DARKER DESIRES
Chapter 40: That's life
Jessica’s P.O.V
The sky went back to its normal color and the guys in the cloaks disappeared. Though the only thought that didn’t was that Marcel guy telling the boys they had to leave, like really? Can’t they just move to a different city? But still in the same state of course, right?
Harry kept his arm around me as we entered into his house. His house was beautiful; I wasn’t expecting something such as this. He’s a vampire, but his décor of his house makes him seem like a human ordinary boy. He brought me over to the living room, the boys crowded around as well. They all stared at me and Harry. “I’m sorry Harry” Zayn said politely, but I think he just said it to break the silence. “Mates can I have…a moment ya know?” They nodded their heads respectively and made their way towards the kitchen. Harry unwrapped his arms off around me and sat back a little to look at my face. “Jess” His voice was whisper. “Don’t say it, whatever comes out your mouth its better left unsaid”
He caught his tongue before anything could slip out. “Jess, what do you see your future like?” I could barely think, I blinked my eyes rapidly. What type of question is this? “I-I see it with you” He sighed madly. “What if I didn’t exist?” I stopped fumbling with my fingers and looked him dead straight in the eye. “Then there wouldn’t be a world worth living in” He shook his head disapprovingly and got up from the couch. “No, Jess, you can’t say things like that love you…..have to think hypothetically” He stood up in front of me. I searched the ground, trying to ease myself out of this comment. “Hypothetically, let’s talk about probability, if I wouldn’t have come to you then at some point I would be with another like you” He closed his eyes, rubbing the side of his forehead.
“What did you dream about in your future Jess, pretend there was no existence of vampire’s” I guess I should give up now; I don’t want to make Harry too mad. “I dreamed that I-I would have a husband you adored me as much as football, we would live inside a huge house with the typical picket white fence around it and have two kids that I watch so grow up to be just like me and their father” Harry stood there rubbing the side of his jaw thoughtfully. He walked over to me and sat on his knees; he took my small hands and entwined them with his. “Jess, I love you…..I love you more than Vampire life it’s self….” He ran a hand softly along my cheek bone continuing to push my hair out of my face. “You’re going to have this wonderful life, filled with happiness and love. And it will all be based on trust, and communication and I will be more than happy to take
credit for bringing this out of you” “Don’t” I dropped my eyes down to our puzzled hands. “Don’t say goodbye” I looked back up. His eyes were partially red though he was nowhere near close to crying. “You’re going to find you this amazing guy that will love you, just as much as I love you and he’s going to treat you better than I can. Because let’s face it, I was never good enough for you Jessica….you just stayed with me because I persuaded you, I seduced you.” The tears burned my eyes, and damped my eyelashes. “What? No, I-I decided whether or not to fall in love with you, and I’ll tell you now. It was hard as hell for me to walk away from you even though I wanted to. Just something about you made me want to stay, something clawed at my heart to strive for something more in you…..so what does that tell you about me?”
