My little angel

JAZZ
i hate mornings. Right when ella got home and we ate dinner everyone celebrated by watching a whole bunch kf movies and ice scream somethings wrong i can feel it. I just dont know yet. As i get up i trip on the stupid floor. I get up pnce more to change into some shorts. I walk out and niall seems to be on the couch with a whole bunch of eggs.i guess i was asleep for a awhile. I walk to the kitchen and grab some yoo hoo. YUUUSSSS. I then run to the couch and jump right by niall. He gives me this ierd look. But oh well.
"you cant possibly be this happy in the morning" he says i just shrug and run to my room. I put my hair up in a ponytail and write in my jourinal


things have been going great. Somethings wrong. Nothing is wrong. You see journal in order for something to be wrong something has to be alright. And well nothing is wrong. So that means something bad about to happen.

i turn through the pages and look at what i written before

hold on pain exists it exist because it makes you feel it makes you realise that somethings are tough and somethings are not. It lets you know that you have been hurt far worse that right now. It also gives us hope. Hope to keep going. Hope helps you through it all. So all i have to say is.
hold on pain ends. And thats what hope is.

Notes

Hey guys so so sorry i havent been updating im just going through anrough time right now. My birthday is this saterday. And im breaking up with my boyfriend wanna know whyyesterday we where coming back and he has an older brother fyi and my friends are part of this too.
His brother: you flirt with everyother girl except for your girlfriend
him: why would i need to flirt with her when i already have her.

yeah ikr thats not all. Hes flirting with my friend who has an obvious crush on him. And we went to six flags for a band competition they agreed on everything and she said she has vertigo but yet she went on every roller coster with him. also he put his hand on her back. And he did nothing with me. He gave me a nuggie twice.in the same five minutes.

second thing that happend last fudging night.

guy:( he was bugging us for fiteen minutes on the way to a soccer game) i will stop bugging you if you kiss her on the cheek
him: its not worth it.


thats not all folks because it gets better.

guy: would you rather kiss her or die?
him:......i dont know.
guy: (tells his brither and his brother asks me if it was true or not. And then my older sister best friend got all up on him saying stufd and his brother did the same.)
sisters friend: never ever say that to her again that is my best friends little sister who is practicly my little sister. If you say that again I'm gonna punch you because when you say that it hurts a lot more then any physical abuse out there.
his brither.: betha im so sorry please break up with him.



guys it hurt a lot mort then it should have when he didnt awnser and said i don't know. I mean seriously that isn't all of wat happened but I'm not going in full detail or ill get pissed anyway yup thanks for listening and crap love you guys