Falling Hard

I feel a little nervous as we sit in first class on the plane back to Charlotte. I have no idea how the guys will react. This will affect them too, the tours will be different – shorter, I will probably come along on the tours more. I don't know...everything will change. I just hope they wont hate me. I don't want to ruin their lives. I take a deep breath and Harry takes my hand and squeeze it a little. He's pretty calm about all of this, now it's me who's freaking out. How is that?

After we had layed down in bed, talking for a couple of hours, we decided to Skype our parents and tell them. I needed that conversation to be over, I knew my parents wouldn't be too thrilled about it. We decided to start with Harrys mom and she was shocked, her mouth hanging open and my heart kicked hard in my chest. I realized that I don't want her to hate me either. I don't want people to think that I did this on purpose, that I'm trapping Harry with this. I would never want to trap him. Harry handled it so good though. You're going to be a nana, how cool isn't that? He had said to her and that made her smile. I know all she want is Harry to be happy and when she saw his grin, she knew that he was. My parents was a totally different story. My mom cried the whole conversation after we'd told them. They looked sad and it broke my heart. I know they think that I'm too young and should be living a little before settling down and having kids. I ended the call pretty quick, I couldn't deal with their sadness, not now. I also knew that they just needed time to let it sink in, then they were going to be supportive. I would call them when everything has settled in.

We also called Simon, he was of course not as thrilled either, but very professional about it. He planned it all out on the spot, of course with a few details for us to figure out later. But they aren't starting their next tour until july next year, which leaves Harry two months at home with me and the baby before he needs to leave. He's going to figure out the tour dates, tour brakes and every other details later. We told him that it still was early in the pregnancy and we didn't want people to know, we would tell those close to us. And in about two – three months, we could tell the world. That's kind of necessary since I would start to have trouble hiding my stomach by then.

“What are we going to tell them?” I whispered low to Harry, knowing there's other people on the plane. We had spent another night at home before taking the early flight out to Atlanta to change flight to Charlotte. I was leaning my head on his shoulder with out hands still braided.

“That we're happy.” He say and caress my cheek with his free hand. I close my eyes and revel in his touch. To think that I thought I was going to be alone in this, is so strange. I'm so thankful that I have him, he will be an amazing father. It's so odd to think of myself as a mother, I have no idea how I'm going to do it, but I know that together with Harry we will make it work. All I need is him and I will be fine with whatever happens. I raise my head and see his smiling face, he kiss my nose before leaning his head on mine.

The flight wasn't long and we soon got off the plane. Harry had talked to the guys and they were waiting for us at the hotel. He hadn't said much to them and I was wondering what went through their minds. I was so afraid for their reactions that my stomach hurt. As we stepped into the elevator of the hotel I felt faint. My breathing was short and fast as we rode up to the right floor.

“Hey. It's going to be fine.” Harry said, pulling me to a stop as we got out of the elevator, caressing my cheek. I looked into his wonderful eyes and saw only happiness. How he can be so calm I have no idea of.

“Promise?” I whisper before his lips caresses mine.

“Always.” He say as he pull away, smiling at me. He takes my hand and we walk to the room where the others will be waiting.

We walk into the room and all the guys plus the girls is sitting on a couple of couches and chairs talking. They look up at us as we enter, everyone looking a little confused. We sit down on chairs standing so we see everyone from where were sitting.

“Hey guys. I know you're all confused and wondering about the fight.” Harry starts and take my hand, I can't really look at the others, feeling their stares. “It was a misunderstanding. But that's not what we wanted to talk about. We have something we wanted to tell you.” He continues, grinning at me and I return a small smile. We had talked about this and didn't want to beat around the bush, we wanted to be straight forward and just tell them. I looked over at the others, seeing Eleanor's eyes big, searching my hand. I guess she though we'd gotten engage. I felt my cheeks getting warm. Not this time El. Harry took a deep breath and the room was dead quiet. “We're having a baby.” He said and looked at the others. My eyes was locked on his, I didn't dare look at them yet. I heard gasps but no one said anything for a couple of minutes, making me very uncomfortable.

“I guess congratulations are in order.” Liam said, walking up to us. Harry stood up as Liam wrapped his arms around him. “Papa Styles.” He added with a laugh. Eleanor came up to me with a shocked expression and I was kind of scared for her reaction. I stood up as she looked me up and down, making my cheeks flush even more.

“I'm gonna be an auntie?” She said with a huge grin on her face before throwing herself on me laughing. I felt myself relax a little as I returned her hug, wrapping my arms around her back.

