How can I love you if I hate you
♡I do Love Him♡
Harry's POV
I was driving home, my chest hurt from Kady pushing me. Fuck we snogged and it was just a peck kiss it was a passionate kiss. What surprised me more was that she kissed back. She doesn't kiss that bad. My hands on her waist and her hands feeling my curls was just the perfect kiss I have ever had. Like seriously I might say this to other girls but with Kady I mean it. Not even Kendall would make me feel the way I felt with Kady right now. When I had my arms around here it was the best feeling my heart was racing so fast and my stomach I was feeling butterflies I liked the way she was looking at me she didn't lose contact of me after the kiss. At that moment I forgot everything around us, I forgot where I was, that she needed to go home, that she had a boyfriend, that I had a girlfriend. That moment was only ours it was like if the world around us froze. But then Kady came back to earth pushing me hard that made me almost fall and she left by the time I was at the lobby she was gone.
I finally got to my house I unlocked the door and put the lights on since it was pitch black I moved slowly because I didn't want to wake up Kendall she would make such a big deal of me coming this late. I turned the lights off and slowly made my way up trying to make the least possible noise. Damn this house is creepy when there's no sound of anything it gives you a creepy feeling. I slowly opened the door to my room when I saw Kendall lying there sleeping. She looks like a beautiful angel when she sleeps, nothing close to the devil she actually is. I sometimes wonder why I'm still with here since she's a real bitch and she has no type of talent except walking naked in a runaway. But Kendall thinks she's some Miss Universe which she would never be. Well she has one talent alright and that one is in bed. I think it comes from her family since technically she's a Kardashian. As I was taking my shirt and taking my pants off I was looking at Kendall sleep. I didn't feel bad for cheating on her with Kady at all. Probably I really don't love her and I only tell myself that because I don't want to think that I like Kady. But do I like Kady?
Kady's POV
"Good morning Babe" Patrick said as he entered and sat down in front of me. He told me to meet him up and McDonald to eat breakfast since I really can't cook and well Patrick can't cook Pancakes.
"Morning" I said trying not to look at him, I swear I feel so bad for happened yesterday with Harry. I mean I was not going to tell him but I feel like my actions will end up telling him what I did. I couldn't go the whole night yesterday thinking about what would happened if Patrick found out. I'm scared I don't want to lose him, his my everything to me now he has other half of my heart.
"Babe here's your breakfast aren't you going to eat it?" He said holding it in one of his hands he broke in my thinking.
"Oh yeah thanks babe" I said grabbing it.
"You okay you seem lost."
"No I'm okay i-its j-just that I'm u-um um very tired." I said stuttering while I was trying to make a lie up. I hated lien to him but I wasn't going to tell him the truth.
"I knew you where going to be tired after you called me that you were gonna cancel plans."
"I know I'm very sorry but I had to stay and fix Harry's clothes and he gave me no choice." I said remembering all the hatred I have towards Harry. That stupid ass seriously shrinked his own clothes to make me cancel my date was an asshole.
"That fucking Bitch I hate that fool I swear Kady if he ever does anything to you like touch you I will kill him." Patrick said in this angry tone that scared me just thinking if he ever found out. No Kady stop thinking about that.
"No don't worry babe he wouldn't dare plus I wouldn't let him either." I said as we changed the subject and started to eat. He told me about what happened yesterday at his work and later about a fight that broke by the street we live in. After we finished eating we went for a walk around the park. Then we went to the swings and the slides, I swear were the biggest dorks ever. It was funny how the kids stared at us when we went on the slide. Then we just started kissing at the swings and all the kids left when they saw us.
"Look at what you did Patrick." I said putting my hands around his neck.
"What I do?"
"You scared the little kids"
"That was you Kady with your big ass plugs."
"Ugh shut up I don't scare people."
"I know you don't your too beautiful to scare anyone."
"Aww baby" I said we kissed again. I liked the way he would always rub my back instead of just putting his hands on my waist.He grabbed me and sit me on his lap warping his arms around me. I sat there and giving him a kiss on his cheek.I don't know what it is about him but I feel like I can be anything when I'm with him. Probably its because I know him from so long and now I so used to his company.
After our date at the park he took me to my work.
"I hate it how our dates have to end because I have to come here." I told him as I looked at myself in the mirror.
"Babe it won't be for long, by the time you remember the whole year will have past and you will finally be out of this hell that you work at."
"I know but it seems like forever I hate working for One Direction they all act like if there children."
"Well we aren't always going to like all our jobs. Just see it this way its almost over." He said as he stopped the car and I looked at the view of the building. I'm here and I don't want to get out of the car.
