It's Life

The door opens. It is Harry. But he does something I kind of expected.

He. Does. Nothing.

He looks at me with no sign of guilt in his eyes, and walks away.

I knew he was cold-hearted. And I knew something like this would happen.

But I didn't expect the weird pain in my heart. But it's life, it happens.

Louis continues to beat me, while I sit there helpless, and useless, and worthless. Maybe it is time to end it. I won't feel pain anymore. I won't be a bother to other people. And I could finally be with my mum. Maybe it's better off that way.

Once louis starts to get tired, I decide to be a sassy bitch and say something stupid.

"So when are you gonna start working on our project?"

Rather than pissing him off like I thought I would, I made him chuckle, and He just walked off to go find Harry.



The walk home was painful. Buuut, I made it.

I walked to the bathroom to finally end it.

I deserve a long, painful death, I think to my self as tears run down my face.

Something seemed to to stop me from reaching for the razor.

Its was like I could hear my mums voice I'm my head.

repeating over and over again "Don't do it. You have so much to live for."

"I have nothing to live for!" I scream as tears run down my face.

The words in my head change.

"You have so much ahead of you later in life. Every thing will be okay."

I don't know why, but what she said stopped me from ending it.

I squeeze my eyes shut and shake my head, hoping the pain will end.

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I would have skipped school today, but that would mean staying here with my dad.

I look like shit. I'm wearing my comfiest sweat pants with my baggiest t-shirt with a hoodie that is way to big for me. My hair is in a messy pony tail, and my face and eyes are still red and puffy from crying last night. I'm seriously think my face will be stained red for the rest of the day because of how much I cried.

When I walk in the school doors, I'm not even kidding when I say everyone was staring at me. Most of them staring in disgust, others in amusement. I ignore them and walk to my first class. When I walk in the class, even my teacher looks at me in a strange way.

When I get to my class with Louis, he states his opinion right away.

"you look like shit"

"Thanks, I try."

Notes

Omg, I'm back!
So how was the chapter?
its slightly longer this time!

I'll be updating next Wednesday, if not earlier

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