The Exchange.

Chp 31
~~~Haydens POV ~~~~

“come sit down…we need to talk..” my mind flashed to fifty million reasons hed need to talk to me and why he was upset. was someone hurt? Was harry ok!? Were they kicking me out….? As I entered the living room I exhaled as I saw harry sitting on the couch. His eyes were fixed to the window and he looked pissed. Eleanor also looked mad but more disappointed. I was quick to sit by harry who despite his anger grabbed my hand squeezing it reassuringly.

“we need to tell you something hayden…” Eleanor sat by me putting her hand on my sholder.

“whats going on?” I said completely and utterly panicked. Harry rubbed soothing circles on my hand and clenched his jaw as his eyes stayed on the window.

“ our manager called…. Tour is being moved to start in 3 days… well be gone for about 6 months…” harrys hand held mine tighter as I stared at the ground. I knew they toured a lot but I thought I had a few months to stable myself and just…relax with them… they were my rock and without them id slip… I knew it… I was terrified… they also made me feal safe about eric an my dad… my thoughts ran wild and the one I knew id miss most was harry…I needed him most….hes the reason I don’t cut, drink, or have my break downs. The others helped a lot to but harry… harry was just my everything…

I felt tears burn as I just thought of all my fears coming back…

“hayden…hayden!!!!” quickly snapping out of my daze I looked around seeing everyone eyeing me with concern. Harry was on his knees with his eye brows nitted together as he focused on getting my attention. He held my hand in his and wiped a tear from my eye.

“w-why is he moving it? I meen…he can do that…can he?”

Harry side nodding. “ hes our manager…whatever he says goes…” I tried looking away but harry held my gaze.

“ill be right back.” I thought he ment the tour until he stood and walked onto the patio. Eleanor was cuddling into Louis so niall put his arm around me and pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my head in his neck and cried. Niall just held me tight and whispered something to the others. From what I herd it sounded like he was concerned id wouldn’t be ok. I was to… I loved el but if we had no one to watch us…if my dad showed…neither of us could defend ourselves…I took a deep breath and reminded myself like I love music so do they… I cant make them worry and miss out. I took a deep breath and did my best to compose myself.

When I looked up from nialls shoulder they were all watching as harry yeld at someone over the phone.

“I DON’T GIVE A DAMN SIMON YOU PROMISED 5 MONTHS! WE MADE FUCKING PLANS AND YOU EXPECT US TO CANCEL!!?” simon? That name reminded me of my uncle from my moms side I used to be close with long ago. He was from England so I always messed with him about his accent. After a while he moved back and my dad wouldn’t let me talk to him. I miss him still but its been so long, he probably doesn’t even remember I exist.

As soon as his name was mentioned liam stormed out an snatched harrys phone away. He pointed his finger at me and proceeded to im guessing apologize to simon im guessing there manager. Harry walked in and pulled me into his lap. Niall patted my back and went some where else. Im guessing the kitchen.

“ were going to figure this out love. I promise.” Harry placed his forehead to mine. He had beads of sweat rolling down his face and his eyes were dark with anger. I felt bad for making him so stressed.

“ill be fine. I had a moment its ok. I have el and the girls.” I said smiling.

“actually.. just el… perry and sophy went on a modeling trip together.” Zayn stated cautiously. Oh

“oh.. why didn’t el go?”

“I have to stay back for uni.” She said with a smile as always.” I let out a little smile and cupped harrys face.

“ill be fine. Go and have fun. We can video chat and call and text as much as you want ill be fine..” harry side lightly squeezing my sides.

“ok.” He kissed me pationatly holding me in place. I didn’t care the lads were watching. I just wanted to savor the moment.

“ OH CMON! No porn In the living room!!!” harry bit my lip and pushed his tongue in my mouth raising his finger to flip the others off. I laughed in the kiss as louis stomped his foot like a sassy lady and snapped his finger at harry. “don’t sass the sass with your damn fingers boy!” I couldn’t help but pull away and laugh at his girl attempt. The others joined in and we all cracked up together.

“hey! Lets have a movie night and spend the week together!” el shouted. We all agreed and went to get our pjs on and ready for the movie. Im just scared of when there gone…
~~~ 1 week later~~~

Its been 4 days since the boys left and me and el have had a blast. But today I was a nervous wreck because she had to leave for a fashion show for the next 3 weeks. Leaving me alone. Harry wasn’t happy but I insisted she go because I didn’t want her to miss out. She was worried to but I promised id check up with them all the time and id be fine. As she walked to the door with her bags she hugged me tightly and I felt tears.

