Harry's P.O.V.
I was laying awake in my hotel room, feeling like shit. Yesterday had been horrible, the show didn't go so good, well I didn't do so good. I was having too much regret and guilt. The lads knew something was up but kept going and making the fans get what they came fore. I kept myself in the background, wishing that I was anywhere but there. I think it's the only time I ever felt like that, not wanting to be on stage. But I couldn't shake that awful feeling of betrayal. I hadn't talked to Sofia since yesterday morning, she had texted during the show to say that she would go to sleep early. I was thankful, not sure if I could pretend that everything was good.

I was tired and not in a good mood when we got into the room where we were going to have another interview. Lou had asked what was up, but I couldn't talk about it, I just waved him off. They knew to keep their distance when I was in this mood. That's what was good with spending this much time with the lads, we knew each others moods and how to work around it. Like now, they took most of the interview, even when someone asked me a question whey would jump in taking over. I was grateful because I didn't feel like this today.

I layed down on my bed, thankful that we finally were finished with todays interviews and had some time for ourself before tonights show. The lads went to play video games, but I needed some time for myself. I was so tired and felt like crying to be honest. I was staring at the ceiling when my phone buzzed, I looked at it and sat right up. It was Sofia, I hadn't talked to her all day. I took a deep breath.

“Hey.” I answered.

“Hi stranger.” She sounded happy, it made me feel even worse. I sat quiet, fiddling with my beanie.

“Are you okey?” She asked now a little worried, knowing my moods even better than the lads.

“Sure.” I said low, not knowing what to say. Should I tell her? I didn't want to hurt her. Fuck!

“What's wrong?” She sounded so warm and sweet, breaking my heart.

“Nothing.” I said short. I knew that I wasn't convincing at all. Maybe I didn't want to be? Maybe I wanted her to know? Ah! I don't know.

“Styles, talk to me.” She ordered, but still with a sweet voice. I loved when she called me by my last name. I sighed loudly, feeling tears threatening.

“I don't know if I can.” I whispered.

“Why not?” She sounded smaller now. I knew that what ever I said I would hurt her, but I really didn't want to.

“I don't want to hurt you.” I confessed, feeling a tear slip down my cheek. I was so tired that I couldn't even keep myself from crying. I felt so emotional right now.

“Just tell me what it is, I can take it.” She said, trying to sound braver than she was, I knew she was afraid right now, probably biting her nails.

“Something happened last night.” I breathed. Not knowing how to proceed.

“Okey?” She said after a while, when I didn't continued. I just had to do it, like ripping off a band-aid.

“You know we have these fan meetings before a show. Well, last night at that I went to the bathroom and when I came out, one of the girls was outside. She pushed me against the wall and stroke me on my...you know, and I got hard... and I don't know what happened...” I breathed, not able to continue. She was quiet for a long time, while my tears was running down my face. How much I hated myself right now. How could I let this happen?

“Did anything happen?” She asked calmly after a while. I felt shock go through my body, how could she be this calm?

“No.”

“You sure?” She still sounded calm.

“Of course. I would never do that to you.” I said honestly.

“Then why are you crying?” She sounded worried again, forcing more tears to come.

“Because she touched me. Because I got a boner.” I whispered. I felt so ashamed. I knew that I had been horny as hell, but to get hard just by someone touching it, was crazy. I didn't even know the girl. It gave me such guilt.

“Babe, it's fine. You didn't do anything, that's what matters. Just remember to do you business before you go to those things, and maybe not be left alone with anyone?” How much I loved this girl, how could she be so cool about it? I still felt horrible about it, but now at least I didn't have to hide it from her, she knew.

“Fuck I love you.” I took a shaky breath, tears still streaming down my face. I think that it's my sleepless nights that is causing this.

“I love you too, you know that.” She say with an comforting voice.

“I miss you so much.” I let everything get out, all my withheld emotions.

“I wish I could be there with you to hold you.” She says with her sweet voice and I lay myself down on the bed, feeling exhausted. “When are you coming to London?” She asks.

“Not until six weeks.” I say depressed, it won't be until then I can see her.

“I will be there, I promise.” She says trying to comfort me.

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Sofia's P.O.V.
I knew that it was hard for him to tell me what had happened, but I was so glad that he had, it showed that I really could trust him. Even though I hated to hear him cry when I couldn't hold him and comfort him in my arms. I had always had a hard time when guys cry, mostly because you knew that it was really bad when they did, not like us girls who could cry for anything. When they cried, it was something real. I was very grateful that it hadn't been too bad, of course I didn't like another girl touching my man, but I'm happy he didn't hide it from me.

I really missed him, it was crazy how empty everything felt without him. Even when something fun or really cheerful happened, I didn't react the way I used to. I mostly kept it inside to let it out when I could tell him, but that could be hours or even days, so the feeling had kind of subsided by then. I had been hanging out a lot with Eleanor and even some with Danielle and Perrie, but they all had their own lives and they were more used to this life. They had other things they did when the guys was away.