He reached up and placed his palm across my heart. “That you have a big heart, sure you judged my book by its cover….but at least you stayed to read the pages” I tried to control that one stubborn tear that pooled my eyes, but it was too late. It streamed down my eyes along my cheek and dropped on to my dress. “Why are you crying? Don’t cry” He wiped the access tears beginning to pool in the corner of my eyes. “Is it because I’m leaving? Who’s says I won’t come back?” “I’m not crying because you’re leaving, I’m crying because the one thing I loved is leaving yet the one thing I loved and trusted is walking out of my life like my dad did. You’re just like my dad, make promises but break them at the same time……you’re a liar” I couldn’t hold back the tears now. “You’re a liar, and I wish I never met you….because now I have to live everyday here alone….hating! That I love you”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I couldn’t find a way to stop her pain, to solve this big problem that just dropped on us. “C-Can you do me a favor?” She whispered. “Sure, of course sweetheart” She moved me over to get up, she nervously pulled her hair behind her ears and wiped her eyes. “Leave.” I walked up to her “What? I don’t have to leave now” She held up her hand, I knew I should give her space. “J-just save the goodbyes, I got threw without my father I-I think I can make it without you…..I lost you once….I can do it again, I think”
I felt like we didn’t get a lot of time, that we wasted valuable days. “Do you at least want to….one more time?” She blew out her breath in disgust. “Save that for your next life” She came walking up to me now. “I hope you can find somebody that loves you as much as you love me Harry, I hope she gives you the things that I couldn’t and provide you with necessities that I couldn’t withhold”
I’m the one leaving Jess, but this feel like she’s leaving me. “Stop!” She quickly became quiet. “You did give me everything I ever hoped for….I hate falling in love with people because everything that falls breaks. I hate trusting people because that involves me telling them my history…and the stories I have would be legend. Though I became in contact with you, I never ever wanted to fall in love with you…” She almost broke down. “Yet, you changed my mind….actually you’ve changed my point of view of life. So yeah, I’m going to be better in my next life but I’m not going to fall in love….that my promise to you.”
She waved her hand. “Don’t promise me, you’ve already broken one” I’m sick of this. I walked straight up to her grabbing her hips slamming them up against mine.
“Kiss me” I know a man’s not supposed to cry, but is it okay to shed a tear. I was getting impatient as she refused. “No, Harry no…you asshole” That hurt me a little more on the inside. “Kiss me Jessica” She arced her back away from me; I know she wants to kiss me. “Why do you want me to kiss you?” She pushed her fragile hand up against my chest. “Because….” I
cleared my throat, holding back my forlorn. “Because when we kiss everything’s better so kiss me damn it!” She still denied. “I’m no--…” I slammed my lips up against hers, cutting off her ridiculed comment. I slammed her back against the wall, our kiss was beyond passionate. This one was different maybe because this is basically the last time I will ever see her, but I can’t tell her that…..because everything’s better when we kiss.
I guess life is based on moments of impacts.
The sky went back to its normal color and the guys in the cloaks disappeared. Though the only thought that didn’t was that Marcel guy telling the boys they had to leave, like really? Can’t they just move to a different city? But still in the same state of course, right?
Harry kept his arm around me as we entered into his house. His house was beautiful; I wasn’t expecting something such as this. He’s a vampire, but his décor of his house makes him seem like a human ordinary boy. He brought me over to the living room, the boys crowded around as well. They all stared at me and Harry. “I’m sorry Harry” Zayn said politely, but I think he just said it to break the silence. “Mates can I have…a moment ya know?” They nodded their heads respectively and made their way towards the kitchen. Harry unwrapped his arms off around me and sat back a little to look at my face. “Jess” His voice was whisper. “Don’t say it, whatever comes out your mouth its better left unsaid”
He caught his tongue before anything could slip out. “Jess, what do you see your future like?” I could barely think, I blinked my eyes rapidly. What type of question is this? “I-I see it with you” He sighed madly. “What if I didn’t exist?” I stopped fumbling with my fingers and looked him dead straight in the eye. “Then there wouldn’t be a world worth living in” He shook his head disapprovingly and got up from the couch. “No, Jess, you can’t say things like that love you…..have to think hypothetically” He stood up in front of me. I searched the ground, trying to ease myself out of this comment. “Hypothetically, let’s talk about probability, if I wouldn’t have come to you then at some point I would be with another like you” He closed his eyes, rubbing the side of his forehead.
