GOTTA BE YOU

1. CHAPTER 6 CONFESSIONS
   
   
   
   (A/N I want to apologize for the pov changes in this chapter so please bare with it. Thank you, you guys are the best. Also please remember to LIVE WHILE WE’RE YOUNG !!!!!!! ONE MORE THING IF I SPELLED PERRIE WRONG SORRY I AM TO LAZY TO GO BACK A CORRECT AT THIS POINT SO PLEASE DON’T YELL AT ME IF IT IS THANKS BYE. LETS BEING WHY DON’T WE ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   
   ZAYN POV
   
   As the band is heading back to the hotel from the interview Zayn has a lot to think about. Zayn volunteers to sit in the back of the van so he can think peacefully. Zayn puts in his earphones and closes his eyes and listen to the music as he thinks about his life at the moment. The other boys Louis, Harry, Niall and Liam are having a small conversation leaving Zayn to rest while on the way back to the hotel that they are staying at. Here are Zayn’s thoughts……
   
   I am very confused right know. I really like Liam but I am not sure if Liam likes me the same way I like him. After the kisses we shared everytime Liam and I touch, look at each other, or any thing else that involves us doing something together I get butterflies in my stomach and my heart skips a beat. I fell like I cant get enough of him. I truly believe and think that I am falling for Liam James Payne.
   
   I really don’t know what to do because l LIKE girls NOT guys or do I like guys. Maybe I am bi of maybe Liam might be my only exception to liking guys. I have NEVER had and attraction to any guy before I kissed Liam. Like I am engaged to Perrie Edwards. I thought she was the one for me but now I am not sure.
   
   I am so confused right know because I love Perrie Edwards but now I am starting to fall for Liam more than I should. This is so hard I have no clue what to do. I really am so confused. This decision is and will be the hardest decision that i wilI have to make in my life so far. I truly don’t know what to do. I really got to think about this. I really need to think about how Perrie and Liam make me feel.
   
   First is Perrie Edwards the one that I am supposed to marry. When we first started our relationship and we first kissed I felt some sparks but not a lot. When we kiss now I don’t feel any and if I do its very little. When we hold hands it feels more like friends holding hands than a couple holding hands. To be honest when we hold hands it actually feels awkward. I did love Perrie at one time. As of right now I not entirely sure if I do love her like I should if she is supposed to be my wife. The biggest question right now I have to answer is, I know that I LOVED Perrie but am I IN LOVE with Perrie.
   
   Next is Liam Payne my best friend and band mate. When we shared out first kiss during the game of truth or dare when Louis dared us to kiss it was like I couldn’t get enough of Liam I didn’t want to stop kissing him. Then during the second kiss in the hotel room I couldn’t get enough of him again and it was like my body could get close enough to him. When our bodies touch at the moment that his skin touches mine I fell sparks right away. Like I said before I have NEVER been attracted to a guy until Liam. After we kissed I am more confused about my sexuality than I have ever been before. Everyday that has passed by I have to be honest and say I have been falling for Liam more and more every single day that passes bye. The biggest question here is am I falling in love with LIAM JAMES PAYNE.
   
   From what I just got out from this thinking session is that when I kiss Perrie I don’t feel anything and if I do is very little almost nothing. When I kiss Liam I just cant seem to get enough of him and his body and I do feel a lot of sparks. When Perrie and I touch it feels awkward, but when Liam and I touch each other I feel sparks and I want to touch each other more. So I got to be honest with myself right know…
   
   I Zayn Malik……..
   
   Love Perrie Edwards but NEVER was IN LOVE with her.
   
   And
   
   I Zayn Malik…….
   LOVE Liam Payne more than a FRIEND or BANDMATE. That I am IN LOVE with LIAM JAMES PAYNE.
   
   Here is the thing now that I have don’t my thinking I have figured out that I must call off the engagement to Perrie as soon as possible. I know that this is going to be heartbreaking but I don’t want to lead her on any longer in hopes that she will be getting married to me. It wouldn’t be right and she also has the right to know why as well. The reason why I need to call off the wedding because yes I do love Perrie I always will love her but I have figured out that I am not in love with her. I am positively am in love with Liam not Perrie.
   