“ I hate to leave! Weve had a good few days…but thankyou for making me go..itll look great on my papers!” I smiled giving her one last hug before watching her walk out of the flat. As I closed the door I herd silence in the house. Nothing… I was alone for a month basically… I felt my fear creep in and my old habits slowly build up in me. No..your gonna be fine. I told myself. It was 3 in the afternoon and i was bored. I plopped on the couch to watch some more doctor who when my phone rang.

“hello?”

“well..well…well…look whos all alone.” I nearly dropped my phone as my dads voice growled through the line.

“h-how d-did you no…” there was a dark chuckle on the other line and I felt myself go pale.

“I told you I was watching…I cant wait to pay you a visit.” The line went dead and I was left on the couch having a panick attack. I felt bile builed in me and ran to the bathroom heaving into the toilet. I knew this would happen… but I cant ruin these trips for my friends…im alone in this…I need to face this alone…

DING! I got a text and checked it immediately. It was from my dad. It was a picture of me hugging harry good by the other night… deer god.. luckily it got his back so you couldn’t really tell it was him. My phone rang again and I answered it shakily.

“h-hello?”

“hayden? Are you ok?” harrys voice spoke worriedly and I immedietly took a deep breath to hide it.

“oh. Yeah! Im great!...just uh…got irritated with my knee again…no bigge…” he was silent for a moment and I could tell he was struggling to by it.

“ok… do you need me to send someone to check it out?”

“ no. im fine really. Hows tour so far?” hoping he would change the subject I asked him about tour.

“its good. The fans are great and everything but I miss you… I still need to get you back for that day.” He said with deviousness in his tone. I chuckled and stared out the window feeling like someone was watching me.

“goodluck” I herd a laugh and then someone yelling in the back.

“babe I got to go but ill call you tonight. I love you.”

“love you to. Have fun.” As soon as the line went dead I was alone and scared once more. I felt eyes burning into the side of my head and was franticly looking around for a owner but no one. The house was lit but way to quiet for my likeing. I decided Id get a hot shower to calm my nerves and stood turning on the shower water. I took the necklace harry gave me off and set it on my dresser. I haven’t taken it off yet. I love it.

I stripped and stepped in letting the hot water soothe my tense muscles. I took a deep breath and did my best to relax. After a while I stepped out feeling better. I decided id go watch a movie. I slipped on a pair of harrys sweats and his shirt. I snuggled into them smelling his amazing sent. As I sat on the couch my phone dinged again. I sighed and went to check.

Dad-

Meet me at the park at midnight. Or i swear your pretty little friend who leaves on a plane tomorrow morning at 1am. Gets a bullet in the head.

My heart nearly shatterd. He was talking about Eleanor. I franticly looked around contemplating what to do. Tears shot down my face. I could never let someone else get hurt for my problems. I texted him back with shaky hands.

Dad-

Ok.

The whole day I was terrified. What he wanted and wht I was going to do…I decided to leave a note. If my dad took me or killed me I wanted who ever came home first to no. I wrote.

Dear lads,

I received a threat from my dad…he saw me saying by to el when she left for her flight an was threatening to harm her if I didn’t meet him an hour before her plane left…I couldn’t let her get hurt so this is good bye… if ur reading this it meens we didn’t just talk and I I didn’t get away… my plan was to stall him till after her plane left and run…but I guess I wasn’t fast enough. Boys, your like the best brothers ive ever had. I love you so much. Girls, your like the best sisters ever. I love you so much, uve helped me through a lot and ive screwed up but Im getting better. This is how i return the favor. Insuring you all live and can move on. I only ask that you don’t forget me…ive never been so happy in my life. So thanku. And harry… please no I love you more than ive ever loved anything. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. You showed me something I never in a million years would have been able to do…or atleast thought… I love you harry…so much… so once again if ur reading this im either long gone….or dead.