“What did you dream about in your future Jess, pretend there was no existence of vampire’s” I guess I should give up now; I don’t want to make Harry too mad. “I dreamed that I-I would have a husband you adored me as much as football, we would live inside a huge house with the typical picket white fence around it and have two kids that I watch so grow up to be just like me and their father” Harry stood there rubbing the side of his jaw thoughtfully. He walked over to me and sat on his knees; he took my small hands and entwined them with his. “Jess, I love you…..I love you more than Vampire life it’s self….” He ran a hand softly along my cheek bone continuing to push my hair out of my face. “You’re going to have this wonderful life, filled with happiness and love. And it will all be based on trust, and communication and I will be more than happy to take
credit for bringing this out of you” “Don’t” I dropped my eyes down to our puzzled hands. “Don’t say goodbye” I looked back up. His eyes were partially red though he was nowhere near close to crying. “You’re going to find you this amazing guy that will love you, just as much as I love you and he’s going to treat you better than I can. Because let’s face it, I was never good enough for you Jessica….you just stayed with me because I persuaded you, I seduced you.” The tears burned my eyes, and damped my eyelashes. “What? No, I-I decided whether or not to fall in love with you, and I’ll tell you now. It was hard as hell for me to walk away from you even though I wanted to. Just something about you made me want to stay, something clawed at my heart to strive for something more in you…..so what does that tell you about me?”
He reached up and placed his palm across my heart. “That you have a big heart, sure you judged my book by its cover….but at least you stayed to read the pages” I tried to control that one stubborn tear that pooled my eyes, but it was too late. It streamed down my eyes along my cheek and dropped on to my dress. “Why are you crying? Don’t cry” He wiped the access tears beginning to pool in the corner of my eyes. “Is it because I’m leaving? Who’s says I won’t come back?” “I’m not crying because you’re leaving, I’m crying because the one thing I loved is leaving yet the one thing I loved and trusted is walking out of my life like my dad did. You’re just like my dad, make promises but break them at the same time……you’re a liar” I couldn’t hold back the tears now. “You’re a liar, and I wish I never met you….because now I have to live everyday here alone….hating! That I love you”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I couldn’t find a way to stop her pain, to solve this big problem that just dropped on us. “C-Can you do me a favor?” She whispered. “Sure, of course sweetheart” She moved me over to get up, she nervously pulled her hair behind her ears and wiped her eyes. “Leave.” I walked up to her “What? I don’t have to leave now” She held up her hand, I knew I should give her space. “J-just save the goodbyes, I got threw without my father I-I think I can make it without you…..I lost you once….I can do it again, I think”
I felt like we didn’t get a lot of time, that we wasted valuable days. “Do you at least want to….one more time?” She blew out her breath in disgust. “Save that for your next life” She came walking up to me now. “I hope you can find somebody that loves you as much as you love me Harry, I hope she gives you the things that I couldn’t and provide you with necessities that I couldn’t withhold”
I’m the one leaving Jess, but this feel like she’s leaving me. “Stop!” She quickly became quiet. “You did give me everything I ever hoped for….I hate falling in love with people because everything that falls breaks. I hate trusting people because that involves me telling them my history…and the stories I have would be legend. Though I became in contact with you, I never ever wanted to fall in love with you…” She almost broke down. “Yet, you changed my mind….actually you’ve changed my point of view of life. So yeah, I’m going to be better in my next life but I’m not going to fall in love….that my promise to you.”
She waved her hand. “Don’t promise me, you’ve already broken one” I’m sick of this. I walked straight up to her grabbing her hips slamming them up against mine.
“Kiss me” I know a man’s not supposed to cry, but is it okay to shed a tear. I was getting impatient as she refused. “No, Harry no…you asshole” That hurt me a little more on the inside. “Kiss me Jessica” She arced her back away from me; I know she wants to kiss me. “Why do you want me to kiss you?” She pushed her fragile hand up against my chest. “Because….” I
cleared my throat, holding back my forlorn. “Because when we kiss everything’s better so kiss me damn it!” She still denied. “I’m no--…” I slammed my lips up against hers, cutting off her ridiculed comment. I slammed her back against the wall, our kiss was beyond passionate. This one was different maybe because this is basically the last time I will ever see her, but I can’t tell her that…..because everything’s better when we kiss.
I guess life is based on moments of impacts.
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