   ZAYN TAKES OUT HIS PHONE TO MESSAGE PERRIE
   
   To Perrie
   From Zayn
   Hey are you free tonight. I want to take you out somewhere private. I need to talk to you and it is very important that I do.
   
   To Zayn
   From Perrie
   Yeah Zayn I am free from 7-8:30 can we meet up then?
   
   To Perrie
   From Zayn
   Yeah that would be perfect. I will pick you up at 7 how does a walk in the park sound?
   
   To Zayn
   From Perrie
   Ok sounds good see you then got to go, talk to you than.
   
   To Perrie
   From Zayn
   Ok see you and talk to you than bye
   
   ZAYN LOOKS UP TO SEE THAT THEY ARE BACK AT THE HOTEL. THE BAND GETS OUT OF THE VAN HEAD UP TO THERE ROOMS. ONCE THEY ARE ON THE FLOOR THEIR ROOMS ARE ON THEY GO TO THEIR ASSIGNED ROOMS. BEFORE LIAM AND ZAYN ENTERS THEIR ROOM LIAM ASKS ZAYN WHEN THEY GET INTO THE HOTEL ROOM IF HE COULD TALK TO HIM AND ZAYN AGREES.
   
   LIAM POV
   
   LIAM AND ZAYN ENTERS THE HOTEL ROOM AND LIAM TAKES ZAYN’S HAND AND LEADS THEM TO THE SITTING AREA. ONCE THEY GET THERE LIAM MOTIONS FOR ZAYN TO SIT DOWN AND HE DID AND LIAM SIT NEXTS TO ZAYN AND LOOKS INTO ZAYN’S EYES AS HE SPEAKS TO.
   
   LIAM =LZAYN=Z
   
   LIAM TAKES A DEEP BREATH AND LOOKS INTO ZAYNS EYES
   
   LZayn I have been needing to tell you something for a very long time.
   
   ZAYN NODS HIS HEAD AND LOOKS BACK INTO LIAM’S EYES KNOWING THIS IS VERY SERIOUS AND IMPORTANT
   
   Zok what’s going on Liam
   
   LIAM TAKES ANOTHER BREATH
   
   LPlease promise what I am about to say wont change the way you will think about me and that I wont hurt the friendship that we have
   
   LIAM LOOKS DOWN AND PLAYS WITH HIS FINGERS
   
   ZLiam there is nothing that you could do to make me ever think differently about you.
   
   ZAYN TAKES HIS LEFT HAND AND LIFTS LIAM CHIN GENTLY TO MAKE LIAM LOOK BACK INTO HIS EYES
   
   ZSo you should always know no matter what you tell me I will support you and it will always stay between you and me unless if your life was in danger.
   
   LIAM GLANCES HIS EYES DOWN AND THEN BRINGS THEM BACK UP TO LOOK INTO ZAYN’S EYES AND TAKE A REALLY DEEP BREATH AND SAYS
   
   LWhat I am about to tell you might change our friendship and you may or may not support this also it may or may not stay between us.
   
   ZAYN HAS A CONFUSED LOOK ON HIS FACE.
   
   ZLiam come on just tell me please I promise whatever you got to say wont be that bad. Just tell me Li it will be ok.
   
   LOk BREATHS DEEPLY Zayn I don’t know how to say this other than just coming out and saying it.
   
   ZAYN NODS HIS HEAD LIKE TELLING HIME HE UNDERSTANDS AND LIAM CONTUNIES.
   
   LOK here goes nothing CHUCKLES A LITTLE Zayn I like you like, like you like you. Actually Zayn to be truly honest with you Zayn I am actually in love with you.
   
   LIAM TAKES A BREAT AND LOOKS AWAY AGAIN THINKING THAT HE IS GOING TO GET REJECTED. ZAYN LIFTS LIAMS CHIN AND THEN HOLDS LIAM LEFT CHEEK AND LOOKS LIAM INTO THE EYES AND SAYS……………
   
   ZLiam to be honest with you Liam I am actually in love with you too. I just recently figured out that I have love you from our very first kiss in fact I am going to pick up Perrie tonight and take her to a park down the street and talk to her about this I don’t want to lead her on any longer Liam I don’t want her I want you.
   
