How can I love you if I hate you

*Sunday Afternoon*
Kady's POV
This whole week has been the best week of all that I've had. We came and rented a house by the beach. Its the best view you can ever have. Waking up, the love of your life sleeping next to you and then you get up to see the beautiful sun set starting to make its way up. The ocean which looks so blue so clear. Sometimes you see dolhins jumping inside the water. Its just so beautiful everything is, I wished I could live here forever with Patrick and not go back to the city. Here I have forgotten all my problems everything, once you get here its like your mind goes blank you don't think about all the worse things that have happened to you but all the most wonderful things. Patrick has been the best boyfriend ever. I told him how I loved him and he got so happy his expression was the most wonderful thing I've ever seen. His blue eyes sparkling and the way his cheeks got so pink when he blushes. He also did the most beautifuliest thing.
*Flashback*
"Can you imagine our life like this?" I aked Patrick as we were both sitting in the sand watching the sun set. His arms around my waist.
"Yeah I do coming here everyday watching the sunsets with you sitting here, Holding you makes my day, kissing you makes my week, and loving you makes my life. I love you, baby."
"Aww If I know what love is, it is because of you." I said as I turned to him before I knew it our lips were touching and we were kissing. I moved my lips in sync with his I found myself drawn to him I didn't want are lips to part. He removed his lips from mine. And started to reach for something in his pocket with his other hand. He then got his iphone out and started to search for something.
"Kady I-um I want you to know how much I love you and I want to dedicate this song for you. You've heard it on the radio all the time, everytime it comes out it reminds me of you all the time. I'm not going to sing because you know I can't." He said as he made me laugh.
"Here just hear it." He said as the song started to play.
What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
[Bridge]
My head's underwater
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
I don't know something inside me just broke me. I felt my cheeks had tears, I was crying. Patrick was wiping them and kissing my cheek.
[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh
[Verse]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you
[Bridge]
My head's underwater
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you,oh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohh
By the time the song was over I was a river, probably my face was a mess with my makeup running down too. But I loved it, it was like if it was talking to me about my insecurities.
"Did you like it babe?"
"Iiked it? I loved the song its so beautiful written. I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you." I told him as we pressed our lips together again and kissed.
*End of Flashback*

