Fear

"don't worry,i've done this for 3 times,if you mind your own business and do your job right,nothing's gonna happen.just make sure to keep your mouth shut the whole time.if there's one thing they hate it's people who try to pry themselves in to what their saying.you have to act like you don't even exist in the room,like their the only people and you'll do fine"
"you'll be there too right?i mean you'll help me do the right thing?"
Josh smiled at me and said:
"yeah, of course"
i felt a lot better knowing he'll be there helping me.what if i spill one of the drinks on them?what if i give them the wrong thing?what if they don't like me?....
"stop thinking too hard,it'll only make it worst.just relax.think your at were you work and they are regular customers."
i tried doing as he told me too.right now we were standing in another room waiting for the guests too go in to the private section so we could go in and start to do what ever we're supposed to do.i wish Nicole was here with me.i looked up to see Nina looking a lot worst than me,she was afraid,i could see it.if only Nicole was here,she knew what too say to make both of us feel better.poor Nina.
i slowly made my way towards her and she looked up to me with worried eyes,she said:
"what if we do something to anger them?that Lockhart girl said they would do things to us!what if we disrespect them..."
"Nina it's alright,just calm down i'm sure we'll do fine.it'll probably be some rich people who won't even acknowledge us,everything's going to be alright"
she smiled at me and said:
"i hope so,you know your a really great person Rose,I like you"
"well that's the second time some one told me they like me since i moved here and the first time she turned out to be my best friend,so i think we can be good friends as well,cause i like you too"
she smiled a little wider and said:
"i would like to have a friend,i don't have any since i moved here from from Canada,where are you from,you don't seem to have a british accent?"
"well i'm from England but none of my family has a british accent so i didn't pick any accents as well."
"oh"
right then Josh jogged up to us and said:
"Nina you need to go to Dan,Rose come with me their all walking towards here,Lila said she'll call us the second they sit inside so we could start"
we both nodded our head and i smiled at Nina while she smiled back and went towards Dan.Josh said:
"i caught a peek at them,they seemed to know each other,and they all looked really young."
i nodded my head,so there's a bigger chance of them being douche bags or it could be the other way around,they can be nice to us.well only one way to find out.about 10 minutes later the door to our room opened and Lila came in,in a hurry she said:
"ok hurry up!their already in there and you should get to work,the tray's of Champagne are outside the room on the table next to them.hurry up!don't make them wait!"
we all nodded and hurried outside.there was 2 big guy's in black suits standing outside the brown doors which i guess were body guards. Me and Nina walked to the table and just like Lila said there was 2 trays of champagne,on mine there was 3 glasses and on Nina's there was 4.so that means there are 3 people who i'm going to serve to and 4 people in Nina's room who she's going to serve too.
i grabbed the tray and took a deep breath before walking in,making sure to keep my head down and not look in anyones face.i looked around carefully and saw it was a big balcony like place with a great view of the whole Ball,there was a round big white table in the middle of it with three people sitting around it,the moment i saw them i looked at my feet.i whispered to Josh:
"should i just give these to them or wait a while?"
he whispered back:
"just go forward and show them the tray if they move forward to take one let them if they don't just put it in front of them next to their plate"
after that he went towards a little bar in the corner.i took a deep breath and prayed i wouldn't trip.i walked slowly towards them,i was seeing the back of their heads at the moment,2 men and 1 girl.one of the men had Blonde hair and the other one had dark brown curly hair,the girl had blonde hair as well.i couldn't see their faces and i wasn't planning too.remembering what Lila told us earlier that to some people it means disrespect.
i walked next to the blonde guy and didn't even dare look up from the trays,i told him with a voice slightly above a whisper:
"Champagne sir?"
i could feel his eyes on my face but i still didn't look up.being too scared to look up.he said:
"i would love one"
he had a different accent than british,he only said one sentence so i didn't really figure out what accent it was.i remembered what Josh said,if they don't pick one up then i should put them in front of them myself.so i did as he told and grabbed one glass carefully putting it down in front of him,i could still feel his eyes on myself but i didn't say anything nor did i look up.i kept repeating in my head 'rose don't look up,don't look up,don't look up' .i walked next to the lady and asked again:
"Champagne miss?"
she only nodded her head not even bothering to say anything.so just like last time i grabbed a glass and put it down in front of her.i was standing behind her so i couldn't see her face,not that i could even if i was in front of her,since i was so afraid to even look up.i walked next to the last guy,i still could feel the Blonde guys eyes on myself and truth be told,i was beginning to freak out.i asked again:
"Champagne sir?"
he looked up at me but didn't say anything.it was like he was just looking at me,i was now really freaking out,no one told me what to do if they didn't say anything,what should i do?
right as i was about to cry,i heard his voice say:
"thank you"
i had to bit the inside of my cheek to not cry out of happiness or sigh out loud,after i put his Champagne down i quickly turned around but i still could feel both of the men looking at me,i walked towards Josh and he was looking behind me curiously at the people around the table.i put the tray down and Josh whispered:
"you did good"
i smiled at him, he then winked at me and continued:
"you know both of the guys were staring at you for a good while,i think they like what their seeing"
i rolled my eyes at him.he said:
"did you figure out who they are?"
