DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 23: Alive
Jessica’s P.O.V
A week as gone by since Harry’s been gone; it’s been a week since my heart shriveled up and fell out of my chest. It’s been nearly two days since I’ve ate and I’m pretty sure I’m dead but alive….a zombie. I’m sitting around like he’s coming back, like he’s going to burst into my room any second and give me a long hug, but no that’s going to happen nor has it happened. So what am I supposed to do with my life? My time was mainly spent on cast away adventures with Harry, and kissing with Harry and talking…with Harry.
Uggghh just the thought of him, makes me want to kill myself just to be with him; I miss him that much. I got up from my bed and walked over to the window, I raised my arm frailly – I was kind of weak from not eating nor barely moving. I pulled back the curtain, oh god! I instantly squinted my eyes, I haven’t seen daylight since…..can’t remember. I pulled up the lever on the window and lift it up. A rush of accelerating air rushed in blowing me in the face, it was refreshing I haven’t been outside for a while.
Hey maybe I should go for a walk, I definitely need to clear my mind. But what if I don’t want to erase Harry? What if I want to stay shacked up in this room of mine and just slowly die alone? I swiped that thought to the far side of my mind and quickly headed for my closet.
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I started my way on the sidewalk; I quickly slid in my earphones and turned on a song.
“Every clock is ticking faster, taking trips around the sun”
Another year, another chapter; 5 and 4 and 3 and 2 and 1
Drop your call lose your keys, before the drinks are gone”
I turned my fast paced walking into running, my legs started to work and contract.
“Get yourself out your seat, oh oh, quit your bitchin’ move your
Feet, until the break of dawn, cause nobody gives a damn about the
Day that you were born”
I took a quick turn, going down toward the community park. I could feel my breathing start to get limit and heavy.
“Except for everyone that ruins your birthday
You got to party like it’s not, party like it’s not
This songs for anyone who’s having the worst day
You got to party like it’s not, party like it’s not”
I went down a quick trail through the park and broke down into a path around Fog Lake.
“Party like it’s not; party like – like it’s not your birthday”
I broke off down by the lake, my legs were burning with exhaustion and my lungs were stinging. I took a quick stop by the bench near the lake; I tightly smiled at the people running by. I hate smiling right now, I haven’t smiled since….since, I choked back his name.
I stretched out my burning legs relaxing the tensed muscles; I reach over my head stretching out my arms.
I felt somebody collide into my arm. I took my music out as the person turned to me and said sorry then carried himself on his way. I wonder what Harry would have done if he saw that. I raised my earphone back into place.
“Jessica…” I turned my head both ways; I swore I heard my name. Maybe I’m so used to Harry calling my name; it’s practically stuck in my head. I started walking back down my path towards the end of the walkway. “Jessica…” this time the word was loud enough for me to actually hear. “Hello? Is somebody there?”
I walked a little more towards the boarder of the forest. I looked in between trees and behind bushes but nothing revealed itself. I shrugged my shoulder and continue raising my earphone up to my ear – I turned around and shoved right into a firm body. “Ahh oh gosh” I calmed down my rapid heartbeat then looked up at the person.
“Well love, we meet again eh?” Everything in my body told me to scream and run, but who’s going to hear me? I’m the only one on this path right now plus, how can I out run a vampire?
“Please, you guys got what you wanted so can you just leave me alone?” I pushed my hand up against his chest, trying to push him out the way but he held firmly in his spot. “You guys? Not trying to be an emotional guy but, I loved Harry not like a best friend love but brother love. So eh you see, I didn’t want ta kill my brother? I was forced to”
His eyes wrote with sincere, I think I could see them glisten. “So what are you here for?” He moved closer to me, backing me up against a tree. “I know how it feels to lose somebody you love babe, but ya going to get through it believe me….it gets easier”
He hooks his pointer finger under my chin and tilts it up. “So your just hear to give me advice? Like I haven’t already got that before” He stretched out his arm and posts his forearm above my head; giving him support as he leaned closer. “Are you scared of me?” “No” I said quickly. “Do you…like me?” He was vulnerable, like he badly needed for me to say yes. “Yeah I like you….to go to hell” He half smirked at me. “Did Harry like your smart comments?” I shrugged my shoulder. I wonder that myself.
