Just the Friend

-DYLANS POV-
I don’t know how long I was standing in the middle of the room after Ashton stormed out; seconds, minutes, or hours. All I know is that the very first thing I did was call Michael.
He picked up after three rings.
M: Yo! Dyl! Wassup my favorite American! He was laughing as he answered, probably at something one of the other boys said.
D: Mikey.. That was the only thing I could get to come out of my mouth. It was so distant I didn’t even recognize it as my own voice.
M: Woah Dylan whats wrong? Are you stoned right now?! Michael chuckles and I hear gasps in the background. “What?!” I hear Calum’s voice.
D: Ashton- he- he told me- I couldn’t finish my sentence.
M: Oh shit. I take he finally told you how he felt? He knew? I couldn’t even answer his question. We will be there in two minutes. We are only at the pub down the road from the hotel stay where you are okay? Don’t move.
He hangs up and I sink to the ground with my head in my heads. What is wrong with me? How could I have been so blind all of these years? All of the times he held me and wiped my tears away after some stupid boy broke my heart; he was wishing that he could be the next one to do it. All the times he kissed me on the cheek or on the top of the head, I thought it was in a brotherly fashion, but no.
Then the memory of him kissing me on the hill last year comes flooding back once again. My heart immediately flutters in my chest. I always thought that the only reason he touched his mouth to mine was to get it over with. To say that he had finally gotten to make out with someone, but maybe he had done it because he had actually wanted to kiss me. I used to have the biggest crush on him but I soon got over that when I realized how important he was to me and how crushed I would really be if I lost him. I haven’t liked him like that since I was 16, well so I thought.
Do I love him?
My thoughts were interrupted when Michael, Luke and Calum walked in. My head was still in my hands but I didn’t have to look to know it was them.
When I look up from my hands, I see the three boys sitting cross legged in front of my on the floor.
“Hi.” I say quietly.
“Hey Dyl. How’s it going?” Luke asked looking genuinely concerned.
“I’m guessing you all knew?” I question running a hand through my hair. They all nod.
Great.
“In all honesty, I am surprised you didn’t know. I mean he did write heart break girl. Who did you think he was writing it about?” Michael puts his chin in his hand. My head shoots up.
“What?!” I squeak. “He told me Luke wrote that song! Plus, I never really paid attention to the exact lyrics because I just liked hearing you guys sing it.” I pick up my phone from the floor and went to the internet. I type ‘Lyrics to heartbreak girl by 5 seconds of summer’ into the Google search bar and wait for the link to come up. When it finally loads, I read through the lyrics of the song.
‘You call me up,
It’s like a broken record
Saying that your heart hurts
That you’ll never get over him getting over you
And you even up crying
And I end up lying
Cause I’m just a sucker for anything that you do
And when the phone call finally ends
You say thanks for being a friend,
And we’re going in circles again and again
I dedicate this song to you
The one who never sees the truth
That I can take away your hurt
Heartbreak girl
Hold you tight through the daylight
I’m right here when you gonna realize that I’m your cure,
Heartbreak girl
I bite my tongue but I wanna scream out
You could be with me now
But I end up telling you what you wanna hear
But you’re not ready and it’s so frustrating
He treats you so bad and I’m so good to you, it’s not fair
And when the phone call finally ends
You say I’ll call you tomorrow at ten
And I’m stuck in the friend zone again and again
I dedicate this song to you
The one who never sees the truth
That I can take away your hurt
Heartbreak girl
Hold you tight through the daylight
I’m right here when you gonna realize that I’m your cure,
Heartbreak girl
I know someday its gonna happen
And you’ll finally forget the day you met him
Sometimes I’m so close to confession
I gotta get it through your head that you belong with me instead
I dedicate this song to you
The one who never sees the truth
That I can take away your hurt
Heartbreak girl
Hold you tight through the daylight
I’m right here when you gonna realize that I’m your cure,
Heartbreak girl
I dedicate this song to you
The one who never sees the truth
That I can take away your hurt
Heartbreak girl
Hold you tight through the daylight
I’m right here when you gonna realize that I’m your cure,
Heartbreak girl’
By the time I was finished reading the lyrics out loud I had tears running down my face.
“How could I have been so fucking oblivious? What am I going to do?! I’m with Louis! I mean I love Ashton! But do I love him like that? I don’t know! I am so confused.” I was standing up and pacing now. “I can’t be here anymore. I have to leave. My brother questioned if this tour was the best thing for me and maybe he right. I’m going home. I’m- I’m-,”
“Dylan! Stop it! You cannot just leave!” Michael shoots up from his sitting position.
“Why the fuck not? It’s going to be way to awkward to be around him Michael and you know it!” I argue and poke his chest with my finger.
“Because you can’t fucking run away from all of your problems Dylan!”
“I am not running away. I just need time to think and being on this tour is not helping me.”
“I will help you. We,” He motions to the other two boys who had stayed quiet through the whole argument, “will help you. You will get through this Dyl. Just promise me you won’t leave.” He pleads grabbing my hands in his.
“I promise.” I felt a little pinge of guilt shoot through my body as I lie through my teeth. “I think we all just need to sleep this off. Okay?” Calum finally speaks up and we all nod in agreement.
I hug them all, knowing I won’t be seeing them for a little while, then head to my room where I pretend to shut off all of my lights. Once I heard the last door shut, signaling they were all in their rooms, I pulled out my laptop to look up flights from here to Sydney.
When I find the earliest flight for 5:30 this morning I click the SUBMIT TRANSACTION button and close my laptop.
If only they knew.

Notes

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Is Dylan really going to leave?
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Lylan or Dashton?
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