Feel

I go home and chill on the couch, and as much as I didn't want to but I thought of Isabella and how she kissed my cheek she's cute and I actually like her as a friend. But I don't know yet.

I go upstairs and continue to think about what happen. Do I have feeling for someone? Nah.

then I thought about him...

My dad........

And Gemma.......

my my sister who he took and raped.........

I tried to to save her but he beat me and my mum and made us watch Gemma get raped. She screamed help but we couldn't. She was bleeding because she was only 11 when she lost her virginity. My father left and came back to rape her. I couldn't bare seeing her. I ran away until my mum called and told me he left. We didn't want to call 911 because my mum thought that they would take us to foster care and she wouldn't see us so it has been a family secret.

After erm my father left my mom got depressed. She abused me and used me. I was only 8 when it all happened. My dad took Gemma and sold her for prostitution and it sickens me to se her in the corner when I come home for school asking guys at my school for sex for money. She was such an influence that I started having sex with every girl at my school. I got money and sometimes give it to Gemma. I remember one day I saw her crying because one of her "clients" gave her AIDS and another reason she cried was that one time she got pregnant and had to abort the baby cause my dad needed her to make more money. One day I came home and found out that my mum had breast cancer. I wish there could be something like an oppertunity to switch this all around.

then a commercial for the X factor came on....

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