Road trip gone wrong...Yet so right!

~ Scarlet's P.O.V ~

"Its just me now, Scar. Just us okay?" Zayn's rapsy voice spoke low. His body was lightly rocking us back an forth. I could feel he was trying everything to sooth me. Knowing if I answered back and spoke, then there would be no stopping the sobs from coming out that im trying desperately to hold in. Giving him a slight nod, still hiding my face in his neck that im sure is a bit wet from my silent tears.
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My body tensed a bit from hearing they all left. I just was a bit worried talking with this subject with someone that wasn't Gabby or Ari... Plus I have not opened up to Zayn about such traumatizing things.. Or stuff that hurts to remember.
Right on cue, Zayn speaks.
"Please tell me what's wrong?" Concern fills his vocals. I feel bad for making him feel bad. But I can't help but notice that he cares. For the first time in the last 30 minutes I raise my head up from his neck and look straight at him. One hand planted on the opposite side of his neck to where my face hid as the other relaxed on his knee. His rested on both sides of my waist. Those brownish hazel eyes examing my face as if they were looking for something. "I dont know why, Zayn." My head shook as I said this to him. Only from my own thought. Confusion and concern spread over his face. "Don't know what, love? Its okay, let it out." Zayns lips rose slightly into a quick smile as if he was trying to reassure me. I dont hesitate to tell him anymore, I just let it out. Everything.

I tell him how, I have this old tape from when my parents got married before my father died and my mom was pregnant with me during the wedding. That video shows my mom and dad dancing to their wedding song and the whole time they danced my father kept his left hand on my mothers stomach as if its was all of our song which was the same exact song I asked Gabby to sing. Sometimes when I miss him all I do is listen to that song and let the emotions take its course. When I was 10 my father got diagnosed with Brain cancer. Its was as if my world stopped, my best friend who I was so close to was dying. About two years later he passed away in the hospital when I was 12 and my mother became so depressed. As well as I did. I was just greatful I had Gabs and Ari, because without them I dont know how I could have coped. My mother began to drink so badly, child protective services was alerted and i had to be taken out of the house and sent to my aunts. She soon relized what she has done and became sober. A month later I was allowed back home and my mother completely changed for the best. And thankfully stayed the best.
My gaze never left Zayn's as I spilled everything out of my mind. I studied his expression hard, to see how he would take it. But honestly his expression stayed the same through out my whole confession. Worried, serious, and genuine.
He didnt say anything so far. Which is understandable, because how do you respond to that? My thoughts were swirling of saying all the words that pained me. I could feel my head pounding in a slow beat, as my eyes filled with wetness. Zayn noticed I was about to burst since he instantly pulled me back into his embrace. Allowing me to repeat my position with hiding my face into his neck and grasping onto him. As soon as my face reached his neck, I let it go. I began to sob loudly. "Shhh its okay love." Zayn began to whisper sweet nothings into my ear that I forever will appreciate but I can't help the fact that...
"I miss him so much, Zayn!" my words came out in panic sobs.

Notes

HOPEFULLY with this update I will reach 20,000 viewers!?!?! Still love all o you! Xxxx bye!