Harry and I had been great after we made up, over my overreaction. We had been more at peace with each other, better than ever really. We had been spending more time out, just a couple small dates. I had been focusing a lot on school and work, with graduation right around the corner.

I was work when my phone began to ring, which was unusual because anyone who would call me knew I was here. Of course it was Harry.

"Hello!" I answered my phone happily after I saw it was Harry calling.

"Can you stop by my place after work, I need to talk to you about something." He sounded sad.

"Yeah of course, is everything okay?"

"Yeah yeah, I explain everything when you get here. Don't worry your pretty little head."

"You know I'm going to now, don't you?" I sighed, he sounded so distant. Something was definitely wrong.

"I know, just try not too. You're done in a half hour right?"

"Yeah, I'll be over in just about an hour, hopefully the rails aren't too busy."

I was a little sad that I couldn't bring my car to NYC with me. I rarely went home to Connecticut so I'm sure my parents barely ever drove it. Relying on the subways isn't so bad, I would just rather drive.

"Alright see you later Spenc."

"Bye Harry."

I ended the call, confused and worried. Beth, my manager, came over.

"Everything alright dear?" She asked concerned.

"Harry just called, he sounded all sad and frazzled. I don't know why, he wouldn't tell me. I just have to drop by his apartment after work."

"There's four of us here and we can manage just fine with three, take off and go make sure everything's okay. I would feel awful if something has happened and you aren't there."

Beth was the most understanding person I had ever met. I told her about Harry almost instantly after I met him. She was a few years older than I was and she gave the best advice. I knew I shouldn't be leaving work but something wasn't okay and I knew it was urgent he just wouldn't say.

"Are you sure?"

She nodded, I hugged her quick and ran to get my things and flew out the door. I hopped on the closest train towards Harry's.

It took me a little over 20 minutes to get to Harry's apartment, I quickly ran the steps instead of taking the elevator. I knocked loudly, the door was flung open by a somber looking Liam.

"He's in his room." He Smiled. "It's not life or death but just be ready. Harry rarely is down, he may not be pretty when he's in this mood but you have to accept at all times right?" Liam chuckle slightly.

"You're right, I don't think anything would make me not like him." I hugged him and was off to Harry's room.

I knocked lightly before going in just so he knew I was coming.

"Piss off Louis. I told you I don't want you're bloody sandwiches." He mumbled, laying face down on his bed.

"Well I'd say Louis got super hot since the last time you saw him."

"Spencer! I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd be here til later. Louis has been, well Louis. Trying to cheer me up." He said sitting up.

I offered a slight smile taking a seat in his bed next to him. "So what's going on? I'm not sure I like being out of the loop. Liam answered the door and had me all worried and after your phone call I just..."

I was cut off by Harry's lips being pressed to mine. I wanted to know what was wrong but his mouth is just so inviting. But if this is what he needed, I'd gladly give it to him. His hands slowly started to find their way under my shirt, grabbing my boobs tightly. It seemed like it's really what he needed, I pushed the fact that something was wrong out of my mind. I straddled his lap, grinding my hips into his groin roughy. I felt him instantly get hard, I let my hands find the button on his jeans. I undid them swiftly, getting off of him to remove them. I quickly took my yoga pants off, leaving both of us in just our underwear. His bulge now clearly evident. I slipped my fingers under the elastic of his boxer briefs. I firmly gripped his member, stroking up and down quick. I heard a mumbled moan come from the back of his throat and before I knew it he flipped us over, hovering over me.

Our first time was really about to happen. It was weird timing, considering some thing had Harry down, but if he was ready, I wasn't saying anything.

"You have no idea how fast you turn me on Spencer." He grumbles into my neck, nipping and kissing my extra sensitive skin. I moaned into his kisses, tangling my fingers through his hair. "I want you so bad right now."

With that he ripped my undies off and slipped out of his own. I was practically dripping at the fact of how sexy he look when he got horny. His eyes changed to a deep green, and his mouth was in a constant smirk. I couldn't resist Harry.

"Inside. Me. Now." I groaned as he teased my folds with his fingers.

Without another sound, he plunged into my entrance, hard. At first he kept a slow and steady pace, it felt incredible but I wanted more, faster.

"Harry. Mmm Harry, harder." I moaned into his neck, biting down. He lifted my bum off the bed, I wrapped my legs around his waist to give him better access to my glory. He sped up considerably, pounding in as hard as he could. I wasn't going to last very long if he kept it up.

"Yeah, Harry ohhhhh." I yelled. "Harry I'm close, harder babe. Please." I practically begged.

