Just Another Mistake ~Sequel to Falling
Chapter 4
,Arianna's P.O.V. We crossed the boundaries of Volterra in exactly 2 days. I was getting more and more nervous as we neared the castle. The three of us tried to stay out of the sun as much as possible.
"Why are you so nervous Ari?" Dimitri asked. Okay was it that obvious?
I let out a shaky laugh. "I'm not nervous." I lied.
He narrowed his eyes at me, unconvinced. "Yes you are. What's wrong?"
I wanted to tell him so much. But I couldn't. Not only would he freak out but so would Aro. Just by holding Dimitri's hand, he would be able to know everything that happened. Every word he spoke and every thought.
"Nothing. It's just that what if Aro gets mad because we didn't deliver the gift?" I lied again. I know that was a lame excuse but I couldn't think of another one. Dimitri seemed to believe me so he let it go. But from the corner of my eye, Alec is still looking at me suspiciously.
As we made our way to the castle, Alec stiffened. "There's something wrong." He growled.
We walked quicker to the castle. The minute I walked through the door I immediately smelled a familiar scent. A scent so enticing. A scent that made me go weak on the knees. Edward's scent.
"Seems like we have visitors." Alec hissed.
"Cullens." Dimitri added, growling.
"Um does that mean we can give the gift?" I said trying to break the tension, even though I could feel the walls I built slightly shaking.
Alec bit his lip to stop a smile. "Let's go."
We flashed through the hallways until we reached the big doors which lead to the great room. Alec paused before putting his hand on the door. I don't know if he was pausing for dramatic effect or whatever but I'm grateful. I don't want to face Edward.
But that soon changed when I heard an all too familiar voice scream, "No! Edward!"
I pushed Alec out of the way and kicked the door open. Everyone in the room turned to look at us but I wasn't paying attention to them. The only thing I could see was Edward writhing on the floor in pain while Jane used her torture power thing. I didn't think twice. My hand shot out and it blasted Jane 15 feet up in the air and she landed with a loud bang.
Alice, Bella, and everyone in the room stared in shock. Edward hasn't seen me yet. I restrained myself from rushing to his side. I did enough damage and I don't think I can risk anymore.
"Stop. Just stop." I said in a tired and hollow voice.
Edward's head snapped up when he heard my voice. His eyes widened, seeing me standing there, close to tears in a cloak.
Actually it was safe to say that literally everyone in the room was staring at me. I bet even spiders or mice if there are some, are staring at me.
Aro suddenly stood up and appeared right in front of me. I prepared myself for his wrath. But I wasn't expecting the welcoming hug he gave me. "My dear Arianna you have returned."
This was followed by a chorus of "Welcome back" and "It's good o have you back". I held my head up high and strode to the front of the room where Caius and Marcus stood. I ignored the way Alice, Bella and Edward stared at me. I ignore the heartbreaking pain I felt when I met Edward's eyes for a second. They didn't do anything. They just stayed frozen on their spot. It was as if they were too shocked to move and I'm guessing that is exactly why they weren't moving.
I reached out to Caius and gave him a hug and he whispered welcome back. I turned to Marcus and gave him a hug too. Then I faced Jane who was scowling at me. I was surprised that she wasn't raging. I gave her an apologetic and questioning look. I was confused at first but when I saw understanding flash through her eyes. And I instantly knew that she figured it out. Maybe it's because of the way I reacted whenever they mention the Cullens. But I'm surprised she was able to keep this from Aro.
"How did the trip go? I'm guessing not very successful?" Aro asked cheerfully as if no one else was in the room with us. It was as if the Edward, Alice and Bella aren't standing there watching us, baffled.
"No it wasn't very successful. They weren't there." I replied quietly.
Aro let out an "ah" then turned to Caius and gave him a nod. Caius stood up and walked next to me. "Arianna we have visitors. These are Edward and Alice Cullen, and Isabella Swan." He introduced.