I was getting ready and put this outfit on. Patrick told me his was going to take me a the carnival that was close to the beach today since it was going to be our last day here and then drive back to London in the morning.
"Ready babe?"
"Do you think this looks okay?" I asked not so sure about what I was wearing.
"Babe you look great in anything." he said kissing my forehead and hugging me. He continued " But if you want my opinion you look hot." He said giving me a wink.
"Stop being dirty babe now lets get going before it gets very late." I told him as I got my bag and we left.
When we got there it was very full.
"Okay babe which one do we get on first?" Patrick asked me looking at al the rides.
"Oh the ferris wheel." I said pointing at it.
"Really Kady?" He said giving me that look like he didn't want to get on it.
"Oh c'mon I know it moves an inch every minute but trust me it would be fun because I'm here your love." I said pointing at myself which made him laugh.
"Oh Kady c'mon lets go." he said putting an arm around me.
Patrick's POV
We were going up the Ferris wheel again almost at the top. I don't see why girls want to get on this ride so much you literally move like an inch every minute. But doesn't matter Kady wanted to get in it and she looks so happy. By the time we got to the top it stopped like 2 minutes.
"Babe does it always stops here?" I asked confused not knowing if this is supposed to happen or were stuck here.
"Omg Patrick don't tell me your scarred? Well anyways it happens all the time like for the couples to kiss or makeout."
"Oh well in that case then" I said moving her face to me and gave her a peck kiss. Out of no where I felt the cart going down.
"I knew you would do that." She said laughing. Kady has that beautiful kind of smile that just makes you want to smile too.
After we finally got out of there we went to go play some games because Kady wanted a teddy bear so badly she kept begging me for one.
"Babe please get me a teddy bear and oh um... a dog too." She said giving me a pleading look.
"Alrite I'll see what I can do." I told her going to one of the games.
I finished winning Kady her 4 bears and 1 stuffed dog. I don't believe there's one she doesn't have now. We were walking back to the car cause it was getting late and I was getting cold. I gave my jacket to Kady because she was shivering over there. She looked like she was going to throw one of her prizes.
"What are you going to do with all those stuffed animals?" I asked her
"Well try to make a space somewhere in my apartment oh and sleep with one when I miss you because you know I will be traveling." She said making me sad I knew she was gonna go away next week but I didn't want to think about how much I will miss her.
When we got to the house we started to pack our stuff since we were going to leave in the morning. When I was done packing I went to go check on her she looked sad.
"Whats wrong babe?" I asked hugging her.
"That like in two days I will leave and we won't be together. I know its going to be like for a week and then come back but I haven't been so far away from you. Ima miss your kisses, your hugs, our conversations and especially Ima miss you." She said crying I started to hug her and wiping her tears. I started to kiss her ,my arms on her waist but then the kiss got more passionately and our tongues fighting for dominance, before I work down her neck.
Kady's POV
Me and Patrick were kissing and then it got more intense that our tongues were fighting for dominance and then he was sucking my neck. Even though I was feeling down because I was going to miss him but this was making me feel better. He stops as I smile to him and signalize to keep going he attacks my lips, making my heart beat race faster than it normally does.I kiss him hard and he moans in mouth, I hug his body into mine and let my hands feel his hair. We kept kissing until he pulled away and we both gasp for air.
"Kady are sure you want to do this I know your a virgin and if you want to wait babe I understand." He said sitting me on the bed. I thought about it quickly and then told him my answer.
"No I don't want to wait any longer." I smiled while I continued to kiss him.He quickly went back to kissing me. He took off his shirt in one quick motion. We made out for a couple minutes until he started to pull my dress up slowly. I sat up as he pulled it off completely and tossed it on the floor leaving me in my bra. My heart was racing through the roof. He kisses my neck and gives me love bites making me moan. I loved the feeling of his lips on my skin; I couldn’t get enough of it. Once he knows that it's pretty hard he comes back to my lips. I felt so embarrassed naked, "You have a beautiful body."
He went to the bathroom to get a condom and he put it on him. "Now I'm warning you that this will hurt for a few seconds but it'll feel better." He said. He slowly inserted him member in me. He stayed there for a few seconds while I adjusted.It did hurt for about ten seconds but now I'm beginning to feel the sensation. "You feel so good Kady!" He yelled. He slowly began to thrust faster. I let out a ton of moans. I bet the neighbors thought I was giving birth. Every single thrust became faster and faster. I moaned with pleasure.He changed the position where he came in deeper. I moaned as loud as I could, "Babe I can't hold it any more!" I yelled. "Just wait for a few seconds!" He shouted.After some more thrusts he yelled, "You can cum now." He said. I immediately screamed his name.
He gives me three long thrusts as his orgasm takes over him right after mine.
I gasp for air, he stops thrusting and lays his head next to me.We were both trying to control our breathing. His chest was sweaty just like mine was thelied beside me then taken off his wet condom off him and throwing to the side making me tirely laugh. He look me with with lustful eyes and kissed me gently.
"Babe are you okay did I hurt you?" He asked breathing loud.
"It was amazing just that I'm kind of sore." I smiled and kissed him.
"Yeah it happens" he said yawing "lets sleep baby we have to wake up early to head back."
"Okay I love you." I said covering my the sheets of the bed.
"I love you more." He said as he pulled me to his chest and wrapped his arms around my waist.
*6:50 a.m*
"Baby wake up its late we have to get going." I hear Patrick trying to wake me up.
"5 more minutes"
"Yeah babe that's the problem we overslept." He said as I immediately got up putting my bra and panties on.
"What oh shit Ima go to the bathroom I'll be out in 5!" I yelled as he was putting a shirt on and fixing the bed.
I quickly went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and my hair and to put some clothes on. I still felt a little sore from yesterday but it was worth it atleast I'm not a virgin no more and I got to experience how it felt.
We both got our luggage and left the house, I went to the car while Patrick went to go pay and give back the key. After that we headed back to London.
"How long will it be babe?" I asked
"Like about 4 or 5 hours well will be there by noon."
"Alright"
"yeah btw are you still sore from yesterday?"
"Yeah a little it kinda hurts when I walk but not a lot."
"Oh you'll be okay by tomorrow I promise."
"Okay Patrick sure." I said giggling. The rest of the car ride was about us talking about yesterday and then I got tired and slept in the car. I didn't even feel when Patrick carried me to my apartment and left me in my bed. I woke up like at 3p.m remembering that I have to go to work to get the last things ready for tomorrow heading to Sweden. I fixed my hair and headed out to my work.
Patrick's POV
Yeah I think that ring is perfect for her.......................................

Notes

Okay this took a lot of time its like 10:30 p.m over here In L.A anyways keep in mind that next chapter will come a lot of drama. By the way the sex part took more time to write I had to get help writing that anways thank you for all the comments you guys keep commenting,voting,rating, and subscribing. Last time I checked the total views it had was 3,140 that is so cool cx
I'll try to update tommororw or sunday