I had actually started to go a piano course, just for the fun of it. I had always thought it was a beautiful instrument and had always wanted to be able to play. I had found a course in town and it was with an older woman, very nice lady, and it was going okey. I wasn't a prodigy or anything. But it was a fun distraction.

I was at work, putting up some flashes for a shoot we were having today, when I got an text. I always hoped that it was Harry, my heart beating a little faster. But it wasn't.

From Eleanor
My place tonight, or I'll hunt you down and hurt you. ;)

She was hilarious. I actually hadn't seen her in two days, so a date with her would be great.

To Eleanor
I wouldn't dare not to. :P

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It always felt weird to come to this building when I knew that Harry wasn't here. It's strange how fast you can get use to something and I had gotten used to him being here. I missed his bed, I missed him in his bed. I knocked on Eleanor's door at seven that night, shocked when Danielle opened the door.

“Hii.” She greeted me happily with a drink in her hand.

“Hey. I didn't know you'd be here.” I hugged her close.

“I got an intimidating text from Eleanor.” She said and I laughed.

“You too?” I took off my cardigan since it was pretty warm in the apartment.

“Heeey honey.” Eleanor yelled, jumping towards me with a huge smile on her face.

“Hey you!” I gave her a tight hug.

“We're making cocktails, want one?” She pulled me toward the kitchen area.

“Sure.” I looked at all the ingredients she had on the counter. It looked like she was having a party for a football team. She always overdid things.

I got me a drink and we sat down on the couches, Perrie joined not too long after. It was fun to meet all the girls at once, we hadn't done that since the guys left. We were sitting and talking when Eleanor raised her voice, clinking her glass. She looked like she was having a toast in a wedding.

“Hey girls, I have something that I want to talk to you about.” We all turned to her and gave her our attention. “So I got an idea. I was thinking that we should surprise the guys. They are going to Dublin next week and I was thinking that we should all go. What do you think?” She said with a happy smile, feeling good with herself. I smiled at her, loving the idea. I'd do anything to see Harry right now, I missed him badly.

“Yeah, that sounds fun.” Perrie said, both me and Danielle agreed. “But how do we do it without them knowing?” She added.

“I have actually talked to their team already and their down with it, they will fix so that we can stay with the guys and they got us tickets for the show, so we can watch them from the VIP-section and hopefully surprise them.” She sounded so proud of herself.

“Sounds grate!” I said, feeling thrilled. “When do we book the flight?” I added.

“Now?” She looked around at all of us and we agreed. She took out her computer and booked the tickets. We would go that thursday afternoon and leave on sunday. I started to countdown the days. It would be hard to keep this from Harry but we all promised that we wouldn't tell them, it will not be as fun as to see their surprised expressions. I couldn't wait!

Thankfully Jack didn't have much work booked for that weekend, only a smaller shoot that he said that he could manage without me. I was very thankful. The whole week went so slow and it was difficult every time I talked to Harry not to say anything. I was longing so much after his arms. It was fun that their whole team was in on the surprise and I hoped they could keep their mouth quiet.

We left for Manchester after lunch on thursday to take the plane from there to Dublin. We landed at five, giving us about one hour until the show started. We got picked up by one of the staff who took our bags to the hotel when we got to the arena. We waited in the car until they got up on stage, to be sure that they didn't see us before it. Then their manager came and got us and showed us to the VIP-section. I walked into the huge arena filled with screaming girls, covering my ears. They were loud! I got a couple of earplugs from a staff member and thankfully put them in. Much better. We were pretty close to the stage, but the section we was in was dark, so the guys wouldn't see us here. I saw the guys jumping up and down the stage with excitement, singing one of their most popular songs. I saw Harry on the middle of the stage, singing and flopping his body around, so cute. We all started to dance where we stood watching our boyfriends perform on that huge stage. Harry looked so hot, I couldn't believe that I was this close to him. He looked really good up there on stage. I wish that I could touch him.

After a lot of screaming, whistling and applauses, a new song started.

Been a lot of places
I've been all around the world
Seen a lot of faces
Never knowing where I was
On the horizon
Oh, well, I know, I know, I know
I know the sun will be rising
Back home

On that hint the light in the VIP-section started to shine and Niall who was standing closest to us saw and looked shocked. He shouted to the other guys who all looked our way and I saw Harry from the other side of the stage, he looked like he had seen a ghost. They shouted and wooh-ed but tried to continue the song, everyone noticing that they had gotten distracted. The light over us faded and the guys made there best effort in continue the performance. We girls laughed but continued dancing. When they changed places and Harry was closest to us I felt my heart kick extra beats, he was so close. He was looking only at me from where he stood on stage, I could see that he had trouble to keep himself on stage, not jumping out into the public and up to me.

It was fun to see them live with all their fans screaming at them while they performed. When the last song was playing we walked back out to go backstage and wait for them. I was shaking with excitement when we heard that the song ended.

