Always.
Monday.
Monday
I wish Mitchell didn’t have his clock in the front of the room. I just stare and stare, hoping that class will end quickly. With every tick I become more and more antsy, and it’s all just going to slow. My foot taps up and down and I just stare at the small hands silently praying for them to move and that they’re not doing this purposely.
“Ms. Ericson.” I suddenly hear my name being called and I snap my head to the immediate front of the room.
“Uh, Yes?” I try to make it seem like I was paying attention but when he said, “Bit distracted today are we?” I knew he was already on to me.
“Sorry.” I shake my head and notebook and pen closer to me. And by closer to me I mean as far from Harry as possible so there isn’t any accidental contact. “Didn’t get much sleep last night.” I say, and it’s not really I lie. I can’t remember the last time I had gotten a good night’s rest.
“Well, pay attention. I don’t want you failing this next test.” It may have seemed like he was coming off a bit rude but he wasn’t. He genuinely cared about my grade in this class.
“Alright. We have begun to go over Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs, the theory of human motivation. With your partner, spend the next 2 minutes writing and example of each level starting with Physiological and ending with self-actualization.”
I take a deep breath and turn my head slightly towards Harry, but still not making eye contact. “Okay.” I whisper, drawing a triangle and at the top is self-actualization.
“Acceptance and Creativity.” He speaks slowly, his accent more prominent than it has been in a while. I write down his words then continue with the word esteem below self-actualization.
“Self-esteem and confidence.” I whisper again, writing down the words and then love/belonging underneath it.
“Friendship.” He sounds like he’s choking out the word and then I hear his swallow. I can’t look at him, if I do I know I’ll have to walk out of the class. I could say something else like family or sexual intimacy, but I’m not sure it would be to wise right now.
I write down safety and then put security of everyday things before writing down physiological.
“Breathing and Sex.” I write down breathing, but instead of sex I just write down sleep instead.
“Good job.” I say politely and turn back to the front and pull my notebook to my side of the desk.
“Ke-” he starts to say but cuts himself off and faces the front of the room just like I do for the rest of class.
Finally, after commercials with examples of Maslow’s needs in them the bell rings. “Don’t forget to study and Kelly.” He says, stopping me from walking out the door. “Can you stay here a minute?” he asks. Shit, am I in trouble for spacing out?
“Sure.” I nod and walk to his desk as the students leave.
“I just wanted to make sure you were okay. I’ve had you for a couple years and it’s pretty easy to tell when something is upsetting you. Is there something going on?”
“Uh, no. I think I will be fine.” I answer, looking at the paper clips scattered across his desk.
“Are you okay now?” he pushes and I look him in the eye and shake my head.
“Not right now, no. But I will be. I’m sorry, I’ll pay attention. I should get to class though.” I tell him, moving toward the door.
“Kelly, if you need anything just let me know!” he calls before I walk out the door and to my English class.
…
From Niall:
Want to hand out after school and study for Spanish?
I smile as I walk to my locker before my last period of the day.
To Niall:
Sure, where do you want to meet?
From Niall:
McDonalds? Kinda hungry. ;)
To Niall:
Yea, sounds good. I’ll meet you there. See you soon.
I found the more I hang out with Niall, the easier it is not to think about Harry. Granted Saturday was not a good example of that, but it tends to be easier. He just makes me laugh.
“Hey Kelly.” Liam says as I walk into the band hall to go to the locker rooms.
“Hey, some of us are going to play laser tag Wednesday night.. Hump Day, you know. We like to celebrate the middle of the week because we’re cool.” He says with a crinkly eyed smiles.
“Oh, yea. Sounds fun! I love laser tag. Fair warming, I’ll probably dominate!” It was more of a promise, but it wasn’t true. I just won’t be last.
“Probably. I’ll let you go, can’t be late to gym.” He says walking the opposite direction of me.
“Alright Liam, I’ll see you later.”
“Bye!” he calls out and I wave again before I walk into the locker halls. Now all I have to do is get through this last class with Harry.
~~~
“Okay, so the vocab words.” Niall says, stuffing fries into his mouth. “Let’s go over the the body parts.”
“Tienes papas in tu boca.” I smile and watch him laugh at me.
“Buena.” And instead of sentences he points to the body parts we must now and I answer them to the best of my ability and we move on to words that have to do with being healthy.
“I can’t believe we’re going over being healthy and we’re sitting here at McDonalds.” I laugh.
“Guess we didn’t really think this through, should have gone to a gym or subway. But I love McDonalds so.”
“But it’s the worst thing we can put into our bodies. I’m more a breakfast from here person myself.” I say, sipping some of my sprite, the only thing I got from here after I debated a milkshake internally since gym class ended.
“Alright, so to live a healthy life style is…”
I’m distracted by a rowdy bunch stepping through the front door. I can tell one is Liam because he is sweating still and in gym clothes probably from football practice. Surprisingly, but I guess not so much, Danielle comes in with him. He looks at her with a bright smile and she returns it.
“Weren’t you with Liam?” his questioned snapped my out of my thoughts and my head moved towards him.
“Uh, kinda but we’re just good friends. Nothing going on there really. Danielle and him seem cute together.” I sigh, putting my head in my right hand looking at them.
“Alright, back to Spanish. I know we can both ace this test tomorrow.
I wish Mitchell didn’t have his clock in the front of the room. I just stare and stare, hoping that class will end quickly. With every tick I become more and more antsy, and it’s all just going to slow. My foot taps up and down and I just stare at the small hands silently praying for them to move and that they’re not doing this purposely.