"i didn't dare look at their faces"
he chuckled quietly and said:
"smart move"
then he froze looking behind me and after a moment he whispered:
"Dude..."
i asked him:
"what?"
he whispered slowly:
"the curly one,he just turned around looking at you"
"so?"
"they never do that,they never even bother to look at the waitress,but he turned around looking at you and i swear he was glaring at me but that's not it,i saw his face..."
he looked slightly shook,stealing glances behind me like he was afraid of them.i asked him:
"who is it?"
"it's Harry Styles"
i froze,Harry styles?THE Harry Styles?
suddenly it all clicked in my head and i remembered from where i heard from this ball,it was from the Blog i read about him,about him going on a vacation and coming back for the Big Ball,about him being the most Fearful man in London,About him being one of the biggest criminal's.i felt my whole body go cold.Josh asked:
"are you ok?"
"ye-yeah.....just.....yeah i-im fine"
"are you sure?"
"yeah"
i turned around towards them and looked at him.i was afraid of this man and i knew it,i was afraid of him because of all the things he has done,but not only because of them,because i knew he had no feeling inside of him,because i knew he was a heartless monster,because i knew he didn't care,because i knew he didn't have a soul.
just as i was looking at him,he turned once again looking at me,i wanted to look away,i did,but i couldn't.it was like the moment i looked in to his eyes i couldn't pull away.
when he caught me staring i expected him to look away or call his body guards to teach some manners to me,but i didn't expect him to stare back.he didn't even look away.his eyes locked in to mine and we just looked at each other for a while,his gaze was so intense,like he was seeing my soul through my eyes.i felt small,weak compared to him.from up close,it was even more clearer to me that there was nothing in them,no soul,no light,no hope,no nothing.he was a heartless monster who i came to despise more every second that passes when i hear what kind of man he is.
the sound of slow music starting to be played brought me back from whatever trance i was in and i quickly turned around towards Josh.he was looking at me and looking behind me at the same time,he asked:
"what was that about?Styles is practically eating you with his eyes!,do you know him?"
"no of course not,and i don't know so don't ask me"
"Rose,be careful ok,Styles is know to be a player,he's with a different girl every night,and right now it look's like he has his eyes on you.he's a bad guy and you don't want to be in any way related to him, believe me."
"what makes you think that i would even go near him"
"i didn't think that but like i said,he has the look's,the money,the charm,it's hard for a girl to not give in to him.i mean he's practically what every girl wishes for."
"you don't need to worry i will never go near that monster,he has done horrible thing's and to me he's nothing but a disgusting human being" which i'm afraid off.
i then looked at my clock,it was 6:10 which means in 5 minutes they will bring us what ever i have to serve next.i tried my best to not think about him but it was hard,never in a million years i though i would be in the same room as him.
right then i heard a series of claps and soon a voice following:
"Ladies and Gentlemen welcome to the Big Ball"
i asked Josh:
"really The Big Ball,What kind of name is that?"
he snickered and said:
"don't ask me ask the bastard who made this whole thing"
i snickered as well,josh reminds me Of Nicole in some ways.now that i come to think of it they make a really cute couple.
i looked at my wrist watch not bothering to listen to what ever the guy speaking had to say and grabbed the tray that had the champagnes on them and walked towards the door as quietly as i could.i opened the door and nearly dropped the Tray when i saw the body guard in front of me.damn these people are scary.i looked at the table and saw there was 2 big cart's like the ones you see in really elegant restaurants full of different trays on them.right then the other door opened Nina came out,she saw me and smiled,then she looked at the cart and whispered:
"that's all for them?!"
"i suppose so"
we both walked up to the carts and i asked her:
"do we have to like ask them which one they want or like give them all of it?"
"i think we should ask Josh and Dan first,do you know the people in your room?"
"well,there are 2 guys and 1 girl.i know one of the guys,It's Harry Styles"
her eyes widened and she said:
"THE Harry Styles,the one who killed all those people?"
"Apparently"
"wow,if i was in your room i would've fainted from fear,In my room i know 2 of them,there's Colin Firth and Henry Cavill."
"i have no idea who they are?"
"Really?their like one of the biggest Billionaires,their older than Styles but not richer.Styles practically is the best there is."
"well he's nothing but a heartless cold monster that i need to give food to,now we better get back before they get hungry"
she giggled and nodded her head,we both pushed the carts back in to the room and Josh gave me a look and mouthed 'what took you so long?'.
i mouthed back to him 'talking with Nina'.i looked through the plated and trays on the Cart and i asked Josh:
"what should i do with these?!"