"Hey didn't you tell me your going to have a whole week off."
"Yeah I totally forgot today's my last day." I said remembering what Lou told me before she left on her vacation. "Kady you will get a whole week off in a three weeks so you can get your stuff ready when you leave with the guys to Sweden." Oh thank god I won't see Harry,Liam,Louis,Niall and Zayn for a whole week.
"Okay then I'll see you later bye" I said giving him a quick kiss as I got out and headed to the elevators. I got into the elevator and pushed the 20th button. The only thing that was going through my head was that I won't see this assholes for a week. When I got to the 20th floor I headed to the dressing room to get the guys ready for there dance rehearsal which I doubt will go well because they can't dance and every time they come back from that they are always in a bad mood and they usually taking there out in my like if its my fault they can't dance.
I opened the door to my surprised to see Kendall again in there with Harry having sex. But this time instead of stopping and looking at me they kept going at it. Gross I closed the door and went to the kitchen to get something to eat. I swear I get so mad when they guys bring there girls here to have sex like c'mon there's people here working and don't want to see that. Especially where they do it at where you have to at later, I don't want to smell that at all or be near that mess. I don't know why Harry even does that a lot sometimes I have a feeling that he does it to probably make me jealous which I highly doubt but anyways it doesn't at all I mean I don't care about him at all. That kiss was just something that wasn't supposed to happen but it doesn't matter anymore.
"Hey look its the bitch." Zayn said pointing at me as Louis and Niall laughed. Liam just sat there looking at Zayn serious.
"Zayn stop being such an asshole to her." Niall and Louis immediately stopped laughing and got serious too. Zayn got up I thought he was going to punch Liam because of the way he was looking at him. But instead he said "Why the fuck do you care Liam fuck I'm leaving" he said as went out.
"Sorry for his attitude Kady." Liam said as Niall and Louis looked shocked tha he wasn't insulting me.
"Its cool Liam thanks." I said giving him a small smile.
"Why aren't you in the dressing room getting our clothes ready." Louis said almost in a demanding tone.
"Because your idiot friend is having sex in there with his girlfriend."
"Oh my god can't Harry do his business ant home anyways I'll go make them stop come with me." Niall said as he got up and heading me to the dressing room. As we were making our way he kept asking me weird questions about Harry.
"Do you like Harry?"
"What N-"
"So are you jealous that he is dating Kendall?"
"No w-."
"Do you think his hot?"
"What N-"
"Do you want to go out with him?"
"Okay Blondie stop there what kind of questions are these No to all of them." I told him stopping him before he went in.
"Are you sure your not lien to me?" He said giving me this questioned look and going inside. What is wrong with him of course I don't like him I Never HAVE. NEVER DID. NEVER WILL.
Harry's POV
"Oh Harry you were better than ever." Kendall said giggling.
"Yeah yeah I know now get up and go change." I demanded her.
"But why we can go this all over again." she said biting my lower lip turning me on.
"No Kendall remember that your at my workplace and the stylist is going to come at any moment." I told her remembering that Kady opened the door before I didn't stop because Kendall was letting me go inside of her.
"Ugh that stupid bitch I swear Harry she's trying to steal you away from me." She said as I told myself "I wish."
"Seriously Kendall get up and get dressed." I said as she got up looking pissed. I smacked her ass making her groan as she put her hand on her ass.
I put my pants on and my shirt on right when I was fixing my hair Niall came in. He had a big smile in his face so I think he got the information I wanted.
"Shh Kendall is dressing wait for here to leave." I told him as he nodded. Finally Kendall came out she saw Niall and rolled her eyes and opened the door. I saw Kady waiting outside gosh she looks so beautiful in her outfit. "Move" I heard Kendall yell at her as she closed the door.
"So what you get out of her."
"Well she was looking at me all weird and she didn't answer all the questions I asked her she stayed quiet. And then she said she doesn't like you but I now she does you can see it in her eyes Harry." Niall said making me feel happy but something in me told me she doesn't like me.
"Thanks Niall tell her to come in" I told him as he did what I ordered I heard him tell Kady "Your Boyfriend is waiting for you inside" and when she was coming inside she was saying "whata fuck" then she looked at me sitting on the couch checking her out.
"Whata hell is wrong with Niall saying your my boyfriend?" She asked confused I jokingly said:
"Cause I am." I said in a serious way and she just looking at me all mad.
"Whata fuck no your not." She said walking away going to the closet.
"I don't have time for your stupid jokes come over here so you can fit this on." She said calling me to over there. I swear I felt like grabbing her and pushing to the wall and kiss her again.