“El, get off her! I wanna kiss the mama.” Louis said behind us, making me snicker. I wasn't prepared for this reaction at all. I thought maybe they would be mad or sad or at least a little hesitant. As Eleanor released me Louis wrapped his arms around me, kissing me several times on the cheek, making me blush even further. I was as a tomato as the rest gave me hugs and kisses. Everyone except Danielle who ran out of the room looking destroyed as the excitement calmed down. Everyone looked a little shocked and I looked over at Liam to see what's going on. He looked confused also and was about to go after her.

“I'll go.” I said and he nodded. I walked out of the room and over to their hotel room. I knocked on the door lightly. “Danielle? Are you okey?” I asked hearing sniffles inside. “Honey, please open up, it's just me.” I said, hoping she would open the door. I didn't know why she was so sad but I knew that I needed to talk to her. After a moment I heard the click in the door and it slowly opened up, a teary Danielle stood on the other side. She walked into the room and sat down on the edge of the bed and I followed her, closing the door behind me.

“I'm sorry.” She said between sobs. I sat down beside her, stroking my hand on her back.

“Don't be. Just tell me what's going on.” I said as I continues stroking. I hated seeing her like this, my hormones was a mess and I could feel myself getting teary as she continued crying.

“I'm s-so hap-ppy for you-u, I am... i-it's ju...it's just...” She tried to speak between sobs. She tried to wipe away some tears with the back of her hand. “I g-guess I'm jealous.” She said and looked at me with a apologetic half smile.

“You want a kid?” I asked perplexed. I didn't know this about her, I didn't know they were there in their relationship. She hadn't said anything.

“Not a-any kid... I wanted a s-specific one.” She said and I felt totally confused. What did that mean?

“What do you mean?” I could feel my eyebrows pulled together. I don't know if it was that last couple of days that's made my mind slow or what, but I didn't follow.

“I was pregnant.” She say, looking down at her hands. I feel my mouth drop open. “I l-lost the ba-aby.” She sniffles. I feel the tears stream down my face, damn these hormones. I wrap my arms around Danielle as her sobs get worse. She leans into me and let go.

As her sobs subside and she calms down I pull away and look at her. “I didn't know.” I say apologetic.

“No one did.” She whispers.

“Not even Liam?” I ask shocked. She kept it a secret from him? She shakes her head. I hug her once more. “When was this?” I ask into her hair. She sits up and I take her hand.

“I found out I was pregnant about a month ago and lost the baby two weeks after that. I wanted to tell Liam about the baby when I got pregnant, I was planning on going over here, but then I lost it. I didn't know what to do.” She looks up at me with sad eyes.

“I'm really sorry. And here we come breaking this news.” I say, feeling guilty for my happiness knowing how much pain she has been in.

“No, don't. I'm so happy for you. You two will be amazing parents.” She say giving me a small smile.

“You need to tell him, he needs to know.” I say, stroking her hand. She nods.

“Will you tell him to come in here?” She ask, I nod and kiss her on the cheek before I stand up.

Everyone looks at me as I get into the room, probably seeing my red eyes. Harry looks worried at me, I guess I should get used to that expression since he now will be even more worried about me. He has always been protective, but now it's not only me he needs to take care of. I give them a calming smile. Liam come up to me, looking very confused.

“What's going on? Is everything okey?” He asks worried. I feel kind of bad for him, I think he will takes this hard. I try to give him a smile.

“You should go talk to her.” I say and pats his arm. He nods before heading out the door. Harry comes up to stand beside me, wrapping his arms around my core.

“Everything okey?” He asks, searching my eyes.

“It will be.” I say, smiling up at him, taking a hold of his necklace to pull him down to my lips. His hand rests on my stomach as he pulls back to look at me.

“Aww, you guys are too cute.” Louis say and as I look over, everyone is staring at us, making me blush once more.

“Do you know if it's a boy or a girl?” Niall asks with his goofy grin.

“No, it's not possible to know yet, it's still too early.” I say, snickering.

“And this is on the down-low for now, just so you know.” Harry adds and the others understand. They of all people know about privacy and keeping things for themselves.

As we get back to our hotel room, I run to the bathroom throwing up. Yuk! I hate throwing up, why do I have to do it? Couldn't I've been one of those people who didn't feel sick from their pregnancy?

“I love being pregnant.” I yell out to Harry as I wipe my mouth with some paper. I hear him chuckling in the other room.

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