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A life of Payne

Chapter 36

Katie's POV

I stared at myself blankly in my laptop screen. I was meant to Skype Calum any minute now but for some reason I was far to nervous to even turn my laptop on.

I am pretty sure that the reason I was nervous had something to do with the fact that I went out for ice cream with Niall and ended up being bombarded with paparazzi. Niall grabbed my hand because everyone knows I really can't stand all the cameras and people yelling things at me but it looked totally wrong and they all thought that we were on a date, which it wasn't because it was just two friends getting ice cream!

The silence of my room was broken my phone buzzing and signalling I had a message.
I opened the message to see it was from Calum.

From: Cal xx
Hey babes, are you going to Skype me? Don't leave me hanging :(

I sighed at placed my phone down not brothering to text back.
After turning on my laptop and typing in my password, I clicked Calum's name and waited for him to answer. I could almost feel the sweat building on my forehead as my heartbeat started to grow faster while I waited for him to pick up.

"HEY KATIE!" All four boys screamed as soon as they had answered causing me to jump and fall off my computer chair.

I could hear them all laughing but frankly I just wanted to stay on the ground and pray Calum hadn't heard about where I was earlier today. After all Calum had asked me to be his valentine and yet I went out with Niall on valentines day, god I'm such a bitch.

"Aw we're sorry Katie! Please come back on screen." All my praying didn't pay off. I was hoping if I stayed down here long enough they would hang up but they didn't so I let out the breathe I was holding in and pulled myself back onto my seat.

I looked at the screen to see all four boys looking at me smiling and being the cute idiots they are, I forced a fake smile onto my face and hoped it was believable enough.

"Hi guys." I tried to make sure my voice had at least a small tinge of happiness in it and so far it was working because all their smiles grew wider as soon as I talked.

"Well we're going to leave you and Calum to chat." Ashton snickered before him and the other boys walked away and left me and Calum to talk.
"Just chatting Calum! Make sure she keeps her shirt on!" Luke yelled before I heard a door close.

It was just me and Calum. Even though it was through Skype I was still nervous as hell.

"Um so? How has your day been?" I sounded so lame and shy but I couldn't help it.

"Not as interesting as yours. I heard you went out for ice cream with a certain Irish person." He didn't sound mad just kind of sad really. God I feel bad.

"It was just as friends! I'm really sorry." I quickly talked hoping that he wouldn't hang up on me or say something hurtful. It was weird, at first I wanted him to hang up now I don't want him to leave.

"I know Katie calm down, I already screamed at Niall through the phone and he told me that it was just him trying to regain your friendship. I'm not mad babe. But I still can't have him trying to steal my girl." I let out a sigh of relief and smiled which he returned. When he called me his girl, I felt the butterflies in my stomach go crazy. I never thought I would feel this way about him and I never thought he would feel the same way back. I always pictured myself with Ashton but now I can't look at him as anything but a friend.
"Still I'm sorry that I was with him instead of you." My words made him smile wider.

It fell into a comfortable silence with both of us just looing at each other.

Calum decided to break the silence and sighed before talking.
"God I miss you Katie, it's only been I few days but I miss you loads." I let out a small giggle at his words.
"I miss you too."

"I wish I could hug you right now." He pouted as he talked making me pout as well.
"I have that giant teddy bear until you get back. He is very comfy." I smiled trying to lighten the mood with my words.

"He better not steal all my hugs when I get back." Calum replied rather fast making me laugh again. I'm actually glad I Skyped Calum now, I needed to see his smile.

"Hey I have a surprise for you." Calum said while smiling and walking off screen. I loved Calum's surprises because he was always so cute and put so much effort into it and to know it was just for me was amazing.

He came back on screen carrying a guitar and smiled.
"I thought you only played the bass?" I questioned him which made him chuckle and shake his head.
"There is many things you don't know." He winked before strumming the guitar.

"This song is quite old but it applies well to us right now. it's called beside you."
"Sounds cute." I laughed as he began to sing the song to me.

"Within a minute I was all packed up
I’ve got a ticket to another world
I don’t wanna go
I don’t wanna go
Sudden words are hard to speak
When your thoughts are all I see
“Don’t ever leave,” she said to me

When we both fall asleep underneath the same sky.
To the beat of our hearts at the same time.
So close but so far away.
(Can you hear me?)

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.
She lies awake.
I'm trying to find the words to say.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.

Another day, and I’m somewhere new.
I made a promise that I’ll come home soon.
Bring me back, bring me back to you.

When we both wake up underneath the same sun.
Time stops, I wish that I could rewind.
So close but so far away.

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.
She lies awake.
I'm trying to find the words to say.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.

The pieces of us both
Under every city light
And they're shining as we fade into the night

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was...

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.
She lies awake.
I'm trying to find the words to say.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.

She lies awake.
Beside you.
I wish I was, I wish I was...

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was..."

I was nearly in tears by the time he had finished the song. I have heard the song countless times before now but with how much emotion he put into his voice he was nearly in tears himself. It was the most adorable thing I have ever heard.

"That was amazing Calum, I loved it." I quickly wiped the tears from under my eyes and smiled as he put his guitar down and sat closer to his laptop again.
"I'm glad you did." He wiped under his own eyes and shook his head a bit.