“I like your smart witty comments; I love how you think on your feet. I mean love it was brave of ya to fight against a vampire that one night. Gosh such bravery” I was getting a slight clue of where he was going and I was beyond creeped.
“Do you think I could fill in for Harry?”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I ran quickly into the forest from behind the hospital. I leaned up against the first tree I could find, “How is this possible?” I whispered to myself. I grabbed my chest; it was still tender and sore. I walked further into the woods, I just need to get to Jessica, and I need to tell her I’m here and that she has nothing to worry about.
I threw on my hood and made my way to the next tree, every time I took a step the soreness in my chest spread to my ribs. I grabbed my side now, every time I stopped and felt like I was tilting on the edge of giving up I remembered Jessica. My goal is to get to Jessica, I just want her to know I love her, I just want her to know I’m okay and she don’t have to worry anymore.
Maybe the dagger didn’t puncture my heart; maybe it healed because I’m a fucking zombie. All this what if’s was driving my mind delirious. I came to another tree and quickly hid behind it, I heard voice a couple of steps ahead. I could barely hear, since I was weak and haven’t drunk blood for like a week and a day my immune system was dying. I grabbed another tree closer to the pair; I could make out bits and part of the conversation.
“Don’t…..know us”
“Can’t you see…..”
As bad as this hurt, I took another forward step behind another tree. The conversation was beyond clear and hearable, It was just what I heard is the thing that raged my blood.
“We can get through this grief together love” Niall?
“I just want to get through this alone” No, Jessica?
“Please, will you go out with me? I can be the guy you want me to be, I mean who are you waiting for love? Harry’s not coming back” Guess again!
I quickly peered my head off around the tree. Niall was pressed up against Jess’s body; my teeth were clawing at the surface of my gums. This cunt on my girlfriend? I balled my fist firmly; just how close he was to her body…their fucking body was touching. No Harry this is not the place you can’t show yourself, I wanted Jessica to be alone…obviously this was self-evident.
“Niall James Horan….I don’t want to rip your spinal cord out through your mouth, so just step away from what’s mine”
To Be Continued……
A week as gone by since Harry’s been gone; it’s been a week since my heart shriveled up and fell out of my chest. It’s been nearly two days since I’ve ate and I’m pretty sure I’m dead but alive….a zombie. I’m sitting around like he’s coming back, like he’s going to burst into my room any second and give me a long hug, but no that’s going to happen nor has it happened. So what am I supposed to do with my life? My time was mainly spent on cast away adventures with Harry, and kissing with Harry and talking…with Harry.
Uggghh just the thought of him, makes me want to kill myself just to be with him; I miss him that much. I got up from my bed and walked over to the window, I raised my arm frailly – I was kind of weak from not eating nor barely moving. I pulled back the curtain, oh god! I instantly squinted my eyes, I haven’t seen daylight since…..can’t remember. I pulled up the lever on the window and lift it up. A rush of accelerating air rushed in blowing me in the face, it was refreshing I haven’t been outside for a while.
Hey maybe I should go for a walk, I definitely need to clear my mind. But what if I don’t want to erase Harry? What if I want to stay shacked up in this room of mine and just slowly die alone? I swiped that thought to the far side of my mind and quickly headed for my closet.
@@@@@@@@@@@
I started my way on the sidewalk; I quickly slid in my earphones and turned on a song.
“Every clock is ticking faster, taking trips around the sun”
Another year, another chapter; 5 and 4 and 3 and 2 and 1
Drop your call lose your keys, before the drinks are gone”
I turned my fast paced walking into running, my legs started to work and contract.
“Get yourself out your seat, oh oh, quit your bitchin’ move your
Feet, until the break of dawn, cause nobody gives a damn about the
Day that you were born”
I took a quick turn, going down toward the community park. I could feel my breathing start to get limit and heavy.
“Except for everyone that ruins your birthday
You got to party like it’s not, party like it’s not
This songs for anyone who’s having the worst day
You got to party like it’s not, party like it’s not”
I went down a quick trail through the park and broke down into a path around Fog Lake.