“Ms. Ericson.” I suddenly hear my name being called and I snap my head to the immediate front of the room.
“Uh, Yes?” I try to make it seem like I was paying attention but when he said, “Bit distracted today are we?” I knew he was already on to me.
“Sorry.” I shake my head and notebook and pen closer to me. And by closer to me I mean as far from Harry as possible so there isn’t any accidental contact. “Didn’t get much sleep last night.” I say, and it’s not really I lie. I can’t remember the last time I had gotten a good night’s rest.
“Well, pay attention. I don’t want you failing this next test.” It may have seemed like he was coming off a bit rude but he wasn’t. He genuinely cared about my grade in this class.
“Alright. We have begun to go over Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs, the theory of human motivation. With your partner, spend the next 2 minutes writing and example of each level starting with Physiological and ending with self-actualization.”
I take a deep breath and turn my head slightly towards Harry, but still not making eye contact. “Okay.” I whisper, drawing a triangle and at the top is self-actualization.
“Acceptance and Creativity.” He speaks slowly, his accent more prominent than it has been in a while. I write down his words then continue with the word esteem below self-actualization.
“Self-esteem and confidence.” I whisper again, writing down the words and then love/belonging underneath it.
“Friendship.” He sounds like he’s choking out the word and then I hear his swallow. I can’t look at him, if I do I know I’ll have to walk out of the class. I could say something else like family or sexual intimacy, but I’m not sure it would be to wise right now.
I write down safety and then put security of everyday things before writing down physiological.
“Breathing and Sex.” I write down breathing, but instead of sex I just write down sleep instead.
“Good job.” I say politely and turn back to the front and pull my notebook to my side of the desk.
“Ke-” he starts to say but cuts himself off and faces the front of the room just like I do for the rest of class.
Finally, after commercials with examples of Maslow’s needs in them the bell rings. “Don’t forget to study and Kelly.” He says, stopping me from walking out the door. “Can you stay here a minute?” he asks. Shit, am I in trouble for spacing out?
“Sure.” I nod and walk to his desk as the students leave.
“I just wanted to make sure you were okay. I’ve had you for a couple years and it’s pretty easy to tell when something is upsetting you. Is there something going on?”
“Uh, no. I think I will be fine.” I answer, looking at the paper clips scattered across his desk.
“Are you okay now?” he pushes and I look him in the eye and shake my head.
“Not right now, no. But I will be. I’m sorry, I’ll pay attention. I should get to class though.” I tell him, moving toward the door.
“Kelly, if you need anything just let me know!” he calls before I walk out the door and to my English class.
…
From Niall:
Want to hand out after school and study for Spanish?
I smile as I walk to my locker before my last period of the day.
To Niall:
Sure, where do you want to meet?
From Niall:
McDonalds? Kinda hungry. ;)
To Niall:
Yea, sounds good. I’ll meet you there. See you soon.
I found the more I hang out with Niall, the easier it is not to think about Harry. Granted Saturday was not a good example of that, but it tends to be easier. He just makes me laugh.
“Hey Kelly.” Liam says as I walk into the band hall to go to the locker rooms.
“Hey, some of us are going to play laser tag Wednesday night.. Hump Day, you know. We like to celebrate the middle of the week because we’re cool.” He says with a crinkly eyed smiles.
“Oh, yea. Sounds fun! I love laser tag. Fair warming, I’ll probably dominate!” It was more of a promise, but it wasn’t true. I just won’t be last.
“Probably. I’ll let you go, can’t be late to gym.” He says walking the opposite direction of me.
“Alright Liam, I’ll see you later.”
“Bye!” he calls out and I wave again before I walk into the locker halls. Now all I have to do is get through this last class with Harry.
~~~
“Okay, so the vocab words.” Niall says, stuffing fries into his mouth. “Let’s go over the the body parts.”
“Tienes papas in tu boca.” I smile and watch him laugh at me.
“Buena.” And instead of sentences he points to the body parts we must now and I answer them to the best of my ability and we move on to words that have to do with being healthy.
“I can’t believe we’re going over being healthy and we’re sitting here at McDonalds.” I laugh.
“Guess we didn’t really think this through, should have gone to a gym or subway. But I love McDonalds so.”
“But it’s the worst thing we can put into our bodies. I’m more a breakfast from here person myself.” I say, sipping some of my sprite, the only thing I got from here after I debated a milkshake internally since gym class ended.
“Alright, so to live a healthy life style is…”
I’m distracted by a rowdy bunch stepping through the front door. I can tell one is Liam because he is sweating still and in gym clothes probably from football practice. Surprisingly, but I guess not so much, Danielle comes in with him. He looks at her with a bright smile and she returns it.
“Weren’t you with Liam?” his questioned snapped my out of my thoughts and my head moved towards him.
“Uh, kinda but we’re just good friends. Nothing going on there really. Danielle and him seem cute together.” I sigh, putting my head in my right hand looking at them.
“Alright, back to Spanish. I know we can both ace this test tomorrow.
Notes
The WEIRDEST thing happened the other day. I updated the last chapter, yea? Well, my best friend knows I write this but doesn't read it (because she's not supportive. lol jk.) then she sends me a screenshot of it because it was posted on tumblr. and she was like "Would you look at that?" and I was like, what? How'd you even find that?Little Run Down for you for new chapters after Monday.:
Wednesday.
Friday.
(days of the week chapters will be short, but updated quickly hopefully)
Then it will jump to next Tuesday or sometime close. (Something unexpected, I hope.)
Then we get some Harry Kelly action and yeaaaaaaaaaaaa. Shit, I'm excited.
Continuation of the chapter.
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