Just Another Mistake ~Sequel to Falling
Chapter 5
Arianna's P.O.V. It hurts. I just wish I was numb so I don't have to feel all this pain. Why does this have to happen? I could've moved on. Not now but in time I would've moved on.
I just wanted to disappear. I. Just wanted to die. But I couldn't. I can't exactly go up to Aro and say that I want them to kill me. They would never agree to it.
Then a thought popped in to my head. A useful thought for once.
I remembered Edward mentioning how to kill a vampire. I can control fire.
Slowly I unclenched my fist and held it out. I watched as a ball of fire appeared. I gently put my arm on the fire.
The feeling wasn't what I expected. I expected extreme pain but all I felt was a warm and tickling sensation. I let out a scream of frustration. It lasted for about a second then I remebered that everyone here have super hearing. I clamped my mouth shut and hoped that they didn't here me. But of course it was too late.
The door flew open and there stood Jane, Alec, Felix, and Alice looking very worried. The four of them rushed towards me and engulfed me in a group hug.
"Why did you run off? We were so worried!" Felix yelled.
I flinched at his tone and his gaze softened at when he noticed.
"I'm sorry Ari. I was just really worried." he said gently.
I nodded understandingly. He wrapped his arms around me tightly but not tight enough to hurt me. We stayed like that for about 5 minutes until Alice spoke up.
"May I please talk to her?" she said, her tiny voice sounding so fragile.
Felix stiffened beside me. He started growling. Yes. He was growling.
"It's okay Felix." I said.
He stared at me trying to decide. But in the end he knew that he wouldn't be able to stop me if I really wanted to talk to her.
He stood up and so did Jane and Alec. I was very surprised that Alec didn't say anything. I wasn't sure if he was still mad at me.
Then it was as if he read my mind because he spoke before they all left. "I'm not mad Ari. But I do want to talk to you tonight. Our place at midnight." Then they disappeared and I was left with a teary looking Alice.
When I was sure that they were out of hearing range, I pounced on Alice. I hugged her tightly but I made sure I wasn't hurting her. Tears were streaming down my face as I hugged her.
"I'm so sorry Alice. I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have left." I sobbed.
"Ssh. It's okay Ari. It's not your fault. Not of it was." she comforted.
Even though I knew that she was kind of right, I couldn't help but still feel responsible.
I sobbed in her arms for 10 for minutes until I ran out of tears. After 5 more minutes I was stable enough to talk.
"Ari why did you leave?" Alice asked softly.
"B-because I couldn't take it anymore. Tyler cheated on me." I stuttered.
Alice's eyes darkened. "He did what?" she growled.
"Alice please don't do anything." I pleaded.
She sighed but grudgingly nodded. "Is that the only reason?" she asked instead.
I hesitated and I knew that she saw. "No. That's only a small part of it. The bigger reason is that I was mad that Bella was taking all Edward's attention." I confessed.
She gasped. "You have feelings for Edward?"
I nodded.
"Since when?" she questioned.
I sighed knowing that since I confessed, I'd be bombarded by questions. "I guess since I laid eyes on him. I just never realized it until Bella came along. When she started taking all his attention, I got mad. I thought it was because I couldn't really talk to anyone anymore. But when they started dating I just got jealous. There were times when I just wanted to kill her so she'd be out of our lives." I confessed. I watched her eyes grow wider. Especially when I said the last part. I was afraid that she's tell Edward and get mad at me.
But all she did was hug me. We stayed in the tiny garden for another hour, just talking. Then a thought popped into my mind.
"Why did you guys leave?" I wondered.
She sighed. "After you left, we all freaked out. We all thought that Edward could convince you to not leave when he drove you to the airport. But when Edward came back without you, we just broke. Especially Esme and Carlisle. After you left, Rosalie became more of a bitch towards Bella. And surprisingly Emmett turned cold too. Edward and Bella was kind of falling apart. Edward became more distant. He just spends time in his room. He wanted to leave for a while but we wouldn't let him. Since you left, we didn't want another sibling to go. But when Jasper attacked Bella on her 18th birthday, that drove Edward to the edge. He said that we weren't safe for her anymore. So he broke it off with her and we left. He wandered around Earth. He went from country to country. When I had a vision of Bella jumping off a cliff, Rosalie told him and he went here. He has been having suicidal thoughts ever since you left. But it was the last straw. He went straight here to ask the Volturi to end his life. Bella and I came to stop him." she explained, her body trembling with emotion.
Tears threatened to fall but I tried to keep them in. "And all that happened because I left." I whispered.
"Don't blame yourself for this Ari. You couldn't have known. Now lets go because I'm pretty sure they're looking for us." She replied.
