Don't hurt me

"STAY AWAY FROM ME!" I shouted at the crowd of people in front of my school. They are all disgusting, egoistic bullies. I was covered in flour and eggs and ran as fast as I could towards my car. As soon as I got to it, I broke down in tears. The same old story has been continuing for 3 years now. I have no idea why they hated me so much, I've never done anything wrong to them, I was just a little...different. I searched the glove box looking for tissues so I can remove the egg shell off my face and my hair. My red hair was decorated with a yolk and, let me tell you something, it doesn't look very attractive. Now I could see my eyes in the mirror-they became grey, just like every time I get angry or sad. Now I was furious. I've had enough of being humiliated in front of the whole school for no apparent reason. They hated me without even trying to know me and I'm sick of it. I started the car and drove away. The parking lot in front of my house was surprisingly empty, and I thanked God for that. My seat was covered in flour but I didn't care, I only wanted to get to my bathroom and wash away this shit they threw at me. When the first drop of the hot water dropped on my shoulder I started to cry uncontrollably. I cried as I washed my hair, cried as I rubbed my face to take out the egg shell. I've never felt so weak, just because I let the hate get to me. I sobbed one last time and turned off the water. No more crying, Lucy, not today. I stepped out of the shower and saw my reflection. There are so many flaws I can find, that's not really helping about all this 'no crying' thing. I wasn't the model type of a girl, but I saw something special inside of me, something only special people see. And as I let the others break me, I was the only one that believed in myself. No more sadness, time to get even. As I got to my bedroom, I could hear my little brother singing a theme song from his favourite cartoon. I stepped into the room and he just turned around, faced me and screamed. "I thought I told you to keep out of my room?!" I yelled as he ran away from me. Little shit. I loved him, but he has no idea what privacy means to teenagers. I sat on the floor and pulled my notebook from under the bed. It was covered in dust since I haven't wrote in it lately. It was my special notebook. The one that shares my secrets, along with my wishes and fears. It's the one that contains my poems. But they're not just ordinary poems, they are magic. They are one of the reasons why people don't want to get to know the real me. When I write something, it comes true. I wrote about my pathetic life and it became even worse, I wrote about having a hard time in school and it got even harder. But I can't just write anything, it comes from my soul, and somehow, it only gives me material for a crappy life and no friends. Some gift, huh.

It took me a few minutes to concentrate, then my hand moved by itself, I had no power over it. It started to combine the words into verses, rhyming them, stringing them. When it was finished, the whole page in the notebook was covered in golden shiny words. It was glowing as the page absorbed them. I wasn't sure if I wanted to read what I wrote, what if it will only make me cry even more? But I was too curious, I had to do it. When the tint became dark blue, I had no other choice but to see what my life is about to make worse.

All the tears
Made you stronger
Hold on
A little longer
All the fears
Won't go away
But someone will come
And they will stay
Three rocks
Are to see
You are strong
And they'll believe
You are worth
All the pain
Little one
Don't be afraid

I was stunned. This wasn't bad at all, seems like my soul is trying to tell me to get trough the pain. Three rocks? What the hell does that mean? I will trip over three rocks? Well that doesn't sound very uplifting. Those rocks will believe? What? They will believe in what? This is getting confusing ugh. I might as well go to sleep, this day was a little to much to handle.

But her life is never going to be the same, those rocks will not trip her over, but save her.

Notes

Lucy you are strong, remember that <3