Aimless

Harry's P.O.V.

A “Welcome Home Aiden” party wasn’t exactly something I wanted to attend. That was a shame really. I liked Aiden. He was a friend. My bitterness over the fact he was home and staying in his condo with Abby was overriding everything else.

I was going so that I could get her alone and talk to her about this. I didn’t want her to feel like she had to stay here if she was uncomfortable. I’d give her a fully furnished place to stay in if she wanted it. She didn’t have to stay with Aiden.

I knocked once then walked on in. No one was going to be able to hear me over the noise anyway.

The place was packed. I scanned the crowd for Abby.

“Harry, about damn time you showed up,” Aiden called out over the music that was pumping through the condo’s built in speaker system.
He was sitting at the bar with Louis, El, Niall and some unknown female who was sitting in Niall’s lap. But Abby wasn’t anywhere in the room. Dammit.

“And he’s back,” I said, forcing a smile.

“Just for a visit. Can’t stay long. Dad will try and get a monkey suit on me if I do,” he joked. But the words were too close for comfort. I knew what it felt like to have your father’s claws imbedded deep.

“I’m trying to get him to stay. But he has it in his head he’s only visiting before his next adventure,” Louis said taking a sip out of his beer. I knew he was trying to ease my mind about Aiden being here. I could tell by his tone of voice. Right now, I just wanted to find Abby.

“Where’s Abby?” I asked, unable to pretend like I wasn’t here for her.

Aiden’s eyebrows shot up and his gaze narrowed. I ignored it and looked directly at Louis.

Louis rolled his eyes and shook his head at me.

“She’s in her room. Why ?” Aiden replied.

“Why is she in her room? Is she okay?” I asked looking back at the hall that led to the two bedrooms in the condo. Both doors were shut. Which one was she staying in?

“She had a phone call and went in there so she could hear. Again, why do you care ?” Aiden asked narrowing his eyes at me.

I wasn’t going to answer him. This wasn’t his business. He was stopping through. He said so himself.

“Harry and Abby met when she passed through a few month back. They uh… they uh…
hooked up. They’re friends now. He’s a little protective,” Louis explained.

“You’re engaged,” Aiden said as if I needed reminding.

I leveled my gaze on him. “I wasn’t whenAbby and I met. And it doesn’t stop me from caring about her. I need to make sure she’s okay,” I said, before moving across the room toward the hallway.

I opened the first door and the lights were off. I closed the door and opened the next one. Abby was sitting on the bed with her legs crossed and a phone pressed to her ear. Her eyes lifted to meet mine and they widened with surprise.
She was okay and I should close the door and walk away. But I didn’t. I stepped inside and closed the door behind me.

“Uh, yeah. I need to go. I’ll call you later,” Abby said into the phone as she watched me warily.

“I’m fine. I just had company walk in and I don’t want to be rude. Okay. Yeah. I love you too. Bye.”

She pressed the end button on her phone and slowly lowered it to her lap.

"Harry?” The rest of her question was left open.

“You weren’t out there.” I nodded my head toward the door. “I wanted to check on you.”

Understanding dawned on her face and she gave me a small smile that made my chest feel tight.

“Thank you but you know you don’t have to worry about me. I’m fine. Really I am.”

She wasn’t fine. I wasn’t sure she’d ever been fine. I walked across the room and sat down beside her on the bed.

“I’ve wanted to come check on you since Friday night. You know you can call me if you ever need me.”

She turned her head just an inch so that she could meet my gaze.

“You were busy with your fiancée this weekend. You don’t have time to worry about me.”

I had only been with Amanda today at lunch.

“I’ve hardly seen Amanda this weekend,” I replied, hating saying her name to Abby. It seemed wrong.

Abby dropped her eyes to stare down at her hands.

“I saw the two of you when I got off work today.” She didn’t say more. I thought back to the disaster of a lunch we’d had with our parents and the fight we’d had on the ride over to the club. Then I’d apologized because Amanda had been right. I was torturing us both by being an ass.

“We had lunch together,” I explained. I wasn’t sure why I felt the need to explain but I did.

“You fought and you made up. I don’t understand how you can ever be happy, Harry.” Her honest reply caused the tightness in my chest to ache.

“Me either.”

“I can’t let myself care about you anymore. I’m afraid of how I feel about you and I don’t want to get hurt.” the frown on her face was prominent as she looked up at me for a split second.

She was making it hard to breathe. The soft pleading in her voice was going to break me.

“I would never hurt you,” I swore. I could never hurt her. I just wanted to protect her.

“But you do. Every time I see you with her it hurts. That’s not your fault. It’s mine. I cared too much too fast. And Friday night didn’t help. It only made me care about you more.”

We had barely even had a chance to be friends. She was already putting space between us. I couldn’t let her do that. I needed her. She was the only bright spot in my life right now.

“What about us being friends?” I asked.

She shrugged and then squeezed her hands together tightly in her lap.

“I don’t know. I don’t think I can. When you’re… when you’re sweet and caring like you were the other night… no one’s ever been like that with me. At least not a guy. I can’t seem to control my emotions.”

Fuck. I couldn’t lose this… this thing between us but I also didn’t want her hurt. I’d do anything to keep her from getting hurt.

“I want to be there for you when you need someone, Abby. Please don’t push me away.”

Abby let out a sad laugh. “That’s just it. You can’t be there for me when I need someone. It makes my heart hurt just a little more each time. I’ll be leaving soon. Let’s just keep our distance until I go.”

Hell no. I started to tell her just that when the door opened and Aiden stepped into the room.

“You okay?” he asked Abby without looking my way. I didn’t like the way he looked at her. The concern in his eyes pissed me off.

“We were just talking about my leaving soon,” she replied without looking up at him.

“You’re not leaving,” I argued. If she wanted to have this conversation in front of Aiden then we’d fucking have it.

“I can’t stay here,” she replied.

“Yes you can.”

“She doesn’t want to,Harry. And why the urgency to get her to?” Aiden said taking another step in Abby’s direction.

“Stay the fuck outta this conversation, Aiden. You don’t know anything about her.” I hissed.

Abbystood up and held up her hands to stop me from saying anymore. “Please, stop it.”

I looked up at her and the sadness in her eyes tugged at me. I liked seeing them twinkling with laughter. Not like this.

“You need to step back and think about this bullshit you’re doing. The Harry I remember wasn’t an insensitive jerk. Abby doesn’t deserve this. You’re engaged for fucks sake! Whatever you feel for Abby has to end. She’s leaving with me in a couple of weeks. We’re going to travel together. Why don’t you let this go, huh?”

I was about to reply with a cocky remark as his words stopped me making my eyes widen.
She was leaving with him?

"Is this true? Abby?" I looked between the both of them comfused.

The refusal to believe Abby was going to leave with Aiden pounded in my head. Yet there she stood not denying it. Only looking sad and beaten down.

Fuck this. I couldn’t keep doing this to myself. She wasn’t staying here. I had no future with Abby. And if I didn’t marry Amanda I had no future in my father’s company. Aiden’s hand slipped over Abby’s shoulder and he squeezed it. That was all I could handle.
I stood up and stalked out of the room.
I didn’t look back. I didn’t say goodbye to anyone.

I just left.

Notes

Ohh myy Baby :(

Aiden you stupiid baaastaaard!

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