DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 26; Venom
Harry’s P.O.V
I snapped out of shock and scooted closer to Jess, I couldn’t believe what I had done. Wow yeah Harry, go ahead and hurt the ones you love. I’m pretty sure they feel the same way back
-_- I pressed my two fingers up against her neck, her pulse was beating still rather strongly yet the beat was reducing carelessly.
I checked her body out, there was no discoloration nor was she sweating. I couldn’t see what was wrong, maybe she passed out or maybe she was overwhelmed. I’ve never seen an actual dead body after I did; you know Louis just tells me to leave it there and walk away. He taught me to not have feelings for the ones I hurt, so I condoned to that idea.
“Jess?” I shook her body slowly. She moaned lowly, it felt like she was on the verge of dying. “Jess wake up!” She didn’t respond with bodily action. I gently picked her up and placed her into the bed, and covered her up carefully. “It’s okay Jess, I’ll take care of you…..I promise love” This promise felt real, and determined. I’ve never promised anybody anything other than my mother and I kept that promise till his day.
*Flashback*
I peered off behind the door. Dad yanked mom and threw her on to the bed, she fell roughly. She tried to move and get up but dad was blocking any exit way that was possible. “Where do you think you’re going love, you’re staying here” Mom scream and pulled on his arms, trying to get up but nothing worked.
“Harry! Harry baby” I closed my eyes tightly. Why oh Why? did she have to call my name? My body fell off balance as I stood there, I knocked into the door – it fell open momentarily. “Harry baby, d-do you wanna help mum yeah? Grab that gun sweetheart” I glanced at the gun sitting on the dresser untouched. I was only 13, how was I supposed to use a gun?
“Harry, if you pick up that gun I’ll give you a reason to be dead” dad scorned. I swallowed deeply. Dad raised a hand and palmed mom right across the face. She fell back groaning and rubbing the attacked spot. I quickly ran over to the dresser and grabbed the gun brace fully, like I knew what I was doing. “Step away from mum, now dad!” He raised his hand in surrender and made his way over towards the door. “Now, now son, put down the gun. I swear I will not hit mum anymore” I lowered the gone feeding into his lies, he shrieked out in a devious laugh. I raised the gun back to it’s original position. “Don’t move!” He edged his way over towards the door.
“Whatever, I’m done. Stay with your mother she loved you more than I did” Without thinking my finger squeezed the trigger, and a bullet fired off into the air. Dad ran out the door before it could wound him.
I dropped the gun in disbelieve and shock. I quickly walked over to mom, her tears were starting to drizzle down her eyes. “Oh baby” she gave out a tight smile masking her pain.
“Will you promise me something Harry?” I shook my head rapidly. “Of course mum” She dropped her hand tiredly. “Leave, leave and never come back whatever you do. You promise me?”
I shook my head understandingly. The tears were rimming my eyes. “No, I do--…” “Promise me Harry!” “I promise” I said sternly and clear. “Good boy, now go pack I’ll take you to the bus in the morning” I shook my head once again.
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That night I ran without her knowing, I didn’t want to go through the whole good-bye’s because deep in my little heart I knew I would see her again.
That was the night I got bit.
And I’ve never seen either of my parents since.
*FlashBack Ends* I closed my eyes tightly, trying to swipe the image to the far back; deepest, darkest spot of my mind. I dug into my jeans and grabbed my phone out. I scrolled through my contacts, my finger hovered over contacts. The whole contacts I ever had were 4, and they consist of Niall, Zayn, Liam and Louis.
I clicked on Louis name and gradually touched the call image. The phone rung for seconds, I peered at Jess. “Hold on love”
“Oh Harry, I think I’m the last person you want to call. Yet I remember you snapping my neck like a fragile twig you cunt!”
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Jessica’s P.O.V
My hearing was fading in and out. Every time I was beginning to lift my head, it would fall back down because of the lightness empty spaced filled in my head.
“Harry…..what ya….she’s dead?!”
