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Maddy's POV

I was now, sitting here at a lunch table, with Niall and Brooke. I looked at the table where Harry always sits with his gang but Harry himself wasn't there. I haven't seen him all day. Weird. "Maddy? Are you listening?" Brooke said and i looked at her. "Sorry, what? I zoned out again. I'm so sorry." I said and she sighed.

"Okay, spill. What is it. The Maddy i know wouldn't zone out on someone." She said and i sighed again before i looked at my hands. Do i have to say it? I don't want to... "Alright. It's just that...Harry isn't in school today. That's all." I looked at my friends again but this time they had smirks set on their faces. Great. I think i already know what's going on in their minds.

"What happened? Did you guys make up? No no no, wait, did you guys have sex!?" Brooklyn yelled out loud and i mentally face palmed myself. Everybody looked at us. Some people had smirks set on their faces and some people just stared at us with a shocked face. After a few minutes of silence they went back to their on conversations and stuff.

"Don't be that loud. Nobody has to know any of this okay? We...kind of made up yeah. We uh.....we had sex. I don't regret it, really i don't. In fact, it was amazing and it felt so good. Afterwards we played a game and that was it. Nothing more, okay?" I said and Brooke grinned while Niall had disgust written all over his face.

"You know, i love you both to death but you just gave a little bit too much information Mads." Niall said and we began to laugh. Our laughter died down when my friends, who sat at the opposite of me, widened their eyes. "Guys? What's wrong?" I asked and they gulped.

I looked behind me and gasped. Perrie, Eleanor and Danielle. The girlfriends from Zayn, Louis and Liam. I met Perrie before because Zayn and i are close friends and he once introduced me to her. She's sweet and we talked a little but that's it. I wonder how Eleanor and Danielle are.. I hope Eleanor is not like Louis because then i will hate her.

Perrie and Eleanor sat down next to me, Perrie on my left and Eleanor on my right. Danielle sat down next to Brooke.

"Hi. How are you today Madelin?" Perrie said while she smiled at me. I looked at her and smiled back. I feel comfortable around her. I know i only met her once and that's it but i can't help it. "Hi Perrie. I'm.....fine. How are you today? Oh and please, call me Maddy." I said and she answered with a, "I'm fine. Sorry, i forgot."

"So.....not that we mind but what are you girls doing here? Aren't you supposed to be with your boyfriends?" Niall asked and Brooke agreed. You could clearly tell Niall was slightly uncomfortable with they all sitting on our table. I guess Brooke didn't mind at all.

"Yeah um...about that. We just wanted to hang out with you guys. We thought you three are very cool and we would like to become friends with the three of you. I.....we know this might be weird for you but......we just.......wow, this is awkward. Sorry, we will go now. Sorry for wasting your time." Eleanor said and i immediately admired her. She so beautiful and nice. But something is not right here..

To be honest with you. I don't really trust this. Why out of all sudden do they wanna be friends with us? Something's not right and i'm gonna figure out what it is. Until then, i just have to play along and don't tell them my secrets. Pretty easy.

You could clearly see Niall didn't trust this to. I looked at him and he had put on a fake smile. I looked at his eyes and that's when i saw it. He looked a little scared and angry but also that look like 'i don't trust this'. But Brooke she just.....she looked like she didn't know better. That's not the Brooke i know. Again, weird.

"No. I mean, it's a little bit weird that you want to hang out with us but it's okay." Brooklyn said and this time, Niall agreed with her. "Oh and about that awkward thing... It's not awkward until you make it awkward. Nothing in the whole world would, could or should be awkward but the thing is.......people just make it awkward. So, just forget about that thing called awkward. Okay?" I said and Eleanor nodded.

"Okay. And that was, true and deep, and....smart. Did you make that up all by yourself?" She asked and i nodded with a smile, proud that i could make up something like that.

"Oh my gosh. I didn't tell you my name. That's not polite! I'm Eleanor Calder but call me El. I know you don't really like my boyfriend Louis but he's sweet once you get to know him." She said and i gasped. "I......sorry but how did you....." I didn't finish my sentence. "I can see it in your eyes. But it's okay Maddy, really, it is." She said and smiled a beautiful, warm smile at me at i couldn't do anything but return the same smile. I snapped my head to Danielle when i heard her voice.

"I'm Danielle Peazer, but please, call me Dani. I'm Liam's girlfriend. He's the most well uh......i don't know if it's save to say but i'll say it anyway, innocent. I'm a dancer, it's my hobby. I love it, i hope to be a famous dancer in the future." She said and i nodded before i smiled at her.

"Well......i think we just made three new friends." Niall said and we all agreed and smiled at each other. "Hey guys, i have an idea!" Perrie said with excitement in her voice. "What is it?" My blond haired, blue eyed friend named Niall said.

