Streets of New York

It wasn't until around nine in the morning until I arrived back into the city centre or New York. I practically spent all morning walking back from Big Joe's or would you say night? I don't even know but that's what I've been doing since the chaos of Big Joe's. I've got to admit, I did take an agonisingly painful longer route which was crazy of me, considering it adds an extra two hours to my already long enough journey especially walking around in shoes that are a size too small for my poor feet. But I did need that extra time to think and as soon as i got into the city centre, I knew I would just sleep for the rest of the day.

I was zoned out really. What was I going to do about Jace? Yesterday's unusual events wouldn't have sent him away, if anything they would have made him angrier. What am I saying? I know for a fact that they would have definitely made him angrier. And besides he was already as angry as angry could be. Think think think. I really am fucked aren't i?

Maybe I could stay in hiding? But how long will I last without him finding me? I already tried that and that didn't last very long. And the worst part was the amount of fucking money I owe him. I am in the biggest mess I could possibly be in, all because of that stupid, old, naive me. If possible, I would happily kick the old me down a flight of stairs. "The old me" funny saying that really, isn't it? Because in reality I'm still the exact same girl. Stupid and naive. Two words that perfectly fit my persona. I am now clean though, you've got to give me credit for that. I've been clean for a while now. I'm also not a stupid old slag that uses her body to get what she wants. I guess I've matured in that manner too.

But there's one thing that dazzles me the most about this whole situation. It's them five boys. They helped me, something that no one has ever done before. Well technically they didn't help, they made the situation much worse (especially Zayn by giving ol' Jace a beating, which doesn't seem to happen very often) but they still tried without even realising. They also seemed to show interest in me, the real me. If I even know who the real me is. But anyway, they still held a conversation for several hours and ignored the fact that I'm some silly old tramp. They probably didn't even notice the state I was in. But if I'm being harshly honest, they did notice didn't they? But they still treated me like a real person that no one ever does. I'm lucky enough to receive a pitied smile off some old lady that I walk past in the streets. But anyway, back to the five boys, thinking about all of it now, I will never see them again. And personally, thats heart wrenching. I'm being selfish though aren't I? I need to think positively, they're out of the picture now which is amazing, Jace won't be able to lay a finger on them. As long as they stay out of the way they will be safe, I can't be endangering anybody else's life, it's happened before and it won't happen again. Guess it's just back to me, myself and I. It's okay though, that's the way it should be.

As I arrived at the local park, I headed towards the dog walk and sat down under an oak tree to rest my tired arse. I quietly listened to the singing birds on the branches above me, I did this until I found myself closing my eyes and catching up on my hours of sleep that I happened to miss from the night at Big Joe's.





"Last night Katie, our last night. We can forget all of this every single detail, as long as you promise me though, you have to promise."

"No I promise, this is our last night. Our very last night and then we can be free, free like the birds that fly in the sky. We can leave all of this behind, become new people, change for the good."


"I love you Katie."

"I love you too, more than you could ever imagine."

"What..what are you doing? Your leaving me, why are you floating away? You said we could be free together you can't leave me, not like this." I replied, what was happening?
"Im sorry."

"No come back!" I screeched.

I was now sobbing, everything was spinning, everything was going so fast. I was running, running from what? From him. Jace. His face was flashing everywhere.

"Where's my money Katie?"

"Where's my money?"

"Your in a lot of shit now Katie, just give me the money."

"Help!" I screeched. But what was the point in screaming when no one was here.

"How could you! How could you could leave me like this, leave me so..broken. You promised, you said we would be together forever. How could you, I don't understand. We were meant to fly away together, live new lives. How could you? How could you?"




I woke up to heavy panting and my hair drenched in sweat. It's not hot though? Why am I like this?

Finally realising I'm still in the park nestled in the same spot I fell asleep I begin to reassure myself. "It was just a dream Katie, it's okay, calm down." Urghhh, more like a recurring nightmare for fucks sake.

"Can I have my ball please?"

"Hello?"

"Excuse me?"

To horror stricken to realise that some little kid was talking to me I finally reply.

"Oh sorry this?" Handing him the round football that was two inches away from my left hand. "Here you go"

"Thanks"

"It's oka-"

"Tyler what are you doing?" Some women shrieked, horrified.

"Sorry mom, I just needed to get my ball."

"Come here this instance, do you want to catch some illness of th-this..this junkie." The women said, scrunching her nose."

"I was only getting my b-"

"Just come here now, we need to go!"

The boy headed towards his mother whilst giving me a look of sorrow as he walked away. I did deserve that look which shown he was sorry, his fucking witch of a mother talked about me as if I was nothing more than the dirt under her shoe. She spoke like I wasn't even there aswell. And just to let you know you stupid old hag, I've been clean for ages now so I am not and I mean not a junkie.

Notes

Hey hey heyy! Haven't updated in ages sorry :( I've been skiing and just loads of things have been happening that I have gotten caught in to!

But guess what!

I went to Louis' Charity Match and I met Fizzy fucking Tomlinson! She was sitting in the stands but I never met her there I met her by the food stalls but omg she was soooo lovely and I got a picture with her and everything. She's even more perfect in person aswell, omg I'm in love.

Well anyways back to the story. Sorry about the really shitty chapter, I just needed a filler part but trust me it will get interesting!

And if you don't mind can you please please tell your friends about this because I'm really not feeling it and I have like no readers hahahahahaha fml. Anyways pleaseeee

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