I closed my laptop feeling satisfied with the fact that I’ve finished the first part of the article for my magazine. I had sent it to my editor, who loved it. He said it would be published in next month’s issue and that I’ve had to have the second part done by next month. I drank the tea from my cup and looked out the window watching the empty highway. It was around 6 in the morning and the sun hadn’t even come up. I had woken up around 5:30am and my insomnia was acting up; I had run out of pills awhile back and I forgot to pick some up.

I sighed and snuggled into my oversized sweat shirt some more. We were on our way to LA, but we were in no rush considering the boys didn’t have another show for a couple of days.
I heard shuffling and watched as a body emerged from the bunk area. I immediately looked away and opened up my laptop again when I noticed Louis was walking toward me.

I hadn’t talked to him in over two weeks and I had been avoiding him every time he tried to talk to me. I was still hurt and every word he said stuck in my mind. I had decided I was going to hold my ground, because Louis, right now was bad for me. I had lied to Harry about that night and told him I broke a glass in my room which is why I had cut my feet. I blamed it on the fact that I was too drunk to remember it and Zayn had helped me. Harry bought it.

I decided to log onto my twitter and noticed one of my tweets had gotten more retweets and favorites. It was a picture of me and Harry and on the bottom it read: baby brother. It was taken two nights ago when we had our movie night and I had my head on Harry’s shoulder. I had a hundred or so mentions saying how cute we looked or “how sexy” Harry looked. I laughed a little at the comments and signed out. When I closed my laptop I came face to face with Louis. I hadn’t even noticed he sat down. He sat across from me, staring right at me. My eyes narrowed as I glared into his blue ones. I was not doing this.

I got up, leaving my tea there and went to go back to my bunk. As I walked past him, I heard his words. His voice was practically dripping with venom.

“So, you’re shagging my mate now? That’s low, even for you sweetheart.” I rolled my eyes, ignoring him. I didn’t answer because I knew it was what he wanted. I threw my laptop on the bed and decided to go lay down with Harry in his bunk. The past couple of days I had been sleeping in the same bunk, I felt safe with my brother. I could feel the guilt eating away at me and every time, I wanted to cry. The hug from my brother always made me feel better, but this time it just made it worse knowing he was the one I was lying to. I was going to jump into the bunk until I felt someone’s hand grab my thigh making me almost scream.
My bunk was over Zayn’s so I pulled back the curtain to see a half awake Zayn. His face was half in his pillow and his hair was sticking up, his eyes were barely open.

“Hi Zayn,”

“Hey Love, What are you doing up?”

“What are you doing up?”

“I could hear your brain ticking. Come here.” I watched as he moved over to the wall. I sighed and crawled into the bunk unsure if I should be doing this, considering Louis already thinks I’m sleeping with him. I then shook my head knowing I needed to stop and made myself comfortable. I lay facing him and he faced me on his side. We didn’t say anything to each other for couple of minutes.

“You know everything he said, he was wrong about.” He was whispering and I knew why. The boys were still asleep. We listened out for the snoring and any footsteps but we didn’t hear anything.

“He’s right though, Zayn. I’m nothing but Harry’s sister.” He closed his eyes.

“I’m not going to argue about this, you’re amazing Kat. You can handle all five of us and still do your job at the end of the day. You have a big heart. You just made a mistake. Sometimes we can’t help who we have feelings for. I’m not saying what you did was right, I mean think about if the roles were reversed and you were El. But Kat, I also understand that it’s not 100 percent you’re fault. Louis had a big part-“ He stopped talking and I could hear the snores still. He was just making sure.

“But now all you can do is stop this. You can’t walk around mopey or else Harry will start to notice. Hang out with Niall, that poor boy has missed you so much.” I looked up at Zayn, I didn’t realize how long it’s been since I hung out with Niall.

“Did he-“

“No, he didn’t say anything, but he was your best friend Kat and then all your attention was focused on Louis and you let it slip away.” I closed my eyes knowing he was right because I did let my friendships slowly slip away from me without me realizing it.

