HALF A HEART

The entire day i could only think about how much of a bitch i was to Harry. He really was a nice guy who took the initiative to talk to the new girl, show her around, and then beat the crap out of a guy who was a dick to his sister...Harry was a pretty cool guy... And i was awful to him yesterday. I told myself that when I saw him today I would apologize for how shitty i had acted and i would confront Celine for not being honest with me. It was my second day and i already had to fix drama.

I got to my first period and went directly to Celine with a point to prove.

"You lied to me Celine." I said crossing my arms and knitting my eyebrows into a frown.

"What are you talking about?"

"Harry is your ex. Thats why you dont like him. And he explained what happened yesterday. He was just protecting his sister."

"Okay well him beating up Nick yesterday had nothing to do with me telling you to stay away from him. And yes hes my ex and yes he broke up with me. But did he tell you why?"

"No."

"He fucking cheated on me Annie. And then dumped me to be with the girl he hooked up with."

My eyes widened and anger bubbled in my gut. I couldnt take this anymore. Ever since i had gotten here everyone had just been lying to me. I didnt know who to believe and I was honestly considering just detaching myself from both of them. This just wasn't worth it.

I gave her a hug and apologized. "I'm sorry Cel. Ive just been so creeped since i moved here. It just feels like i cant trust anyone right now."

"Well you can trust me. I promise." She said smiling at me. "I dont care about the guy anymore. I just dont want you to get caught up in him too."

"Thanks. I appreciate it hon."

The rest of the day was pretty normal but I couldnt get the thought that I really didnt know who to believe anymore. Were both right? Were they sugarcoating and not telling me everything? And if that was happening then who was doing the sugarcoating?

I got home and threw my book bag down next to my bag and plopped on my bed. I laid there for about 3 seconds and then got up and stumbled down the stairs again.

"Mom i'm gonna go find a park and hide there until i die."

"Annie!" My mom called, "Come in here please."

I tripped through the doorway and stomped my feet like a child. "Yeah."

"Annie I know you dont like it here but we have no other choice. We're here so that we have a house and food on the table. Believe it or not youre actually better off than a lot of people in this world." She said. "No. Just go to a park but be home for dinner." She ordered as i began to protest.

I stormed out of the house. Of course i understood what she was saying and that this change was necessary but that doesnt mean i like it anymore. That doesnt mean im now okay with being here. And to top it off i have drama...DRAMA. And ive been here for two days...

I ended up walking for a half hour before I found a park. I found a bench by a small pond and sat there. I must've been sitting there for an hour, just staring at the glass-like pond. It became quite cold and i began to shiver. All i wanted to do was go home. Not my house 30 minutes away...but my house in LA. I wanted the beach and the palm trees. I wanted my friends and i actually missed all of my old teachers.

"Can I join you?" By now i knew the voice without having to see his face.

"Sure Harry."

I didnt turn to look at him but i felt the bench bend slightly under the weight of a second person.

"How did you find me?"

"I swear I wasnt trying to find you Annie. This just happens to be the place where I come to have a little time to myself."

"I'll leave then." And i honestly didnt want to sit there and talk to him. I started to get up.

"No Annie wait! Please. Celine told me you questioned her today."

"Well yeah," I said a little annoyed, "What would you expect me to do?" I said sitting back down. I didnt let him respond, "did you cheat on her Harry..." I said thinking i already knew the answer.

He paused for a long time and stared at his brown shoes. "Yes."

I started to get up and leave again.

"ANNIE! You never let me explain my side of the story."

I plopped back onto the bench and stared at him with an eyebrow raised.

"Yes I cheated on her but thats because she was being such a bitch to me. I didnt think it would hurt her so much. All month she had been talking about how much easier her life would be if she wasnt stuck with me and she kept saying how stressed i made her. I was planning on breaking up with her before i cheated but...i dont know it just kind of happened. Annie im so sorry."

I believed every word that came out of his mouth due to the desperation and determination he had to make me understand. "Why are you apologizing to me Harry? You don't even know me."

"Because youre so different than everyone else Annie. You have such a good grasp on yourself and I admire that so much Annie you have no idea. I dont know why im so drawn to you when you've hated me the majority of the time you've known me. Nobody compares to you." He said, his head hanging for a second and then locking his emerald eyes on mine, his bold curls falling over his forehead but he didnt move them.

I didnt know what to say to that. Nobody had ever said anything like that to me, nor held onto my gaze for so long with such desperation in his eyes. I just remained in the same position on the bench.

When he saw i wasnt going to respond or even move he rested his hand on mine where it rested on the bench. I froze even more than i had before. He moved in even closer, his face now inches from mine. He lifted his other hand and tucked a strand of my golden locks behind my ear. From my ear his hand traced my jawline and remained on the point of my chin. He licked his lips and began to slowly pull my face closer to his. I felt my heart begin to flutter and butterflies danced in my stomach. I wanted this. I wanted him to come closer, for him to weave his his fingers through my hair. I closed my eyes and willed him to finish the movement. But he stopped. He took a deep breath and released his hand from my chin.

He looked down, "Im sorry Annie. The last thing you want on your second day here is for some random ass guy making a move on you."

I didnt reply. I just gently turned his face toward mine again, his emerald eyes searching my face hungrily. I cupped his cheek with my other hand and his eyes fluttered shut and then opened again as if he wanted to take in every moment. I began to pull his face towards me slowly. His hands shot up, one cupping the back of my head, the other wrapping around my stomach and pulling me closer. Our lips met and oh they tasted so good. His fingers did exactly what i wanted them to do, they began to twirl through my curls. His tongue parted my lips and began to explore my mouth. Ugh this felt so good. I wrapped both of my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. He gasped in surprise and did the same, our bodies crushing against each other. He whispered my name between kisses and i felt myself gasp as he pulled me even closer to him though i didnt think there was anymore space between us.

"Harry..." I whispered and pushed my hands lightly on his chest until our faces were a few centimeters apart.

"Im sorry." He said and looked down ashamed of himself.

"Harry." I said a little surprised and turned his head so i could kiss his soft lips again. "I have to go. My mom is expecting me for dinner."

"Oh...oh! Oh okay. Well i'll walk you c'mon." He said standing up and grabbing my hand.

Small puffs of snowflakes began to dot the sky and i shivered again. Harry took his coat off and wrapped it around my shoulders and then embraced me in a hug.

"I dont know why im so drawn to you." He said with his chin on top of my head.

I was getting high off of the smell of his cologne but oh he smelled so good and his strong arms wrapped around me felt so right. I looked up at him and he returned my stare. I lifted myself onto my toes and kissed him lightly. He smiled against my mouth.

"C'mon i dont want you to get in trouble." He said grabbing my hand and we started to walk out of the park.

I wasnt sure what had just happened but i didnt care. All i knew is that i wanted Harry like a drug. His soft lips were addicting.

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