Over Again

I sit at the lunch table, squashed between Louis and Ashley, with Zayn and Harry across from the table as I begin sipping my Starbucks vanilla frappucino, and begin eating my ham and cheese tosti. I was super tired, and having English- not that bad except for the teacher, who makes it horrible, and then math- horrible subject and horrible teacher, and then art didn't do much to cheer me up either. I just kinda sat there, and drew really really horribly.
"Hey, what's up? You don't look to good today...", Ashley questions.
"I know, right? Is anything wrong?", Louis agrees, with a slight hint of worry in his voice.
"Nothing, I'm just super tired, and really moody. Didn't get much sleep at all last night.", I reply, but they still look a bit worried.
"you know what? I'm just gonna go to the bathroom. Be back in a second.", I say.
"Okay", say Ash and Louis together.
I realize that it's the 20th- just around the time of the month. I quickly run over to my locker and grab my emergency bag, and then head over to the girls bathroom. God. I hate PMS. And why the hell do you have to be so moody. I should probably hurry up, the boys must be thinking why , and I really don't want them putting together pieces of the puzzle. I quickly come out of the bathroom stall, wash my hands, put the bag in the top shelf of my locker, and be on my way back. I quickly go find my seat at the table, and ashley meets eyes with me. I see from her face that she gets it now, and a give her a smile.
"Sorry. Don't know why I'm so moody and annoying and boring today. Louis turns around and whispers in my ear,"It's okay, we get it. you're on your period. I have a Mom too you know. So do they. All of us have sisters too, except Niall. So we're actually pretty good at this stuff. My Mom still shouts at me to go buy tampons from the supermarket. So gross", he makes a face. I burst out laughing at his reaction, but feel really awkward talking about it with a guy. It's so unfair that guys have such an easy life, but women have to go through periods, having a baby, pregnancy, and so much other annoying pain. Why can't THEY go through pregnancy? But I definitely don't say this out loud. All of us talk and have fun, but I don't really feel very good. After lunch, I feel really nauseous, I get horrible cramps, and I feel like throwing up. On top of that, I have PE next. Just perfect. After changing into my PE clothes, I feel even worse. I go speak to the teacher, and go back to change so that I can go to the nurse. I just tell the teacher I have a stomach ache, instead of the real reason, but he lets me go, although unsure. Louis, Niall and Harry step out of the boys changing room, and see me going back, and come to me, worried. I tell them the same thing I told the teacher- nausea, throwing up, stomach ache. They all look at each other, and Harry says, "Look you don't have to hide it from us. It's the gross girl stuff", he makes a face, making me smile. I tell I really should go, and they let me. I quickly change out of my mint green top and black shorts into my normal clothes after putting on some deodorant and my chubby stick. I grab my PE bag and head over to the Nurse.
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I wake up to some shuffling and moving around in the bed in which I'm sleeping at the Nurse's. She gave a little blue pill, and a heating machine for my stomach, and she puts me to bed. I sense another person's presence, but adjust myself, but don't open my eyes. I think it's a guy. I fall asleep one his chest, the rest of my body on its side, and my legs tucked by my chest. I can hear the heartbeat, and them breathing.
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"Jenna? Jen? Wake up- school's over. You'll miss your bus. Jenna?"
I wake up to the sound of a guy, gently shaking me by my shoulders. My eyes flutter open and I realize that the guy is Harry. I look around, lifting my head from his chest. My legs are pressed against his side. I sit up quickly, rubbing my eyes. I fell asleep with Harry? What? He sees the confused expression on my face,"I had a free period after PE- the teacher wasn't there during Spanish, so I headed over here." His face looks a little bit guilty. That's so sweet of him! But I'm gonna be Louis' girlfriend. Tomorrow. I give him a smile,"Thanks, that's really sweet of you." I get up from the bed, but sway, about to fall down when Harry catches me.
"Hey, you okay?", he asks, a concerned expression on his face. I nod, lying, but my unsteady steps betray me as the room sways around me.
"No, Jenna. You're not okay. You can't go home in the bus like this. I'll give you a ride on my bike. Wait, you biked to school today right?" He says, worried.
"Yeah", I say, hoping to sound okay, but my voice sounds shaky and trembles. I was gonna argue with him, but I'm pretty sure that he's not gonna budge after this.
"Harry, isn't it a bit weird that I cuddled up against you. I mean, I thoroughly enjoyed the time, but I'm gonna be Louis' girlfriend in less than 24 hours."
His expression turns a little bit sad,"Look. I know that you're gonna be with Louis. I just wanted to let you know that I have feelings for you. Since the very first day. I don't expect you to do anything, but I just thought that you should know." What? WHAT? Harry has feelings for me? ME? All the girls are crushing on him and the rest of the boys, but especially him, being the flirt that he is. But out of the pretties, most popular girls, he picks ME? I'm definietly flattered, but what's so special about me? And how is this gonna affect my relationship with Louis. And the other boys? And him?
"Look Harry. I really don't know what to say. It's just, I told Louis, and I really do like him. A lot. It's just, I think I like you a little bit too. But, it's mostly as a friend. I really love our friendship- you're one fo the best guys and I don't want to lose the friendship that we have. Do you get what I mean? Because if we do this, Ii'm technically cheating on Louis. And that's not right. I don't want it to be a bad relationship, because I really do like him- he's my first boyfriend. I can't do this to him. I hope you understand, and I hope things can go to normal", I tell him. I mean every word of it. I can't deny it anymore. I do like Harry in that way, even if it is the littlest bit. Or a bit more than that. But I can't do this to Louis. I can't put them through this- I can't be in a relationship with Louis if this is happening.
I'm gonna tell him everything tomorrow. And I'm gonna be single.
"You are still taking me home though, idiot", I say, hoping to lighten both his mood and the atmosphere. It does make him smile a bit. He comes with me to the lockers, and refuses to let me carry anything. He literally doesn't even let me touch my locker, doing all the work, even if it barely work. After getting both our stuff, he walks with me to his bike. I thought he meant bicycle. He apparently rides a motorcycle. I've never been on one before, and they honestly kinda scare me. But I don't wanna be difficult- he's being really nice so I put on a helmet, and off we go.

