The Girl

HAZEL'S POV

I was surprised at the kiss, he hasn't kissed me like this in a while. But I couldn't bring myself to kiss him any longer. "Harry." I whimpered and attempted to push his body off. "Stop." I tore my lips from his and tried to catch my breath. I slid off the counter and looked at him with furrowed eyebrows. "You can't do that."

"Why not? You are my wife. I haven't touched you in months."

"Today has been emotional, this whole week has. We're just starting to sort everything out." If it was a year ago I would have let him take me upstairs and had sex.

"You're right, I'm sorry." He frowned.

"You can have the bed tonight, I need to stay up for a while." I informed him.

"You can just sleep wi-" I put my hand up shook my head. "Too soon." I nodded. "Why do you have to stay up?"

"I'm looking for a kindergarten teaching job."

"I support you though, you don't need a job."

"But I want one. I want to earn my own money." I shrugged.

"So when you leave me you'll be okay financially?" He spat. I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms.

"I really want my own job Harry. It's boring just staying here all day." I challenged. "And yes, I admit it. If things don't work out I need to be ready to support myself."

"But they will work out!" He slammed his fist onto the counter.
"Stop saying it won't Hazel because it will! You even said you'd try!"

"I will try, I am trying! I just need to be prepared." I shot back.

"Prepared to leave me." He murmured.

"I will if its necessary. I'm not guaranteeing that this will work and neither are you but all I want to do is get my own job and stand on my own two feet. I want to be independent but that doesn't mean I'm leaving you."

"Yet." I shook my head and walked away.

"I went to the counseling Harry. I'm trying." I called over my shoulder trying to hold my tears in.

I spent the next few hours in the study we never used on my laptop and found four openings. I'd have to go down there for applications tomorrow. It was 11:30 and I was starting to get tired so I shut my laptop and went down to the living room with a few blankets and pillows.

I turned on the tv and made a bowl of fruit then sat back down on to the couch. "Oh Michelle." I laughed to myself.

"Mind if I join you?" Harry's deep voice asked from behind. I turned my head to see his arms full of more blankets and pillows. I nodded and scooted over. "I want to build a fort." He said as he rearranged the couches. "Heeeeelllllp meee." He whined. I guess this his way of saying sorry, but I don't care. It's too damn adorable.

I got up and moved all the pillows and pitched up the blankets. We worked in silence for about twenty minutes until our fortress was done. "Ladies first." He smiled. I smiled back and entered the dim lit fort. Just like old times. He took my fork and ate my fruit and sighed.

"Heeeey." I whined.

"Boo hoo" he teased and layed down next to me. "I know you're trying Hazel. I just love you too much to act like we're not really together, y'know?" I shrugged. "Nah, you don't know. You want to be done with this marriage. And I get it. I've been an asshole." He shook his head.

"But we're attempting to fix it." I tried to lighten the mood.

"Yeah, so tell me about these brats you want to teach." I laughed and leaned back. "I want to teach at the kindergarten about 15 minutes away. I'd be working 7 hours a day 5 days a week. I think it'd be fun." I smiled.

"Yeah until they pull out your hair and spit in your face." He groaned.

"Does Lux do that?" I teased.

"No, but she's special." He smiled.

"Yes she is."

"Just like you." He complimented. I looked down at my feet and shrugged.

"I guess I'm pretty great." I laughed and nudged him. "So what's new with you and the boys?"

"We still need to record a few more songs for the next album but we're planning another world tour at the end of the year." I raised my eyebrows and nodded.

"Exciting. How's the album coming along?"

"Really good. I actually have to go in to record for a bit tomorrow. Would you like to come with me?" He asked hesitantly. "And maybe we can go for dinner after?" His hands were shaking a little and his cheeks were sort of red.

"Harry Styles. Are you asking me out on a date?!" I teased. He laughed and hid his face in his hands.

"Hazel, yes or no." He continued to laugh.

"Yes, I'll go." I smiled.

"Thanks." His hand went down to mine and squeezed it. He then looked down and frowned. "Where's your ring?"

"U-upstairs." This broke his heart, I could tell.

"Do you still love me Hazel?" He asked with his puppy eyes. What do I say? I don't want to break him even more. "The truth."

"I love you Harry. I-I..." This will hurt him so much.

"Say it."

"I'm not in love with you."

Notes

Short chapter :/ I'll update tomorrow though :)