Chapter 2:
Col Sotol

Death, blood, pain.

Those three were the only things I would see and feel after the incident.

Sometimes my inner mind makes me think if I ever regret giving up myself for another person.

But I knew it was the right choice. Not for me, but for him hopefully.

Bang.

That was the only sound that could be heard around me as I slammed my fist against my bathroom mirror.

The reflection shown in front of me was nothing, but revolting, ghastly, and unpleasant to my sight.

Everyday it was like this whenever I saw another me with nothing, but a unhappy face that was glued to my face for a while unless having to pretend it was the opposite in front of other people.

I just let out a sigh as I finished putting on my make-up and getting ready for tonight's show. The boys are sure going to be surprised besides Brian. I wonder if he even told them I'm back.

As I was walking to "Col Sotol," a cafe where we would always perform or was my usual hangout the band came into mind.

If only.. If only they met someone better and someone who's with them performing so they can enjoy what they do, they wouldn't have to deal with me. But they did on their own will which makes me love them. And for me, saying I love someone isn't something that comes out of my mouth. The guys earned it though and deserved it honestly. But I don't see why they would stick around me, sure I can protect Brian from shit but why the other guys?

All of a sudden a loud ruckus of noise came from Col Sotol making me snap back to reality.

The place was fully packed with a bunch of people that they were swirling around outside too trying to get in. A small smile creep it's way onto my face as I got closer. They sure did get a lot of people. Last year it was like only half of the amount I see right now.

This is going to be good.

I squeezed my way through the crowd to find the guys getting ready to perform. I pushed my body to run hoping they wouldn't start.

Seeing that my running made a bit of commotion, people started to chatter about me as I zoomed by them.

This one idiot all of a sudden shouted out my name making everyone turn to me and it got quiet. Too quiet for liking..

My body froze in place as four important pair of eyes were stuck on me.

"Holy shit..." Alex (picture in the character list) stated as we all just stood there. I began to bite on my lip nervously as a bunch of thoughts came into mind.

What if they're mad at me? Do they hate me? Are you they going to kick me out? Oh my god. Nononononono. If it were one or all of them I could just die right there, right now.

But apparently I was wrong as they ran up to me and give me a tight group hug as which I returned back.

"Mother of fucking fish. Why didn't you tell us you came back you little shit?!" And that would be of course would be Chris.

"Good to see you too Chris." I patted his back or well I at least think I did. Yikes.

They all started to curse me out as always, but had smiles on their face. "Soo.. Are you going to come up or what?"

"Let's do this!" I was about to walk to the stage until some idiot pulled me back and started to hug my hair while my mouth was full of the dude's or girl's shirt. Sending a quick kick to the leg, I saw Brian groaning in pain.

"What the hell dude? Watch my hair!" My hand patting his back. This idiot should know that he would get kicked.

"I was just going to thank you for earlier damn it."

A small laugh escaped my lips as I told him no problem.

Finally it was the best part of my life. I walked up stage taking the mic in my hands as I stood in front of everyone cheering and clapping.

A full on smile was stuck to my face at how happy I was, which hasn't happened for a long time. I looked back to see if the guys were ready and they all gave me a nod in response.

"Alright! Is everyone ready and excited?" I shouted through the mic making sure everyone could hear me. They all screamed "yeah" back.

"So obviously you guys should know me since I'm lead vocalist and leader of Avenged Sync. All I want to say before we get started is that I just wanna say thanks for all your support you've given to our band and for coming to watch them perform even though there was a missing piece of the band."

"We missed you Spencer! We're glad you're back!" People started to encourage me as a small frown was on my face at how upsetting it was for not being here.

"Haha thanks guys. Now are we all seriously ready?!" Shouting once again.


"1.. 2.. 3.." Brian counted off as he struck his drumsticks giving us the beat.

Oh jeez, hopefully they do a song I already know since it's been a while.

The guys started to play our original song "Closer, Faster." I smirked remembering the memories we had of this song.