“I guess, you’re right on that. I’ll just have to work on that then instead of worrying about my feelings.” I let out a sigh and a small whine.

“Zaaayn, how do I even get over someone who I was never officially with?” He groaned and slipped a hand over my waist.

“That’s a tough one, it took me awhile to get over Perrie but we were together. I think you just have to let go.” I cuddled into his chest, glad that he was willing to listen to me and talk some sense into me. His words were simple and I knew they were easier said than done. However, I was determined to get over Louis. I couldn’t keep waiting around for him and sneaking behind El’s and my brother’s back, it was wrong.

“Thanks Zayn,” I could feel him smile.

“For what love?”

“For being here.” He let out a sigh and kissed the top of my head. Zayn may have been portrayed as the bad boy of the group or the quiet one, which wasn’t a lie. He could be quiet when he wanted to be but he also was very protective of his friends, which I was grateful for right now.

“You know we love you Kitty Kat. But there is one more thing I have to tell you, I’m assuming Louis hasn’t told you yet.” I shifted in the position we were in to look up at his face. He looked so serious making me my stomach tighten with knots.

“Zayn?” He sighed and closed his eyes.

“Eleanor is coming I think to the next dates after the LA ones.” I felt my heart tighten and my breathing stopped for a second. Eleanor was coming, no I wasn’t afraid of her. That wasn’t the problem, the problem was that I would have to see them kissing and being an actual couple in front of me and I knew how El and Louis were. When they were around their friends they did not feel the need to hide their PDA. I could feel myself get sad so I cuddled deeper into the pillow.

“Katerina don’t do this. You’re stronger than that.” I shook my head.

“Zayn, I could barely stand it when he texts her in front of me, I just don’t show it. I don’t know how I’m going to-“

“You’re going to, why love? Because I’ll be here and Niall and Harry and Liam. We’ll all be here, you’ll be okay. You don’t have to deal with them, just be civil. The rest of the time hang out with the rest of the guys.” I sighed, knowing he was right.

“Did he say how long she was staying?” He shook his head.

“I think maybe a week or two. She does have to get back home to finish her shoots, I know that much.” I nodded and closed my eyes. I yawned as I felt my body physically relax.

“Go to sleep, Kat. You need to rest. You can sleep here.” I nodded and yawned again snuggling closer into Zayn. He smiled and wrapped his arm around my body as I felt his breath even out. I closed my eyes for good and could feel my breath even out. Sooner than I realized, I was knocked out; too bad neither of us knew about the blue eyed boy who stood by our bunk listening to his band mate’s snores and Zayn and mine’s conversation.

x-x

I awoke to someone shaking me making me snap my eyes open. I came face to face with an angry looking Harry. I reached up and rubbed my eyes trying to get the sleep out of them. When my vision finally came into focus, I noticed Harry already ready for the day, his curly hair sticking up in a messy style. He had the bunk curtain pulled back and that’s when I became aware of the hand on my hip. I looked down and then back up at my brother. I sent him an innocent smile, teeth and all. He was not amused.

“Malik!” Zayn shot up in the bunk and hit his head on the frame, making me laugh.

“Yes?” He asked while rubbing his head. The sleep was still evident in his face.

“Why did I wake up about an hour ago to Louis telling me that he saw you crawling into Zayn’s bunk. I didn’t think you’d actually did it but here you are, cuddled up…together. Care to explain, either of you!” I shot out of the bunk, pissed. I stood in front of Harry and put my hands on my hips.

“You know I ran out of insomnia pills, I couldn’t sleep. I woke up this morning at 5 to finish my article. I saw Louis, walked back here went to go to sleep but I couldn’t. I was going to go lay with you since you’re one of the things that can actually put me to sleep but then Zayn-“

“I caught her before she went and told her to let you sleep, that you needed it mate. So she came to my bunk and we stayed up talking about LA and then we fell asleep. That’s it.” I looked at Zayn, well he wasn’t totally lying.

