Lost

I was so depressed. My girlfriend, the love of my life, had to move. My best friend in the whole world had died. Nothing else in my life could’ve gone wrong; everything was already as bad as possible.

I spent hours, days, weeks, crying. Just sitting on my bed and bawling my eyes out. There was no longer Harry to comfort me. The others had been affected by Harry’s death, but not nearly as bad as I had. They didn’t understand my connection with Harry. But now that he was gone, there was nothing I could do. And I felt awful.

This past week was by far the worst in my life. Nothing had gone right, only everything had gone wrong. And I was starting to get depressed.

All I could think about were Harry’s last words: don’t forget who you are. But how could I still be Louis Tomlinson, without the Harry Styles that was so necessary in my life?

The more I thought about it, the more I knew what I had to do: I had to find myself. To find out whom Louis Tomlinson really was. Was he a famous pop star singer that everybody loved, or was he some sad little boy with very sensitive feelings? I wanted to be the guy that everybody loved, but unfortunately, that’s not who I really am. I think.

I’m just a little boy. I don’t know why I’m here. I don’t know why someone up there would ruin my life like this. I just didn’t understand anything. Confusion had overcome my mind, mixed in with a lot of depression. And let me tell you, confusion and depression mixed together are not a good pair.

One day on the third week after Harry’s death, the doorbell rang. The boys were caught up in something else I their rooms, so I had to answer the door.

At the door was a young woman, probably twenty, with long, dark wavy hair. She had stunning blue eyes that contrasted beautifully against her coffee colored skin tone.

She smiled and said, “Hi! I’m Avery. But you can call me Ava. Anyway, I was assigned as your new manager. Your old one, sadly, is very ill at the moment. So now you have me!” She smiled, “You must be Louis?” I nodded. I noticed her stunning blue eyes shined when she smiled. “May I come in?” She asked.

“Yeah, yeah, sure. Come on in.” I stepped aside as she walked through the doorway. I lead her to the living room, where she sat on one of the couches. “Would you like some tea?” I asked her.

She shook her head, “I’m alright. Thank you, though. Are the others here? You know, Niall, Zayn, and Liam?” I could tell she was about to say ‘Harry’, but she had been careful to leave him out.

“Yeah, they are. I’ll go get them.” My eyes started to water as I thought about Harry; how he was the one who usually offered guests tea. I went up the staircase and called the boys. They all came out of their rooms, and followed me downstairs.

Downstairs, Ava introduced herself to them. They had small talk with one another. “So, you’re out new manager?’ Liam asked.

She nodded. “I just want to get to know you guys.” She smiled. Wow. Her smile, I just now realized, was so beautiful. It beat out Genevieve’s by one hundred times. Whoa.

After a while, the boys went back upstairs, and it was just me and Ava again.

All of a sudden, I started bawling. I don’t know what came upon me just then, but Ava’s presence was so comforting. Even though I had just met her, I felt like I could tell her anything. I sat down and cried, with my head in my hands.

Ava sat down next to me and patted my back. “What’s wrong?” She asked.

“It…it’s just… my girlfriend…” I was sobbing, and I couldn’t control it, “she had to move… And… And my best friend just… just died.” I cried even harder. Yet she stayed there and comforted me. I noticed the way she comforted me was identical to the way Harry had comforted me.

She looked into my eyes. “You’ll be fine Louis,” she said to me, “Everything will be alright.” Yep. Just like Harry. But she wasn’t done talking quite yet. “We can work through this together, you and me. I’ll help you.” Whoa. That was new. Harry never said anything like that before.

I think I was starting to like our new manager.

Notes

Ava is Louis' new Harry! Now he has someone to comfort her! Hooray!!!!