"Why don't we go to the mall or something after school. You know, just to spend time together and to get to know each other." Perrie said and everybody was excited except Niall and i. "I don't know. Knowing you girls.......you will probably go shopping for clothes and them i'm the only boy there. I think i'll pass this time." He said and Brooke and i nodded.

"Well.....that is that. We see you after school. Should we come together by my car?" El asked and we all agreed. I have no idea why i agreed because know she doesn't go to school with her own car but with Louis' car. But, i did it anyway.

The schoolbell rang as a sign lunch was over. I walked together with Brooke to English because we had that class together. Harry still wasn't there so Brooke sat down next to me.
Once everyone was inside the lesson started. I zoned out.

Why was Harry not in school today? Yesterday he clearly said, 'I'll see you tomorrow at school'. So why isn't he in school? Did he regret it yesterday? Was i bad? Oh my god! What if i was bad and he regrets it!? Of course i was bad. I mean, he slept with a lot of girls who were way prettier and a lot more experienced and better than me. But he did say i was the best he ever had. Ugh.....i'm so confused. I am making myself crazy. I have to stop worrying that much. I know i can't do that but i will at least try.

I haven't seen Luke all day in school as well. What if they got into a fight with each other!? Oh my god. That would be bad. But there's only one way to find out... Waiting until i can see if Harry or Luke have bruises or not.

I was brought back to earth when the school bell rang again. Wow, was i zoned out that long!? I really need to stop doing that.

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I walked out of the school building towards Eleanor's, no , Louis' car. Everybody already was there so i was the last one. They were all waiting for me. On my left i saw Niall walking alone with his head down. For a second i wanted to walk over to him, hug him and walk with him back to our homes but i knew i just couldn't.

"Hi guys. Sorry that i'm so late but i needed to do something for our History teacher." I said once i arrived at Louis' car and it seemed like they didn't mind at all. That's great, i guess.

"Okay, well....be careful with my car El. I can't believe i let you do this." Louis said before giving her a peck on her lips. He secretly squeezed my bum and walked off.

"He must really love you if he lets you drive his car. I mean, he has to walk home right now so yeah..." Brooklyn said and El smiled and nodded before we all stepped into his car. El drove of course and Dani in the passenger seat. Perrie, Brooke and i sat in the back. Soon we drove off, to the mall.

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After a lot of shopping we sat down at a table in a little, cute café. We sat our shopping bags down next to us on the ground and sighed. "I'm gonna get us some drinks!" Dani said and stood up from her seat. "I'll go with you." Brooke said and stood up from her seat as well. Then they walked off, leaving me here with two amazing, mysterious but beautiful girls named Perrie and Eleanor.

You can see that Brooke and Dani are already best friends or always were.....? They feel comfortable around each other and all that stuff. It's like they know each other since they were born. I ever was that close to Brooklyn and we both liked that but that slowly faded away. Very strange and sad. Sometimes i feel like we're growing apart but then everything is alright Let's just...not think about it.

"Isn't that your ex-boyfriend Luke Hemmings?" Perrie asked and i frowned my eyebrows. "What do you mean? Where?" I asked and she answered with a 'He's walking towards us' and i immediately panicked.

"Hi babe..." He slurred and i sighed and squeezed my eyes closed for a second before re-opening them. "You're drunk." He laughed very loud before he took a seat next to me. "No, am not. You drunk! Hahahahahaha!!!" And he laughed very loud, again. I looked at him and didn't see any bruises. I guess Harry just skipped school today or something, at least, that's what i hope. I hope it's not because of me and what we did yesterday..

"Look! I BROUGHT A PICTURE OF US WITH ME WITH CHOCOLATES!! IT'S OUR ANNIVERSARY TODAY! YAY!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABE!! I LOVE YOU!" He said extremely loud, no, screamed extremely loud. He was right. If we didn't break up it would be our anniversary today but we broke up. I guess he doesn't remember because he's drunk. Luke is annoying when he's drunk. He gave me the picture and the chocolates before he pecked my cheek. The picture was from us together at a club.

"That's so nice of you Luke but, we aren't together anymore. Remember? We're done, over, we broke up. Two days ago? Harry recorded you?" I said and he looked confused for a minute before he had an angry look on his face. Well...at least i tried to be nice to him.

"FUCK THAT FUCKING BASTARD!! HE TOOK YOU FROM ME! HE FUCKED YOU!! HE FUCKED WHAT'S MINE!! YOUR MINE! DO YOU HEAR ME!? MINE! He has STD's!" He screamed and everybody looked at us. Okay i know he is angry about us breaking up and everything but this time he really crossed the line. "I've never been so embarrassed in my whole life as now. Thank you Luke." I said before i stood up, picked up all my stuff and walked towards the exit.

