Ours

“Good morning everyone it’s Astrid here, so I woke up this morning to my baby brother Caleb sitting over me, smiling his cute little smile and I just want to bring him in here to say hello to all you lovely viewers, come on in Caleb”, I said watching as my four year old brother Caleb toddled in. Picking him up, I sat him on my lap and hugged him. I absolutely adore him; he’s just the cutest little boy in the whole world. “Hello”, he said smiling his big smile. “I love you Caleb”, I mumbled into his ear and pecked his cheek. Last year Caleb had been diagnosed with cancer and the doctors had said he wouldn’t make it through the week, but now a year later he was still here, and I was so thankful for that. “I love you too Astrid”, he said and snuggled up to me. “Isn’t he just adorable guys? Yes he is”, I said giggling as I tickled him.
After Caleb was diagnosed I dropped out of school and gone to help my mum and dad around the house and with Caleb, that way my parents didn’t have to work. “Astrid can I have a cookie?” his voice filled my ears and bringing me back to reality. “Sure you can sweetie”, I said with a smile. A smile filled with hidden fear.
I remember your bare feet
Down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor
Plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back

I remember your blue eyes
Looking into mine
Like we had our own secret club
I remember your dancing before bedtime
Then jumping on me waking me up

I can still feel you hold my hand
Little man
And even in the moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guard
Remember I, leaned in and whispered to you
~Flashback 1 year earlier~
“Mom, what’s wrong? What happened?” I was panicking, my mum had called me during class, and she never did that unless it was an emergency. “It’s Caleb, we’re in the hospital, can you please come soon?” she was crying, as soon as I heard Caleb’s name I was crying, he was an angel, he didn’t deserve this. “I’ll be there as soon as I can”, I said and hung up walking back to class to get my stuff, “Ms. Peterson I have to go, my mum called, they are in the hospital with my brother”, I said looking at my English teacher who nodded, letting me go.
Getting to the hospital I found my dad out in the hall, “Dad, where’s mum and Caleb?” I asked hugging him, “They are in here, but listen, I need to talk to you first”, my dad said settling me into one of the chairs. “Caleb’s got cancer, they say he won’t make it through the week.

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