We come out of the school area, and he starts going fast. I mean, he's good at PE and all, and I think he's definitely super- fit, but I nver thought he'd be this.... Badass? Just the thought make me smile as I rest my head against his back with my eyes closed to stop myself from getting dizzy again. We don't talk as he zooms through the streets, but it's a comfortable silence. He doesn't even ask for directions even though he's only been to my house twice, which I'm surprised at. It always takes me forever to find his and the others'.

We reach my house as he pulls into the driveway and gets off, picking up my bag. "Milady", he bows and and I clunk my helmet against his, and then take it off, making him smile.
"I can't decide what you are- badass or cupcake. I just can't. Seriously, I'm not even kidding!", I confess as he hands me my bag. He gets back on to his bike, and says, "I'm both and more. Which is why I'm so PER-FECT!", he says, laughing, making me grin too.
"Oh don't flatter yourself, Styles", I reply.
"Oh, but I just can't stop my style!", he says, kicking off, smirking.
"Get well soon, gross girl!", he shouts as he bikes away. I can't help but have a grin plastered on my face through the house.

I realize that none of my parents are here for a week- my Dad's gone on a work trip and my Mom is doing her work too. It's their first time leaving me completely alone, but I'm completely fine with it. I go to the kitchen and open up some instant noodles, feeling hungry. After eating them, and a lot of thinking, I go over to Louis and the other boys' house.

I reach there and I tell him to meet me outside because I'm sure that he wouldn't want me inside his house after I tell him everything- that we're over before we've even started, as I blink back tears at just the thought.

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