I curled up into my couch, a bowl of popcorn in my lap and Peter Pan playing on my dvd player. Yes, I was having a Disney movie marathon. I was not feeling too well and I had a headache. I had a meeting with the editors of a publication that I had applied for. It was a full time internship and by the interview, it seemed like it went well. As I came home though, my head started to hurt so I decided to just to relax. I smiled at Tinkerbell and how she was so sassy to Wendy. Tinkerbell was always my favorite; as Peter Pan banished Tink there was a knock on my door.

I stared at the hallway leading to the door. I wasn’t expecting anyone over tonight given, I was wearing a sports bra and some of my under armor shorts. They were more like boy shorts just tighter. I was comfortable and not impressing anyone, but clearly the universe had other plans.

I finally got up and headed toward my door, stretching on my way over. I looked through the peephole to see Louis. He was standing there with his hands in his pockets, a grey beanie on his head and his black ‘The Killers’ shirt covering his torso. I unlocked the door and opened it. He looked up from his feet and sent me a smile.

“Hello, Kat.”

“Hello, Louis. Would you like to come in?” We had only hung out a few times before since I met him. Other than those times Harry had always been with us. Louis walked in and took in my dress attire. I shifted my weight and shrugged.

“I wasn’t expecting anyone.” He continued into my living room as I closed the door. I followed his trail and saw him sitting on blood red couch. He looked from me to my tv.

“OOOOH, Peter Pan.” I laughed and watched him.

“Louis, not that I don’t like you, but what are you doing here?” He looked back at me as I sat on the recliner.

“El and I got into a fight.” He didn’t say anything else. I nodded hopping he’d continue but he didn’t.

“So you’re just going to crash here?” He shrugged.

“I can’t find any of the guys.” I laughed and adjusted my legs.

“Harry’s with my mom, Zayn is with Niall. Liam’s with Danielle.” He nodded.

“And you?”

“I am here because I didn’t feel like going out nor do I have a boyfriend.”

“And why don’t you?” I shrugged.

“Not worth it.”

“You can say that again.” I looked at him.

“Haven’t you and El only been together for like two months?” He nodded.

“Yeah.”

“Then how are you two already fighting this much?”

“She’s worried about when we go on tour in America. She wants to go but I told her no, that management wouldn’t let her stay the whole time. I mean we barely got Tom to go with Lou and Lux.”

I didn’t say anything because I knew El was wrong. They just got together, she shouldn’t be demanding but then again I could also understand where she was coming from, even though I never really had a friendship with her. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair.

“Well, I mean just talk to her tomorrow. Give her time to cool off.” He nodded and looked back at the tv. I could tell he didn’t want to talk anymore, we fell into a comfortable silence while we watched Peter Pan. The movie was soon over and I looked at the clock which read 10:45pm.

“Alright, I’m going to go make some tea and then head to bed. Do you want any? You could stay here till when ever. You can watch tv or sleep.”

“I’ll take some tea.” I nodded then made my way to the kitchen.

The fact that Louis was here sent a small spark off excitement through my body and my smile grew just a tad bit wider.

I had always had a tiny curch on Louis but I never made a move because when I first met him he was dating Hannah, then when they broke up he immediately started dating Eleanor. I met him right after they won x-factor a year ago. I was now 19, Louis was 19 and Harry was now 17. I sighed and looked at the clock realizing I had class at 11am. I put the tea bags into the cups and stirred.

Then I felt it, I felt two hands slip their way around my bare waist.

“Louis, what are you doing?” He leaned closer to my neck and planted butterfly kisses down my neck. I sighed and closed my eyes. I leaned into his body and gripped the counter as his hands continued to run up and down my body. I could feel his soft hands slide into my shorts. He grazed over my panties and I groaned. My breathing was hard and my face felt flushed. I gripped onto his wrist and moaned as I felt him palm me through my panties.

“Louis…stop.”

“Why, Kat? You know you want it.” I closed my eyes trying to get my breathing steady.

“It doesn’t have to be serious Kat. A quick Shag, that’s it. You’re single, my girlfriend doesn’t want me tonight. It’ll just be physical.” He hand slipped into the front of my panties and I could feel my hips buck as his fingers grazed my slit.

“Fuck…okay. Louis, okay…just do something.” I nodded and leaned back into his body.

x-x

I sat on the bed staring at Harry. He was standing in front of me running a hand through his curls. The party was still going strong and we could hear the music and laughter but we still stayed glued to our spots.

“You were 19 when you started this?” I nodded, almost regretting telling him how it first started.

“Harry-“

“Give me a second, Kat.” He looked so confused and betrayed. His voice was still stern and he let out a huge sigh. I threw myself back on the bed and let out a groan. I stared at the ceiling waiting for him to say something. I had told him about the first time we slept together, how it continued on, all of our fights, Eleanor confronting me and even the hotel room when Louis left me. I even told him what has happened recently.

“You’re done?” I leaned up when I heard his voice. He was looking straight at me. I nodded.

“No, not with telling me. I mean are you done with him?” I looked at his face and could see the disappointment on his face.

“Harry, look-“

“You’re going to keep this charade up?! Katherina, you’re ruining a relationship. You’re making things harder and for what? Sex? A quick Shag? For Louis Tomlinson? I understand, I love the lad but he’s not worth this. You’re hurting Eleanor! Don’t be a whore, Kat! Don’t be that home wrecker.” He was yelling at me and I hated it.

I hated the fact that he was angry, I hated the fact that he called me a whore and a home wrecker. I hated the fact that I was getting the full blow of this outcome. But most of all I hated myself because I put myself in this position and I could have stopped it. I could feel the tears reach my eyes but I did my best to not let them fall. I let out a shaky breath and prepared myself for what I was about to tell my brother.

