Why Did We Have to Fall in Love?

*That night*
Eleanor's POV

I have been having pains in my lower stomach for a couple of hours now. This is really annoying me now because I can barely move with out being in pain. I asked Perrie if she is getting the same she said that she was and that it's just our skin on our stomachs starting to be stretched to make room for the babies. I guess it's okay for me to be in pain for that but I wish it wasn't that sore.

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Louis' POV

It felt really good to get out of the house away from Eleanor and her constant complaining about being in pain cause of the baby. I know I shouldn't complain since she is the one going through it but she is...well...she's been really distant lately. She hardly ever talks to me normally anymore, I miss his things were before we found out we were going to have a child.

Anyway, right now im off to go see Sarah and Niall. They are wanting me over to see how I'm doing. Normally Liam is the one to do this but he's busy with Sophia the majority of the time nowadays. I would also go to Harry about something like this but he is in Holmes Chapel with Beth, so I only have Niall. And Sarah of course.
After about 5 more minutes in the car I reach their house, I walked up to the house and knocked on the door.

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Niall's POV

I opened the door and grabbed Louis into a bear hug. Ugh I have missed Louis so much! I pulled him into the house and looked at him, he was a mess. Hair untidy and in desperate need of a haircut, eyes drawn and clouded, cheeks thinned. The stress of a girlfriend being pregnant. He isn't ready to be a dad. Eleanor is not ready to be a mother either.

"Let it out mate" I said to him.

he looked me in the eye and then fell to the ground sobbing. He needed to do this, away from the public eye, away from Eleanor, away from any stress. Here in the safety of me and Sarah was the best place for him to let go of everything that has been building up inside of him. Despite his much he needed to do this it did bring a tear to my eye to see him in this much pain. I knelt down beside him and put my hand on his back patting it softly, Sarah must have heard him sobbing as she came through and just looked at us before sitting down in front of Louis and pulling him into a hug. He placed his head on her shoulder and continued to cry softly into her shoulder. She quietly soothed him by shushing softly into his hair and rubbing his back.

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Sarah's POV

Seeing Louis like this was so hard for me to deal with. Once he had finished crying Niall took him through to the living room and I went to change my top as the shoulder was soaking wet with tears.

once I got to mine and Niall's bedroom I decided to have a quick bath too. I went into the en suite and began running the bath. Thoughts and memories began to build up in my head. The rape, my brothers death, the pregnancy...the miscarriage...death threats from Kyle...the many hospital trips...

(This next bit has detail of self harm. If this sets you off please don't read it.)
I never realized my legs had been carrying me over to my drawers in the bathroom until my arm had opened the drawer and my hand was pulling out a razor. I broke the razor apart and took one of the blades and slid it across one of my scars as soon as I felt the pain I felt slightly better. Then the horrible comments started going in my head..."you are so ugly"..."slut"..."die. The world will be a better place"...with each comment I slit open another scar...one by one until my whole lower arm was covered in blood. My face was drenched in tears, my left lower arm covered in blood, my right fingertips stained with fresh blood. I got up off the floor and ran to the bathtub and turned of the taps as the bath was about to overflow. I then grabbed a handful of toilet roll and put it on my arm to stop the bleeding. Just as the first lot of toilet paper needed changed there was a knock on the door.

"Sarah? Are you okay? I thought I could hear you crying through the door?"

"I'm fine Niall." I said but my voice betrayed me by cracking halfway through.
Niall must of heard my voice crack as he came into the bathroom, be looked at me and then ran to me and grabbed my bleeding arm.
"Sarah what happened?" He then looked round the bathroom and his eyes landed on the broken razor. His eyes then filled with tears. "Sarah. Please don't ever cut again baby."
A tear ran down his face as he got a wet flannel and placed it gently over my arm. He then left me to get bandages and plasters. Once he came back to bleeding had almost stopped completely, he dressed my arm and then gave me a kiss and kissed my whole arm over the bandages then went out if the bathroom after washing his hands.

I quickly took a bath without getting my arm wet and got dressed into long sleeved pyjamas and went down the stairs. The boys were watching football so I went and got 2 beers from the kitchen and took them through to the living room. Louis seemed more relaxed and Niall looked slightly troubled and his eyes were still slightly watering. I knew that the second Louis left to go home I would have to tell Niall about the baby. My baby. The baby I lost.

Notes

Okay, so the self harm part in this was really hard for me to wrote cause I used to self harm. I have now been clean from cutting for 2 and a half months now and I really do owe my life to Ashton Irwin. So yeah, if anyone who is reading this wants someone to talk to about something I am here just give me a message on here. Follow me on Twitter: @lukespenguinmad I follow back then you can message me on there. Stay strong and I love each and every one of you xx