“Lad….you fucker eh?” Such a nasty Irish boy
Someone picked up my wrist, my arm exploded with pain but I couldn’t yell out. It was like being paralyzed and being put under giggle gas. The person pushed and shoved the spot where Harry bit, I so badly wanted to scream and shout.
“She’s…….venom in her” My mind just busted with shockers. Sure in hell, that son of a bitch called my boyfriend did not…poison me?
“Harry…..bit deep idiot!” The voices were fading faster than normal.
“Suck it!” That was the last word I heard before my hearing completely disappeared into silence. Someone’s liquid substance was on my wrist, there was pressure applied to my sore area yet I couldn’t feel the pain anymore. I was numb.
The pressure went deeper into my arm, “Aaah” Did I just do that? Did I just speak? I thought that was one action that I was definitely not able to use. “Stop….” I could barely make out a word; my voice was weak from not drinking water and not talking.
“Stop bruv….you’re killing her” The pressure from my arm withdrew into nice tender softness. Whatever that person did surely helped that strange feeling in my wrist. “There, you pompous cunts…it’s out” My ears were picking up more clear sounds of the sentences. “Stop!” My voice was louder, vibrant and strong. I got my brain ready to sit up, I held my weight on my forearms. I rubbed my head in circles. “You are all cunt’s” I opened my eyes to bright light shining over my eye. “Ah turn of that crap” Once the light was gone I opened my eyes again. I stared around that room and that faces I once thought were innocent.
“Uggghh, help me up please” I threw my legs over the edge of whatever was under me. “Here” I looked up at the Irish kid. “Uh no, somebody else’s hand” The Louis kid reached over. “Are you kidding me? No, you know what I’m fine” I used both my hands to boost me off the hard area.
“Whatever than love, let’s go boys. Obviously our presence isn’t wanted nor are we welcomed for saving her existing life” I gave a tight smile. “I’m sorry, there! Thank you for saving my life”
He smiled off his last rude comment. “If you weren't token by that fucker over there I would have kissed you” I leaned my head around one of the boys to see Harry leaning in the corner – his hands were shoved in his front pockets, and he was staring at the floor. Something was on his mind or he just didn't want to see what he’s done to me.
I lowered my voice. “What’s wrong with him?” The other boys filed towards the window, jumping out one by one. But Louis lingered around. “I don’t know, I guess he hate what he’s done to you and feel fucked or your blood was bad and now he’s sick” I punched Louis in the arm. He played it off with a laugh and headed for the window too.
Once they were all gone. I walked towards the bed, the room was silent…which was awkward. “You know I had the most amazing dream about you. We were walking down by the beach and you were holding my hand nicely--…” “Why would you do that Jessica?” Gosh, he was mad once again….saying my full name and everything.
“Because you were dying…and you were hungry” He still stared at the floor, writing something in cursive with his foot. “I could have sucked the life out of you, I-I could have killed you and that was way more important than whether I would have died or not” He stopped writing in cursive. He glared up at me aggressively, passively. “Don’t you know how precious you are to me?”
How can he be extremely hot while he’s mad? “I-I don’t think I’m that valuable"
“Don’t ever think that you are never worthy, I’ll treat you way better than you expected. I will love you harder than anything in the world, more than your mum and dad. I will buy you your most expensive desired thing…..I will spoil you rotten. I've waited for the day I could have somebody that respects me and loves be back just as much i do. And since I’ve found her, I just want to give her the world…take care of her. But how can I do that if she fucking dies, trying to save me?”
He swiveled and punched his fist through the hard wall. A hole indented into the area. “Uggghh Fuck!” He slid to the ground with his body to the wall. He chewed on the corner of his thumb nail while staring off into the air.
“I-I’m sorry” I was surprised at how mad he got, he gets really overwhelmed over loving me. “Why be sorry? You can’t be sorry for loving somebody such as me”
“What is that supposed to mean?” He shook his head. “Nothing”
What did that mean? I can’t be sorry for loving somebody such as him? Is he trying to set himself off as somebody who don’t deserve to be apologized to, who’s not worthy to have sympathy?
