" We're here" I told Harry pointing to the meadow. This place was my sanctuary, I found it accidentally when I first moved to London. I found it when I first went exploring the city. And I kept coming back. It was peaceful and not many came by. It strangely connected me to home. That in the midst of a hectic city, there was a peaceful quiet escape. And it became my escape.

" Ive never been here." Harry said parking the car."

" Yeah not many people have, thats why I keep returning its my own secret place."

" And you're bringing me here?" Harry said.

And thats when i realized, yes I am bringing Harry someone I barely knew to my sanctuary. No one knew about this place and i meant no one. Not El, not, Sarah or my parents. No one. No one besides me knew about this place, well now no one except Harry.

"Yeah I guess I am."

"Why, I mean I'm honored and all but why me? " He asked me

" Well its actually pretty simple as to why, see right now I'm going to tell you about all my demons, and there is only one place i can do that and that's here. And after tonight you'll have your answer and I'll have mine, and maybe by the end of tonight I would learn as much about you as you know about me." I then took his hand and led him further into the meadow. We sat down, next to each other and faced towards each other.

"Harry I'm going to tell you a story, one that impacts my life tremendously, the reason why I've been having a hard time trusting you, the reason why i am the way i am. But you have to promise me something."

" Anything," He answered, and when he did i knew i made the right choice of brining him here, i knew that all of this wasn't a mistake. I mean maybe me and Harry, maybe we were written in the stars.

" When I tell you my story, when I'm done, I don't want you to feel guilted into liking me, I don't want you to treat me differently than you would've not knowing what I'm about to tell you."

" Raquel you're scaring me," He said with the look on his face, like he pitied me.

" See, that look, the look you have now, i don't want to see that when I'm done, i worked on myself after everything happened, and i don't want you to feel like you have to fix me, i already fixed myself."

" Im sorry, but please just tell me, i want to know everything about you, and my feelings for you won't change you don't have to worry about that. No matter what you tell me now, i know this feelings that have been growing inside of me, well they won't just go away."

I cleared my throat, i knew there would be tears whenever i told someone what happened to me it always brought my emotions out. Telling this story took a lot out of me, but the memories were so clear once I began.

" When I first moved to London, I didn't have an apartment, I lived in the dorms. Thats where I met him, Charlie, my ex. My roommates decided to throw a party, against my wishes, being that I had an extensive research paper due in a few days. I was sat in my room typing away at my computer, when Charlie barged in my room. He was looking for a quiet place to sit for a while, because he too was dragged out by his friends. One thing led to another and we began talking, from there he took my number and we went out on a few dates. Everything with him seemed so perfect. He didn't look evil but he was. After a month of dating we became exclusive or i thought we did. He asked me to be his girlfriend, and I said yes. Thats when it all went downhill.

Charlie began drinking more, he blamed it on school stress, and when he got to drinking he became violent. He used to come to my room as late and four in the morning and push me up against the wall and touch me, everywhere. I knew we were dating but i didn't want this. I tried to get out of it, away from him, but he didn't let me. He soon began following me everywhere, constantly calling me and asking where i am. He also used to call El, and bother her, about my where a bouts.

I looked over to Harry's face as mine became more pained, all my emotions surfacing at once I didn't even get up to the worst part yet. Harry looked at me with a reassuring smile to continue, that he wasn't going anywhere. And I continued.

"But just because he was so concerned about me cheating doesn't mean that he stayed faithful. He used to go to clubs, and his friends would send me pictures of him, grinding with another girl. Or his tongue shoved down another girls throat. But I didn't even care. I was so numb to pain. Because when he got home from the club, he came to mine. And he raped me. Almost every week he would come over. I locked the doors but he made a key. He would let himself inside, i tried to get away but he was too strong to overpowering to fight. He would force me onto my bed and force me to have sex with him." I felt Harry's free hand brush against my cheek, wiping away my tears.

" I took up boxing, and i got stronger and stronger, getting ready for when he would walk through my door again, so I could fight back, and get me revenge for all the times he hurt me. And one night I did.

Flashback

" Babe, are you ready because I know I am…" Charlie said as he walked through the door, and this time I didn't try to run, instead I felt different I felt empowered.

" Yes, where are you? I learnt a few new tricks I can't wait to show you." I answered putting my rings on before covering them with my gloves.

" Well look who finally came around, see now we can have more fun this way."He answered reaching for my arm.

And everything that happened next happened so quickly. I brought my knee to his crotch, and soon he was on the floor. I went over to him and sat on top of his body.

"Oh so you want to be on top this time, I like that idea…" He said winking at me, he had no idea.

" something like that," I answered as I punched him in the face.

" What the fuck are you doing." He said holding his cheek.

'" Oh you thought i was just going to let you continue with this,that i was just okay with you taking advantage of men well you thought wrong. I'm done with the abuse, with the rape, with you. And each time i delivered another blow to his body. In his ribs. In his stomach, In his face.

" You stupid bitch!"

" Do not call me that, after the way you treated me, you where supposed to be my boyfriend, you were supposed to love me."

" Love you! ha! how can I ever do that. You think that night we met was a coincidence! No if anything it was far from it. See after my last girlfriend broke up with me, my mates tried to get me to cheer up. They told me about you, they told me how uptight you looked. About how naive you would be. They bet me that I couldn't get you. So I set out to proved them wrong. My mates called your roommates up, and convinced them to throw that party. They told them that I took an interest in you. So when you were not there, they told me that you where in their room."

" You're lying you coward!" I shouted at him not believing his story, slowly losing my bravery.

"See you are still so naive! yes I never loved you! Everything that I told you the night that we met everything i continued to tell you where all lies! and Still you believed me you trusted me. I came back to you every night and i took advantage of you and yet you never did anything about it until now."

The next words he said i would remember forever. The reason i can't trust anyone anymore.

" You trusted me, you've trusted me and all my evil, all the lies I've ever told you, and thats what made you weak, that's what will keep you weak. You will ALWAYS be weak."

And with that final sentence I completely lost it. Everything that I once was, was gone.

Notes

Hii! two updates this weekend because it took me two weeks to update ill try to update again but i dont know if i will find the time! Sorry i left it on sort of a cliffhanger but i liked the way i left it so yeah
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