Lost Without You

(Roselee's point of view)

*flash back*

I paced around my room with my hand on my forehead. What am I supposed to do?! I told my mom that I was pregnant and she said she wasn't going to be part of my life and more and that I was a disgrace to our family. I have to admit that it hurt a little especially coming from my mom, but what hurt the most was that my family refused to help me when I needed them most. And they say I'm the screw up.

I have to break up with Niall. I can't go running to him for help, not this time. His career is just starting off and I know his band is going to be big. I know that if I go to him then he will drop everything and help me and I can't do that to him. It's to selfish. I have no one else to go to... Yes I do! Why didn't I think of this sooner! Adelaide!

I pulled out my phone and quickly dialed my best friends phone number. She lives in the United States but that doesn't mean I can't move back there."Hey Hoe, What's up?" she answered on the third ring.

"Addie.." My voice cracked and my best friend immediatey knew I was crying.

"Roselee what's wrong? What happened?" She begged me to know.

"Add I'm p-pregnant." I wailed. I couldn't hold my tears back anymore. I was 17 and pregnant with no family to support me. Where's the upside to this?

"YOUR WHAT?! HOW THE HELL DID YOU GET PREGNANT?" she yelled. Her yelling was not helping my massive headache.

"Adelaide I think we both know how I got pregnant." I sighed. "Addie, My parents won't support me... they are kicking me out, I have to break up with Niall, I don't have anywhere to go can I-" I tried to explain but I was quickly cut off.

"Yes! Yes! Come live with me! I'll help you just come back." Adelaide shouted once more. Addie lived in her own apartment even though she's only 17. Her parents pay for it and they let her live there.

"Ok I'll probably be there sometime in the next two days." I replied shakily. I can't believe this is happening...

We said our good byes and hung up. I started packing all of my clothes and necessities and about an hour later I was done. I booked a flight for tonight at 10 to fly to Washington. It was already 5 so I needed to get out of here now If I want to break up with Niall. 'You don't want to break up with Niall' My annoying subconscious reminded.

I drove to Niall's new flat and knocked on the door. Niall answered and greeted me with one of his famous Horan hugs. Oh how I'll miss his hugs... I always loved the scent of Niall, it calmed me. He always smelled like a mix between oranges and mint.

"Listen Niall...." I said getting straight to the point. He sat down and gave me his undivided attention. Usually I love it when he does this but now I wish more than anything he wasn't staring as intently at me. "I think we should break up. Your career is just starting and i'm going to get in the way." I said with tears in my eyes. "I- It's me not you." That's what they always say in the movies right?

"No. Roselee Don't do this. Your not in the way at all. Your more important than my career. I'll give it all up for you to stay. I love you, you know that. don't do this!" Niall pleaded with tears running down his cheeks. My Nialler....

"Niall that's exactly what I don't want you to do. Don't make this any harder than it has to be." I said and got up from my position on the couch and walked towards the door.

"Rose! Baby, Please I love you! Just don't leave me." He yelled after me. I didn't turn around or say anything back. I couldn't. I would break if I did. I probably seemed like a cold hearted bitch. Niall probably hates me already.

I drove to the airport and boarded my plane when the time came. It's time to start over.. again. This time with a new addition. And that's when it hit me. I'm going to be a mother. I'm going to raise this little boy or girl, hear it say it's first words, watch it take it's first steps, all the important things. I'm not going to lie to it about it's daddy. It will know who he is. I'm gonna raise this kid to the best of my abilities.

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