I snapped out of shock and scooted closer to Jess, I couldn’t believe what I had done. Wow yeah Harry, go ahead and hurt the ones you love. I’m pretty sure they feel the same way back
-_- I pressed my two fingers up against her neck, her pulse was beating still rather strongly yet the beat was reducing carelessly.
I checked her body out, there was no discoloration nor was she sweating. I couldn’t see what was wrong, maybe she passed out or maybe she was overwhelmed. I’ve never seen an actual dead body after I did; you know Louis just tells me to leave it there and walk away. He taught me to not have feelings for the ones I hurt, so I condoned to that idea.
“Jess?” I shook her body slowly. She moaned lowly, it felt like she was on the verge of dying. “Jess wake up!” She didn’t respond with bodily action. I gently picked her up and placed her into the bed, and covered her up carefully. “It’s okay Jess, I’ll take care of you…..I promise love” This promise felt real, and determined. I’ve never promised anybody anything other than my mother and I kept that promise till his day.
*Flashback*
I peered off behind the door. Dad yanked mom and threw her on to the bed, she fell roughly. She tried to move and get up but dad was blocking any exit way that was possible. “Where do you think you’re going love, you’re staying here” Mom scream and pulled on his arms, trying to get up but nothing worked.
“Harry! Harry baby” I closed my eyes tightly. Why oh Why? did she have to call my name? My body fell off balance as I stood there, I knocked into the door – it fell open momentarily. “Harry baby, d-do you wanna help mum yeah? Grab that gun sweetheart” I glanced at the gun sitting on the dresser untouched. I was only 13, how was I supposed to use a gun?
“Harry, if you pick up that gun I’ll give you a reason to be dead” dad scorned. I swallowed deeply. Dad raised a hand and palmed mom right across the face. She fell back groaning and rubbing the attacked spot. I quickly ran over to the dresser and grabbed the gun brace fully, like I knew what I was doing. “Step away from mum, now dad!” He raised his hand in surrender and made his way over towards the door. “Now, now son, put down the gun. I swear I will not hit mum anymore” I lowered the gone feeding into his lies, he shrieked out in a devious laugh. I raised the gun back to it’s original position. “Don’t move!” He edged his way over towards the door.
“Whatever, I’m done. Stay with your mother she loved you more than I did” Without thinking my finger squeezed the trigger, and a bullet fired off into the air. Dad ran out the door before it could wound him.
I dropped the gun in disbelieve and shock. I quickly walked over to mom, her tears were starting to drizzle down her eyes. “Oh baby” she gave out a tight smile masking her pain.
“Will you promise me something Harry?” I shook my head rapidly. “Of course mum” She dropped her hand tiredly. “Leave, leave and never come back whatever you do. You promise me?”
I shook my head understandingly. The tears were rimming my eyes. “No, I do--…” “Promise me Harry!” “I promise” I said sternly and clear. “Good boy, now go pack I’ll take you to the bus in the morning” I shook my head once again.
***********
That night I ran without her knowing, I didn’t want to go through the whole good-bye’s because deep in my little heart I knew I would see her again.
That was the night I got bit.
And I’ve never seen either of my parents since.
*FlashBack Ends* I closed my eyes tightly, trying to swipe the image to the far back; deepest, darkest spot of my mind. I dug into my jeans and grabbed my phone out. I scrolled through my contacts, my finger hovered over contacts. The whole contacts I ever had were 4, and they consist of Niall, Zayn, Liam and Louis.
I clicked on Louis name and gradually touched the call image. The phone rung for seconds, I peered at Jess. “Hold on love”
“Oh Harry, I think I’m the last person you want to call. Yet I remember you snapping my neck like a fragile twig you cunt!”
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Jessica’s P.O.V
My hearing was fading in and out. Every time I was beginning to lift my head, it would fall back down because of the lightness empty spaced filled in my head.
“Harry…..what ya….she’s dead?!”
