Gone

He sensed my sudden hesitation and asked me if I was okay.
"Couldn't be happier," I replied.
That was a lie, I could've been happier. I liked Niall a lot. In fact, I liked him more than I had ever liked anyone before. That was saying something considering I hated pretty much everyone in my life. Was I really going to risk it all to be with a guy I had only just met? I knew that there was a chance that this was all just an act. He must be a pretty darn good actor to have faked that amount of passion, I thought. Despite my best efforts to reassure myself, I still had a bad feeling about this whole situation.

"If there's something wrong you know you can tell me,"
I pretended hadn't heard him as I sat back down on the edge of the bonnet. Maybe if I didn't face facts they wouldn't become a reality. Well that was possibly the stupidest theory I had ever come up with. He stood in front of me and grabbed my hands, his thumb grazing along the outline of my palm.
"I think I know what this is about," he said slowly.
Just great, I thought to myself. Was he going to get pissed at me for thinking he was a bad person? God I hoped not. I tried to come up with a lie just in case.

"You do?"
I tried to act naive, but instead, I just sounded incredibly guilty. He nodded. I fell silent, unable to speak.
"Yes but it's not true. I wouldn't do that to you," he said.
I still wasn't convinced. After the Amber and Josh incident I couldn't trust anyone, not even myself.
"Kaia,"
I glanced up briefly from the ground, letting my eyes wander.
"Hmm?"
I wasn't really listening at this point. I was too busy thinking about everything.
"Kaia look at me," I did look at him, well, at least the bit of him I could see, "I want you to know I care about you. I would never do anything to hurt you,"
I couldn't tell if he was bullshitting me or not but he sounded sincere.

I wanted to believe him. Really, I did. It was just hard to believe anyone considering everything that had happened lately. Him of all people should understand that. His girlfriend-had slept with my ex-hookup and lied about it. Twice. I had learnt the hard way that you never know who can be trusted. He took my silence as a cue to continue to try to convince me.
"Amber may have broken my heart but I would never use you...or anyone for that matter. It's something you just don't do,"
He could be just saying that. It did sound kind of rehearsed to be honest. That could be my irrational paranoia again though.
"Okay Niall," I finally managed to say, my voice husky from the Winter weather, "I like you, so I've decided to give you a chance. Don't prove me wrong,"

Notes

THIS CHAPTER IS SO DONE YAYYYYYYYYYY SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG GUYS ILY <33
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