"just put the trays and plates in front of them on their table.it's empty because you have too fill it."
i nodded my head and pushed the cart as silently as i could towards them.right now there was music playing and everyone were talking with each other or eating whatever other waitress's gave them.the blonde guy and girl were both talking to each other while Styles was scrolling down his phone.
i decided to stand next to the blonde,if i'm being honest,it was because i was afraid of styles,because god knows,maybe he'll punish me because i was standing next to him.
i looked at the cart and noticed they were arranged in a formation so i figured i should put them down on the table in the same order.
the moment i stood next to them i felt the blonde guys eyes on me one more time,that is so creepy.i looked and saw that all 3 of them had drank their champagne's.so i grabbed the glasses and put them in the lower part of the cart.then i put the plates on the table and pushed the Cart outside the room.i left it the place i took it from and walked back in to the room.
i looked at Josh and he smiled at me.i guess i was doing good until now.
right as i was about to go and seat next to Josh,i heard a deep raspy voice say:
"Excuse me"
i didn't need to be rocket scientist to know that he was calling me,i turned around and walked towards him
please don't kill me,please don't kill me,please don't kill me.
"yes Sir?"
i was looking at the table,still not finding the courage to look in to their faces.they were all looking at me and to say i felt weak and small was the understatement of the year.
"well,i was hoping you could get us some drinks?"
"of course sir,what kind?"
"2 city of life's and one Ritz Paris Sidecar"
wow.i've never even heard of these drinks before.
"of course sir,right away"
i walked back to Josh and asked him:
"they ordered drinks which i have no clue what they are!"
"just tell me the names"
"2 city of life's and 1 Ritz Paris Sidecar i think?what kind of names are these?!!"
Josh whistled quietly and said:
"2 of the most expensive Cocktail's,i'm telling you,these people know what they ordered.well be glad i know how to make these,not every one knows"
"just make them so i can give it to them.and who the hell names a drink City of Light's.like come on!"
Josh snickered but didn't say anything.
after a long time finally he gave me 3 glasses full of these orange liquids which i guess were City of life and something paris something.
i put them carefully on a tray but i didn't know which is for who,well he didn't tell me he just gave me the orders for all 3 of them.
i sighed knowing i will probably screw up,i walked up to them and told them:
"Sir,your drink's"
The Girl said:
"Ritz Paris Sidecar is mine,since Harold didn't bother to tell you that"
i smiled and put the drinks down in front of them,i was about to walk back to Josh when the girl one more time said:
"wait,what's your name?"
why the hell does she want to know my name?!
"Rose,Rose Edwards Miss"
she then said:
"ok Rose,Have you ever thought about becoming a model?"
what the fuck is she talking about?!
"no not really Miss"
"well Rose,you have the body and the face.i'm the owner of Young's Magazine and we've been looking for a girl to take some photo's from for our next edition.so what do you say?"
seriously!is she giving me a job to become a model!!there's no way in hell i'm becoming one!
"Thank you Miss but No"
she was silent for a moment probably shocked that i rejected her offer.she said:
"ok then"
i bowed slightly and walked back to Josh feeling 3 set's of eyes on myself.
what the hell was that about?!!
Josh asked:
"what where they telling you?!was it the drinks?was there something wrong with them?"
"No Josh,she only gave me a job offer to do a modeling thing i think and i just told her i wasn't interested"
Josh looked at me with wide eyes and said:
"you rejected her?!"
"yeah,i mean i know i'm a waitress but that doesn't mean i'll become a model,i just....don't think i can pull it off.i don't have the confidence or anything a model should have so no thank you"
"your different Rose,not the bad kind,but the good kind"
"i'll take that as a compliment,thank you"
he nodded his head and gave me a short smile before going back to do what ever the hell he was doing before.i turned around and leaned against the bar only to see He was looking at me,again.i looked at my feet,the wall,the ground,but every time i looked up he was still looking at me.was i a movie or something to him?
right then,the music was cut off and a loud voice boomed through the whole place of some man speaking.only then Styles averted his attention to where it was supposed to be.
"Ladies and gentlemen i hope you've enjoyed yourselves until now,i'm only here to announce we have a live performer here tonight,please give it up for Adele!"
oh my god!!!Adele!!seriously!!!Adele is here!!!
i wanted to run forward to see for myself but controlled myself.i heard Josh snicker besides me.i turned around and asked him:
"what?!"
"you made the face every fan girl does before screaming their lungs out"
"so what!?i love Adele!!"
"ok hush!no need to scream!"
"oh yeah sorry.."
right then Skyfall started playing and i made a sound that sounded a lot like a squeal.
ok i squealed quietly.
i turned around only to see Styles looking at me with a quirked eyebrow with slight amusement in his eyes.well at least it's an emotion.it show's that he's not a zombie at least.
before i knew it i rolled my eyes at him only to realize what i did a second later but it was too late.i looked at him wide eyed fearing what he was going to do,but the only thing he did was chuckle slightly and shake his head.then he turned his attention back to the front.the blonde girl and guy next to him were looking at him like he just grew a second head.
the blonde girl said:
"did you just chuckle?"
he looked at them which made me see only the back of his head he said:
"and?"
the blonde girl said:
"it's just....you never even smile anymore......but you just chuckled.......how.....why did ....."
"oh yes Charlotte, i just Chuckled get over it"
and he was back to his arrogant selfish son of a bitch version.


but i couldn't help but think,was i the reason he laughed?

Notes

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thank you for reading my awful story.
With love
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Anoosha