"Look at this what do you think.Hey" she said as she clapped her hands "Stop checking me out pervert and what do you think." She said holding a shirt and some sweatpants.
"I think you should come with me in the fitting room and let me fuck you so you can see that I can do it better than your boyfriend ever will." I said looking at her boobs and her ass. She has a very nice body. I didn't even notice when I felt a hand hitting me across the face. My cheek was stinging.
"tell me another perverted thing and I slap you harder." She said as I was rubbing my cheek. Then when she turned around I grabbed from the legs and I carried her to the couch where I layed her she was pushing me and yelling but I was on top of her so she couldn't get out.
"Let me go Harry."
"Tell me you liked that kiss I gave you yesterday."
"I hated that kiss"
"Liar"
"If I do or not why do you care asshole."
"I know you felt something when I kissed you because you kissed back."
"Look Harry I only kissed back just to see how your lips tested that's all but I didn't feel anything." She said as I let go of her and sat next to her she got up and sat next to me. I was looking at the floor feeling disappointed. The only reason why I had sex with Kendall was to make Kady jealous but she doesn't care. She didn't feel that sparkle I felt when I kissed her.
"Do you love him?" I asked her wanting to know if she at least felt a little something for me.
"What?" She asked which made me get a little mad.
"I SAID DO YOU LOVE PATRICK!"
"I don't know but when I'm with him I never want to leave him.I remember when I met him, it was so clear that he was the only one for me.We both knew it,right away. And as the years went on, things got more difficult we were faced with more challenges. But we both overcame them, him being by my side always makes me feel like I can do anything when I'm around him. His charismatic, magnetic, electric. He has passed through so much and I have too and he has always been there for me when no one else would he gets me like no one else does. He loves me like no other person will ever do. And yeah Harry I do love him. I love him" She said smiling to herself she had a beautiful smile but that smile wasn't for me it was for him. This wasn't supposed to happen. I felt jealousy towards him. I felt a pain in my chest and I hated it.
I got up go get the shirt and sweatpants that she told me to put on.
"Ima go put this on tell another guy to come in cuz we have to go in an hour."
"Okay I will."
I was driving home, my chest hurt from Kady pushing me. Fuck we snogged and it was just a peck kiss it was a passionate kiss. What surprised me more was that she kissed back. She doesn't kiss that bad. My hands on her waist and her hands feeling my curls was just the perfect kiss I have ever had. Like seriously I might say this to other girls but with Kady I mean it. Not even Kendall would make me feel the way I felt with Kady right now. When I had my arms around here it was the best feeling my heart was racing so fast and my stomach I was feeling butterflies I liked the way she was looking at me she didn't lose contact of me after the kiss. At that moment I forgot everything around us, I forgot where I was, that she needed to go home, that she had a boyfriend, that I had a girlfriend. That moment was only ours it was like if the world around us froze. But then Kady came back to earth pushing me hard that made me almost fall and she left by the time I was at the lobby she was gone.
I finally got to my house I unlocked the door and put the lights on since it was pitch black I moved slowly because I didn't want to wake up Kendall she would make such a big deal of me coming this late. I turned the lights off and slowly made my way up trying to make the least possible noise. Damn this house is creepy when there's no sound of anything it gives you a creepy feeling. I slowly opened the door to my room when I saw Kendall lying there sleeping. She looks like a beautiful angel when she sleeps, nothing close to the devil she actually is. I sometimes wonder why I'm still with here since she's a real bitch and she has no type of talent except walking naked in a runaway. But Kendall thinks she's some Miss Universe which she would never be. Well she has one talent alright and that one is in bed. I think it comes from her family since technically she's a Kardashian. As I was taking my shirt and taking my pants off I was looking at Kendall sleep. I didn't feel bad for cheating on her with Kady at all. Probably I really don't love her and I only tell myself that because I don't want to think that I like Kady. But do I like Kady?
Kady's POV
"Good morning Babe" Patrick said as he entered and sat down in front of me. He told me to meet him up and McDonald to eat breakfast since I really can't cook and well Patrick can't cook Pancakes.
"Morning" I said trying not to look at him, I swear I feel so bad for happened yesterday with Harry. I mean I was not going to tell him but I feel like my actions will end up telling him what I did. I couldn't go the whole night yesterday thinking about what would happened if Patrick found out. I'm scared I don't want to lose him, his my everything to me now he has other half of my heart.
"Babe here's your breakfast aren't you going to eat it?" He said holding it in one of his hands he broke in my thinking.
"Oh yeah thanks babe" I said grabbing it.
"You okay you seem lost."