He did as he was asked, grunting loudly. "You feel so amazing." He said pulling my face towards his, kissing my intensely. I knew he was close to being finished as his thrusts became sloppy. I finally let go and let him finish himself as I came down from my high. He quickly pulled out and released himself onto my stomach. Falling onto his elbows, he was panting hard. He kissed my forehead and rolled over.

"Babe, I'm so sorry. I didn't want to make you a mess but I didn't have a condom on and I don't want babies and you know." He rambled.

"I understand." I smiled over at him.

After getting a towel and cleaning me up, Harry and I curled up under the covers together. I sighed contently my into his chest. I felt so happy when I was with him. Especially when we were like this, just laying here not caring about anyone or anything else. I still wasn't his "girlfriend" or anything but moments like this made me not care that I wasn't. He could have called anyone over, but it was me. He wanted me here. I knew we had to talk eventually but I didn't want to ruin the moment, he'd talk when he's ready.

He started playing with my hair, tucking it behind my ear as he kissed the top of my head. I looked up at him and noticed a tear streaming down his cheek. I reached up to wipe it away.

"My granmum passed away this morning." He finally said somberly.

"Oh Harry, I'm so sorry to hear that." I kissed his chest. "I'm here for you, no matter what you need, whenever you need me."

"I know, she was the greatest woman ever, other than my mom." He sighed, running a hand down his face. "I'm going back to England tomorrow for her funeral."

"Do you need me to do anything while you're gone? Or before you leave?"

"I'd enjoy you staying the night with me. And maybe some help packing." He tightened his grip on my side, as if he was afraid I'd say no.

"Of course, anything for you."

"Spencer, I can't thank you enough. You're so perfect."

"Harry, you know I'd do whatever you needed." I smiled up at him.

"Are you hungry?" He asked.

"Starving, actually."

"Let's go order some take out."

We both got up, changing into our clothes. Harry threw on some sweatpants, letting them hang low on his hips. Damn he was so sexy.

We went out the living room, joining the rest of the guys seeing if they'd like to eat with us.

"I'm not surprised you guys are starving." Zayn smirked.

"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to act innocent.

"Oh Harrrrrrry, harder Harrrry!" Louis screamed in a high pitched voice, imitating me.

My face went beat red. Harry was laughing along with the rest of the guys.

"Uhhhh yeah, you feel so amazing Spencer." Niall joined in, throwing a wink my way.

"Haaaaarrrryyyyyyy!" Louis added on.

I threw two pillows at them, I was so embarrassed. "Guys! No, stop it! Oh my god!"

"Love, we all do it, just maybe not as loud as you two." Louis joked.

"Yeah that was exceptionally loud. And I had to shut your door, more careful next time maybe Harry?" Liam added.

"Sorry guys. I'll try to be louder next time." Harry laughed along with the guys.

"Not you too!" I sighed defeated. I got up heading towards the kitchen to order our food.



After our food came and we all eat, I helped Harry pack up a suitcase for his trip home. He informed me he'd be staying for 4 days. He promised to call at least once a day to let me know how everything was going.

I crawled into bed next to Harry and he pulled me close. I knew he needed sleep but I also knew he needed me.

"Spencer, I'm glad you stayed."

"Why wouldn't I?"

"I don't know, it's not like you knew her or anything."

I knew he was referring to his grandma. He's crazy if he thinks that matters at all.

"I would stay whether I knew her or not Harry. You matter too much to be left alone when you need someone."

"The guys have been checking in on me all day before I called you. I thought I was going to lose my mind. I understand they worry about me but sometimes I just want to be alone. But then I knew I needed you here because you worry but you don't make it so obvious and if I need some space I know you'll give me it."

"Of course, it's hard losing someone you were so close with. Is everyone going back or just you?"

"Just me. The guys never met my granmum. They offered but I know they have a lot of stuff going on here."

I nodded, acknowledging I heard. We laid together silently for awhile until Harry spoke up again.

"You know I don't deserve you."

"And why would you ever think that?"

"You're so perfect, you're gorgeous and funny, everyone loves you, you have incredible taste in fashion, you always look so amazing, your smile, your eyes. Everything about you is just perfect Spencer."

"Harry, you know as well as I do, I'm not perfect. Far from it."

"Well at least you're perfect to me." He said kissing my lips. I couldn't help but smile and kiss him back even more. We kissed for a while until he laid his head back.

"Spencer, thank you."

"I would take a bullet for you if I had to Harry. You mean so much to me."

"I feel the exact same way, love. You're my girl now, you know that?"

I quickly nodded as he smiled kissing the top of my head. I leaned into his chest and draped a leg over his. After a little I felt his breathing change, signaling he was asleep. I let myself fall asleep smiling wide.

Notes

So they finally did it! Yay! And Harry said she's his girl!

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