We stood up and left the garden. I was thinking as we walked down the hallways and back to the throne room. What if Edward is still in the throne room? I'm not ready to see him. I can't handle it. The last time I saw him, I kissed him and left. What if he wants to talk about it. I have no other explanation other than confessing my feelings to him. I can't do that because I know that it would ruin everything we have.
I was so busy with thinking about what might happen that I didn't even notice that we reached the big doors that leads to the throne room.
Alice glanced at mw. "Are you ready?" She whispered.
No. "Yes." I lied.
I know I'd have to face him sooner or later and unlike other people, I would rather choose sooner because I knew that if I put this off any later, I'd go nuts.
She took a deep breath before opening the large doors. They were there. All of them. They were all seated in chairs that wasn't there before. I took one step in the room and suddenly I was engulfed in a hug.
I stiffened. No. I can't do this. I stood there unmoving, as he hugged me tightly. "I missed you so much." He whispered.
I looked around the room uncomfortably. Then I made eye contact with her. I could see jealousy and pain in her eyes. And something that I've never seen before. Hatred. She hates me. Well the feeling's mutual. Bella glared at me with her chocolate brown eyes. I glared back with so much hatred and repulsion that she flinched. I knew that Aro noticed all of this. Actually everyone in the room noticed. I could see that from my peripheral vision that Jane was smirking at me. I guess she doesn't like Bella either.
When Edward realized that he's not getting any reaction from me, he let go. I looked into his eyes for half a second before averting my gaze. But that half of a second was enough for me to see the pain in his eyes. I shrugged him off and went straight to Jane and Alec.
The silence in the room almost killed me. I just wanted someone to talk. As if reading my mind, Alec spoke up.
"So what now?" He asked.
"I think it's time for the Cullens' and Bella to go. Since Edward's request has been denied. There is no reason for you three to stay." Aro decided.
There was silence once again. Then Caius spoke. "So you're just letting them leave? What about the human? She knows our secret." Repulsion rolled off his tongue.
Bella flinched when she heard this. I'm sure Edward discussed with her what happens to humans when they find out. She looked to Edward desperately but Edward didn't move. I could still feel his gaze on me.
"That's true brother. How about You decide Arianna." Aro replied smoothly.
I froze when he mentioned my name. "Me?" I squeaked.
He nodded and replied, "Yes you. You are more involved in this than I am. My decision might affect you greatly and I will not risk that. You can decide what happens to the human."
I gulped. As much as I hated Bella, I don't exactly want her dead. But at the same time I want her out of my life and Edward's life forever.
I cleared my throat before speaking. "I decide...."
I just wanted to disappear. I. Just wanted to die. But I couldn't. I can't exactly go up to Aro and say that I want them to kill me. They would never agree to it.
Then a thought popped in to my head. A useful thought for once.
I remembered Edward mentioning how to kill a vampire. I can control fire.
Slowly I unclenched my fist and held it out. I watched as a ball of fire appeared. I gently put my arm on the fire.
The feeling wasn't what I expected. I expected extreme pain but all I felt was a warm and tickling sensation. I let out a scream of frustration. It lasted for about a second then I remebered that everyone here have super hearing. I clamped my mouth shut and hoped that they didn't here me. But of course it was too late.
The door flew open and there stood Jane, Alec, Felix, and Alice looking very worried. The four of them rushed towards me and engulfed me in a group hug.
"Why did you run off? We were so worried!" Felix yelled.
I flinched at his tone and his gaze softened at when he noticed.
"I'm sorry Ari. I was just really worried." he said gently.
I nodded understandingly. He wrapped his arms around me tightly but not tight enough to hurt me. We stayed like that for about 5 minutes until Alice spoke up.
"May I please talk to her?" she said, her tiny voice sounding so fragile.
Felix stiffened beside me. He started growling. Yes. He was growling.
"It's okay Felix." I said.
He stared at me trying to decide. But in the end he knew that he wouldn't be able to stop me if I really wanted to talk to her.
He stood up and so did Jane and Alec. I was very surprised that Alec didn't say anything. I wasn't sure if he was still mad at me.
Then it was as if he read my mind because he spoke before they all left. "I'm not mad Ari. But I do want to talk to you tonight. Our place at midnight." Then they disappeared and I was left with a teary looking Alice.
When I was sure that they were out of hearing range, I pounced on Alice. I hugged her tightly but I made sure I wasn't hurting her. Tears were streaming down my face as I hugged her.
"I'm so sorry Alice. I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have left." I sobbed.
"Ssh. It's okay Ari. It's not your fault. Not of it was." she comforted.
Even though I knew that she was kind of right, I couldn't help but still feel responsible.
I sobbed in her arms for 10 for minutes until I ran out of tears. After 5 more minutes I was stable enough to talk.
"Ari why did you leave?" Alice asked softly.