“Party like it’s not; party like – like it’s not your birthday”
I broke off down by the lake, my legs were burning with exhaustion and my lungs were stinging. I took a quick stop by the bench near the lake; I tightly smiled at the people running by. I hate smiling right now, I haven’t smiled since….since, I choked back his name.
I stretched out my burning legs relaxing the tensed muscles; I reach over my head stretching out my arms.
I felt somebody collide into my arm. I took my music out as the person turned to me and said sorry then carried himself on his way. I wonder what Harry would have done if he saw that. I raised my earphone back into place.
“Jessica…” I turned my head both ways; I swore I heard my name. Maybe I’m so used to Harry calling my name; it’s practically stuck in my head. I started walking back down my path towards the end of the walkway. “Jessica…” this time the word was loud enough for me to actually hear. “Hello? Is somebody there?”
I walked a little more towards the boarder of the forest. I looked in between trees and behind bushes but nothing revealed itself. I shrugged my shoulder and continue raising my earphone up to my ear – I turned around and shoved right into a firm body. “Ahh oh gosh” I calmed down my rapid heartbeat then looked up at the person.
“Well love, we meet again eh?” Everything in my body told me to scream and run, but who’s going to hear me? I’m the only one on this path right now plus, how can I out run a vampire?
“Please, you guys got what you wanted so can you just leave me alone?” I pushed my hand up against his chest, trying to push him out the way but he held firmly in his spot. “You guys? Not trying to be an emotional guy but, I loved Harry not like a best friend love but brother love. So eh you see, I didn’t want ta kill my brother? I was forced to”
His eyes wrote with sincere, I think I could see them glisten. “So what are you here for?” He moved closer to me, backing me up against a tree. “I know how it feels to lose somebody you love babe, but ya going to get through it believe me….it gets easier”
He hooks his pointer finger under my chin and tilts it up. “So your just hear to give me advice? Like I haven’t already got that before” He stretched out his arm and posts his forearm above my head; giving him support as he leaned closer. “Are you scared of me?” “No” I said quickly. “Do you…like me?” He was vulnerable, like he badly needed for me to say yes. “Yeah I like you….to go to hell” He half smirked at me. “Did Harry like your smart comments?” I shrugged my shoulder. I wonder that myself.
“I like your smart witty comments; I love how you think on your feet. I mean love it was brave of ya to fight against a vampire that one night. Gosh such bravery” I was getting a slight clue of where he was going and I was beyond creeped.
“Do you think I could fill in for Harry?”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I ran quickly into the forest from behind the hospital. I leaned up against the first tree I could find, “How is this possible?” I whispered to myself. I grabbed my chest; it was still tender and sore. I walked further into the woods, I just need to get to Jessica, and I need to tell her I’m here and that she has nothing to worry about.
I threw on my hood and made my way to the next tree, every time I took a step the soreness in my chest spread to my ribs. I grabbed my side now, every time I stopped and felt like I was tilting on the edge of giving up I remembered Jessica. My goal is to get to Jessica, I just want her to know I love her, I just want her to know I’m okay and she don’t have to worry anymore.
Maybe the dagger didn’t puncture my heart; maybe it healed because I’m a fucking zombie. All this what if’s was driving my mind delirious. I came to another tree and quickly hid behind it, I heard voice a couple of steps ahead. I could barely hear, since I was weak and haven’t drunk blood for like a week and a day my immune system was dying. I grabbed another tree closer to the pair; I could make out bits and part of the conversation.
“Don’t…..know us”
“Can’t you see…..”
As bad as this hurt, I took another forward step behind another tree. The conversation was beyond clear and hearable, It was just what I heard is the thing that raged my blood.
“We can get through this grief together love” Niall?
“I just want to get through this alone” No, Jessica?
“Please, will you go out with me? I can be the guy you want me to be, I mean who are you waiting for love? Harry’s not coming back” Guess again!
I quickly peered my head off around the tree. Niall was pressed up against Jess’s body; my teeth were clawing at the surface of my gums. This cunt on my girlfriend? I balled my fist firmly; just how close he was to her body…their fucking body was touching. No Harry this is not the place you can’t show yourself, I wanted Jessica to be alone…obviously this was self-evident.
“Niall James Horan….I don’t want to rip your spinal cord out through your mouth, so just step away from what’s mine”
To Be Continued……
Notes
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