Gone

I tried to think of a way out of 'spilling the beans' as she leant towards me, eager for me to continue. I opened my mouth to speak but the words came out in short mumbles. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't bring myself to tell her the truth. I didn't care how much of a chicken that made me. I was about to tell her to forget it when I heard the key click in the lock as the front door opened and then shut again. I figured it really was Mum this time so I didn't bother to get up.
"Please just tell me," Amber said impatiently.
She hadn't stopped staring at me. I decided to try one last time.
"Okay fine, but you can't judge me and promise me you will keep this to yourself, yeah?" I said, my voice quivering.

She gave me one of her 'I can't believe you think I would do that to you' looks as she lay down on her stomach and propped herself up on her elbows, listening intently. I tried to find a way to rephrase everything in a way that wouldn't sound so drastic. Then, I realised there was no way to rephrase it.
"You know my party on Friday?" I started, "Well, there's...um...something you should know,"
Her eyes widened as she edged closer and closer. It was obvious the tension was killing her. I knew from experience she hated people taking ages to tell her things, especially juicy secrets.
"I haven't been completely honest with you. I mean, it was a huge mistake," I continued, trying to stall, "it wasn't even my fault. Sometimes stuff happens and you can't do anything about it, you know?"
She rolled her eyes.

"God Kaia, spit it out already,"
I was trying to but when I was nervous, I avoided saying the truth and would say everything but. This time round was no exception. Nervous was an understatement in this situation though.
"I...I...I...I.." I stuttered like a broken record.
My nose tickled and my eyes stung as tears ran down my cheeks. Before I knew it they became uncontrollable. I hated that it was all so real. All I wanted to do was crawl under a rock and hide there for the rest of my unfortunate existence. It was as if Amber didn't know whether or not I wanted her to comfort me as she watched me. I didn't know either.
"K, you're my best friend. I would never judge you or tell anyone anything even if my life depended on it. You may not believe me, but it's true," she said in a low husky voice.

Besides, she did have a good point, she was my best friend. It was her duty as my best friend to support me no matter what. I was scared but I knew I had to tell her at some point. It was then that I burst, I just couldn't hold it in any longer. I had to get it out in the open.
"I think I'm pregnant,"
I said it so quickly it became one word. I knew she would understand what I had just said. I felt as though a weight had been lifted off my back. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see her reaction because I knew it would be bad.
"Wait...what?"
She sounded way too calm considering the fact she didn't even know I had a love life.
"How are you not freaking out?" I wailed, "This will ruin my life. I'm scared Bambi, scared out of my mind,"

She rolled over so she was lying face down and mumbled something that I couldn't quite understand.
"Sorry?" I asked.
I was beginning to get a teeny bit suspicious. I could be knocked up and she still hadn't shown any sign of being shocked or even worried. To her knowledge, I had never even been past first base. She lifted her head off the bed and looked up at me guiltily. Oh God, I thought to myself, what was she hiding?
"You're not pregnant,"

Notes

FINISHED OMG CHAPTER NINETEEN TIME <3