“I know it may look suspicious Harry but I wouldn’t do that to you. Plus, if I wanted Zayn, I would have already had him.” I sent him a playful smile which made him playfully push my shoulder. Harry still didn’t look convinced.

“Harry, please trust us. We just fell asleep, that’s it.” He continued to stare at us until he let out a breath of air.

“Fine, but if I catch you groping or trying to grope a feel Malik, you’re a dead man.” I laughed because Harry threatening someone was not something I saw every day. I put a hand on his shoulder and gave it a tight squeeze.

“Everything’s fine, Harry. I swear nothing is going on and you don’t have to murder Zayn.” The gut clenching feeling returned, I was lying to him. Maybe not about Zayn, but about Louis and that alone had me almost in tears. I shook my head.

“We good?”

“Good.” I smiled at my brother and watched him walk out of the bunk area. He stopped at the door way.

“Your phone has been going off Kat. It’s in your bunk.” I thanked him and waited till he was out of the room. The rest of the boys must have been up already because the area was empty. Zayn let out a laugh making me look at him.

“Damn you Styles, you’re going to be the death of me.” I shoved him back in his bunk making him fall. I laughed and crawled up into my bunk.

“Get dressed Malik, I won’t look.” He laughed again and I could hear him unzipping his suit case. I unlocked my phone and saw four missed calls from Lou Teasdale. Lou is basically One Direction’s Hair stylist and one of the most amazing people you will ever meet. Her and her fiancée Tom are on tour with us right now along with their one year old daughter, Lux. Lux is one of the cutest little girls ever and Harry and I got to do the honors of being her godparents.

I was confused though why Lou was calling me four times. I hit the number on the screen and it was calling her. I waited two rings before she picked up.
“Kat!”

“Hey, sorry Lou I was asleep. What’s going on?”

“I’m actually calling for a huge favor. At the next stop would you be able to take Lux with you on your bus and babies sit her for a while. Tom has a really bad headache and I need to get all of the supplies cleaned up for the show and make a list of what I need when we actually get to a beauty shop. I can’t have a one year old trying to open all these bottles and hair cutters. I’ll take you out, whatever you want. Please, Kat.” I laughed at her pleading.

“Of course, Lou. I love Lux, that won’t be problem. Just back two bags of her stuff and bottles and things just in case she needs them. The next stop I’ll go onto the bus and pick her up.”

“You’re amazing Kat! I would have asked one of the boys but I know they need their rest, I mean you do too but I mean-“

“Lou it’s totally okay, it’s one of the reasons I’m here. Plus, I want to see her as much as I can before her and Tom head back.” I could feel the sigh of relief over the phone.

“Thanks lovely.” We hung up and I went to jump out of the bunk, getting a great idea. I would ask Niall to help me watch her that way we could bond at the same times. As I pulled the curtain back, I saw Louis standing below. I frowned when he looked up at me with a stern look on his face. I jumped down and walked the other way to the bathroom.

“Katerina,”

“Louis” I mocked. I groaned realizing I walked to the bathroom without my clothes. I tried to push past him to get to my bunk but it wasn’t working.

“Louis, seriously. I don’t know how long we have until the next stop and then I have to babysit Lux so you need to get out of my way.”

“Are you sleeping with him?” I looked up at him confused.

“Who?! Zayn? God, Louis. Really?” He didn’t budge, he kept his gaze to me and his voice low.

“I just need you to answer the question.”

“Louis, why do you even care?!”

“I don’t just-“

“Urgh, but you do! I don’t have time for this!” I pushed past him using all my strength. I walked over to my suitcase and unzipped it. I pulled out a simple dress and a fresh bra and underwear. I stood up and walked past him again. He hadn’t moved from his spot but his eyes had followed every one of my moves. When I walked into the bathroom I turned to him before closing the door.