   LIAM LOOKS INTO ZAYNS EYES TO SEE IF HE IS LIEING WHEN HE SEES THAT HE IS NOT HE GETS UP AND STRADDLES ZAYN AND HE AND ZAYN HAVE A LOVING KISS NOT LUST JUST PURE LOVE ONCE THE KISS IS DONE LIAM ASKS………………
   
   LZayn I know your still an engaged man but you wont be soon Zayn Malik it would be an honor if you would say yes and become my boyfriend.
   
   ZAYN SMILES UP AT LIAM PECKS HIS LIPS AND SAYS.
   
   ZOf course babe but lets not be official until I break off the engagement with Perrie tonight.
   
   LOk I full understand when your date tonight
   
   ZAt 7 so right afterword how about you and me have a movie night all by ourselves in one bed only in boxers
   
   ZAYN WINKS AND LIAM AND LIAM BLUSHES
   
   LI would love that Zee I cant wait I will be waiting for you to get back with popcorn in a bowl and Toy Story in the DVD player
   
   ZAYN CHUCKLES
   
   ZOf course what other movie than Toy Story
   
   LIAM BLUSHES AND LAUGHS AND LOOKS OVER AT THE CLOCK AND SAYS………..
   
   LZayn you do know that it is like 6:30 right
   
   ZAYN LOOKS AT THE CLOCK AND GETS UP GETTING DRESS FOR HIS LAST DATE WITH PERRIE. WHEN HE IS READY BEFORE HE LEAVES HE GIVES LIAM A KISS ON LIPS AND LEAVES TO HEAD TO THE DATE.
   
   ZAYN POV
   
   ZAYN=ZPERRIE=P
   
   ZAYN AND PERRIE GET TO THE PARK AND WALKS AROUND PERRIE FIRST TO SPEAK
   
   PYour breaking up with me arnt you
   
   ZAYN GIVES A SAD SMILE
   
   ZUnfortanlly yes Perrie I am so sorry I love you but I am not in love with you
   
   PI know I see the way you and Liam look at each other I say this coming I was just waiting on you to finally figure it out I would have ended this sooner Zayn but I wanted you and Liam to be together first.
   
   ZYes I finally figured it out. I am sorry I lead you on for so long I really am sorry can you every forgive me
   
   PZayn I already have like I said before I was waiting for this day to come I am so happy you finally figured it out I am so happy for you and Liam
   
   Z Thanks for the support he waiting at home or the hotel room for me umm you wouldn’t mind if I told you he ask me to be his boyfriend and I said yes already would you he ask me like right before I came to pick you up
   
   PGosh Zayn no and congratulations all I can really say it about dam time I was about to lock you to in a room until you both opened your eyes and got together I was getting tired of the googlie eyes you gave to each other across the room. I am so happy for you Zayn why don’t you take me back to our hotel and you get back to Liam I bet he patient waiting for you to get back.
   
   ZAre you sure and we can still be friends right
   
   PFriends yeah and yes lets get me back to the hotel I know Liam is waiting for you
   
   ZOk thanks and yeah I missing Liam too I cant wait to be with him so yeah lets get you back to your hotel thanks for understanding Perrie.
   
   PLike I said I saw this coming no hurt feelings. Thanks for being such a great friend Zayn lets go home.
   
   WITH THIS ZAYN DROPS PERRIE BACK OFF AT HER HOTEL AND ZAYN DRIVES BACK TO HIS AND WHEN HE GETS TO HIS ROOM HE OPENS THE DOOR SMELLING POPCORN WALKING INTO THE BEDROOM AREA STRIPPING DOWN TO HIS BOXERS CRAWLING IN BED WAITING FROM LIAM TO COME IN. ONCE LIAM COMES IN THE ROOM ONLY IN HIS BOXERS AND WITH POPCORN IN HAND ZAYN AND LIAM LAY IN BED WATCHING THE TOY STORY SAGA THE REST OF THE NIGHT FALLING ASLEEP IN EACH OTHERS ARMS THAT NIGHT HAPPY AND BOTH HAD DREAMLESS SLEEP THAT NIGHT.
   

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