Goodbye. –hayden

I closed my eyes folding the note and placing it on the counter. I set a candle on top of it so it wouldn’t move. I noticed in the time I had done this it was 11 o clock. I sucked in a sharp breath doing my best to be brave even though I wanted nothing more then to curl up and cry.i felt my phone ringing and answerd it trying my best not to cry.

“hello” my voice was raspy and small, I mentally smacked myself for thinking I could talk.

“hayden? Babe. Whats wrong?” his voice brought me comfort as I slowly moved around grabbing a jacket and shoes.. it was snowing and I was in a short sleeve shirt with a jacket and convers but I didn’t care. I had a fealing id be getting hot pretty soon…

“babe? You ok?” harrys voice was anctious I realized I had yet to answer.

“oh sorry..im fine. How are you?” there was a silence before he spoke.

“no your not whats wrong? You sound like you’ve been crying?” I new I couldn’t get out of this so I was quick to make something up.

“ok…ok..i had a nightmare..im fine…just spooked me.” Harry let out a sharp breath.

“oh hayden…I wish I was there…im soo sorry.” I smiled as he tried to soothingly spoke through the line. I was in the car trying to calm myself as we talked. I was 10 minutes away of needing to head to the park.

“me to..but you have fun. Im going to try and go to sleep. I love you.”

“I love you to hayden. Call me if you need anything. Remember were I am its morning.” Tears were pooring down my face as I stared at the car roof holding the phone to my chest.

“ok… I love you so much harry…please don’t ever forget.”

“hayden I could never forget you or our love. Do you wanna talk about the dream. It obviously has you stressed.” He sounded like he was getting worried.shit.

“no..no im fine..maybe we can talk in the morning. I love you.”

“I love you to babe.” The line went dead and my heart nearly stoped. I let out loud sobs as my body shook violently. I was terrified. I started my car and sent a group text to everyone.

Group text –

I love you guys. Night.

I sent the text and drove down the quiet streets. I new after the shit I put my dad through I was going to be in deep shit. My plan was to try and stall then run. But I new in the back of my head I couldn’t escape. I pulled into the parking lot shaking as I looked into the empty pitch black space. It was exactly 12.

I looked at my phone seeing everyone had responded with I love yous and good byes. I smiled lightly and shoved my phone in the back of my car. I don’t want my dad to find the boys.

I stepped out into the cool air shivering at the stings it made on my skin. Crying hurt because it felt like my tears were freezing as they mad contact with the air. I walked in a straight line shaking as feer racked through me. It was way to quiet and empty for my likeing.

“well look who showed up.” My head shot around to see my dad with a gun pointed at me. My eyes widend and my eyes burned with tears.

“w-what d-do you w-want” I focused on the gun aimed at me shaking.

“your gonna pay for what you caused. YOUR MOMS DEAD! SHE KILLED HERSELF OVER YOU! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW HUH!?” I fell to my knees sobbing. I didn’t no…its all my fault. My dad walked up to me and jabbed the gun into my face sending me backwards.

“I kept you alive for her but now shes gone…your going to suffer till your dead you little bitch.” My eyes widend at his threat. He was going to torture me till I died. Id rather run and die by one shot then die by torture. I took my chances and hopped up running as fast as I can through the park. My dad was running right behind me with 4 other men. Were did they come from!?

I made my way into a forest on the outside of the park. All I herd was my heart beating out of my chest as my father chased me. A shot rang through as my dad screamed my name. I felt a burn as something hit my leg and I went joltin off a ledge. I screamed as I bounce off of twigs and thorns and cried out as my bad knee crashed into a hard rock. My body went rolling until I stopped when I hit a tree. I curled in a ball grabbing my leg that was coverd in blood…shit… my dad and his friends surrounded me with sickening eyes. He kicked me in the face and the others soon joined in. jabs to my stomach, arms, legs and face. I screamed out in pain.it all became to much and they backed away staring at me. I coughed up blood as I curled up cluthing my stomach. My body rolled over as I heaved the blood from my body. I was in so much pain I couldn’t even speak. As dark dots pricked my vision I passed out.

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