I woke up from the sounds of Rose crying through the baby monitor. I got up and looked at the clock that said "7:31 am"

"ugh" I said and sighed and made my way to Rose, it's not my fault I had her, I was forced to. My entire life I was forced to do something and I was always getting hurt in the process.

I grabbed Roselyn and cradled her and walked around with her around my big but empty house. I looked at the only picture of my mam and dad which was given to me when I was given up and became and orphan when I was one years old. Later on I got adopted and the family was rude, they abused me and when I was a teenager, my adopted father raped me, he said if I did tell anyone then he would kill me. Eventually I became pregnant and had to tell my adopted mam. Later on he was sent to jail for 3 years, he gets out in this year. He told me when he gets out, he's going to kill me. I cried. Everyday. I felt like no one loved me. I almost killed myself but then I thought about how much people would be effected like my daughter.

I looked at Rose who now was wide awake and smiling at me I smiled back at her and sighed I had no work because it was Saturday and I don't work on Saturday's or Sunday's. I sat on the couch with her and we watched Spongebob together. I put her in her walker and went outside on the patio. I grabbed a box of cigarettes. My fingers were shaking as I took one out. I never smoked, but I had so much pressure. So whatever. I put it in my mouth and pulled out the lighter. My hand was shaking. I lit the cigaret and inhaled and removed it from my mouth and exhaled and coughed.

i heard a crash and I ran inside with the cigaret still in my hand. Rose was crying and I picked her up. She dropped a glass cup. I still had the cigaret in my hand so I went outside and dropped it on the floor and stepped on it.

"I'll never do that again" I whisper to Rose who was very confused. My breath smelled of smoke so I brushed my teeth three times while I sat Rose in her playpen. I looked at the time "8:21am" I spit out the water and watch towards the kitchen and start to make breakfast. I put two breads in the toaster and then I made eggs with ham. Then I called Haley.

"hey you free for 2:30? You can come by my place and babysit" I say
"uh sure, what time would you get home?" She says
"4:00ish" I reply
"sounds fine" she says
I hang up and eat my breakfast and I go over to Roselyn's play pen and give her, her bottle. She drinks it and then I feed her, her apple sauce then I got ready for my and Louis coffee meet up.

"is this good?" I ask to Rose wearing a Rolling Stones sweater that Harry bought me and jeans with converse. She just jumps up and down I smile.

"I take that as a yes" I say and walk towards my bathroom, I grabbed some of my curly hair and put a black bow. I put on make up and I looked at the time."1:21pm" I played with Rose until Haley came. When she came I left the house right away.

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I arrived to the shop early like 3 minuets early I ordered the coffees and sat down. I played candy crush and the door opened 10 minuets later. Louis looks at me and smiles and makes his way to me. I smile and he sits down in the chair in front of me. "Sorry I'm known for being late, and fans are crowding the window" Louis says and looks out the window and a fan was screaming and pounding on the window.

"It's ok" I say with a smile

"so, I think we should take our coffees to the park" Louis says with a smirk.

"good idea" I say he takes my hand and we make our way out and I still had my coffee.

we got in my car and Louis says "why is there a car seat?"

"Um, well, I have a baby" I say and look down. He brings my chin up and looks at me in the eyes I smile and he crashes his lips on mine.

Notes

Sooooo....... That happened :)