom and Josh knew why.
“Yeah, go ahead. Text me where you’re at later for I can go get her or just drop her off at our room.”
“Thanks Lou.” I looked back at Lux.
“You want go for a walk with Kat?” She nodded fast and reached up to grab my shoulder. I smiled and made my way across he bodies that were seated on the floor.
“I’ll be back later. Eleanor, it’s good to see you.” I didn’t wait for her reply. I opened the door and closed it. I walked to the elevator while Lux made noises.
"What are you doing Kat?" I turned around to see Liam.
"I can't deal with this Liam. I needed to get out of there."
"Don't run Kat. You'll get over him and you won't have to deal with this anymore."
"I'm not running Liam. I'll be back. I just, it's going to take me a bit to get used to her being there with him okay? I'll be back soon." I pressed the down button.
I stepped in when the doors opened and pressed the 18 floor. I just needed to get out of there, I watched as the doors closed on Liam. I know I was supposed to be moving on and living my life for me. I know that’s what the boys were rooting for but it was hard, especially when the person you’re moving on from is right there, every day.
“Crying!” I looked down at Lux to see her reaching up to touch the wetness on my cheeks. I sighed, not realizing I was crying.
“Yeah, babe. I’m crying. I’ll be okay though.” She wiped my tears away with her small hands making me smile softly.
“Eventually, I’ll be okay. Just never have feelings for someone, Lux. It’s could either be the best thing that could happen to you or the worst.”
Notes
She's finally here.I am sorry if you read this before and it was all retarded. It decided to copy it a billion times but it's fixed now.
By the way I thinking about putting another one direction story out, with vampire, werewolves and hybrids. It'll be darker than what you guys think and it'll probably be about Louis again.
Let me know if you guys would check it out.
I hope you all enjoyed this.
I am super excited for the next couple of chapters.
I want them to be perfect so I'm going to be spending some time on them.
Don't worry, they'll be more confrontation between Kat and Louis.
Eleanor is also going to be playing a big part soon so be prepared.
I have big plans for my characters, don't worry.
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3/26/14