I opened the door and walked outside. I just really needed to get out of there. I sighed and looked down, to the ground. I wanna get out of here as fast and soon as possible. I will not ruin the rest of the day for the girls by asking if we could go home and i don't wanna call Harry. Because if i call him he will ask me about all of this and then i have to tell him everything and knowing him, he would kill Luke. I don't know who else to call.

Not my parents.

That would probably be the worst idea, ever! They will ask me questions and then they will be angry and blah blah blah...

Wait, i got it!

Niall. Of course. I quickly pulled out my phone and dialed his number. He picked up after the second ring with a 'Hey Mads, everything alright? You already miss me?' and i laughed.

Yeah um...Niall. I'm fine, can you just pick me up at the mall?

Yeah, sure. Are you sure you're fine? Why do i need to pick you up anyway. Were you not with the girls?

He asked and i sighed.

Yeah, i was but then Luke showed up with some shit, which i don't really want to explain, and i left. Now i'm standing here alone on the phone with you.

I said and there was a short silence before he sighed and spoke up again.

Alright. Come to the parking lot. I'll be there in like ten minutes. See ya..

He said before he ended the phone call. I breathed in and out slowly to calm myself down before i started walking towards the parking lot.

Why is this happening to me? Why can't he just leave me alone? Luke and i broke up. He even denied he said those things Harry recorded and that's maybe the worst thing. He said it wasn't true but it was. He lied and i hate lying. That's what he did and that's one of the worst things of this all. The second thing is that he just used me and didn't even really like or love me. Those two things hurts the most.

"Are you really sure everything is alright?" I shrieked at Niall's voice. "Don't. Do. That. Ever. Again! And i'm fine, okay!?" I said raising my voice a bit. "Okay, okay. No need to get angry. I just wanted to know for sure because i'm worried about you okay?" My best friend said and i nodded before hugging him.

"Niall?" I said and he pulled back from our hug. "Yeah?" This is it. I'm gonna ask a few questions i've been dying to ask.

"Do you trust them? You know...Perrie, Eleanor, Danielle and.....uhm.....Brooklyn?" He looked down for a minute before looking up, back into my eyes, and sighed.

"It's kinda strange that they want to be friends with us out of all sudden. I don't really trust them. Something is not right. But what about Brooklyn?" He asked and i nodded before i spoke up again. "Well...she's acting strange. It's like she and Danielle have known each other like forever. She just totally ignored me. I don't understand." I said and gulped before looking down.

"Okay, yeah that's weird but maybe she just feels very comfortable around her or them or something like that. And about the other three girls.....we just have to be careful and see what happens." Niall said and i nodded. Maybe he's right. I can't just think something bad about Brooke she's my best friend. And about the girls it's just.....he's right, like always. "Come on. I'll take you home, i see you girls did a lot of shopping!" Niall said and tried to lighten the mood a little and i chuckled before answering with a simple, "Yes, we did.".

He opened the door for me and i stepped into the passenger seat and sat down with my bags on my lap. He closed the door and walked to the opposite of the car and opened the door. He stepped into the drivers seat and sat down before closing the door. He put the key in the ignition and the car came to life. Then we drove off to my house.

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I lied down on my bed and huffed. Today was just crazy. Harry and Luke skipping school. Luke to drink and Harry because of god's knows why. Making three new strange but beautiful and lovely friends who i don't trust fully yet but that will come, i hope. Oh and shopping, which was amazing by the way, and then Luke ruining everything. Niall picking me up, our small talk and then he dropped me off at my house.

After that i did my new clothes in my closet and walked into the bathroom for a long warm shower. After my shower, which helped me relax a little, i got dressed into my pyjama's and went to bed. So now i'm here. You know.....it's times like these that i wish i had a sister or a brother or any siblings. Just someone i can share everything with and knowing your secrets are save with them. Having comfort from your family but not your parents who you can't trust with everything. I mean, if i told my parents Luke only used me and all that stuff they would kill him. That's why it's better to have siblings sometimes. But...i don't. I don't have any siblings. I have no idea how that would be and i probably will never know.

I wish i just knew...ugh...forget it! I'm tired, i need sleep.

Oh my god! Harry! How would it be with him!? I mean, is he okay? He better be or i'll might do something i will regret later. "Goodnight Harry. I hope you're okay." I whispered and drifted off into a deep sleep.

Holly's POV

There she is. So beautiful and grown up. God, i missed Madelin so much. It's been a long time but i finally found her again. I need to get her out of that house as soon as possible. If she only knew with who she lives right now she would get a heart attack. Poor girl.

"Goodnight Madelin. I'll see you soon." I whispered and smiled.

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