Her Cousin **ON HOLD**

Jessica's POV

As much as I wanted to curl up in a ball right now...I couldn't. As much as I wanted to hold my voice in and not say a word... I did. Why did I? Why can't I?

Harry sat at the bar with his other bandmates, sipping a beer. I don't know why I did what I did...but I called him.

"Hello....Jessica" he said prolonging it. All their eyes were on me..and I probably look like shit.

People are beginning to pile in, and I wish Alice would show up. I feel like crying out at this minute..no this second.

How could he? That piece of shit.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked, snapping me out of my depressing thoughts. I mustered a small smile and nodded.

"I'm fine." I replied dryly. He looked me over, warily and raised an eyebrow.

"Are you sure?" He repeated. I dropped my fake smile and glared.

"Dandy...you know what? This is stupid. I'm gonna go." I said and hastily turned around to go. He grabbed my wrist, making me jump with different feelings soaring through me from the slight gesture. I turned to face him, and his hand released, his fingers lingering on my skin.

I studied him. His green eyes...his many tattoos....his curly hair. I'm not gonna lie, he's pretty attractive..but I don't love....anymore.

Drew broke that trust. I love him. Or loved.

Loved.

I'm not falling in love anymore... it's too risky. It's too much. It's too painful. It's too...everything. Why fall in love?... For what? Sex, money...drugs? If I need sex..there's always someone up for that. Money...I have a good amount. Drugs...don't sound to bad right now...

What the hell am I thinking! Drugs? Fuck, I'm thinking like I'm on drugs. Maybe...something will fill the break in my heart, cause it's getting bigger every second. Drew broke me. My heart. My love.

Everytime I love, it will remind me of this. This horrific situation. I can't. It snot worth all this pain again. Either way..you only find true love once...so I guess I'm out of luck.

"Stay" Harry demanded, examining my red face trying to be hidden with makeup. Reality was sinking in...and I can tell I'm about to let a waterfall of tears out again. That'll be the fifth time now. I don't know. Anything triggers it now...and I hate it.

"I'm fine. This is wrong anyway" I said, getting louder over the music. A headache formed in my head..and my heart. My heart feels like it has heartache..if that's even a thing. Well, right now it is...and it's fucking horrible.

"It's not wrong. How is it wrong?" He asked confused. I narrowed my eyes, and stepped back....away from him.

"You're my cousins boyfriend. I can't talk to you. Kendall will be so mad." I answered, us both cringing at her name. It pained me even more to say it. Why?

"So. Kendall and I are...complicated. She doesn't own me." He shrugged stepping closer to me. I backed away praying that Alice arrived and would step in to help me. Of course, I'm all alone.

"It's just wrong." I shook my head.

Harry stepped closer and and placed a hand on my waist. I tensed at his touch and scowled at him. Hg was too much at this point. I just want to crawl into bed and cry into my pillows until I turn 70.

"Would your boyfriend be mad if I did this?" He asked pulling me into him. His grip was tight and firm. Snug and warm. Like Drew's.

"He's not my boyfriend!" I yelled pushing him away. I felt tears starting to from again. Not in front of him. No.

"But-" he began, only getting cut off.

"Fuck off asshole" Alice said, dragging me away from him and into the bathroom. A guy walked past us, zipping his zipper up and smirking.

Darcy was leaning in front of the mirror, applying lip stick and Abigail sat on the counter next to her, swing in her legs back and forth. "I can't believe you did that here." She giggled with Darcy. "Jess!"

I tried to smile, but ended up doing a frown. As soon as I stepped in front of the mirror, tears burst out. Alice gave me a tight hug and let me cry onto her shoulder soaking her shirt.

She rubbed circles on my back, 'shh-ing' me quietly. "I'm so lost." Darcy said. Alice let me go, and I sat on the counter as she told them everything, making me cry out more and more.

"Jess. Jess stop!" Abigail shouted over my sobs. I looked up through my wet eyes and sniffled.

"This isn't like you at all! Just forget about that jerk tonight and let's PARTY!" Darcy cheered. I let a laugh escape, and hopped off the counter.

Alice wiped my face dry, and applied mascara, shadow, foundation, blush, and bronzer to my wrecked face. When she was finished, I gasped. I looked nothing like before...I looked completely different.

"Forget about him. He's trash" she whispered. I nodded and held my hand out for her to go first. Out there. Out to the zoo like party place we call a club. I needed a few drinks though...to loosen me out a little.

But, I fought my egret to drink with all the power I could, and sat at the round table with Alice laughing about an old memory we had.

"Love the purfume"

Alice turned around to face a smirking Harry. She rolled her eyes and snorted. "What? This cheap ass stuff? I'm only wearing it cause my sister forced me too."

"You must be mistaken. We only provide the highest quality things money can buy" Harry replied pulling out a chair next to Alice and sitting in it. He leaned over to her, almost testing her.

"That's a load of bullshit" she remarked. Niall and Liam stood behind Harry chuckling. "Can you leave?"

"That, love, would be a terrible mistake. Passing up an opportunity with THE Harry Styles now are we?"

"Yes I am. You sound like such a conceded jerk! Ugh!" She groaned and slammed her drink down on the table.

"I just think you don't like me" he replied, inching closer to her. My blood began to boil at this. Why? I have no idea.

Amd with that, Harry was covered in soda, and Alice slammed her now empty glass back on the table. "Damn right I don't"

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