I gulped then turned to look at the three. I tried so hard not to crumble right in front of everyone. I pretended that my heart wasn't slowly breaking. I pretended that the walls I built around my heart and mind wasn't crumbling to pieces.
I didn't say anything. I was hoping they wouldn't reveal everything by acknowledging me. But of course as usual, luck wasn't on my side. Alice was the first to react.
"Aria." Alice whispered. In a flash, she was standing right in front of me with her tiny arms wrapped around me, holding me tightly. I stood there stiff. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to hug back so badly but a part of me couldn't.
Maybe it was because I knew that if I hugged her back, everything I worked for would just crumble. She finally let go when she realized I was just going to stand there. Confusion and hurt was evident through her golden eyes.
I sighed and patted her hand once. I glanced at Aro and hoped that he'll understand. And he did. He glanced at everyone then at the door and back. They all shuffled out silently. Aro glared at Felix and Dimitri.
"No. This involves our sister and we're not leaving." Felix spoke firmly.
"Let them stay. It's fine." I said quietly.
I still haven't acknowledged them other than the pat I gave to Alice. Once the door closed with a heavy bang, the tension in the room went higher. And so did the awkwardness.
"Why?"
When he spoke, the remaining broken walls crumble instantly. The way he asked that single word made me feel his pain. I fought back the tears that threatened to fall. He asked again when I refused to answer. This time though, it wasn't just one word.
"Was it because of me?" He asked.
The pain was so evident in his voice that I just couldn't help but look at him. And once I did, I knew it was a mistake. It took all ounce of my energy to not run right into his arms. Instead all I could manage was a nod.
"What's going on?" Jane's voice interrupted. I had almost forgotten that we weren't alone in the room.
Alice took a deep breath and held her hand out to Aro. "It's not the same as getting it from their perspective but its close" her voice was laced with so much emotion that she was shaking. And I just wanted to hold her. But I couldn't. I was too weak.
Aro took her hand and closed his eyes. After about a minute, his eyes wasn't as confused as before. He stared at Edward and he slowly got up. Edward kept his eyes on me the whole time. I knew because even though I avoided his gaze, I could feel it. Aro took longer with Edward. But when he was finished, he looked somewhat sympathetic yet angry at he same time.
Then he turned to me. "And I guess I will never get your side of this story. Unless you tell it to me but I will never get the full truth." He said with sadness.
I sighed. I knew that Aro wasn't trying to make me feel guilty so I would tell him. I could tell that he just genuinely wanted to know.
I sighed again and said, "Yes you can. You can still get in my mind."
Everyone in the room gasped except for Edward. He was the only one who knew that I could choose who I want in my mind.
"What? But it's impossible to get into your mind. You have a shield of some sort that is so strong that not even the most powerful mind reader can break through." He said.
"That's true I guess. But I can choose who I want in my mind. I am able to let you in if I want." I explained. I was a bit nervous because I wasn't sure if I was ready to show someone everything single thought and conversation I've ever had in my life.
He seemed to notice my hesitation because he said quickly, "You don't have to open up to me if you don't want to of course."
I shook my head. "It's alright. I think it's time. And I'm sorry for not telling you sooner."
I held out my hand and he took it gently. It took him 5 minutes to see everything I've done in my left. To feel everything I've felt. Then he suddenly let go and opened his eyes. His eyes held so much pain. I knew that he somehow experience that pain by looking through my mind.
"You're a very strong girl. Im surprised you're still able to be somehow after going through that." He whispered.
I didn't reply. I could feel Edward's gaze burning through my back and I couldn't take it anymore. So I turned around and met his gaze.
"Stop. Just stop." I screamed.
I ran out of the room and went straight to the secret garden. There is more than one garden. The secret garden was made by Alec, Jane, Felix and Dimitri. It was their present for me for something I don't even remember. I hid there and started sobbing.
What did I ever do to deserve this?
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2/18/14