Change Me ***EDITING***

**Flashback to 6 months ago**
Harry's pov

"Harry baby how many drinks have you?"
Lindsay, my girlfriend asked.
she begged me to come with her to her friends party tonight, and I finally agreed.
I wanted to just stay in and watch movies and cuddle, but she insisted we go out tonight.
"Only two don't worry" I slurred.
That was a lie.
I've actually had about 7 or 8.
Lindsay hates when I drink too much.
Oh well.
What she doesn't know won't kill her.
Right?
my vision was slightly blurred but I managed to leave a sloppy kiss on her forehead.
"Harry you've had more than two!" Lindsay said, sounding a little annoyed.
"Im fine baby. I pinky promiseeee! I need another drink. I'll grab you one too!" I told her, I started to walk towards the kitchen, but immediately tripped over my own feet.
"Shit. I'm fine" I said as Lindsay ran over to help me up.
"Go get a water bottle from the kitchen. You need to drink the whole thing before we leave. You need to sober up a bit Harry-bear" she giggled, then pushed me towards the kitchen. I smiled at the nickname she had given me when we first started dating.
God I loved her.
I just know we're going to get married one day.
I just know it.
I pushed past the couples making out and grinding, and made my way into the kitchen and over to the fridge.
I grabbed a beer out of the fridge, cracked it open, and chugged the whole thing.
Lindsay would be pissed if she knew I was still drinking right now. But I had a rough day today. My father came home from work pissed as usual, and took his anger out on me, as usual. Whatever.
i chucked the can in the trash bin, then pulled a water bottle out of the fridge.
i headed back to where Lindsay and I were at earlier, as I got closer I saw Lindsay, and one of my good friends named Matt, they were snogging.
fuck no.
Before I knew what I was doing I had pushed Lindsay off of Matt, and started punching him in his face repeatedly.
"Dont. Fucking. Touch. Her. She's. mine." I yelled.
and with that I turned around to face Lindsay who was crying.
"Lets go."
I grabbed her arm and started dragging her out of the house.
"No Harry! You're not driving, you're drunk!" She yelled at me as I pulled her over to her car.
She tried escaping my grasp, but even tho I was drunk, I was too strong for her.
"Harry you're hurting me!" She whimpered.
But I was way too drunk to register what she was saying at the time.
I unlocked the car and shoved her in the passenger seat. I climbed into the drivers seat.
"No Harry! You're not driving! Let me out!" But I ignored her and shoved the keys in, then stepped on the gas.
"Harry baby stop! You're going really fast!" Lindsay shrieked.
The alcohol had taken its toll on me and was clouding my judgement.
I was no longer in control of my own actions.
i pushed on the gas pedal harder, trying to get back to Lindsay's house faster. We needed to talk.
"Why! Why did you cheat on me with that ass hole?! Am I not good enough for you?!" I screamed. "Why am I never good enough for anyone?! Huh? Please tell me what I'm doing wrong to deserve getting beat by my father constantly! To deserve my mother leaving me, and my girlfriend cheating on me!" I screamed louder.
Lindsay was sobbing and holding onto her seat for dear life but I couldn't stop. I couldn't slow down.
Lindsay started to speak but I couldn't hear her.
I blocked out all noise.
I just want all the pain to go away.
i don't want to feel anything anymore.
I pushed the gas pedal as hard as I could.
i didn't see the sharp turn coming up, I tried to turn, but it was too late.
we were headed straight for the lake.
I slammed on the brake but it was no use.
The car went straight off the road and fell into the lake.
Lindsays scream was the last thing I heard before being submerged under the water.
And to this day, that scream haunts me.
The car was filling up with water, but thank god the windows were open so we would be able to escape easily.
Shit. Lindsay!
I looked over to the passenger seat, but she wasn't there.
Fuck.
I climbed out the window of the car and dog paddled to keep myself afloat.
i looked around and there was no sign of Lindsay.
"Lindsay!" I screamed.
no answer.
I screamed her name a few more times. I searched around the water some more. No sign of her.
what if the cops showed up?
They would surely know I had been drinking.

drinking and driving?

I would do jail time for sure.

And Lindsay was now missing.

She could be lifeless at the bottom of the lake.

i would be locked up for life!

No.

Fuck.

i can't believe I'm going to do this.

im sorry Lindsay.

I have to get out of here.

With that, I swam to shore, and ran home.

It was her car we had driven. It would look like she was driving, lost control, and fell into the river right?

I'm so sorry Lindsay.
Im so so sorry.
I love you.
Please be okay.
please tell me you somehow escaped.
please show up for school on Monday.
please.

but she never did.

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Notes

Sorry if this was confusing.
This was a FLASHBACK to six months ago.
its telling you who Lindsay is and what happened to her.
this will be important information to know for the upcoming chapter!
Hint hint...
is Lindsay really dead?
Could Lindsay be the person at the door?

ps. Sorry I took so long to update, Ive been at the eating disorder clinic visiting my sister. She's losing alot of weight again. :(

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