“And for your information, no. I ‘m not sleeping with Zayn. Even though you may see me differently and you think I would, I’m not a slut. I wouldn’t do that, I’m not trying to break this band up and I’m sure as hell not trying to lose my brother. So no, Louis. I’m not sleeping with Zayn.” I didn’t let him respond; I just slammed the door and put my clothes down on the counter. I shook my head as I started my shower, I couldn’t let him get to me.

x-x
Louis stared at the closed bathroom door, unsure of what just happened. He just had to ask, even though he knew it wasn’t his place. He sighed a breath of relief when she said she wasn’t sleeping with Zayn.

“Everything she said was true, Lou.” Louis jumped at the voice and turned around to come face to face with Zayn. He was standing behind Louis with his arms crossed. Zayn made his way over to where Louis was and stood in front of him.

“You’re doing a really messed up thing mate. That wasn’t your place to ask her and you know it. To even think she would do that to you, to her brother.”

“Well she did it with me-“

“Yeah because she trusted you and you let her down. You pushed her away Louis, you almost broke her and Katerina is strong girl to break. Why can’t you leave her alone, she said you two were done and she meant it. You have Eleanor who may I remind you is coming on tour in about two weeks. Louis, leave her alone.” Louis could feel himself get angry.

“Zayn, I love you like a brother but you need to back off. This doesn’t concern you.”

“It concerned me the minute I found out about you two at the club. It concerned me the night I found Kat crying on the hotel floor with blood on her feet because of a wine bottle she threw at you. It concerned me when you told Harry this morning that she was crawling into my bed and gave him the wrong impression. So, yes Louis it does concern me. I mean it, leave her alone.” Zayn went to walk away.

“Or what Zayn? You’re going to tell the press? No you wouldn’t do that to Kat.” Zayn shook his head and sighed.

“Just the fact that you’re trying to figure out what I’m going to do to you proves that you aren’t going to leave her alone. You’re not even seeing the big picture here. You’re messing with people’s feelings; you’re messing with other’s feelings because you’re so damn unsure of your own.” Louis and Zayn were now face to face again. This time the bathroom door opened and a wet haired Kat looked up from the pile of clothes she was carrying. She took in the scene before her and shook her head; this was the last thing she wanted to happen.

“Both of you walk away right now. There’s too much testosterone in here and I have to babysit a one year old in a bit.” Zayn took one last look at Louis and went to the lounge area without another word.
Louis soon followed, leaving Kat stand there running her hand through her hair. What the hell just happened?

x-x

It had been about two hours since we had stopped and picked up baby Lux and all the boys were super excited. She was currently sitting with Liam and Harry drawing in one of her coloring books….with paint. Niall and I were playing cards and talking about when we first met.

“Do you remember I thought you were going to be the biggest bitch to me!”

“Oh my God yes, Harry told me! I don’t even know why you would think that! I was always nice to you!”

“Harry made you seem so mean!”

“I did no such thing Niall!” I laughed hearing my brother shout from the couch.

“He really did, he was like she has an attitude and she will tell you what she feels! It made me so scared to meet ya, and then when I did….you weren’t that scary. You were just…small!” I pouted.

“Hey, I’m not that small.”

“You kind of are Kat.”

“Thanks Liam,” I turned around to see Lux’s face covered with paint and Harry’s and Liam’s face identical to hers. I had no words until Niall started laughing, hard. Louis came out from the bunk area to see what was going on and started laughing when he saw the three of them. Lux clapped her hands together and let out a giggle. I immediately grabbed my phone and started taking pictures of the three. I put a couple on twitter and sent some to Lou and Tom. Zayn had now joined in on the laughing and I realized for the first time in a long time we were all together, none of us were fighting. None of us were mad, we all had genuine smiles on our faces and it was all thanks to baby Lux.

When the laughing died down, I stood up and picked Lux up with me.

“Come on girly, I give your god father one job and he lets you reek havoc. Tell everyone bye, we’re going to get you washed up and then give you a nap.” Lux clapped her hands again and waved to the boys. I smiled, she was getting so big. I walked to the bathroom and set her on the counter. I picked her baby bag up from the floor and reached inside for the wipes. She played with my hair while I scrubbed the face off her face and arms.