"Oh god Katie, you've turned me into a pansy." I laughed making him pout.
"There is nothing wrong with that. I miss you so much Calum." I looked into his eyes and even through a screen you could see how much he really cared just from his eyes, I liked how easy it was to see that and that he didn't feel the need to hide it from anyone.

"I miss you too babe."

*5 Days later, Day of Brit awards*

I looked down at my perfectly manicured nails and let out a shaky breathe. To say I was nervous about today was an understatement.

I knew I was taking a big risk going to the Brit awards today but I'm going with Calum and the 5sos boys so I really doubt I will run into Sophia but I'm still scared shitless right now.

Frankly I don't understand why Liam has to take Sophia but management said it wouldn't look good if they broke up just after I came into the picture which to me is just bullshit.

I looked over my outfit one last time in the mirror and smoothed out my dress a bit before I was happy with how I looked.
Liam was still getting ready and I was just waiting for Calum to arrive now, the air around this house felt so tense right now that if Calum didn't get here soon I might actually faint. It is really hard to breathe with how nervous I am.

The ringing of the door bell made me jump and run towards the door. I felt my lips curve into a smile thinking that it was Calum on the other side of the door but when I opened it I was face to face with none other then Mr scary man Shane.

The air seemed to get thinner and thinner with every second I looked into his cold eyes.

"You haven't been at uni so I brought your homework over for you." He had his signature sarcastic smirk that just made me want to scream and run. I honestly was that scared of him.

"Uh thanks but Ashley usually brings me my homework." I tried not to sound scared when I talked to him but it was impossible not to be scared of him.
"Well tough shit I brought it over today." As soon as he finished talking a thought accrued to me.
"How the hell did you find out where I live?" It scared me that he found out where I lived because if he can find out then there is no telling what kind of people could also find out.

He smirked before pushing the homework folder into my chest and making me stumble back, and with that he walked off like nothing happened.
I growled before shutting the door and walking back to my room. I placed the folder next to my laptop and began to turn away but stopped and looked at the folder again when I noticed a small sticky note on the front.

My eyebrows furrowed together as I picked up the little note and looked over it. I didn't read it out loud just in case Liam over heard but what it said scared the crap out of me.

'Just because you're not at school, doesn't mean I'm not watching you.'

Oh god.

"KATIE!!!" I jumped and turned around as Liam's voice broke me out of my thoughts. I quickly hid the note behind my back and scrunched it up without him noticing.

"Hey Liam." I beamed trying not to be to obvious.
"You look handsome." I smiled again as I talked and he laughed before giving me a hug which gave me a chance to chuck the small note onto the other side of the room. His hugs are amazing and I felt slightly more relaxed. One perk of having an older brother is the amazing brother hugs!

I heard the door bell ring again but this time I froze in my spot and tried my hardest to think happy thoughts and anything that was the opposite of Shane.

"Aren't you going to get that? It has to be Calum because I'm meeting Sophia at her house." The way he looked so pissed when he said Sophia's name was hilarious but I was still scared that it could be Shane again not Calum.
"Fine I'll get the door for you." Liam chuckled and shook his head while he headed towards the door.

I didn't walk all the way into the lounge, instead I hid slightly around the corner that lead to the hallway for our bedrooms. Once I saw that it was actually Calum this time I returned to my bedroom to grab my purse.

I quickly looked around my room but couldn't find my phone anywhere!
Finally I remembered that I had it in Liam's room with me when we were watching movies together earlier today so I will check in there.

I walked across the hall and into Liam's room and quickly scanned his room looking for my pink phone. It wasn't that hard to spot it since it's pink so I walked over to where it was laying on the floor and picked it up.

As I walked past Liam's blazer that was lying neatly on his bed, I noticed I small photo looking piece of paper sticking out of his pocket. My curiosity got the best of me and I pulled out the small photo and noticed it was a picture of me and Liam. It was the first picture we took together when I first moved to London. I smiled as I remembered how hostile I was towards Liam back then.
I turned the photo over and saw a small sentence written down on it.

'I will protect you.'

What is with all the notes today?
I wasn't sure if I was happy or angry at this. He wasn't the best at protecting me but at least he tried.
Carefully I slipped the photo back into his blazer and walked into the lounge to see Calum and Liam laughing and holding three shot glasses. What the hell are they up to?

"Katie!!!" Calum yelled as he ran up to me and hugged me. It hasn't even been ten days since we last saw each other but yet it felt like an eternity.
He spun me around making me giggle before placing me back on my feet.

"Here." Liam smiled and held out a shot of what I was assuming was vodka to me.
"What's this for?" I eyed the shot for a second before shakily grabbing it.
"To calm the nerves. It's your first award show." I smiled and we all took a shot at the same time.

Calum held out his hand for me to take and I said goodbye to Liam since I wasn't sure if I was going to have much time to talk to him while we were there.

As we made our way to the limo I was greeted with the other boys that I would be spending the night with. Not in that way you stupid perverted brain!

I took a deep breathe before climbing in the limo.

Sophia won't be happy I'm going after she clearly threatened me not to go but since when the hell was she in charge of me? Oh that's right never.

Let this slightly scary but amazing night begin.

It's show time.


I worked on this chapter for like nearly ten hours just for you since I just reached 50 votes I thought I would update early just for you guys!

Still feel, look and sound like crap but that's why I spent most of my day working on this! Because it takes awhile when I have to retype every second paragraph haha

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