“Lad….you fucker eh?” Such a nasty Irish boy
Someone picked up my wrist, my arm exploded with pain but I couldn’t yell out. It was like being paralyzed and being put under giggle gas. The person pushed and shoved the spot where Harry bit, I so badly wanted to scream and shout.
“She’s…….venom in her” My mind just busted with shockers. Sure in hell, that son of a bitch called my boyfriend did not…poison me?
“Harry…..bit deep idiot!” The voices were fading faster than normal.
“Suck it!” That was the last word I heard before my hearing completely disappeared into silence. Someone’s liquid substance was on my wrist, there was pressure applied to my sore area yet I couldn’t feel the pain anymore. I was numb.
The pressure went deeper into my arm, “Aaah” Did I just do that? Did I just speak? I thought that was one action that I was definitely not able to use. “Stop….” I could barely make out a word; my voice was weak from not drinking water and not talking.
“Stop bruv….you’re killing her” The pressure from my arm withdrew into nice tender softness. Whatever that person did surely helped that strange feeling in my wrist. “There, you pompous cunts…it’s out” My ears were picking up more clear sounds of the sentences. “Stop!” My voice was louder, vibrant and strong. I got my brain ready to sit up, I held my weight on my forearms. I rubbed my head in circles. “You are all cunt’s” I opened my eyes to bright light shining over my eye. “Ah turn of that crap” Once the light was gone I opened my eyes again. I stared around that room and that faces I once thought were innocent.
“Uggghh, help me up please” I threw my legs over the edge of whatever was under me. “Here” I looked up at the Irish kid. “Uh no, somebody else’s hand” The Louis kid reached over. “Are you kidding me? No, you know what I’m fine” I used both my hands to boost me off the hard area.
“Whatever than love, let’s go boys. Obviously our presence isn’t wanted nor are we welcomed for saving her existing life” I gave a tight smile. “I’m sorry, there! Thank you for saving my life”
He smiled off his last rude comment. “If you weren't token by that fucker over there I would have kissed you” I leaned my head around one of the boys to see Harry leaning in the corner – his hands were shoved in his front pockets, and he was staring at the floor. Something was on his mind or he just didn't want to see what he’s done to me.
I lowered my voice. “What’s wrong with him?” The other boys filed towards the window, jumping out one by one. But Louis lingered around. “I don’t know, I guess he hate what he’s done to you and feel fucked or your blood was bad and now he’s sick” I punched Louis in the arm. He played it off with a laugh and headed for the window too.
Once they were all gone. I walked towards the bed, the room was silent…which was awkward. “You know I had the most amazing dream about you. We were walking down by the beach and you were holding my hand nicely--…” “Why would you do that Jessica?” Gosh, he was mad once again….saying my full name and everything.
“Because you were dying…and you were hungry” He still stared at the floor, writing something in cursive with his foot. “I could have sucked the life out of you, I-I could have killed you and that was way more important than whether I would have died or not” He stopped writing in cursive. He glared up at me aggressively, passively. “Don’t you know how precious you are to me?”
How can he be extremely hot while he’s mad? “I-I don’t think I’m that valuable"
“Don’t ever think that you are never worthy, I’ll treat you way better than you expected. I will love you harder than anything in the world, more than your mum and dad. I will buy you your most expensive desired thing…..I will spoil you rotten. I've waited for the day I could have somebody that respects me and loves be back just as much i do. And since I’ve found her, I just want to give her the world…take care of her. But how can I do that if she fucking dies, trying to save me?”
He swiveled and punched his fist through the hard wall. A hole indented into the area. “Uggghh Fuck!” He slid to the ground with his body to the wall. He chewed on the corner of his thumb nail while staring off into the air.
“I-I’m sorry” I was surprised at how mad he got, he gets really overwhelmed over loving me. “Why be sorry? You can’t be sorry for loving somebody such as me”
“What is that supposed to mean?” He shook his head. “Nothing”
What did that mean? I can’t be sorry for loving somebody such as him? Is he trying to set himself off as somebody who don’t deserve to be apologized to, who’s not worthy to have sympathy?
Notes
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3/18/14