A life of Payne
I just sat there. Not talking. Not crying. And barely thinking. I sat there emotionless, almost blank. I couldn't even manage to wrap my head around what happened, I just couldn't.
I finally had the courage to look at Liam he was still standing in the exact same place as he was when that creep had left, except now he was looking at me with the saddest look I have ever seen on anyone. He looked like he was literally in pain over my suffering.
After awhile Liam started to walk towards me and took off his basketball shirt leaving him in a singlet. He pulled the shirt over my head for me as I wasn't willing to move just yet, it was at this point that I noticed I was just in a bra, how did I not notice this sooner? Once his shirt was on me it was so similar to the one I was wearing, he sat next to me on the bed.
"There now it's like it never happened." He went silent for a moment probably knowing I wasn't going to say anything. I couldn't find it in me to attempt to talk. I didn't trust my own voice.
"But it did happen." He said after a while dropping his head into his hand sighing rather loudly.
"Please say something, anything." He pleaded to me, but what do I say? Thank you for saving me and all but you terrified me at the same time?
"I-I terrified you?" Liam looked shocked. shit.
"You said that out loud Katie don't pretend it didn't happen." He said before shifting on the bed so he was sitting right in front of me. He grabbed my hands before talking again.
"I know your probably scared right now and I can see in your eyes right that your slowly shutting off your emotions to handle this, but please don't its not going to help. It will just make things harder." He said to me as softly as possible. I could see he really cared but I'm not entirely sure why. I felt the tears start to prick at my eyes and before I knew it I was full on bawling.
Liam pulled me onto his lap and hugged me so tight and could barely move in his grip, but I didn't care right now because all I could think about was how my life is changing and slowly being flushed down the drain. I'm turning into something I never wanted to be, helpless.
I continued to bawl my eyes out and cried so hard I couldn't even get a single word out. After a while I felt Liam left me up and carry me straight out my hotel room and into his. I kept my head buried in his chest because I was so scared of what just happened. I didn't need my head up to feel that everyone's eyes were on me, it was so silent you could hear a pin drop.
Liam began to walk into the lounge area where he mumbled something I couldn't quite understand and then the next thing I knew he was passing me onto someone sitting on the couch like I was a small child, but at this point I did feel like a little kid who just got her first taste of the real world.
I whimpered at the feeling of not feeling safe once again now that I knew Liam had left the room.
"Shhh Katie it's okay, Liam just needed to get some air and calm down. You are still safe." Someone who I could just make out to be Niall soothed me while I continued to hide my face and started to cry again.
"Is she okay?" Someone whispered to Niall. I haven't known them very long and there accents are all foreign to me so I didn't know who it was, plus the fact that I've pushed myself into Niall's chest to try and keep warm. I can hardly hear anything but I felt Niall shake his head no while I carried on crying like there was no tomorrow.
They wrapped a blanket around me and just let me cry out all my tears, I felt so weak and tried that I couldn't stay up much longer and it had to be past midnight by now and eventually I managed to cry myself to sleep.
I woke up by someone moving me into their arms.
"I don't want to go to my room." I managed to say half asleep, my voice sounded so horrible from so much crying and from not talking.
I rubbed my eyes to help them focus and once they did I saw Niall carrying me into his room.
"It's okay Katie were not leaving you alone. I wouldn't let you go back to that room alone."
He kissed the top of my head and I felt my eyes water at the memory of why I am here.
"Oh no please don't cry again my little princess, your going to be fine. I promise you that in the morning everything that has happened over the past few days will be explained. Until then stay awake with me or go back to sleep, either way your not leaving my sight."
I had nothing to say back. His words managed to stop my tears so I just cuddled up next to him but couldn't fall asleep straight away because there was two things floating around in my head.
First was the words the police officer had said to me.
"You British people always think your better than everyone else, Well trust me both of you should just go back to where you came from. New Zealand doesn't want either of you."
And the other thing I was thinking was what happened to Liam? Where did he go?
Happy birthday to my awesome best friend Amy! She's also the person who Ashley is based on! Happy 18th babes! xoxo