Oh-oh oh-oh

When it gets dark we're falling far tonight
Under the moonlight chasing fireflies
If I'd ask you, "Do you think you want to?"
Just say yes without feeling like you got to
It's the way that you looked at me


That night
When the butterflies
They came to life
By your side


So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever


Oh-oh-oh


You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after


You lift me up, take my feet off the ground
With just one look it's like you've got me now
Left me speechless, didn't know I'd feel this
Just say yes, boy you know that we could do this
I'm the one you've been dreaming of


And that's why
The butterflies
They come to life
Every time


So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever


Oh-oh-oh


You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after


It's in the sound of your voice
You've got me caught up in your eyes
And under all the stars
Can you feel the butterflies?
And even at the summer's end
You left with all your promises
I still remember when you said,
"We could make it last"


So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever


Oh-oh-oh


You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after


So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever


Oh-oh-oh


You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after


As I got to the chorus, my eyes roamed around the place to find a curly haired boy with green eyes.

My eyes turned into slits as I glared at Harry, who was just smirking back at me as he looked up and down my body.

Damn shorts. How the hell did he know I was here?

Sigh.. Whatever. It's not like he can do anything to me in front of all these people.

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We sang a few more songs, but the last song I was about to sing was a song I promised myself I wouldn't show anyone until I was ready.. But now was the time.

The guys already knew since I told them over our small break.


I slowly walked over to the piano as everyone got quiet knowing this was the last performance for today.

My hands started to tremble as I took a seat and took my ring off putting it in my back pocket. I inhaled and exhaled a deep breath.

It's okay Spencer. You promised when you were ready. And know you're ready. You'll do perfectly fine, I told myself over and over as I tried to calm myself down.

I looked around once more and saw that Harry was looking at me with curiosity written all over his face.

I shot a small smile towards him which shocked him probably after I quickly looked away. He (btw not Harry) told me that I shouldn't have negative emotions while I sang this song to the world.

My fingers gently touched the piano keys as I pressed down beginning the song..



Say something I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning love
Just starting to crawl

Say something I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something I'm giving up on you

A small tear drop rolled my cheek as all the memories came flooding through my head.


(Ignore the "I lost my way and the guy in there.)

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you

Say something I'm giving up on you
Say something I'm giving up on you
Say something


Once the song came to a stop I looked up around me to see shocked faces and ones that had pity. I didn't need pity.. or for them to feel bad.

A screech sound filled the quiet place as I pushed back my chair and ran outside. My body wouldn't stop moving no matter how badly I wanted to, to let them know it was just a show. That it didn't mean anything...

My body just collapsed on the ground as it was too tired to go on. I laid my back against the wall as the tears wouldn't stop.

"Why am I crying? I am so sick of crying about this and crying over.."

Harry's POV:

I was completely shocked that Spencer had just ran out crying. What was wrong with her?

My head snapped towards her band mates to see their face full of sorrowness and heartbroken.

All of a sudden before I knew it, I started to run after her.

Once it seemed like a full 5-10 minutes she came to stop and just dropped against the brick wall crying. A frown slipped onto my face as I watched her from a small distance to make sure she was okay.

She began to cry out some words which I couldn't really understand. I took a few small steps closer to hear her.

"Why am I crying? I am so sick of crying about this." Was all I could hear while the rest was muffled from her covering her mouth.

A small pain shot through me as I kept her cries over the night.













"Forgive me Jaxon..." Were the last three words I heard from her before she fainted from exhaustion.

Notes

OKAY. The second chapter is finally out after a long wait peoples ._. I was writing this yesterday AGAIN, I also wrote this few days ago, but it got deleted on my phone as I went to Polyvore. Does it happen to you like seriously. I go to another tab on Google Chrome on my phone and when I go back to this website to continue writing it, it just refreshes and poof. All my effort disappears ;-; That is why it pisses me off. Okay I'm done.

So. Do you guys like this chapter? A lot did happen in this chapter.. I guess, with Harry and band and all that shit going on.

Also I wanna say sorry for not updating at the pace you guys want me to or expect. It'll kind of continue like this because of stuff I have going on constantly around me.

And so again..

Who's Jaxon?

Why is Harry suddenly caring for her so fast?

What does the song "Say Something" mean to Spencer?

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