“Where are they?” We heard Louis ask someone before they showed up around the corner. My heart was beating so fast that I had problem breathing. They ran toward us and Harry threw himself on me, giving me the biggest hug ever. He was wet with sweat, but I didn't care. He smelled wonderful to me and it felt so good to have his arms around me. I nuzzled into his neck, wrapping my arms around his shoulders, never wanting to let go. I heard the others talk and hug each other but we didn't let go. I couldn't and they let us be.

After a few minutes Harry pulled back his head, still keeping my body tight against him, to look into my eyes before he pressed his lips against mine and I felt like an alcoholic that after a couple of week finally got a drink. He held an hand on the back of my head to press me hard against his lips in desperation. I pulled my hands through his hair, forcing him even closer. I couldn't get close enough.

“Uhm, guys?” Louis cleared his throat beside us. Harry broke our lips connection, but left our noses touching.

“What?” He sounded mad for the disruption.

“Well, maybe you should take this in a more private place?” He chuckled, thinking of all the staff being around us. I felt my cheeks getting red as I looked around the room to see all those eyes staring at us. That was embarrassing. Harry took my hand to pull me out of the room with the others as we went to the cars to get us to their hotel. He held me tight the whole ride, kissing my hair now and then.

“How long are you here for?” Louis asked Eleanor from the seat in front of us. I was looking into Harry's eyes and saw the wondering in them too. We actually hadn't said anything to each other since I came, but we didn't really need to, our eyes and bodies said it all.

“Till sunday.” She answered and I saw the smile on Harry's lips widen before he kissed me softly. I had really missed the softness off his lips. I reveled in the feeling.

The elevator ride was excruciatingly slow. We said a quick goodnight to the others before we went into the hotel room. He closed the door behind him and I was standing in the middle of the room, looking at him.

“I can't believe you're here.” He walked over to me wrapping his arms around me.

“Me either, I've missed you so much.” I said as I pulled his head down to mine to connect our lips. He held me in an tight embrace. The kiss god heated fast and I started to pull his T-shirt off and went down to unbuttoning his pants. His hands caressed my legs and moved my dress with them on the way up. As soon as the dress was off, he picked me up and put me down on the bed, hovering over me. His hands was all over my body as we kissed passionately. His lips left mine to kiss my jaw and down to my throat. I let a moan slip out my lips, how good it felt to be with him again.

“God I love to hear that come out of you.” He whispers before he crash his lips onto mine again. My hands was all over him, not getting enough. They intertwined with his hair, pulled down his back, caressing his chest, squeezing his behind. I was in seventh heaven. I bit hard into his shoulder when his hand slipped down my body, caressing my good parts before he slipped a finger inside me. Shit! The feeling was too good. I groaned loud, pulling my nails against his back.

He stood up then, dragging off my panties. I sat up as he pulled down his pants and briefs and smiled when his erection jumped out. I took it in my hands, hearing a deep groan in him. I moved my hands up and down slowly, seeing the goosebumps on his arms. I looked up and his eyes were on me, deep with fiery passion. My breathing got heavier as I looked at him, moving my hands faster. I leaned forward then and saw the happy surprise in his eyes before I kissed the top of his erection. He caught his breath as I took him in my mouth. He put an hand on my head as he closed his eyes, enjoying the treatment. I swirled my tongue around the tip of him, before I sucked hard, making him moan loud. His hand around my head hardened as I started to play with his balls as I sucked, taking him deep in me. He grunted before he pulled back my head, pushing me back on the bed and was hovering over me again. He looked me deep in the eyes before he pressed his lips against mine, tongue not needing an invitation.

Not too long after I heard the ripping of foil and soon the tip of him was at my entrance. He pushed into me with a very slow motion, making me moan every inch on him. It was so good, but so frustratingly slow. I looked up into his eyes and he was smiling down on me, liking to tease me like this. When he had reached bottom he stopped for a while, letting me get use to him. He kissed my lips softly. My heart was beating so quickly and his breathing was fast.

“This is gonna be quick.” He said against my lips and I nodded, feeling the same. He started to move and to move fast. I had missed this feeling so much that it made everything feel so much stronger. I pulled his hair as he moved fast in and out of me, making me moan. Only a couple of minutes later did I feel the familiar pulling sensations in the lower part of my stomach. It was stronger than usual and I couldn't keep quiet, I was practically screaming, it felt so good. When the orgasm came I cried out in pleasure and he continued a couple of trust before grunting and falling on top of me. He kissed my neck while I tried to get my breathing back to normal, I was very out of breath. He rolled over, bringing me with him so I was on top of him and held me tight.

“God I've really missed that.” He said when his breathing had slowed.

“Me too.” I snickered. I nuzzled into his neck, inhaling his lovely scent. “I've missed you.” I say feeling sad all of a sudden, realizing how much I actually had missed him. He wrapped his arms around me, pressing me tight against his body and kissing my forehead. I felt so safe in his embrace.

After a while he pulled off the condom, threw it on the floor and pulled the cover over us when he saw the goosebumps on my arms. It was so cozy laying with him under the cover, it had been so long since the last time we did.

Notes

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