"No I'm okay i-its j-just that I'm u-um um very tired." I said stuttering while I was trying to make a lie up. I hated lien to him but I wasn't going to tell him the truth.
"I knew you where going to be tired after you called me that you were gonna cancel plans."
"I know I'm very sorry but I had to stay and fix Harry's clothes and he gave me no choice." I said remembering all the hatred I have towards Harry. That stupid ass seriously shrinked his own clothes to make me cancel my date was an asshole.
"That fucking Bitch I hate that fool I swear Kady if he ever does anything to you like touch you I will kill him." Patrick said in this angry tone that scared me just thinking if he ever found out. No Kady stop thinking about that.
"No don't worry babe he wouldn't dare plus I wouldn't let him either." I said as we changed the subject and started to eat. He told me about what happened yesterday at his work and later about a fight that broke by the street we live in. After we finished eating we went for a walk around the park. Then we went to the swings and the slides, I swear were the biggest dorks ever. It was funny how the kids stared at us when we went on the slide. Then we just started kissing at the swings and all the kids left when they saw us.
"Look at what you did Patrick." I said putting my hands around his neck.
"What I do?"
"You scared the little kids"
"That was you Kady with your big ass plugs."
"Ugh shut up I don't scare people."
"I know you don't your too beautiful to scare anyone."
"Aww baby" I said we kissed again. I liked the way he would always rub my back instead of just putting his hands on my waist.He grabbed me and sit me on his lap warping his arms around me. I sat there and giving him a kiss on his cheek.I don't know what it is about him but I feel like I can be anything when I'm with him. Probably its because I know him from so long and now I so used to his company.
After our date at the park he took me to my work.
"I hate it how our dates have to end because I have to come here." I told him as I looked at myself in the mirror.
"Babe it won't be for long, by the time you remember the whole year will have past and you will finally be out of this hell that you work at."
"I know but it seems like forever I hate working for One Direction they all act like if there children."
"Well we aren't always going to like all our jobs. Just see it this way its almost over." He said as he stopped the car and I looked at the view of the building. I'm here and I don't want to get out of the car.
"Hey didn't you tell me your going to have a whole week off."
"Yeah I totally forgot today's my last day." I said remembering what Lou told me before she left on her vacation. "Kady you will get a whole week off in a three weeks so you can get your stuff ready when you leave with the guys to Sweden." Oh thank god I won't see Harry,Liam,Louis,Niall and Zayn for a whole week.
"Okay then I'll see you later bye" I said giving him a quick kiss as I got out and headed to the elevators. I got into the elevator and pushed the 20th button. The only thing that was going through my head was that I won't see this assholes for a week. When I got to the 20th floor I headed to the dressing room to get the guys ready for there dance rehearsal which I doubt will go well because they can't dance and every time they come back from that they are always in a bad mood and they usually taking there out in my like if its my fault they can't dance.
I opened the door to my surprised to see Kendall again in there with Harry having sex. But this time instead of stopping and looking at me they kept going at it. Gross I closed the door and went to the kitchen to get something to eat. I swear I get so mad when they guys bring there girls here to have sex like c'mon there's people here working and don't want to see that. Especially where they do it at where you have to at later, I don't want to smell that at all or be near that mess. I don't know why Harry even does that a lot sometimes I have a feeling that he does it to probably make me jealous which I highly doubt but anyways it doesn't at all I mean I don't care about him at all. That kiss was just something that wasn't supposed to happen but it doesn't matter anymore.
"Hey look its the bitch." Zayn said pointing at me as Louis and Niall laughed. Liam just sat there looking at Zayn serious.
"Zayn stop being such an asshole to her." Niall and Louis immediately stopped laughing and got serious too. Zayn got up I thought he was going to punch Liam because of the way he was looking at him. But instead he said "Why the fuck do you care Liam fuck I'm leaving" he said as went out.
"Sorry for his attitude Kady." Liam said as Niall and Louis looked shocked tha he wasn't insulting me.
"Its cool Liam thanks." I said giving him a small smile.
"Why aren't you in the dressing room getting our clothes ready." Louis said almost in a demanding tone.
"Because your idiot friend is having sex in there with his girlfriend."
"Oh my god can't Harry do his business ant home anyways I'll go make them stop come with me." Niall said as he got up and heading me to the dressing room. As we were making our way he kept asking me weird questions about Harry.
"Do you like Harry?"
"What N-"
"So are you jealous that he is dating Kendall?"
"No w-."
"Do you think his hot?"
"What N-"
"Do you want to go out with him?"
"Okay Blondie stop there what kind of questions are these No to all of them." I told him stopping him before he went in.