“I think I’m in love.” Harry stopped talking and stared at me.

“What.” I shook my head.

“No, that came out wrong. I think I could fall in love with him. I just have really strong feelings for him, Harry. It’s more than just a crush. I care about him a lot but he doesn’t care. I already told you about the hotel room. He just left.”

“Louis isn’t heartless though. He wouldn’t do that without a reason.” I shrugged.

“I’m numb when it comes to him. I’m tired of getting hurt.” It got quiet.

“It’s been hard, Harry. You think I like to be used? You think I like being second best to EL? Yes, the sex is good but that’s not the reason why I’ve kept this going for so long. I can be close to him, Harry. Feelings or not. If I wasn’t sleeping with him, he wouldn’t pay any attention to me and I’d still be just your sister. It’s stupid I know but I am a girl and I have feelings.” By now I was crying. I felt so overwhelmed.

“Do you know what it’s like to want someone you can’t have? Do you know what it’s like to feel this every day and have no one but Zayn for support? Granted, he’s been amazing. But still, I haven’t said anything for so long. I haven’t’ said any of this out loud because I’m scared. Saying this all out loud and admitting all of it means it’s real. And because this is real, it means I can get hurt worse than I already have.” I now had tears running down my face and I could feel my makeup get ruined even more. Harry was quiet and I put my head in my hands.

I then felt two arms cradle me into their chest and I leaned in even more. I needed my big brother now. I had gone far too long without him. I sniffed and pulled away.

“Please don’t be mad.” I could feel him sigh.

“I’m not happy. What you’ve been doing isn’t right and I am a little disappointed but I’m not mad.” I nodded, there was an ache in my chest after hearing him say he was disappointed .

“But I also understand where you’re coming from Kat. You can’t help who you have feelings for. But it needs to stop. You’re going to keep ruining this relationship.”

“But it’s not just me-“

“I know, don’t worry. I’m going to have a little talk with Louis but we can let this get out. It’ll destroy you and Louis.” I nodded agreeing with him. It’ll ruin our reputations and our careers and I didn’t want that for any of us.

Harry pulled away a bit and I wiped my eyes. I was feeling a little better, it felt like a small weight on my shoulders had been lifted. He stood up and offered his hand to me.

“Like I said, I don’t fully trust you Kat. You’re my sister and you betrayed that trust and lied to me but you’re my family and I’ll always love you and I’ll be here when you need me. Just don’t push me anymore Kat. Okay?” I nodded and took his hand. He pulled me up and I hugged my brother one last time. He smiled down at me and went to open the door.

“I’m going to go find Louis, and have a little talk with him.”

“Just don’t mention to him about my feelings, Harry. Please. He may already know but I don’t want it to be brought up again.”

“Alright Kat.”

I nodded and watched as he opened the door but when he opened it three bodies came tumbling forward one on top of another. Harry and I looked down at the pile. Liam was at the bottom then it was Zayn and then Niall. I raised my eyebrow at them.

“I told them it was a bad idea!” Liam shouted.

“How much of that did you guys hear?” Harry asked with his hands on his hips.

“How mad would you be if we said the whole thing?” Zayn asked with a small smile.

“Pretty mad.” I answered.

“Then we only heard the last two minutes?” Niall asked. I glared down at the boys.

“Kat take care of these three, I’m going to go find Louis.” I nodded and glared down at the three. I watched as they got up and closed the door behind Harry.

“How could you guys be eaves dropping?”

“How could you have not told us about you and Louis!” I stayed quiet.

“I didn’t want it to become a big deal. I’m sorry you guys.” Niall shook his head.

“How could you tell Zayn? And not me?” I looked at him.

“I didn’t tell Zayn. Zayn found out and confronted us about it. No one was ever supposed to know. Like I said Niall, I’m sorry. But this can’t get out, If it does we’re all screwed. It’ll affect Louis but it will in some way affect you guys by association.” They looked at each other.

“Good point.” I sighed.

“Well, there’s nothing else to say. You guys know everything now so I don’t-“

“We want to help.” I looked at Liam.

“Help with what?”

“With you and Louis.” I stared all three of them confused.

“With what?!”

“He walked out on you, Kat. Now, you haven’t been living your life. Sometimes to gain someone’s attention you have to stop giving them yours and that’s exactly what we’re going to do. Louis does have feelings for you but there’s something holding him back.” I stared at Zayn.

“Yeah, her names Eleanor.”

“Come on, Kat. He says he loves her but as much as they fight? No something else is holding him back and we can all see it now. So we’re going to help you.”

“Do what exactly?”

“Stop walking on eggshells around him. Stop doing things for him, stop giving him the satisfaction that you still think about him. Sooner or later he’ll realize he wants to be with you and he’ll have to finally make that choice. We love Louis, Kat but what he’s doing isn’t right.” I looked back at Zayn.

“So you’re going to continue getting lessons from him but you’re also going to start living your life and showing him what he missed out on.” I stared at the three boys ahead of me.

What they were proposing to me was an amazing gesture. However, I had a bad feeling about this. I loved these guys with everything in me but this plan just didn’t seem right. Was I that caught up in Louis that I needed this? This was either going to end really well or really horrible and there could only be one ending. However as I stuck my hand out, I realized they were right. I needed to start living for me.

“Alright, you boys have yourself a deal.” I shook Niall’s hand as he stuck his out to shake mine. I smiled not knowing that I was just digging myself into a deeper hole and that the three boys in front of me were possibly going to go down with me.

Notes

This is super short and I'm so sorry.
The next part will be longer I promise.
The next part will have the Harry and Louis confrontation and the Louis and Kat confrontation.
Once again I'm sorry about it being so short.
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