“What did you do Lux?”

“Iam!” I laughed at how she said Liam. I figured she was going to blame him, she would never tell on Harry. I shook my head as I got the rest of the paint off and picked her off the counter. I set her on my hip while I picked up the bag and made my way to the bunk area. I put her back down by Harry’s bunk and crawled in. He had a bottom bunk and I didn’t feel like it was safe to crawl into the top ones with her. I settled her against the wall as she let out a huge yawn. I set the pillows up around her and laid down with her. She immediately snuggled into my sides, she was one of the only little girls I knew who liked to sleep. Then again Tom loved sleep so maybe that’s why. She closed her eyes but kept shifting around.

“Lux, baby, try to go to sleep.” She let out a whine and threw her arms over her eyes. I sighed and tried to think about what Lou did to get her to sleep. It was then I realized she sings to her and usually when we watched her she would fall asleep with the boys practicing or something simple like that. I immediately started singing the first song that came to my head.

“She checks her pulse, got to know if her hearts still beating. And the hospitals, not far if anything should happen here. She’s bored in a week, big dreams but nothing material. And I refuse to believe that love is for the weak, I said I’m not vulnerable.”

Lux was no longer moving; she was smiling up at me with those big eyes. She was now clutching on to my shirt, it was as if she was waiting for me to continue. I smiled back down and brushed the hair out of her forehead.

“Hey lady, don’t give up on me. Don’t burn your heart out, love. Till we’re ash over seas. Hey Lady, I don’t want to fight. Like pretty girls need cowboys, I need you here tonight. She screams for more, more than just some blue eyed metaphor and the trouble is, the trouble is she’s always searching and the hours late, don’t wanna hear that it’s all gonna end soon. No, I’m not crazy I’m in control. Yeah and all of my friend still know.”

Lux’s eyes were now slowly closing and her breathing was evening out.

“I’m on one knee lover please, How can I put it more simply? And I wait, for your invitation and I’m so, so, so, so over waiting. I’m on one knee lover please how can I put it more simply?”

Lux’s breathing finally evened out and her grip on my shirt loosened. I smiled softly down at her and settled in closer to her. I continued the song just to be safe but I was unaware of the five boys in the front lounge that had stopped what they all were doing to hear the sad melody.

“and hey lady don’t give up on me, don’t burn your heart out, love. Till we’re ash over seas. Hey, lady don’t give up on me, don’t burn your heart out, love till we’re ash over seas. Hey lady, said I don’t want to fight, like pretty girls need cowboys I need you hear tonight…”

The five boys in the lounge area had stopped what they were doing to listen to the sad tone of Katerina, but only two of those boys knew why she was so sad. Liam let out a low whistle when they finally heard her quiet down.

“Harry, you need to get her to sing at one of the concerts. I swear if Simon could hear her…” Harry sat on the couch debating it in his head. Katerina did know how to sing and she loved doing it but to get her to sing in public in front of a crowd at one of their concerts. She was already getting hate because she lived with the boys, he didn’t want to do that to his sister.

“Liam why don’t you just say that’s what you want for your birthday? I mean she has about a month and a half to practice if you tell her now.” Liam looked at Niall.

“Just tell her that I want her to sing at one of our concerts?”

“But we won’t tell her Simon’s there.” Liam liked the idea along with the rest of the boys, except Harry who hadn’t said anything.

“Harry, if it’s alright with you of course.” He leaned forward and sighed.

“If you guys can promise me she’ll be safe and won’t get hurt, I’m in.” The five boys smiled, even Zayn and Louis because despite their recent little spat, they both knew Katerina needed this and she deserved it.

Notes

I am so sorry for making you all wait this long!
I hope you guys enjoyed it, I know it was a filler chapter and I'm sorry but it was needed.
It was kind of fun though, right?
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The song she sings is Hey Lady by Thriving Ivory.
In the story when I write Louis I'm talking about Louis Tomlinson
when I say Lou I'm talking about Teasdale!
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