"B-because I couldn't take it anymore. Tyler cheated on me." I stuttered.
Alice's eyes darkened. "He did what?" she growled.
"Alice please don't do anything." I pleaded.
She sighed but grudgingly nodded. "Is that the only reason?" she asked instead.
I hesitated and I knew that she saw. "No. That's only a small part of it. The bigger reason is that I was mad that Bella was taking all Edward's attention." I confessed.
She gasped. "You have feelings for Edward?"
I nodded.
"Since when?" she questioned.
I sighed knowing that since I confessed, I'd be bombarded by questions. "I guess since I laid eyes on him. I just never realized it until Bella came along. When she started taking all his attention, I got mad. I thought it was because I couldn't really talk to anyone anymore. But when they started dating I just got jealous. There were times when I just wanted to kill her so she'd be out of our lives." I confessed. I watched her eyes grow wider. Especially when I said the last part. I was afraid that she's tell Edward and get mad at me.
But all she did was hug me. We stayed in the tiny garden for another hour, just talking. Then a thought popped into my mind.
"Why did you guys leave?" I wondered.
She sighed. "After you left, we all freaked out. We all thought that Edward could convince you to not leave when he drove you to the airport. But when Edward came back without you, we just broke. Especially Esme and Carlisle. After you left, Rosalie became more of a bitch towards Bella. And surprisingly Emmett turned cold too. Edward and Bella was kind of falling apart. Edward became more distant. He just spends time in his room. He wanted to leave for a while but we wouldn't let him. Since you left, we didn't want another sibling to go. But when Jasper attacked Bella on her 18th birthday, that drove Edward to the edge. He said that we weren't safe for her anymore. So he broke it off with her and we left. He wandered around Earth. He went from country to country. When I had a vision of Bella jumping off a cliff, Rosalie told him and he went here. He has been having suicidal thoughts ever since you left. But it was the last straw. He went straight here to ask the Volturi to end his life. Bella and I came to stop him." she explained, her body trembling with emotion.
Tears threatened to fall but I tried to keep them in. "And all that happened because I left." I whispered.
"Don't blame yourself for this Ari. You couldn't have known. Now lets go because I'm pretty sure they're looking for us." She replied.
We stood up and left the garden. I was thinking as we walked down the hallways and back to the throne room. What if Edward is still in the throne room? I'm not ready to see him. I can't handle it. The last time I saw him, I kissed him and left. What if he wants to talk about it. I have no other explanation other than confessing my feelings to him. I can't do that because I know that it would ruin everything we have.
I was so busy with thinking about what might happen that I didn't even notice that we reached the big doors that leads to the throne room.
Alice glanced at mw. "Are you ready?" She whispered.
No. "Yes." I lied.
I know I'd have to face him sooner or later and unlike other people, I would rather choose sooner because I knew that if I put this off any later, I'd go nuts.
She took a deep breath before opening the large doors. They were there. All of them. They were all seated in chairs that wasn't there before. I took one step in the room and suddenly I was engulfed in a hug.
I stiffened. No. I can't do this. I stood there unmoving, as he hugged me tightly. "I missed you so much." He whispered.
I looked around the room uncomfortably. Then I made eye contact with her. I could see jealousy and pain in her eyes. And something that I've never seen before. Hatred. She hates me. Well the feeling's mutual. Bella glared at me with her chocolate brown eyes. I glared back with so much hatred and repulsion that she flinched. I knew that Aro noticed all of this. Actually everyone in the room noticed. I could see that from my peripheral vision that Jane was smirking at me. I guess she doesn't like Bella either.
When Edward realized that he's not getting any reaction from me, he let go. I looked into his eyes for half a second before averting my gaze. But that half of a second was enough for me to see the pain in his eyes. I shrugged him off and went straight to Jane and Alec.
The silence in the room almost killed me. I just wanted someone to talk. As if reading my mind, Alec spoke up.
"So what now?" He asked.
"I think it's time for the Cullens' and Bella to go. Since Edward's request has been denied. There is no reason for you three to stay." Aro decided.
There was silence once again. Then Caius spoke. "So you're just letting them leave? What about the human? She knows our secret." Repulsion rolled off his tongue.
Bella flinched when she heard this. I'm sure Edward discussed with her what happens to humans when they find out. She looked to Edward desperately but Edward didn't move. I could still feel his gaze on me.
"That's true brother. How about You decide Arianna." Aro replied smoothly.
I froze when he mentioned my name. "Me?" I squeaked.
He nodded and replied, "Yes you. You are more involved in this than I am. My decision might affect you greatly and I will not risk that. You can decide what happens to the human."
I gulped. As much as I hated Bella, I don't exactly want her dead. But at the same time I want her out of my life and Edward's life forever.
I cleared my throat before speaking. "I decide...."
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2/18/14