"Are you sure your not lien to me?" He said giving me this questioned look and going inside. What is wrong with him of course I don't like him I Never HAVE. NEVER DID. NEVER WILL.
Harry's POV
"Oh Harry you were better than ever." Kendall said giggling.
"Yeah yeah I know now get up and go change." I demanded her.
"But why we can go this all over again." she said biting my lower lip turning me on.
"No Kendall remember that your at my workplace and the stylist is going to come at any moment." I told her remembering that Kady opened the door before I didn't stop because Kendall was letting me go inside of her.
"Ugh that stupid bitch I swear Harry she's trying to steal you away from me." She said as I told myself "I wish."
"Seriously Kendall get up and get dressed." I said as she got up looking pissed. I smacked her ass making her groan as she put her hand on her ass.
I put my pants on and my shirt on right when I was fixing my hair Niall came in. He had a big smile in his face so I think he got the information I wanted.
"Shh Kendall is dressing wait for here to leave." I told him as he nodded. Finally Kendall came out she saw Niall and rolled her eyes and opened the door. I saw Kady waiting outside gosh she looks so beautiful in her outfit. "Move" I heard Kendall yell at her as she closed the door.
"So what you get out of her."
"Well she was looking at me all weird and she didn't answer all the questions I asked her she stayed quiet. And then she said she doesn't like you but I now she does you can see it in her eyes Harry." Niall said making me feel happy but something in me told me she doesn't like me.
"Thanks Niall tell her to come in" I told him as he did what I ordered I heard him tell Kady "Your Boyfriend is waiting for you inside" and when she was coming inside she was saying "whata fuck" then she looked at me sitting on the couch checking her out.
"Whata hell is wrong with Niall saying your my boyfriend?" She asked confused I jokingly said:
"Cause I am." I said in a serious way and she just looking at me all mad.
"Whata fuck no your not." She said walking away going to the closet.
"I don't have time for your stupid jokes come over here so you can fit this on." She said calling me to over there. I swear I felt like grabbing her and pushing to the wall and kiss her again.
"Look at this what do you think.Hey" she said as she clapped her hands "Stop checking me out pervert and what do you think." She said holding a shirt and some sweatpants.
"I think you should come with me in the fitting room and let me fuck you so you can see that I can do it better than your boyfriend ever will." I said looking at her boobs and her ass. She has a very nice body. I didn't even notice when I felt a hand hitting me across the face. My cheek was stinging.
"tell me another perverted thing and I slap you harder." She said as I was rubbing my cheek. Then when she turned around I grabbed from the legs and I carried her to the couch where I layed her she was pushing me and yelling but I was on top of her so she couldn't get out.
"Let me go Harry."
"Tell me you liked that kiss I gave you yesterday."
"I hated that kiss"
"Liar"
"If I do or not why do you care asshole."
"I know you felt something when I kissed you because you kissed back."
"Look Harry I only kissed back just to see how your lips tested that's all but I didn't feel anything." She said as I let go of her and sat next to her she got up and sat next to me. I was looking at the floor feeling disappointed. The only reason why I had sex with Kendall was to make Kady jealous but she doesn't care. She didn't feel that sparkle I felt when I kissed her.
"Do you love him?" I asked her wanting to know if she at least felt a little something for me.
"What?" She asked which made me get a little mad.
"I SAID DO YOU LOVE PATRICK!"
"I don't know but when I'm with him I never want to leave him.I remember when I met him, it was so clear that he was the only one for me.We both knew it,right away. And as the years went on, things got more difficult we were faced with more challenges. But we both overcame them, him being by my side always makes me feel like I can do anything when I'm around him. His charismatic, magnetic, electric. He has passed through so much and I have too and he has always been there for me when no one else would he gets me like no one else does. He loves me like no other person will ever do. And yeah Harry I do love him. I love him" She said smiling to herself she had a beautiful smile but that smile wasn't for me it was for him. This wasn't supposed to happen. I felt jealousy towards him. I felt a pain in my chest and I hated it.
I got up go get the shirt and sweatpants that she told me to put on.
"Ima go put this on tell another guy to come in cuz we have to go in an hour."
"Okay I will."
Notes
No Hate on Kendall or her family.
Anyways wow I'm getting more views on this story wow :) that inspires me to right more of this story. Please Keep commenting,voting,rating and subscribing.
I have to say Kady's confession to Harry about how she loves Patrick I got it off Lana Del Ray's Song National Anthem at the end of the song she says a quote about love. Anyways just keep that in mind because later on it will make since and if you read the whole quote then you will kind of get it what will happen next. Message me if you do, because I want to know if people know whats gonna happen so don't spoil it on the comment area.
update!!
5/5/15