School of the Arts

I SHOULD START THIS BY SAYING I AM NOT ENDING THE BOOK. DON'T WORRY.
So I have a lot of things to say. Here's a key and you can scroll down to what number you want to read about.

1 - Why I haven't been updating as much

2 - I WENT TO A 5SOS CONCERT

3 - The #keepcuttingashtonyouretrash thing ( i am fucking pissed )

4 - Questions you guys have asked me

1. OKAY SO I AM SO SO SO SO SO SORRY ABOUT NOT UPDATING. First reason. I've been having a rough couple months and it's all starting to hit me at once. A lot of shit has been happening and there are only a few good things in my life right now. If you want to know more you can message me. Second reason. School is just deciding to be a total fucking bitch. Literally everyone is like failing classes and there's so much work I can't even handle it. It's seriously taking up so much of my time. Third Reason. I am having writers block. I have an outline of the story with major plot points but getting to those points is where I am stumped. GAH. I'm sorry!

2. I WENT TO A 5SOS CONCERT!!!! I WENT TO THE ONE IN SAN FRAN AND IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING. I was right at the front in between Luke and Michael. Both of them were 10 feet away from me and I couldn't handle it. Then calum kept moving around and coming close and at one point Ashton's (my bae) drums broke so he came to the front to talk to the fans and he looked right at me. They all looked so fucking hot and THEY ARE SO AMAZING LIVE. If anything they are better than in the studio because they have so much charisma and energy. They weren't pitchy at all and they executed the songs perfectly. The Michael spat water into the crowd and it sprayed all over me and it was perfect. I had Michael spit on me. hejjhvw;jbjougeb. Michael made me wet, literally with spit. hehehehehe. ;) and then I got a tshirt, poster, and hat from the merch store and it's all perfect. I made anew friend named Kayla and she's hella chill. IT WAS AMAZING.

3. #keepcuttingashtonyouretrash when I saw this I literally cried. And broke half the shit on my desk. You see, I have been a fan for quite a damn while. Ashton (if you didn't know) used to self harm. He stopped for us. Let that sink in. I myself struggle with self harm but Ashton gives me hope. His tweets are the sweetest. He drew a butterfly on fans scars. Ashton Irwin did that for us. He hugged us and told us it was alright and that he was always here for us. Ashton Irwin saved my life. He is my superhero. So when I saw this I felt crushed. If ashton's beautiful, adorable, smile dies, my smile dies too. Watching people trying to bring down my hero is worse than having them bringing down me. To think that people would wish that kind of harm on someone is disgusting. I hate humans so much. We suck. People were saying the cruelest things and I cried so hard for Ashton. I almost broke my streak of one month (and a few weeks) clean because of this. But then #keepsmilingashtonweloveyou happend. And then #ashtonismystrength and then #20reasonswhyweloveashton and my personal favorite #ashtonirwinsavedmylifeproject i cried with happiness. We have the best fandom. Ashton is so strong and made sure to only listen to the love. I love that boy. so much. He saved my life, he's my hero.

4. QUESTIONS I'VE RECEIVED IN MESSAGES FROM ALL Y'ALL.
1. How old are you? I am 17 woop woop
2. Where were you born? I was born in London
3. Where do you live? I live in San Diego. I moved here 3 years ago from San Francisco
4. Do you have a boyfriend? His name? I do! His name is Gavin! xx
5. Who is your favorite 5sos member? ASHTON
6. Favorite 1D member? Zayn
7. Favorite ships? Zerrie, Mashton, Fourtris, Sterek, Me and Gavin!
8. Order for 5sos? I love them all so much. Okay Ashton then Michael then I can't choose.
9. Are you a virgin? This is an awfully personal question. *cough*
10. Favorite 5sos lyric? "I PLAY GUITAR BUT SHE'S INTO DRUMMERS!"
11. What is your twitter? OKAY SO! I don't have my own twitter but my friend gave me her password and I use it all the time. Half the time her account tweets its me so it's @toworldloveme
Her name is Rebecca and she lives in San Francisco so don't be confuzzled when you see the name and stuff.

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